I hate that she feels like she has to forgive herself for not telling the world. She came to UKposts to teach us about makeup. That’s what she did.

When she came out as trans, it never changed how I think of her. She’s still Nikkie.

I completely forget every time that she is trans, until she mentions it. That means that I never doubt her femininity or recognized it in anyway by myself. For me she is just Nikkie, nothing has changed.

I’m not trans but as an SA survivor I relate so hard to the idea of “when people look at me I feel like they know” and it’s the worst, scariest feeling in the world. And I just wanna say how much I look up to you and always have and how much these videos have helped me. Thank you Nikkie 🤍

It makes me sad that she keeps saying she lied ! There was no lie, she doesn’t have to tell a bunch of strangers on the internet anything about her personal life , she came to UKposts to share her love of makeup , not anything else

The only time I felt betrayed by her was when I found out she wasn’t a natural born English speaker 😂😂😂

What an incredible mother she has, what an amazing friend she has and what a courage this girl has to speak up about her secret in public.Nikkie, you are a true inspiration.Thank you for existing

The way I view her did change after finding out. I realized she’s so much stronger than I ever knew. It made me appreciate her all the more. She’s beautiful inside and out.

It literally didn't make me look at you any differently... except maybe thinking that you're even more of a badass for all of the resilience you've shown.

Honestly, i'm also proud of the Dutch. She said she was the "trans girl" at school. So everyone at school knew... Hundreds of people. And no one outed her during a decade of youtube fame. Yeah, one person tried to at the end but come on, if she was American, you know someone would have sold her story as soon as she gained a little bit of fame.

You never lied about being a woman or a girl. You were a little girl in school & you are a woman now. How we saw you is who you ALWAYS were. A beautiful woman.

You didn't lie! You were yourself. No one needs to know about your past unless you want them to. Keep being yourself girl, shine brightly! :)

I literally don’t see Nikki as any different since her coming out.

Nikkie didn’t lie to anyone. She’s a woman, she always has been. She didn’t owe anyone the story of her past.

She literally has the mother she NEEDS how beautiful omfg that entire family is just beautiful

„It didn’t feel like a lie because the first thing I felt was your pain“ - that was exactly my reaction. We don’t have to talk about our pain but it has the potential to bring us closer together.

I just can’t believe how different her voice is between languages.

Her mom is truly something else, the world wouldn’t have nikkie if it wasn’t for her!

I remember, actually remember the day, that Nikkie came out to us. I felt so proud of her. I felt scared. I also remember thinking, how did she feel after her show?! To have to wait for the backlash, the hate, the love, the confusion is something else entirely. I really appreciate Nikkie in any way, any shape or form….or cover.

“Not the power of makeup, but the power of ME” amen beautiful! That is all you need! Xoxo

It wasn’t a lie because we didn’t ask 🤷🏻‍♀️ you’re fine sweetheart. It’s none of our business

You didn't lie to anyone, girl. You said from the very beginning "I'm Nikkie", a beautiful make-up-obsessed woman. You never lied about being a woman.

I’m not trans but I relate for other reasons to that feeling of “that’s pain in the past, surely I don’t have to trudge it up” and wanting so desperately to not be defined by your past. I don’t really watch makeup videos or Nikkie but she’s incredibly strong

Wow, what an amazing supportive mom she has ❤

I have never never felt that she lied, she was only keeping her private life private, she doesnt have the obligation to share every single detail of her life

Honestly. The world doesn’t deserve mama tutorials She is the epitome of unconditional motherly love

Duuude shes so young in that clip at 3:26 and ALREADY that eyeshadow is ✨ what a talent, what a passion. So happy for her. What a queen ❤

Watching you grow and seeing you being able to express your true feelings of liberation, fear, doubt, love, all of it in your native Dutch was so special to me. It almost feel like I have known you for a long time. Thank you for being you, Nikki.

The only betrayal I felt was learning she was Dutch.

It's so sad that she feels like she lied to the world. She did not owe us her story, she still doesn't owe us anything. It was her story to tell. I wish she had been given the chance to tell her story at her own time and pace. It's been a year and I'm still mad 😡

As a mother of a daughter in the community, I’m so proud of you and your family! Congratulations on all the hard work and rewarding moments that followed!!! Sending love ❤️

Late to the game, but still wanted to say you have me bawling at work on my break. The depth of your love knows no bounds, and the conversations you are having are beautiful. You’re one of many important lights that make this world brighter and safer. I’m so proud of you!💛

The fact that there are people in her school/community that knew but when she shot up to fame. Nobody went online and post about it for clout, like a “expose” video (or I just assumed since there’s nothing online till she announced it herself). That’s the level of respect that should be a norm.

Mama tutorials is one of the most bravest, strongest, wisest women. A true testament to what a mother would be. She would do anything to see her daughter happy.

