I can totally one hundred percent relate. I'm there. I feel like i'm always there. Listen to his take away message! Even if you don't think it's going to feel GOOD, KEEP GOING! It's a true case of bring the bodyand the mind will follow. I hope you make it

@@lincolnparc8897 agree, went on solo trips even when they made me feel empty. Now looking back it really does give me joy that i did them regardless of how i felt at the time.

Even when you’re in the pit, there are still things that motivate you. The thing you might be missing is anticipation. If you want something and instantly get it, you short circuit the neural circuits that make motivation work in the first place. You need to build up desire. Today, if you want a burger, you don’t have to wait a week for it. But you can choose to. Don’t just put it on your calendar for next week and forget about it. Spend time every day thinking about the best burger you ever had, how the sesame seed bun was slightly toasted, the tomatoes actually tasted like tomatoes, the nice thick piece of sharp cheddar, the crunch of the pickle, the smell of freshly ground black pepper… whatever your version of that story is, tell it to yourself, slowly, a few times every day. Build the anticipation for a week or two, go to a good burger joint, with a friend if you can, and see what happens.

I'm there too

I feel the same way 😭

Yes, seeing therapists, the gratitude journal pops up all too many times.

Thank you, Jeanette- In my upcoming rewrite, What is Good Evidence? I suggest that acknowledging real "happenings" that are big or small, LEAD to gratitude. There's a chapter: FIRST Good Evidence, and THEN Gratitude. It's less work!! xoxo C

Gratitude never registers for me, your mileage may vary. It's like, "Hey, we put you in this world and lit you on fire, aren't you thankful we made the fire a little cooler?" F that. Life IS burning and I wish the burning to stop.

How do you know that people don't understand the appreciation piece.

Even if you don't squeal with delight in gratitude, it seems important to intellectually be aware of what is there to be grateful for. I agree it is NOT a moral failing, and is part of the disease of depression. I'm glad you choose to swim instead of sinking. Sometimes I have to wear those little floaties to keep going, but it seems worth the effort in the long run...or swim! LOL

I truly relate to that! When people say such phrases as "You have your memories " I just smile mournfully and shake my head. I'm 73 and to an onlooker it's great.

@@nicolavowles2930 I feel your pain. Our lives have passed us by. Now I’m trying to figure how to meet new people, but there is no way. I live out in the jungle in a foreign country, can barely communicate in their language. No transportation. It’s peaceful. It’s beautiful, but since COVID, everyone quit socializing.

I'm 60 and can so relate. I will die alone and leave a very sad story

Keep it that way if you remember it your be in psychosis

In my 40s...and I remember...remember how disappointing my past and everything was for always being g alone and doing thi gs alone...the disappointment of rushing into a loveless marriage where the I lost one child, two if I count my stepdaughter I loved like my reL one I lost and she was Brainwashed to thi k I was bad...and I have raised my autistic son completely on my own and feel like a failure with him cause he's just like me addicted to games... Thought I was doing so good by praying more and reading my Bible everyday, but today I'm just so unmotivated

You stick with it then. Like you animals bring me peace as well.

Humanity isn't my thing, either. I wasn't sent here to BE one of you... I came to *enlighten* some rare, specific souls, and then be on my way elsewhere. Reflection is key. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨

Me, too. I'm okay with it, finally. Adding someone else will make it worse, for me. Time has proven this to be true. Not willing to try, anymore.

I am exactly the same. I wonder if this is healthy as I am not sure If I might be depressed and that's why I am OK being this way or am I perfectly fine. I have been very outgoing and social for most of my life. But about 3 years ago it all changed. If I would not have my dog, I would not even leave my apartment anymore. Friends I talk to on the phone once in a while, but I don't get out of my way to see them. Could that be menopause? I am 49 now. Also lost any interest in dating. But again, I feel like it does not bother me. I am confused.

Im not ok, and my soul is still intact more or less. But I'm not oke that you're not oke, although I respect your decision if it was. I pray God will restore our souls and put it in its own righteous place and become untouchability

hello sorry to hear about your cats one of mine passed away due to cancer he was 12 the other is 11 it's been 10 weeks and i have cried everyday cos i miss him so much i can't image what you are going through but You have to try to hang on when Despair has its claws inside your Soul it's impossible to think or function i do hope you have friends and family to talk to or try to get Counselling for your grief i wish i could do more but be Strong and talk to someone i do hope you get better big hugs

I've been there, still haven't found my way back. Are you taking any anti depressant medications? If not you need to see your doctor. If you can get sick pay you need to take 6 months off work to evaluate your life and try to find a new job. I'm off work over a year now after a disastrous 2022 when I tried to change meds and the new drug did not work at all. I just kept getting worse and Ended up in hospital for ten weeks. It was hell. Still struggling with anhedonia but think I may be seeing some improvement. I've decided I'm not going back to my job. Still not sure what I'm going to do but I'm taking my time. I hope you can find a way to bring happiness back to your life.

