Agreed. :(

Ser Vin would've gotten along, yes. but for me, I was diagnosed at age 9, my biggest fear was being send to a school like that. I just wanted to be normal, do a high level of education. (helps that it has more serious people, so it's calmer) it isn't the only type if people you'll meet, I've been bullied from second to 8th grade, in 9th &10th occasionally, by one of the 2 other autistic girls in my year. I go to the level of others easily, for better or worse. I actually now as a 15-16 year old i came out of the bullying stronger. I can 100% say I don't care that I'm different, that I'm not normal and what people think of me. it made me stronger. in primary school I had some great friends. with one I grew away, another one became a bitch in 6th grade, and one I'm still friends with. now I have some great friends, one is autistic, the other ones are just weird, and amazing, but don't have autism at all.

I hate myself because I am not the same as who I used to be no more. I was very blinded with what I couldn't see.... reality... fucked up reality. No one really cares about me. No one. Everyday when I wake up, I ask myself, why am I here in this fucked up society? I'm always the second choice, oh and time to put on my fake smile. Then I would usually overthink so much it kills me. I feel pressure and I think i need to fit in but I know deep down inside me that i'll never be good enough. Not even for my fiancee, I'm not doing great, I hate that I have nothing to say and everytime when I talk to people, they just don't listen to me, they don't even give a fuck. I pretend to not give a fuck because I don't want anyone to think that I'm sensitive but tell you what, I AM SENSITIVE, I am tired of being the second choice, I've been depressed for about 1 year 6 months 5 days 18 hours and 33 minutes I have high functioning autism and I know how depression is like, I am a terrible communicator. no one needs me. :C I ruin everything and everyone's lives. I'm a waste of space and mass.

I can mostly relate to what you're saying and I wouldn't mind talking to you if you really want someone else to talk to.

Same here for me. I've nearly killed myself so many times, self harmed, starved myself, was in abusive relationships, failed at school, have depression & anxiety, been abused..... you name it and I've experienced it. If only someone had of noticed before I was 13 and my life would of been wondrous

My mom did the same thing , didn’t give up on me. Thanks mom

Doctors can be so arrogant sometimes

Love you girl

Yes and no

Yea:)

If you ever need to talk, I’m here for you…

❤👊💪♥️

How did you find your way? I'm struggling.

@@marlenadm5654 you absolutely can! i didn’t realise it was possible until i started at my college.

girlsrule001 Me too!

I agree even better a care home similar to the elders care homes I would love it most if doctors , nurse and workers would be extremely nice and caring like parents who understands and worked with children with autism or other special needs and mental health and illnesses

Absolutly. With dogs near a forrst. It is perfect.

I know, I’m on the spectrum and I really struggle with the school I’m at right now. I wish I was at a place like this where people can understand more, understand why I’m having these thoughts, interests and why I keep getting anxious all the time.

No it would not. I went to a girls' school and it was boring without boys.

The Lynn Diaries so would I

Me too

I wouldn't have to put on a facade at a school like this. I could be me.

Same

@@Lynn-ip9sh hey I go to this place

Stay strong, I understand how shitty it is in public schools cause I attended one. It's hell for people like us who are autistic. Luckily I knew about it when I was 4 but I still struggled loads, hiding it was so hard cause all I wanted to do was be myself. I found myself often letting my behavior slip through and feel embarrassed about it. I've left school now and it's awesome, you don't have to suffer much longer if you are 14. Only around 1 more year I assume and you can leave, I know it's difficult but you can get through it.

Pompeii - Catf33t never let people take you down. God made you who you are and therefore you are beautiful

How old are you if your around my age I wanna be friends

Poor Sweetheart. I am sorry, but it is the same for all women. They don't make it easy on us. You must hang in there and keep making goals. You only need to do one important thing a day to move yourself forward. Make a list.

I’m seeing this 2 years later and realising how similar I was. I used to have panic attacks EVERYDAY and I remember not being able to breathe and getting light headed. I remember self harming and thinking of suicide. I don’t like being touched, loud noises terrify me, etc. The signs where there but I hid them. I thought it was just things I’ve gained from past experiences. It wasn’t and I realise that now.