I’ve only been watching Nikki Tutorials for a short time…I think it started during the ‘final’ Kardashian season. I liked not only the makeup info but, your personality, Nikki, drew me in. Today, this video was in my feed so, here I am. You are powerful and empowered! Keep doing what you do! The world needs what you do! 👏💝

Such a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing this with us. Your mother is so lovely as well!! I loved being able to see some of the amazing folks in your corner.

Seeing you run after a rabbit was so adorable and pure

I hate whoever blackmailed her. This was none of our goddamned business. She should have been allowed to live her life as she was. She should have been allowed to have that peace.

Watching this over today, I understand even more and my respect for you has grown more. My transformations are around completely different aspects but I so much appreciate your trust in yourself amidst your fears and insecurities and possibilities of the past coming back up. I’m amazed by that.

This is the first time I heard your story because I’ve never been a gossip person and because I don’t care about tags at all so when you came out I thought “awesome” and kept watching your videos like nothing happened; but now actually listening to it is heart touching, you’re such a wonderful and bright woman and that’s why I’ve always love to see your channel and your progress as a professional.. you’re amazing and you don’t stop surprising me with your energy, your light. We don’t even know each other, we will never meet probably and it’s wonderful to feel like you want to see a completely stranger growing, progressing; that’s the feeling you create on people.

I agree with Nikkie keeping her secret. Why is it her responsibility to “come out”? We all have a past, and if it’s personal and it’s in the past why is it wrong to want to leave it there and just live your life?

"I just let my child do whatever it was that made her happy." "have you felt anger?" "not a second." istg the people surrounding Nikkie are everything I aspire the people around me to be someday. Such high emotional intelligence compared to the average human.

I have been following you for a while and really love all you do, but watching how vulnerable and honest you were makes me love you even more. Its so freeing to be your honest self! You go girl!!!

I watched this video literally hundreds of times... And every single time I cry... Thank you Nikky! Please never change!

I was just shocked to find out she wasn’t American. She has ZERO accent.

I could have watched another few hours of this docuseries. Truly a beautiful and inspiring story ❤️

On a binge today and came across this. I’m sorry we live in such a viscous cruel world that you went through so much pain and suffering finding the beautiful person you are! ❤

I am so proud of you for facing your fears! You are sooo brave! I see you, and your light! All I see is strong beautiful person! Thank you for sharing such a important part of yourself! You rock girl!

Never looked at her differently. She's a beautiful talented woman.

I'm more surprised she is Dutch...That is the most seamless transition between accents wow great actors would pray every day to one day achieve this 👏👏👏👏👏👏

i´m crying so hard. I'm so proud of her and also so inspired. Make up is my passion and growing up watching her just gives me all the hope and the courage to follow my dreams and live my life just the way i want. I feel like i don't have a name yet, but one day i will and i will deffinitely meet her and tell her how much of a role model she is for me. Thank you Nikkie, for absolutely everything.

I just started seeing your videos a few days ago and the first thing I noticed, of course, is how gorgeous you are without and with makeup and second what a lovely voice you have. When I heard you speaking in Dutch in this video your voice was so melodious and rich. Surely you sing! It's rare to hear a young voice without vocal fry. Your story is very inspiring and heartwarming. Thank you for sharing your full self and congratulations on tossing aside that fear of rejection. Shine on!

When her mum said "she is every inch a woman " oh gosh. My heart melted. Nikkie is beautiful from a beautiful family xx

let’s give a round of applause to the classmates who didn’t say anything because they knew nikkie was a girl and that her online persona wasn’t labeled as trans.

I am crying at 5am in South Africa literally found your page today and was going through your vids!!! I am extremely proud of you!! You lied to nobody!!! Glad u in your perfect body and dann girl you pretty AF!!! Love your work !

Nikki had I never watched this I would of never known that you were born in the wrong cover! You are strikingly beautiful! I think I’m more shocked that your first language was not English! I’m over the moon proud of you for making this video! You are truly a gifted person and I wish for you always joy and happiness!

She didnt lie. I wish she didnt think that. She will and always has been Nikkie to me. Such a brave woman for sharing .

I don't like how she says she lied cuz she didn't lie. She is her. She didn't do anything wrong. We didn't have to know. We weren't obliged to know. She lives her life how she wants to live it. I don't think any way she lied. I don't feel betrayed. I didn't have ANY idea, but I don't care. Because I love her how she is.

I love and appreciate you either way honey thank you for being so brave we love you keep going ❤🎉😊

such a beautiful video nikki. you are an inspirational and beautiful woman, and have been such a role model to me. i’m not trans but i am a very tall woman, 6’1, and i always struggled with accepting my femininy and being okay to be tall and beautiful. you’ve helped me embrace my stature, and i cannot thank you enough.

Your mom is a saint. She accepted you like not many American parents could

Hearing nikkies mom talk about accepting her daughter and allowing her to express herself brought tears to my eyes. It gives me faith that there are people out there who love and support their children for who they are. You are an absolute icon Nikkie ❤

I love her so much and find her success oddly healing, in a vicarious way. I've always loved her energy and ever since i found out about her gender experience i can see what a hero she really is.

