The pain that cuts deepest is the pain no one can see, I feel you my friend

Exactly

So true

Its like we gotta wear a mask otherwise we are just trying to get attention but the truth is we are cause its hard to fight it alone.

Well said 🤕💙

@@CitizenSoldier thanks guys!!! For putting to words what i cannot. I share these songs everywhere. Cant wait for the next one.

This is honestly what nobody has told me till now, not even family

@@jadensorrows7166 Facts

I completely understand that. I've told my therapist many times my mom only takes me seriously when I'm having an emotional breakdown, but seems to forget once I stop crying. Just because I can smile and laugh sometimes doesn't mean my heart isn't still broken. Hang in there, and if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here.

I know neither one of y’all know me but I’m always here for any of you!! Just to listen or whatever!!

Just add animalistic fits of rage on top of that, and that's who I'm stuck with.

This is what I’m worried about. It’s the reason I keep everything in my head hidden .

I hope your ok

I know how you feel, my boyfriend died a year ago, i told my parents what I feel, I said I can’t forget about him and everything hurts a lot, I haven’t felt happiness in a long time, all they said was “then don’t🤷🏻‍♀️ what’s the problem?” They said it doesn’t matter and one day I will just forget about the pain… Well they were wrong 😑so… it’s okay, you’re not alone :) 🧡

You need to have your parents listen to this, do they ever complain about being tired, or anything that they are dealing with? Next time just tell them they are fine, they just need to try harder, I'm a 54 year old mother of 2 son's, you don't push your children away

@@IAM_NOTOKAY_ I'm very sorry that your parent's are so dumb, haven't they ever lost anyone? I would ask them, does it still hurt when you miss that person? As time goes by, alot of time, you will find away to remember him, he will forever be in your heart, and there will always be that pain, but it will get easier with time I promise. Sending hugs, and I'm so sorry for your loss

I sympathize. I did this once with my parents. My mom said i was being dramatic. Both of them said i had a good life and nothing to be sad about. Why can't we just be believed?

@@CrystalSetsuna yeah, parents always think they know what’s in our heads, but they are soooooo wrong :(

Thank you so much 🙏💙

Let’s face it, all their songs are really powerful.

THANKS, Kindly keep supporting while I bring more fun and entertainment your way. I'll love to keep contacts with you apart from on here and get to be acquainted cause you're such a SWEETHEART!!!

fr

Right, this song could be a "love" letter to my mother

We hear you 🤕💙

this is so much like me when I am hurting when my first love that was a cat called Randi is dead from being driven over by a car

Same

thats why i love there music hes so good with making songs that hit deep and can be vibed with

Glad to still have you with us.

How are you now?hope your fine❤

I hope your doing better bro

Much love 🤕💙

So true

In case you wanted to know I’m pretty sure jake writes the lyrics

Right?. Absolutely Beautifully Real& Raw, with a Voices of an Angel 😇

I’m here to talk. I never had those experiences, but I will try to understand where you’re coming from. I care about you! Sorry this is probably excessive 😅

@@wave_gamess6287 no it's not excessive. Thank you. 💗

I remembered when I bottled my emotions and affect my digestion. Yea, remember about the stomach acid ? That's hurted my stomach and my side effect of my stress. That's tough situation.. 😢

@@fluffybunny0124 I'm so sorry I understand about the stress induced pain of bottling it up. I pray your doing better. 💜🦋💙

@@JC-bq3vd Yeah. It's fine. Thanks, bro. I really appreciate it 💖

basically sums up my relationship with my stepdad

agree

Those who don't show empathy are likely to be narcissist or sociopaths. I wish you well. I have problems within my family, but hard to see because I have issues myself that I judge them what they are. I could be wrong and all, but I may not. I have narcissistic tendencies and need help, but of course, there is a part of me that doesn't want the change. If I have empathy, I'd rather have cognitive empathy, which I think I may have, but not that emotional meaning of empathy.

Same to mine one. If I ever had a single wish. I wish my mom's dad will be burned, tortured, and never leave the hell. *Why ?* Because he *physically and mentally abused my mom FOR NO REASON !!* I'm not gonna forgive him or even call him as my granpa ! NO !! *_I really hope he burned in the hell instead.._* He made my mom's life was suffered, and affect to mine. *_I hate him with all of my guts !_*

Same here I struggle from abuse in my childhood and no one knew till I was in my 20’s I told my husband and I finally told my parents in my 40’s. I tried to pretend my pain away but it didn’t work unfortunately

@@staceyherrington2340 I understand, that's must be tough, isn't ? Anyway.. (Give a virtual hugs) 💕

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It's so damn true.