Its pathetic

Even for boys with mild autism. Maybe it's changing now, but as an undiagnosed 26 year old I think the School's I went didn't do an adequate job of testing my for any learning disabilities and never looked into why I was so anxious but kind of blamed me for being anxious.

Right, Asperger's was put into the DSM in 1987. Why has it taken this long for us to get a diagnosis!

Same. On the one hand I want to be who I am/was before I got bullied. But on the other hand, I hate how I feel when I act autistic because I’m scared that people hate me even if they don’t say it to my face.

@@mrmemory3.14 what do you mean?

@@mrmemory3.14 Yes, we're autistic, deal with it.

Yeah, they just seem like normal people to me. Wish I could have gone to this school!

Autism occurs in boys and girls almost 50/50 actually, something that has finally been realized.

Janneson Don't listen to society. You DO belong in this world just as much as anyone else! Being "normal" is overrated. Autism gives you a unique perspective to offer the world, and it is very much needed. "Normal" people are destroying society. No one was created to be the same, yet society has convinced us that we all must look, act, behave, and think the same in order to be successful and worthy. This is the biggest lie and exists only to conform and control us. The whole idea of "normalcy" crushes and destroys any individuality that we have been blessed with. These diversities and unique gifts are powerful, and that is why those in power want to squander them. Unfortunately the majority of society doesn't have the will to fight against it; they don't even realize that they are being conformed and stripped of their true identity. THAT is what is so beautiful about Autism. At its very core, autism resents and rejects conformity, which is why it can make life so difficult for individuals on the spectrum, because they CANNOT conform. They don't fit the perfectly controllable "normal" mold that the rest of society is forced into, and because they are a threat to the system, they are far too often pushed to the side and discouraged. They are made to feel like the problem, when really they are the ANSWER! So please, don't wish that you no longer exist, because we need you here. We need your unique and beautiful perspective of the world. We need your nonconformity. We need your differences. I am so sorry that you have had to struggle through so many hardships in your life. I can't imagine the pain that you have gone through, and I am so sorry that people have been so cruel to you. But please just know that there are people in this world who value your life more than you know! You have so much to offer this world. God bless you! 💗

Stay Strong

Astarri Maybe try to reach out to a counselor?? I'm trying right now, but I need to gather my courage. It takes a lot of desire and direction to do it. Don't go to that dark place, because most people don't understand and they will not know how to help you. They probably won't want to help you, either. You MUST do it. Then things may get better. Good luck :3

are you diagnosed? usually your parents believe you when it comes from a professional.

I'm 32 and I KNOW this is me but my parents also don't believe me.

How are you now? Have you managed to get help?

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Fr I was lucky enough to get one substitute that actually noticed and just yee smh

aw man, I wish I had had the diagnosis and that kind of community when I was their age T.T

flareontoast same!!! I was diagnosed at 32 :-(

Neither you two are right

Whoa! I’m 21 & was diagnosed around 3 weeks ago

lucy Llewellyn i hope you are doing well now hun.

I was diagnosed at 29 I was homeschooled so never got tested.

I’m NT, and I felt the same way. Middle school and high school were really hard, bullying etc.

I was diagnosed with autism when I was two had girlfriends it was hard at first but I built my confidence and started to talk to people more and more eye contact

Katrine Basso Atleast you know now

Self identified at 61 and now waiting for formal assesment and diagnosis on the NHS . Have been on the waiting list 6 months and when I rang for an update told 28 months to go!!! But just knowing has given me great relief. I'm 'neurountypical' not faulty and that is brilliant after a lifetime of struggling. There is lots of help here on You Tube I really find anything by Professor Tony Attwood so supportive and positive. Good Luck. Hx PS Looking at research 1 in 50 people are on the spectrum we are not alone. PPS Dont forget the National Autistic Societies website and helpline. I'm thinking of starting a support group for those of us with late diagnosis in the UK where I live? I realise looking at my friends over the years that most of them are 'neurountypical' too!