@SDsearcher, very sorry for the losses of your beloved cats. I understand about leaving a job I loved for one that I dispise (I had to leave the good job because they didn't allow employees to live in some US states, due to tax reasons). I am only 6 months in, but I am spiraling downward pretty quickly, and not even caring how my work performance is. I don't have too much to offer, other than to say that you brought interest by the employers you interviewed with, even if you did not get the job. Getting the interview is a huge hurdle, so hopefully you can accelerate that thought as positive thoughts and continue with interviewing. Sounds like a better job would do a lot to improve how you feel. We're rooting for you!! Good luck!!

Hello, I read your comment the other day and it hit home. I don't have many words of consolation but I do understand, since I am going through something similar. The difference is I really used to love my job and then due to poor management it turned into a sh!thole and now I work longer hours while being less paid. Worst of all, I don't see the results of my work due to these ''innovative techniques and ideas'' that the management thought of. As for your cats...I am so sorry. There is NOTHING that can compare to the pain of losing our animal family. I lost my dog in May. I still cry every day. Sometimes I scream and curse (when I'm alone) . I was listening to a psychiatrist explain why does the loss of our animal family hurt so much. She said that the bond we create with our pets emulates the bond we have (or should have) with our parents/ caregivers within the first year of our lives when we are loved unconditionally whether we are cranky, crying, soiled, sick or whatever. Later on this bond btw caregiver and a child becomes, weather we like to admit it or not, fairly conditional on both sides. So we spend our whole lives searching for a bond / love like that and the closest thing that comes to it is the bond with our pets.So when they die that love is forcibly being taken away from us. And in my case, it was the first time in my life I felt that unconditional love. She took care of me I think, more than I took care of her. When I lost her,I lost both a mother and a child and a best friend (Friend was actually her name). And IMO it is even more difficult than losing a human family member due to lack of support. ''Oh come on it's just a cat/dog/bird/rabbit...buy another one. It's not normal to cry like this over an animal. You know there are people who lose children, you are lucky. Get over it, it's stupid. She is a crazy cat lady, that is why she is alone. You know his dog slept on his bed? Eww that is sick.'' Nobody would say this about a human so we tend to ''downplay'' our pain which makes it worse. So that is why I cry,cry,cry whenever I feel like crying. Nothing brings me joy and I am angry most of the time. The only time I DO feel alive is when I help stray animals, and there are a lot of them in my country, unfortunately.I feed them, build homes, neuter them, treat them for diseases and I do my best to find them a home. The flip-side is that often times I see them suffer, hurt and die (mostly by the hands of people) which makes it worse for my emotional well-being but I cannot stop, I will not stop. I have always helped homeless animals and I adopted a few of them. But when my Friend died I unconsciously made a promise to her and to myself that I will always do what I can. If there is an animal shelter near you, go there when you can. I'm not saying adopt another cat, just visit. Help, bring food, treats or just spend time with the animals. If it's once a month, it's once a month. It means a world to them. And to us as well.

Loss of our pets is a deep grief. My comfort was that my boyoh still exists. Still loves me. I will see him again. That bright spirit in a jack russell coat... We love them and are loved, and love never dies. But not having that bodily comfort here is a great loss. I hope you come back to life, and that your circumstances resolve and improve.

@mayzienicholson9059 i am glad you can go to Work, i cant go out..😏🙏

@stellaancimer8505 Oh honey, I'm honestly feeling for you no matter where you are in the world, I wish you well.

@@mayzienicholson9059 same for you 🙏🙏

Reflection is rough. It's extraordinarily difficult for people to accept that absolutely everything they do will--without exception--become utterly meaningless and forgotten in 60-120 years (if not less). Think about it; unless you're Elon, XiXiPi, Heetlar, Stahleen, Chump, Harrison Ford, Didnay or Oprah... nothing you've done will be remembered in a dozen decades. Guaranteed! It is what it is. Acceptance is key. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨

you say im nothing but everything you truly want you already are

I was searching for this comment 😅

Are there any nutrition-based solutions?