I know that's my favorite part of the song😢😭

if only people know the secrets we hold to not hurt anyone

My Top 5 in CS so far: 1. Isolate 2. Pretend My Pain Away 3. Unsaid 4. Never Good Enough 5. Face To Face

Ikr

So true

truth 100%

Yes. I had to pause and let that sink. I wish I found this song when I was going through this. I love Citzensoldier songs. They're so good at explaining what I could never get out.

truth.

Same here, But my mom was unequally yoked with an unbeliever. I feel you, religion is just the embodiment of hypocrisy.

My parents have always told me the same thing

@@grimslaughter1311 Don't get it twisted. It's not the religion at fault, but the people who represent it. As a Christian, I find it remarkably unacceptable to treat someone differently because of their gender, identity, or sexuality, and I shame anyone that does so. I may have beliefs that conflict with what others find acceptable in today's society but that doesn't give me a right to shove doctrines down peoples throats. I'm sorry if either of you have had poor experiences with any religious person as those people do not accurately represent what religion is supposed to be. A beacon of light, love, faith, and hope.

I know this may be too little and make you think it’s not enough, but virtual hugs anyone? 🤗🤗 Also I support you Kesp Blaze!

Hang on! Some day you will be free of them. I wish you a life of love and acceptance! It's out there! DON'T give up! We CAN choose our family and you WILL have SOOO much love ❤️

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Ikr? I got OCD too man I get it

I have ADHD and its not cool when someone judges you for stupid shit you cant control.

My parents deny I have ADHD when I know I feel it every day, even though doctors, teachers, and tests, so many tests, that they did on me because I was slower than the other kids. But not once did they believe when some doctors likely said I had symptoms. Even my moms' fiance (Wonderful man, very loving and supportive) has told me I had symptoms of ADHD. Which he never meant to be mean about it, but if it's noticeable for other people, then it can be a huge sign I have it and that I wish either parent quit denying something that they should've educated themselves with or be more open. But I was also born a premature baby, and my parents just sheltered me a lot, mostly my mom. But it just, it stinks when parents deny their children has something, then turn around and explain right to your face stuff about like Autism spectrum, and ADHD, OCD, etc. But they never accept their child is quirky (Like odd sounds or movements) I apologize if I'd rambled it's 3:08 am and my brain is sleepy. Wonderful music!! Keep it up!! I'm only up this late cause I can't sleep unless I hear one of my family members get home safely

ADHD and OCD? Same pinch lol Trust me it doesn't hurt much if u stop caring about the ppl who judge u xD This song is literally how ppl like us feel or used to feel

Are you ok?

My parents plus my brother caused mine

I feel that. I'm 32 and I still have a jacked up relationship with my mother becuse she'll never change. And nothing was or is ever her fault. And she wonders why I won't talk to her. Like lady, it took me 27 fucking years to get over the shit you did and get to a decent place. And i'm damn sure not gonna let you into my life again just so you can screw it all up

I can relate

As someone with emotional religious trauma from their parents this hit home

Same

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fr bro

Well said 🤕💙

Thanks for being a part of the family Tyler! Much love 💙💙💙💙

I started listening to Citizen Soldier in December, last year, which is way too late, but from that day till today, I havent stopped listening to their songs, its just a treasure that I found.

We hear you friend 🤕💙

I know completely how you feel. Just know your loved and worth so much and you have purpose. Remember this if nothing ever changed or if pain never changed then there would be no such thing as butterflies cause they go through the hardship and struggles of a caterpillar and then become something gorgeous at the end of their pain they become a butterfly their life changed and they became something beautiful at the end of their pain.

@@meadowfawn9987 very well said. 💝

@@JC-bq3vd thank you it's what I'm here for 😊💖

Thanks for listening 🤕💙

Same and the song is amazing

Glad to hear that 🤕💙

Much love friend 🤕💙

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Thanks Sarah, you're such an amazing lady. I promise to give you all my possible best big time. You're a SWEETHEART!!

