It’s 3am and I’ve been up for 3 hours crying my eyes out again. I’m just so tired and broken. I’m fighting to stay here for my kids . Found out my husband was cheating, I’m pregnant, I have no one. My older daughter has severe autism. I feel like I’m failing at everything. And nobody I talk to understands. The feeling doesn’t go away, it’s always here day and night. I’m fighting myself and trying to stay afloat daily. I just wanna give up. I’m so tired 😪 I don’t have parents to talk to, family will only gossip. I know , no one cares about this. Just needed to get it out

Anyone who crying in 2024 again?

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- Until tomorrow, my friend :

Sleep isn't sleep anymore its just an escape 😢😢😢 Feeling just 💔

They didn’t notice you were crying They didn’t notice you were sad They didn’t notice you were tired They didn’t notice you were alone They didn’t notice how attentive you are They didn’t notice how sweet you are They didn’t notice how you actually try make others smile They did notice you failing They did notice you’re unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all your mistakes They did notice all your flaws They decided you weren’t good for them But you stayed strong You never gave up on hope And never let them take you down And that’s what makes you stronger You aren’t ugly You aren’t mean you aren’t lazy You aren’t a failure You aren’t a mistake You are beautiful You are worth it You deserve everything You are trying You are smart You do deserve to live Amen.

"A single word, 'goodbye,' held the weight of a thousand tears and a million unspoken words."

Here’s a virtual hug for anyone who needs it ❤️

Being depressed is like being color blind and someone is telling you however beautiful the world is. "Hurting someone's feelings is as easy as throwing a rock into the ocean, but do you know how deep that rock goes?"

Tonight i wrote a paraghraph about my mom for a school asignment it was about waht she did for me she adopted me and ig it wassent for her i woudnt be here rn i read her the paragraph and she started crying if i get 10 likes ill update the storry on here and if i get 20 likes ill tell yall rhe story of my adoption (rhis is not my youtube account im loged into my friends account right now)

i’m a 15 year old recovering from drugs i appreciate this the much got me through my sobriety

Every one seeing my comments I wanna say one thing you don’t deserve crying you deserve happiness I wish you’ll the best in life😊

The worst feeling is when you cry alone in your room a noobody is coming to help you

,My first dog died by a car ,My second dog got lost ,My brother died ,My best friend died It's okay guys we were all there :) Let's all keep a same smile

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you

sometimes listening to a sad music really helps us to release the pain of what we are going through .. Crying doesn't mean we're weak .. It is actually helping us to become a better person bcs we don't choose to quit instead we prefer to deal with the pain..😢😊 ❤❤❤

The girl I had a crush on, Has a crush on someone else, we have been dating here and there and even taken a trip together and I thought she was the one. We have so much in common and I mean alot. And here I sit, a fool thinking she's the most beautiful, incredible, mesmerizing girl I have ever met only to find out she doesn't feel the same about me through someone else I found out, I think it was a slip of the tung and now here I sit feeling alone again, I hate this feeling. Anger, sad, a little depressed

I am brocken💔 She didn't love me. She never understood me. She constantly ignores me. And💔 I tolerate that neglect. I want to stay near him. Believe me, she is constantly wandering in my mind. Living without him is very difficult.🙂 SAMI😔

I miss my big sister I am broken 😔😔😭😭💔

to anyone reading this i was there once its okay to cry,we will get through this together

For everyone who reads this, it will be good sometimes it is better but sometimes worse crying is okay but most of all be strong 💪❤️ it will be good (sorry for the mistakes in the text 🙂)

It’s hard for me sometimes to listen to sad music but it always seems to help me in a way in the end❤

I cried until I undertood why I was sad, now I cry because I understand that I cant change it, still life goes on and no one really cared but me, so it wont be a problem.