😮me, too! Unless a person has (esp Hyperacusis) they will not, cannot ever understand!

Yes! Add yams daily & lay off sugar, esp at night. The Army released yrs of studies on Tinnitus & Hyperacusis. Huge difference was the consumption of sweet potatoes!

Hugs.❤

@@tnt01 Thank you! Same to you! ☮️❤️

@@Coffeecup.0110 always remember, your son wants you to live in happiness. He does not want you to be sad. Take care.

@@tnt01 thank you. You’re right.

I too have experienced the loss of a son to suicide. It has been 6+ years. Each year has brought a new/different layer to the grief. Understanding my emotions and the process of living with all that his suicide has created in my life (and the lives of his siblings and friends), has been a journey of considering new perspectives regarding this type of loss. My warmest wishes to you - from one mother to another - as we give ourselves the gift of allowing our feelings of indescribable sadness as well as allowing moments of happiness...new ways of understanding and welcoming our ever-changing emotions. For me, learning a new way to communicate with my son has been a welcome relief. XOX

You are doing well.

That’s good how did you managed to heal? I have been suffering from anhedonia and pain in my head for the last 2 years and no antidepressant seems to cure it

I don’t really want to live with the discomfort

That's great .... Hope everything continues to improve....✨✨✨🙏🏻

You must very good looking since you have had various long term romantic relationships during such a time. It’s great your living more 😅

I promise I will. It’s so under represented on here ❤️

@@DrScottEilers Exactly... and it's much needed.. by me at least. It's really hard to push through by will alone. Ain't sustainable.

​@@Shan-ug9nqagreed.

​@@DrScottEilers💯

yep

Me too! I keep thinking "What am I waiting for? "

We all know what we're waiting for....

Reflect, sentient one. Recite the hex of final vows. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨

Reading this comment makes me so genuinely happy:) I'm so glad that you were able to get out of that phase and find stability and joy and god knows how hard that can be. What makes me the gladest (is that a word?) is to think that now, if harder times were to come again, you have the tools within yourself to find your joy and stability and it's the most important thing in the world.

This is the most heartwarming and inspiring story I've read in a while. I hope you will take the time to write this up and send it to BTS. They'll probably never read it, but if they do, I'm sure it would mean a lot to them to know how far their music has reached.

@kikijewell2967 Oh, I hadn't thought of that. Good idea. Thanks

​@@conniepowell2013you wrote such a creative response to that awful state of no pleasure, no depth of feeling, and thar frustrating lack of tears! I am so impressed, and thankful for your contagious hope, and courage. Your comment on a youtube thread can change lives for the better. I am very grateful to have read it and "met" you : )

@@lisasommerlad1337 Thank you. May God bless you and give you peace.

Cry. Trying not to cry buggers everything up. Crying is so necessary. I hope you can have some more good, big cries!

I didn’t know it was a thing until today either. My brother is always saying to learn something new every day. I think this qualifies. Who knew I could learn about myself from UKposts?

I have ezxperienced tbis recently but I did not know the namd.until the nurse mentioned it.

I totally relate. I have stopped doing things because nothing is fun or good. It's 5 am and I'm not glad I woke up.

You are broken somehow. We are.

Sending positive thoughts. From another 50-something year old who had dealt with crippling depression and anxiety since age 20. Be well!

I'm in the same boat! Sending you guys lots of love ❤

I’m 54 as well. Never really put the depression label on myself. Just thought this is me. But now realizing I’ve been depressed for decades.

There is a book? Name please.

@@JennyLory Also in my 50s, dealing with anhedonia. Did/has anything helped you return to the world of emotions?

Oddly enough that's not the case. Being in an anechoic chamber is actually a bit physically uncomfortable. The absolute silence feels like there is a pressure on your ears, talking aloud your brain doesn't get the expected environment noise, usually they also use black foam so it's very dim. I've used one for research and it's a necessary evil in the sense I don't look forward to going inside

That's what I was thinking. Where is this and how can I visit?

Feeling nothing is not better. I've been where you are and I'll take what you have over feeling nothing.

@@dk6173 idont know - Idont know how it would be to simply feel nothing. being autistic I feel everything at a level I cant even describe. it would be nice to be numb.

It is normal to feel this emotions

No you don’t trust me.

@@brandonbennett84 do you take meds?

I’m so glad this helped !