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Glad you found us! 💙

@@CitizenSoldier keep it up

Much love 🤕💙

Kia Kaha (stay strong)

We hear you Sara 🤕💙

I hope you get well. Although I know it won't help a lot, but I believe it's better not to rely on your parents to help you. I also have neglecting parents who say that "there's no such thing as depression, you haven't been through what other's been through. You should be grateful." whenever I share them my problems. In the end, I became so numb and distant, that I almost committed suicide, I learned that the only person who can help get through this hell, is myself. If no one care's about your suffering when you share them, then don't bother thinking they're trustworthy or they'll help you. Our lives are our own journey alone, no one will help all the way. I apologize to be blunt, but I don't want to sugar coat the reality saying " don't worry, life will get better. " because it's not, life will only get harder. Once again, I hope you get well, you have a purpose to be here, you're not alone, you're feelings are valid. You don't have to put a fake smile just because someone says you should smile, it's your face and it's your decision when you smile, frown, cry or laugh, not others. You are you, and no one in this world can say otherwise, don't let others get to you, you are worthy ( more than lifting mjorhir, Thor's hammer ).

@@talhaomair1455 thank you so much for your words I'm actually sick of people pretending how everything is okay, will be okay, and how they are sure they know how others feel. Your comment has good points and I appreciate it a lot. I hope you're doing fine as well

Hey. Fellow borderline here whose mom also invalidated the hell out of me, and hears her voice in my head trying to gaslight me every time I struggle. I honestly don't really know what to say, just that I feel you, and you're not alone. You're not selfish for needing help or to be validated 💜

I have borderline personality and bipolar

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Hehe, all is well. I got you Big time

I'm sorry you had to go through that jacked up shite. I hope you're doing better nowadays, and if you aren't, well just keep going bud. I know you can make it through with what courage you have. You can do this and I'll be rooting for ya.

I'm here for you my aunt and my cousin basically act like I don't even have epilepsy when they saw me go into my first sezier so I know what it feels like and I'm here for you

Hope things get better 🤕💙

Me too your not alone these past few weeks have been awful and this song explains exactly the pain and hell im talking about that ive been through the past few weeks.

@Citizen Soldier, is there any possible way I can get in contact with you. I've written a couple of songs myself and I think you'll like two of them

@@CitizenSoldier I'd also like your opinion on them, obviously because I doubt my own writing...

@@CitizenSoldier please note, I do vocals as an instrument, so I'd say I'm not an amateur writer

Appreciate those words Kindra 🤕💙

Happy to hear that Emma 🤕💙

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Same here, feels like everyone in my life sees me as a nuisance. You’re not alone internet stranger, I know it doesn’t mean much from someone you don’t know but maybe it will, so I had to try. I believe in you, you’re not a burden no matter what people say about you. You’re a human being and you deserve empathy and compassion, no matter your perceived slights or faults. I’m wishing the best for you.

Much love 💙

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Hey bro, don't forget to share the band with the others, and I'm sure you can make it through. Maybe one day you guys can become whole again, but until (or if it even can) happens, I wish you the best of luck.

much love 💙

İs your stomach aching and head burning?

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Thanks Brett 🤕💙

Sometimes the worst pain is invisible. Much love 💙

Yes, it does. I was told at a young age that I wasn't good enough for my dreams so I should just take what I get while my brothers were praised for their dreams. I did what I was told. I was abused so many times because that's all I felt like I deserved. I was raped by two men but I didn't turn them in because I felt like I deserved it so I just sucked it up like I was always taught to do. My parents are gone now but the lessons they taught me still haunt me and make me feel like I'm not good enough. I've never dated a good man. None of the men I dated ever loved me. Love was always something for other people...not me. It sucks that the people who were supposed to love me the most abused me the most. It sucks that I'll probably go to my grave having never been truly loved. I was always just someone they kept around until someone better came along. They used me and abused me and then threw me away like I was nothing. It helps to know that I'm not the only one. It doesn't help me trust anyone or undo the programming done to me to keep me down. It's all a part of me now. I'm so damaged, that I doubt anyone could ever love me even if they tried. I was abused my whole life, I just want to live my last few years in peace without abuse. I'd love it if I had someone by my side, but it is what it is. I always thought I had it pretty good, but looking back at everything I went through, I was pretending not to notice. I made excuses for my abusers to make it my fault. It didn't help that I seemed to wear a sign that said, "Gaslight me, please. I love it!" My life was full of nothing but controlling and abusive narcissists. I can't even take gifts or compliments because I've been told too many times for too long that I'm worthless and unworthy. Gifts and compliments make me cry because I know they can't mean it so they must be trying to trick me or make fun of me. I can't hear "I love you" either. I want them, but I can't have them. I'm not allowed to enjoy them. There's that voice of my parents and the people and men along the way who all abused me saying, "They don't mean it. They're just going to make you think it's yours before they take it away and give it to someone else. You aren't good enough to get those things. You're ugly and stupid and unwanted so who would ever want to give those things to you?" I guess that voice will never go away.

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