Life is soo hard to go on, some people think just because someone has something to eat has a place to stay, they are happy and no problems But they dont know how hardly they trying to keepgoing with their emotions every day 😓😓

You can get through it,even when things are extremely bad god is with you forever and he'll find a solution for your problems. God bless you

i found the girl of my dreams, she was nice and pretty and wasn't just nice to me she was nice to everyone so i got her number and talked to her for a month just for her to say that she had a bf even tho she didnt. She just didn't want me so i listen to this music and it helps me stay strong. I just want to say i love you all no matter what your going threw you got this just keep pushing.

One day I hope this feeling of loneliness leaves it's been emotional for the past two years idc who you are someone who did something horribly wrong or someone who's had something horribly wrong done to them you deserve love I hope life gets better for all of us and I know a lot of people think even if they did something so horrible as murder? Yes it doesn't matter who it is we are all human at the end of the day we all do bad things and we all deserve love at the end of the day although it may be difficult to love those who hurt others they are only human

The worst kind of sadness is not being able to explain why, 😐

It’s Christmas Eve and I’m by myself because I grew up in foster care without my biological family 19 years without them 😢💔

It's 1am everynight I sleep late because I'm hurt and nobody knows I am heartbroken 💔 I am struggling because I get ghosted and called ugly at school I am still fighting for god ❤ he made me believe in myself but nobody else did do I will always remember that Jesus died just for us so I'm trying so hard to not hate myself anymore. Jesus Christ is with us for ever I love you ❤

I just lost my boyfriend cause his mom didn't like us being together this Playlist helped so much thank you from the bottom of my heart

I'm actually happy in my life but... seeing the comments 💔 I never knew many people are in pain 😔..I just hope God will intervene for y'all guys..2024wont be the same again

I feel like I'm crazy in front of life 😭😭😭😭

Love ur self don’t let anyone ruin ur day have the best day remember that god is always with u I love ur smile I love ur laugh I love ur personality I love ur hair I love ur eyes I love ur beautiful face I love ur beauty not everyone is perfect everyone is different everyone is beautiful just the was u are love ur self stick with god and Jesus 🙏🏽

Im been crying for so long deep inside Remember this please. Being depressed is being color blinded someone is telling you how beautiful the world is but all you wanted to feel and see is dark and coldness

I cry no more My smile is fake I laugh when im feeling broken Im just going through life

Yesterday asleep one of these songs gave the most beautiful dream i've ever had in 40 years!!! Thank You, I'll hang on it for many years to come.

"Even in the quiet moments, know that you are loved. Your presence matters more than you realize. When things feel heavy, remember you are cherished for just being you. You're not alone; there are people who care. You're a special part of this world, and your existence brings light to others' lives."

I am here again after an year. I healed from depression But now i think it is taking over me again .......i want to perform best un studies and want to be good daughter ..want to proud my parents.....don't know would i be able to do that ..... feeling like heart break ...i dont have anyone to share how much im suffering but seeing people here who are in pain more than me ...i just want to say keep fighting ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

The first song isn’t a heartbroken song, it’s a Christian song…just know God is always by ur side no matter what position your in rn💕

This just reminds me of my uncle he's the reason i cry everyday he passed away in 2020 but i haven't processed it i couldn't go to his funeral because of money issues he passed away on his birthday 😭😫😣😞 just when i was about to send him his birthday message they called me only to hear the news that changed my life that he passed away i ended up going to his unveiling ceremony but still haven't heal i wish i could download this song they just remind of him 😭 im 14 years and i already feel like I'm going through alot a day won't pass without me thinking of him these songs helps me calm down thank you so much ❤

Someone came into my life a year ago...i nvr knew love the way he gave it to me...he left...it wasnt in our control...i cry all the time...i dont kno if we will ever be 2gether...i hope he knows...i love him so n i always will

Sometimes I listen to these sad playlists to actually make me feel something other than numbness sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn’t….this is that time…

😢😢😢 sleep deep ,,, but can’t stop thinking about this Soul am Mad 😢😢

Is anybody else getting Hate from others just for being yourself 😔😔 because I have and it's slowly tearing me apart piece by piece while I try to hide it from others. I don't know how much longer I can hide before it destroys me

I CAN'T STOP CUTTING MYSELF 2 THESE SONGS CAUSE EVERY CUT I MAKE IS 4 EVERY TIME I TRY 2B LOVED I REMEMBER I'M 2 UGLY 2B LOVED💯

the best part was when i realized the first song was a worship song.. god forgive me for broken..