“Just don’t think about the bad stuff” like, does that therapist even know what PTSD is?! I don’t really get a choice about thinking of the bad things 😂🙌🏻

​@@OpalLeigh👏👏👏👏

Try doing it with health problems. Makes worse have try hard to do simple things. And covid don't help everything feels scary doing therapy I'm still trying but feel like a freak ugh

Amazing isn't he? My first visit and definitely not my last. He just makes sense

There is no healing.

When I was 13 my Mother was killed. My Dad went into a deep hole. I have never felt happiness or love. I also isolate and don't want to get close to anyone for fear of the pain of losing them. I've been on Every Antidepressant there ever was. No help. Been to 100 therapists. One of them when I was telling one lady about the experiences of my life. Her eyes got as big as Saucers, and her face was frozen in horror. She kept saying Ohhhh, and Oohhh I knew that She Could Never help me.

@@julieyoung3315 😥

@@julieyoung3315 I am so sorry for what You've been through. Really wish You would find the doctor/antidepressant that gives You some relief.

Thanks for giving a name to the thing I'll have to talk to a therapist about, when I can eventually afford one. That's exactly how I'd describe the feeling... I want to enjoy, and be grateful, for the life I have, but when so much you treasured is ripped away from you, one right after another, the heart can just say, "No, I've had enough, I don't care anymore if it gets better or worse, because they'd both just hurt now..." And then it just never came out of that, I'm still sitting there alone under that cold Hunter's Moon 17 years later. But at least now I can give that brokenness a name.

Yes, me too

Yes, this is me.

Me too. Nobody understands.

Me too!

I know this sounds crazy, but try the carnivore diet. I've been on it for 2 months, muscle and joint pain has vastly diminished and some joy and hopefulness is coming back. I too was near bedridden and estranged from adult children. The estrangement was killing me faster than the physical problems but now with the improvements in my physical decline, I at least feel ready to make new friends and not ruminate on missing my children.

I understand I am scared from this

Same. Stay strong you're doing all the right things. 🙏

Same. ❤

same

Same 💜

I've been thinking of visiting Canada for MAID if/when my family's history of illness catches up with me. I don't even want to go into treatment provided the need for it to survive.

Thank you!!

what's the award for? the simple fact you care about losing is a positive sign from where Im sitting...well laying. Shows you still care about something & value your self-worth x

I’m trying to get there! ❤

Medication has been so important to my evolution... an antidepressant? .. been thinking of getting on some since my wife of 13 yrs passed 8 1 23 of cervix cancer so sudden :( i used to be fine but cant get out of the funk- i can if i can sleep well but i dont

@@beatleme2 you can do this. You are worth fighting for. One thing I have learned is to never give up on yourself no matter what’s going on. Right now I am dealing with a ton of family situations that would take any normal person down. I won’t let this happen to me because I love me and I am so worth it.

@@licksnkicks1166 😇 thank you

Bad neighbors are a special kind of hell

@@DrScottEilers they certainly are!!

​@@DrScottEilersyeah have been there !

I know I would be here without the meds. Yes, they may have changed my brain too, but to be honest it think the depression will do that anyway. I wish I could go back to a time when I did not need these drugs but last year proved to me that I cannot survives without them now.

​​@@wingnut71i stopped using anti depressants because they didint improve my life at all. If you stop first week is hell even worse than severe depression normally but after that i felt same than using meds i dont know if that is case for others but that is my experience i personally think that there are no point taking anti depressants if they give you zero benefit

Yeah they changed my brain too so that now I cannot function without zoloft.

​@@grammyrosethompson650could you function before Zoloft?

I'm sorry anyone gets suckered into anti depressants. Our forced lifestyle is not for our health. People have lived for countless generations without them

Same. I can barely drag myself to work but I need it to survive and pay bills, so I cut everything and everyone out of my life to preserve my energy expenditure

This sounds so much like me and my situation. Just work to pay the bills with no feeling that it is really important. Same for the last 20+ years.

My ADHD that was diagnosed at 61, along with having chronic stress and depression, that I've had as long as I can remember, is so debilitating that I try to do nothing. The stress of getting ready, having everything I need to leave the house is overwhelming, something always gets messed up. I forget, I misplace, I don't remember where, when, it's so frustrating and exhausting, that I just want to stop having any responsibilities. Sounds like a cop out, I guess it is. I'm so tired all the time, like walking through mud. Even right now while writing this my guts are in a ball of pain, never goes away. Been on meds since my 20's. My Children, Grandchildren and a couple of cats that I rescued are the only reason I'm here.