@@velvetindigonight I'm 61yo as well. I've been told by several Autistic friends that they all believe I am onr of them. Now, having researched it I can see how it has impacted on my life. Now awaiting a formal diagnosis from Adult Autism and Adult ADHD teams here in Newcastle-upon-Tyne. Unfortunately there is an 18+ month waiting list! I hope that you are well and have received your diagnosis! ❤

These people in your life are bully's stand up to them

You are not alone. I’m 13 year old girl and still not diagnosed I’m waiting in the queue right now but my mum is sure I’m autistic. I’ve been told by various family members that I’m strange as I am “ungrateful” for not liking certain foods or “strange” for getting attached to things that are meant for younger children. I was bullied for years and teased for not having any friends, when I entered secondary I learnt to mask very well and did therapy and in a few lessons my therapist found out that I was autistic. It is crazy how long I’ve been waiting for this diagnosis!!

You are an amazing person. Continue to fight for your life. The life is a struggle in its essence. The majority of "normal" persons have various problems, and who's able to diagnose them? The life is a struggle, I repeat. You just have to find that strength in you. Every boy and every girl is trying to do it, without saying anything. And everything just to be accepted by a group or other. And then we become parents, and there starts the problems, because tacking care about babies, then kids and even when they are teenagers, must be done very very carefully. It's simple. Just put love. A lot. Without measure. Love love love and care care care. Where love exists, life exists. Be you. You are a human being. We all are different. And we all are imperfect. Life is too short to not fight for it

Clopin thank you 💚

I go to this school-

@MsMissy I came from a rich and privileged home. - I want you to know, I was also treated appallingly.

@@msmissy6888You sound absolutely dreadful.

@Straight&Proud I went to a special school for children with learning disabilities I do agree with you there should be more schools for both sexes.becouse I went to a nerodivergent school I have better skills in communication and ect. 😊🌈

@@flipflopsofpeaceandjustice because most girls become perants then get dignosed when there kids get dignosed.

​@@flipflopsofpeaceandjusticeactual, the "autism is rare in girls" is a myth. It's just that girls often mask well so their autism flies under the radar. Some studies show there may actually be more autistic girls then boys

@@flipflopsofpeaceandjusticeits not rare in girls. Its actually seen more in girls than boys. They are just severely misdiagnosed

There is permanent herbs to improve autism. It’s a medicine you can get from Dr Oyalo UKposts channel, his herbs have made my son improve perfectly in his speech and social skills.

I have been asking for assets for my kids, after spending a year in Sen and coming here. I can relate so muvh and belive I may need am assessment.

I go to this school

Same here. Diagnosed with ADD, but suspecting ASD as well. Research says that symptoms overlap.

I got lucky my older sister ( a special education teacher) fought our parents and my elementary school just to get me evaluated. Had she not fought for me I wouldn’t have gotten the help I needed.

I saw a reddit thread that asked if you could go back in time to age 13 and say 3 word sentence to yourself, what would it be? Someone said "You are autistic" and got thousands of upvotes. Definitely what I'd say. EDIT: Except I wouldn't, because I'd not have my 3 kids now if I did

Can I slap your teacher?🤣🤣

@@caitlinhalliday1154 I'll join you, with a frying pan

I completely relate to this.

i went to this school it a school for girl with other learning difficulties not just autism

Aylah Oxenblå I have a couple of friends and I'm autistic but the only reason I have them is because I change myself to act like a normal person to keep them and for them to like me. Sometimes it can be a good thing to be on your own though because you don't have to worry about friendships and stuff :)

I know it's really hard to get friends and in the past I thought that it would be impossible for me to make one. But now I have wonderful friends, some of them have autism others don't. If people meet me, they sometimes think I'm very rude because I'm way too honest and don't feel it when certain topics are sensitive but my friends are used to it by now and started to admire that treat because they feel secure knowing that I mean what I say and that there is no other meaning behind it. They also have said to me that when I talk about my special interests, they get happy because they can feel my enthusiasm. So there are also positives in seeing the world differently. Teenage years sucks and especially for girls with autism since it becomes significant that you are falling behind of your classmates in certain aspects and perhaps are further than them with other aspects so it's even more difficult to connect with people. I'm sure you will be able to make some great friends, you just have to push through this difficult situation. I was always interested in they way people communicate and connect with each other so I studied it a lot and it helped me so much with improving my social skills, so maybe reading a book about psychology or human interaction will help you too. Also going to a psychiatrist is nothing to be ashamed of and can helps you lots as well. btw I'm 18 and got diagnosed at 17 if you wondered.