I pray 🙏 I fine peace ☮️ 😢😢😢😢

My life sucks right now and I'm just trying to look for love but they either aren't single or don't like me

mom, can you comehere again in my life , I.m verry miss you because this life so verry bad for me mom

Hopefully those who are sad will feel happy

You took my heart for a ride. I will never forget when we met. It makes it even worse because you said that you wouldn’t ever cheat on me. Well you did. I am drinking a lot more than usually I do. I am sorry for thinking that you could’ve ever love me truly. You broke me apart. I know that you don’t know this but I am getting ready to go home forever. I have the pills ready for when I am at my final point.

To everyone going through a heartbreak or the lose of a loved one or even if you simply suffer from seasonal depression. We are not alone as long as we know there are others hurting just like us and it’s hard to see but it will get better eventually 😢 for now hold strong and try your best to get through the day ❤️

Thank you so much for making this video with helping me feel a lot better from what I am going through

Im so exhausted to cry , im pregnant now he can't take responsibility for what's in my stomach because he says it's not his child, as a mother it hurts me especially to be alone in life and there's no one to help me, I'm tired I can't take it anymore.💔😢

Thank you for creating the playlist it helped me with the pain Ive been through this year. So thank you again. I may not know any one of you but I hope everyone as a good day a lives the life they want

I have been cryin for two days now. My head is all messed up. I feel alone, sad, and everythin. I’m mentally and physically exhausted right now. It all hurts. I scared right now. I’m scared to make friends because I might just push ‘em away. And I’m terrified of relationships. I feel like a mess up.

close your eye ,hold your heart that ur r still strong until now 😊😊

Am heartbroken 💔😭.. I don't even know how I can cool myself 🤧😭😒💔💔💔💔💔💔

Just 4 sleep 😴 am Alone and bored without Her ❤😢😢😢

this playlist helps me cry after bottling it up ❤

these songs is how i feel eveyday even tho i have somebody that makes me happy im still sad 😔😔😔😔

I love hearing those while sleeping bcs I can hear it still and it's very calming

Ever hear somebody tells you that he doesn’t want you in his life? How am I suppose to feel better now.

My sister just died before Christmas and this songs remmind me of her now my life is 100times harder

When I am sad I will listen to this amazing playlist

why is life so hard i hate miself i crie and more but hey i am happy that i have a family

"Hey, pause for a moment, won't you? Life's journey can be a rollercoaster, filled with highs and lows. There are times when the weight of the world feels unbearable, moments when the tears come unbidden. It's in these moments, within the depths of our emotions, that we discover our true strength. You might be carrying burdens that no one else sees. Moments when the smile you wear feels more like a mask than an expression of joy. It's okay to feel that way. Your struggles and tears are not signs of weakness, but symbols of your humanity. Life is a collection of stories, some chapters filled with laughter and others soaked in tears. It's in the contrasts that we find beauty. The sadness you feel doesn't negate the potential for happiness; it magnifies the moments of joy. Amidst the shadows, you are not alone. Even in the darkest of nights, there are stars that shine, offering glimpses of hope. Your presence, your existence-it's a light in someone's life. Your impact, even when hidden to you, is immeasurable. Sometimes, letting the tears flow is an acknowledgment of the battles you've fought, the resilience you've displayed. It's a reminder that you've been strong for too long. Crying isn't a sign of surrender; it's a way of healing and releasing the weight you've carried. You're a mosaic of experiences and emotions, and every piece, even the broken ones, contributes to your unique beauty. It's these complexities that make you who you are. Your scars tell stories of survival, of overcoming, of growth. Your dreams, your aspirations-they're not frivolous. They are the stars guiding you through the night. Hold onto them, for they are the fuel for your journey. I'm here, even if as a mere voice in the void, to remind you that your worth isn't tied to your achievements or your struggles. You're inherently valuable, simply by being you. You're not just okay; you're extraordinary. You're not merely wanted; you're cherished. Your presence in this world is a gift, a beacon of hope and inspiration. So, cry if you must. Let those tears cleanse your soul. And remember, behind every tear, there's a whisper of hope, a promise of a brighter tomorrow. You are stronger than you know. You are loved." ❤❤❤