@Mbonika: Your positive traits you mentioned bring ppl happiness more than you will ever know. It sounds like you light up the room & thats beautiful. It takes a strong, courageous & selfless person to do this considering the mental state your in. I have similar traits & I discovered that the kindness and compassion is never reciprocated. I'm 36 & have never met 1 person who is willing to brighten my day, or put any effort in as I do. I believe 💯 that the lack of acknowledgement from peers, coworkers, bosses, family & more along with an emotionally abusive relationship is absolutely the cause for the Anhedonia. We're exhausted emotionally & physically. I haven't left my bed for weeks. I'm so sorry your feeling this way. I know easier said than done, but be strong. Try to do something, anything that gives you even just the tiniest bit of feeling & remember that there are great people out there that can provide you the support you need. I know thats scary because youve been let down so much but theres 7 billion ppl on this planet and most ppl are good. Don't give up. You still have chapters to complete & rooms to brighten. Ppl will always remember how you made them feel. You're special and rare. ❤

I have just found this guy. Waal. I’m not alone, I truely thought my condition was unique 😢

I’m new here too, and it really does help to find any form of community, even online.

I’m so glad to hear that!

I want to ask a question as someone that is suffering from Anhedonia.. do you have any gifts or ability's. Empath, energy sensitive, Intuitive, clairvoyant, hsp highly sensitive person or Geo Sensitive meaning you get headaches from Enviromental changes storms ect. solar sensitive meaning some days being in the sun hurts your eyes.

The world is evil.

This is exactly correct! I talk about this in my other videos on Anhedonia as looking for the loopholes and running experiments. You clearly understand the concept already, but it might also be worth looking into the research on “learned helplessness.” It’s what you’re describing with the elephants but in a scientific context ❤️

I want to ask a question as someone that is suffering from Anhedonia.. do you have any gifts or ability's. Empath, energy sensitive, Intuitive, clairvoyant, hsp highly sensitive person or Geo Sensitive meaning you get headaches from Enviromental changes storms ect. solar sensitive meaning some days being in the sun hurts your eyes.

You made the mistake of showing loyalty to your employer. Never do this. They will drop you without a thought the very second they think they can make more money another way because many business owners are psychopaths. According to most estimates 30% of the global population falls within the spectrum of psychopathy. I know that sounds high but we are talking about the complete spectrum. Psychopathy mostly manifests as the inability for a person to be able to feel empathy or compassion for others. Because of this, they are unable to self soothe their anxiety and fear the way the rest of the global population can by merely pleasantly interacting with other people. Instead, they feel the need to control people and resources around them, which offers them a false sense of security. Which political party in your country do you suppose psychopaths would gravitate to? Given these character traits, do we suppose that exploitation would serve Psychopaths better than anyone else? Given the behaviors of Getty, Edison and Hearst along with other robber barons of the past and billionaires now, would it be too much of a stretch to think that psychopaths are overly represented within the controlling class on the planet? Psychopathy is a mental illness that poses a danger to others and even the psychopaths themselves. Would it make sense to allow mentally ill people to control resources and power within a civilization? It's time for good people to take everything back.

I was so sad to read your comment. Did you ever speak to a lawyer? Your employer and the state should not be allowed to get away with this! God bless and keep you.

@@jeanienapier6566 thank you for your concern. I did hire a lawyer but in my state, you don’t get to take them to court, you are forced before a state arbitration board. The members of this board are all executives from the insurance companies and nearly always deny a claim. Horror stories abound where people are totally disabled at work and are denied claims then end up on the street. My lawyer settled for a paltry sum that was gone when I paid for the first surgery I had to have. The lawyer automatically got a third of what ever the settlement was. It has been five years and last winter I finally got my back surgery so now I am finally able to do things again. Fortunately, I inherited a small piece of land that I live on so I am not homeless. When I look at the three trillion dollar tax break that the billionaires and corporations got under Trump, I just shake my head and wonder WTF. Thank you for your kind words.

​@jeanienapier6566 I went through something similar. Sadly, if you live in a right to work state like Indiana, your employer can dismiss you without outright firing you, and take a few back channels to make sure you don't get comped. All they have to say is "You can't prove it." And that's pretty much it.

@@jeanienapier6566 sorry I didn’t see your reply earlier. I sued and won but in this state lawsuits do not go to court but are forced in front of an arbitration board made up of insurance company executives. They determine the out come and judgment. My case was irrefutable but for the judgment, I got barely enough money to pay for the first surgery and carried the rest on my own. Basically, the deck is stacked against the injured worker and for the insurance companies and employers. Thank for replying.