I had a similar experience to you. Yet so many people believe school is a good thing, and they seem to think school has a monopoly on education.. - It 's not a good think. It's evil.

I'm so sorry, and this sounds familiar. We are just now figuring out that several members of my family have been on the spectrum all along. I don't know how to deal with this information, but I had a lot of emotional distance from my mom partly because SHE was on the spectrum. I have a really hard time not breaking down myself when my daughter has a screaming meltdown. I wonder if this may be undiagnosed in your Mom as well?

@@janinadawn very well could be. There usually is a strong genetic component.

It's really bad things have to change 😡 I am 23 & got diagnossed a 11 months ago ☹☹

Me too, except I'm 23. I've just realized it's been exactly 1 year and 1 day since I was diagnosed.

HAL 9000 It’s nice to read back trough the comments, and to read I’m not alone on the late diagnosis. Hope you are doing well now...I am currently looking for somewhere to live that I can call home, and I now have support from a care assistant Mon-Fri.

I have been diagnosed and found out just last month that I'm on the spectrum, they think Asperger's syndrome. I'm a 23 yr old female, is there any therapy for asperger's and or ADHD? I went to this health center in town that thinks that I am "not severe enough" or "a normal person." How am I supposed to know if most ASD people will surround themselves with like individuals to fit in?

Sweet 'N Sour same here I’m 32

Confidence is Fashion May I pray for you? You are beautiful Just the way you are

Wow, I'm so sorry. This is the kind of thing I think would most often happen if we decided all people on the spectrum belong "together". They are so lucky that they are so equally matched, it's unusual!

Hi I am 41 and so desperately needs an assessment for myself . My doctors are not interested unfortunately .

I was around the same age as you when I was diagnosed. Doctors just brushed me aside when I was a child. I had such a terrible time throughout school. It was like most of my teachers had a disliking to me. I got so much bullying from a lot of the other kids. They just saw me as a problem rather than see why there were issues as to why I was a problem.

Colleen Caddick I'm nearly 26 and think I have autism x

Hi I was a little bit happy when I got diagnosed i didn't really understand like u say but when my mum explained I was happy and sad but I was happy coz I knew I was going to get the help I needed at school but I was also not happy because I knew I was different and it was harder for me to cope with certain things

Hi I felt the same I know what autism was before i got diagnissed 😀 How old was u when u got diagnossed?

When I was 12 do a 3 months ago

Cutieslimegirl101 Slime I was diagnosed last year at age 32, hopefully getting diagnosed earlier will help you better know yourself and create strategies and tools for the world around you 😊 I wish I had been diagnosed a lot sooner, it would have saved so much distress and struggles. Good luck 😊

I discovered autism last year. I was 33 too. Im not diagnosed yet but I relate so much to it ...

Raleigh Amelia I have High-Functioning Autism as well, it's hard to be interactive at schools. I'm low on the spectrum so it's not noticeable for me, but that doesn't mean it's easy. And at a school like this I imagine it's MUCH easier to make friends, everyone here looks like they're having an amazing time and I wish I could be there too.

I really hate living in the USA as a autistic person. We are treated like we are monsters and bad people here :(

Edgy Teen 2K17 ah well I wasn’t in this documentary but I used to go to Limpsfield grange and if you want to talk you can ☺️

@@jesstuckman5076 hello, hello! I'm am so sorry I'm three years late 😂😂. I completely forgot my comment existed 😂😂

UPDATE: about 4 weeks ago I had a triage assessment and I've been referred for a fuller assessment but my past of being bullied and abused means professionals are keen to keep "personality disorder" as a label and refuse to acknowledge that my difficulties started before I can remember. Thankfully my mum is going to act as informant and I am prepared to speak up about how I do have autism. The noticing small details others cannot is being put to the test as I noticed a tiny 1 inch scratch on my car that no one else could until I showed them!!! I must admit I know the body work of that car in incredible detail as I am intending to keep it pristine until the day I sell it!!

Mark Greenway ik shame there ain’t some more

You guys seem normal to me then that makes me retarded I never finished 8 th grade, lol

Maybe yes, but at the same time I think I may have thought less of myself due to the very stereotypes that were keeping us from being diagnosed.

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