Everything will be okay guyz ❤❤❤just remember never give up 😊😊😊stay blessed

As a teenager who has spent the last almost 5 years suffering with mental health problems caused by supposed loved ones, i can say that even though it is tough, it does eventually get better. It will never go away, but we learn how to turn something negative into something positive. I'm not saying it's easy, its far from it, but trust me, there is a rainbow after the storm, just be patient, and hang in there ❤❤❤

O my heart.. When will the sadness echo leave you? When will I ever see you happy again?

Thanks for your music it helps me alot

บางทีก็เหนื่อยเหมือนกันนะ พยายามฝืนตัวเอง เก่ง อดทนกับสิ่งที่เกิดขึ้น และยิ้มอย่างฝืน โกหกตัวเองว่าไม่เป็นไร เข้มแข็ง ทั้งๆที่มันจะเหนื่อยกับทุกสิ่ง

Pov: me crying because I have no friends my bff is a backstabber my other friends don't like me and my one friend is dead and everyone hates me💔💔💔💔💔

Hey yea you I am a male that struggles with depression do I let it hold me down....hell no but when it's there I listen to this type of music and workout until I break from pain or I am not so depressed...so in other words fight.....I also struggle with heart problems, smoking/drugs although im better now just fight is all I have to say. When I sent this I was crying in my room alone at 11:45pm

The road we walk on for the sake of love and companion has worn out our shoes because it's to rough. From a distance, the road looked smooth, but it was all a lie a deception to get us to walk on such a road. Now we have walked and walked hoping it will become smooth but now our feet is bleeding should i turn back my skin has already gone torn away by the rough stoney road if i turn back my feet will still be gone and nothing to show so i carry on and on this rough road for the sake of love but the one I'm walking this road for is not there to keep me going but instead they are throwing more stones on the road for me. 😢😢

He looked into her eyes, trying hard to surpass the sob that was about to escape through his throat. He was a very selfish man with a stone-like heart. He didn't want her to experience hell with him. He wanted her to let go... To find happiness else where... "I don't like you anymore." He blurted out, secretly clenching his fists tightly. "I have someone else." "She's better than you." Each word crushed his heart. He felt like dying from heartache. But, unfortunately he didn't have a choice. He wanted her to hate him, to forget him completely and move on with her life like nothing had happened. He was a poor, useless, unworthy man. Totally unworthy for a princess like her. In front of her, he was a mere slave. "Let's break u..." Before he could finish, a soft hand covered his lips. "P-please don't talk..." A soft, trembling voice begged him. The girl's eyes turned red as tears slowly flowed to her rosy cheeks. "You want me to hate you, right?" Her question made him speechless. His dark eyes silently watched her eyes that were filled with tears. Her eyes sparkled even more with her warm tears. "I love you more than life. Hating you means hating myself." Wailing, she tightly hugged his waist, burying her face on his chest, smelling his unique scent. Unlike in the past, he didn't hug her back. Like a robot without emotions, he motionlessly stood in front of her, his body stiffened like a statue. "But I don't love you. Stay away from me." He pushed the girl away and left without looking back. The girl tried to chase after him. Her high heels tripped and she fell to the ground. "Hiss!" She looked at the disappearing figure. He really didn't come back. Did he mean it? Didn't he love her anymore?

Omg this Playlist is amazing... Am I the only one who literally can't find eney good Playlist to sleep to ?

I have depression and this helps a lot. No one truly understands me and I’m only 13. I’ve felt this way since I was 10.