Skiing used to be a sport for everybody and was a good activity to meet people and have fun. Now skiing is too expensive for all but the rich as a day ticket runs anywhere from$125 to $250 a day and now it seems like all you meet are self centered narcissists and their brats. I don’t blame you for giving it up.

Thanks for watching! Hope I can help a little!

May God bless you through your difficulty and give you peace. I'm 77 and just posted something on here. It's hard to be older and really hard when you don't have a supportive spouse. My kids and grandkids are the reason I keep plugging along. Hope you can find something for yourself that can bring at least some amount of joy into your life. I have good days and bad days but I'm making time now to do what I need for myself. We can't be present for our kids and grandkids unless we allow time to care for ourselves first.

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Thanks for writing about your experience, everything you wrote is understandable. Good, you've noticed a lot. Now be kind, caring and extra sweet with yourself like you'd behave with another. I know, look who's talking..! I've came to certain realizations (every day there are others, thinking much!) thinking I must hate myself for not taking better care of me, especially this time. I'm so confused of myself as a person and then the traumas and grief and realizing some more things and remembering horrible events and suppressed feelings smack me whack. I'm trying to make sense of things instead of living. I'm in denial and forgot so much and my to go coping one of them is to "make myself numb" if it isn't happening by itself. The hurt and grief I feel like I can't take, some things are meant to hurt I'm trying to learn how to feel and allow it. I've been so scared and hurt, I don't feel like continuing. So I barely am alive, I know it's temporary so I push through while I regroup and give myself grace and permission to exist and enjoy life's beautiful moments with nature and animals. Take care ☝🏽🌌💖💫

There are a few things you can do to help yourself and take some of the pressure off. Don't judge yourself or feel guilty for depression. Depression comes w/ free floating guilt. It's a symptom, but at I did find a way to not let myself give in to the guilt or believe I deserved, and the guilt at least stopped. When it tries to come back, which is more rare now, it's that much easier to push away very quickly, because I've trained myself to refuse to believe it. This is a heavy illness and I'm not going to make it any worse by feeling guilty I have it. I was able to reason if I had heart disease or diabetes, I wouldn't feel guilty for that. The other thing is to practice gratitude for all sorts of little things that we tend to take for granted. I've somewhat disabled, but I had a friend who was in a fire, and the extent of her disabilities was off the charts. it made me see all the things I can do that she couldn't that I took for granted. She needed home support just to bath, and she would be breathless just walking to another room. She needed walker to go out in her car. She just passed away, but she was my mascot to teach me grace in suffering, and she trusted God for every move she made.

@@saintejeannedarc9460 "Don't judge yourself or feel guilty for depression" But you should feel quilty for what you are eating, because it is causing your depression in the first place - sugar and other plant nonsense (especially vegetables high in oxalates such as spinach or almonds) and the lack of red meat and animal fat are the primary causes of depression....

@@btudrus That is not science my friend. Not by a long shot.

You are describing anxiety. Anhedonia is a blackout of feeling.

Anhedonia is not a blackout of feeling, listen to the Doctor again. You misunderstood. @@SirenaSpades

You are so welcome!

Have you ever had your hormone levels checked? I'm not sure what your financial situation is, but turmeric can work for some people. Plus, there's a research peptide called bpc 157 that could do wonders to help with the pain and healing process. I've been where you are. Things can get better, but only you can make that happen.

From the bible, to the tibetan book of the dead, if you want to choose to live in hell, well enjoy. If you don't want to live in hell then do something about it.

It’s making me drink alcohol because I’m trying to soothe the burning and anhedonia and hoping it will give me back my pleasure

I cant live with the burning ache anymore . I’m in too much discomfort. Please will someone help me find a cure it is life threatening . I keep drinking because of the anhedonia and discomfort

I will die of alcohol poisoning if I don’t get the pleasure back . I cant live without it

I don’t want to live if my quality of life is zero . It feels like a very cruel and nasty punishment

I don’t want to live without sex without pleasure without love. I cant do it anymore

Yep I know that feeling. I used to think maybe I was a replicant from Blade Runner, a cyborg given human memories to trick it into thinking it was real ❤️

I really appreciate this ❤️

Well said!

I really appreciate you saying that. I hope it helps a little ❤️

Now I feel motivated to learn to play the guitar! Thank you 😊

@@jeanienapier6566 Learning to play an instrument can be a great way of increasing self-esteem too. Start very simple and don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Remember….this is just for you.