In the day im "happy" always making jokes about others to make myself feel better. I realise now that it doesnt help at all. I do have one friend that doesnt care about himself at all, always puts everyone else first. Even people that are mean to him. He is a real friend, even if he helps bullies. He goes up to me every single day and asks me if im alright and if anythings wrong, but stupid old me keeps lying and hides the fact that im constantly in pain. I dont know what to do. Should I stay alive for myself or for others? Its not like anyone would care anyways. Goodbye, friend.

Im sad my heart its broken 💔 my grandfater deid so the music help me to coming 😢😢

Bon … Je sais que la plupart sont la par dépression amoureuse ou par problème familiale. "La vie, ce n'est pas d'attendre que les orages passent, c'est d'apprendre comment danser sous la pluie." Les épreuves sont des opportunités de croissance, "Ce qui ne me tue pas me rend plus fort." Devenez fort ! Soyez fort de meilleurs jours viendront, les épreuves les plus dures sont données aux personnes les les fortes❤

I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm sick, I'm tired, I feel lonely when I can be happy

ถ้าตายไปผมก็ไม่เสียดาย😔🥀

Everything goes wrong in my life rn , losing the one i love and anything else..

Amazing music I love the music thank you 😊 💜 ❤ 💕 ♥

I don't know why people are so cruel why they judge anybody without thinking and hurt their pride , I'm feeling sorry for what I did.🙂 12:27

Make me more sad now I think like I don't need to live on this world 😢😢

Es ist halb 4 und ich liege halb betrunken im Bett und höre diese playlist Danke man und ich hoffe ihr findet alle euer Glück Ich weiss ihr schafft es Brüder und Schwestern

Been looking for this for an hour now 😢 Needed it for sleep

I really hope you are truly happy, mama. That's all I ever wanted to do for you. My Queen forever and ever.

Remember everyone the the light shines brightest in the dark

Thanks for creating this amazing playlist helps me to cry out everything that I’ve been hiding in

If ya'll just remember being alone is oke the problem is when you are feeling alone.

My heart is broken, I have been laid off from one of the offices, my child still needs sufficient food from my work salary, please help me with your prayers, friends, I feel like I am at the bottom right now. Thank You!

This is My favourite song😢😢😢

Thanks for the music it keeps me going everyday 😢😭😭😭

Im sad as fuck i have 1/4 of my heart left because i lost people who where very very close to me soo im broken as fuck because i just wanna die i can't take it no longer i wanna die as fast as possible 😁👍

I've been needing to get this off my chest and I feel like talking to people close to me doesn't work so what better place then complete strangers on the internet that don't know me and can probably relate to how I'm feeling. For a few years now I've felt like my family has been disappointed in me. Like I was never really apart of my family. I'm nothing like my mothers side of the family and I feel as though I can't relate to them besides two of my cousins that I wish were my brothers. I feel like a complete failure to everyone in my family, I got fired from my first job after only working there for three days I don't have a license and I haven't done anything productive. I mean I am one of the few that graduated high school but even that doesn't feel like enough to make them care to make them see me for who I am. I spend everyday in my room alone and I don't talk to anyone. I've taken up vaping as a cry for attention I guess, I just want them to notice me for the person I am and not the person they think I am. I know it's not a smart way of doing it but it's the only way I can think of. I feel so isolated from them. I've tried so hard for them to just be proud of me for who I am but it hasn't worked, I don't know what to do. I'll be 18 in a few months and that scares me because I don't know what I'm going to do as an adult. I don't know if I'll be kicked out or if they will finally be done with me. I just don't know what to do and I'm scared. I really needed to get this off my chest so thank you for reading if you took the time to.

AKO NA WALANG TULOG KAKAIYAK 😭 KAHIT ANONG PILIT KONG IPIKIT MGA MATA KO, KUSANG TUMUTULO 😭💔 ANG BIGAT NG PAKIRAMDAM KO 😭 ANG SAKIT NG PUSO KO 😭💔💔💔

My parents always told me never to trust anyone on the Internet or make friends online, but now, i feel like, the ones on the Internet, are there for me, more than my own family..