You are beautiful. Period. You are beautiful because you have the power in you to be who you feel from your heart you are. You are glorious! We love you!

I love how her accent comes back when she's speaking Dutch. It's adorable.

I don't think Nikki ever lied. She is a woman. I don't think that a trans person should feel obligated to come out or feel like their gender in a lie. She is who she is and that is her business.

Het is alweer even geleden. Maar na het kijken van deze video zit ik met tranen in mijn ogen. Wat een mooi mens ben je toch Nikkie! ❤️

her running after that rabbit was exactly what i needed after all the dehydration from the past episodes 😂😂 over the last year i think Nikkie has become one of my favorite people ever💕 im late to the party, but im so glad im here :,)

You are pure love. So proud.

I'm not Trans but I understand when Nikki said "it frames your life" and that's not fair. Trans ppl are ppl period their entire life doesn't revolve around the change they made.

Gah. I'm fighting back tears. You're just such a beautiful woman. You are a gift to this world. I know someone that this reminds me a lot of. And it makes me happy to know that she can see people like her, that she isn't alone. And has proof that she can do whatever she wants. And she'll get through everything and can come out on the other side and absolutely shine like you do

I’m a mother of two young adults… I’m so proud of you for taking your power back. I hope my kiddos will find their inner power, like you have. I wish you all the happiness in the world. ❤❤❤❤

You are such a beautiful person inside and out ❤️

We need more Mama Tutorials in this world! Imagine if everyone had parents this supportive.

Wow watching your talent transform over the years is amazing! You are so inspirational!

You are such a beautiful woman!!! You were born to be a woman that brings inspiration and beauty into this world. I don't always write comments...but I had to say this! The day you were born you were a woman in your soul. You have always been a real woman. Many Blessings to Nikki and Husband Tutorials 💓 🙏 💕

"A rabbit! A rabbit! I saw a rabbit!" Omfg, she's so cute

I don't see how she owed people to reveal her identity...like how is it anyone's business? Enjoy her tutorials and let her be :'D

oh nikkie, you have no idea how much we as a community love you. i’m happy you felt like you could share this with us because you never ever had to. your journey, your life. i can only speak for myself but i think the community would agree, we could never be angry with you about something so personal and life altering. you are beautiful and we love you for YOU. nothing more, nothing less. ❤️

I recently started watching you and your Amazing videos which have helped me to enjoy make-up and not be so afraid of it. Nothing has changed since I've continued to watch this powerful video. You're so incredibly strong for letting your secret be seen. I love you regardless of your cover❣️🇨🇦

i’ve been crying through this whole series. nikkie, know you are incredible. you are inspiring. so so so much love

I know you are sitting at the other side of the world, nervous how people think about this documentation . I’m holding your hand sweetheart, you’re doing great ❤️

And girllll...Listen...You have absolutely Nothing to apologize about!!! You are a GIFT to US ALL🤩

This level of vulnerability takes a lot of courage. I accept you fully for who you are and I hope you do too! You are BEAUTIFUL and so loved.

Nikkie doesn't look like a woman....she is a woman

She didn’t lie. She’s a woman. Only decided not to tell the past

Ive seen this doc before but this time a year later it has hitten me in another way wow i cries so hard,i could feel her paun her fear for rejection,i think this is one of the best doc ive ever seen from someone eho u used too look up everyday in my yt chanel,she is such a strong woman to look up to,wow in so goad she did it she made it trough we need more people like this

I love you, girl. Thank you for breaking those chains and coming out for all our youth (any age really) who are still in that "closet". Your talent as a makeup artist is magnified because now the glow underneath, WITHIN, is showing and it's absolutely beautiful. The part that touched me the most was when you spoke of sharing with your best friend... I lost my best friend 20 years ago very tragically and the moment the two of you shared on camera brought me to tears because feelings of connection came flooding back. Only the best of friends wouldn't be angry but feel the pain WITH YOU. And that's a true friend, those are the ones you hold on to no matter who leaves first. I'm happy for you coming out, I'm happy you have a best friend like her, and I'm happy you are on youtube with all your talent. Thank you.

The fact that she thinks she lied. 🥺 You didn’t lie Nikki, you protected yourself. And that’s okay. You’re a woman, periodt. And I think that’s why we can’t feel anger, if anything we feel compassion. You shouldn’t have been pressured the way you were.

One thing I take from this is her best friend, boyfriend and family are a amazing support system. People need that.

bless your heart and the hearts of anyone going thru this

You're such an amazing person!! Sending lots of love your way! Proud of you! 💖💖

You weren’t telling a lie You were living the truth

I wish Nikki's mom was every mom.

I just got very confused when Nikkie needed subtitles. Just flawless, Sis. Thank you for sharing with us. Keep up the fabulousness. ❤

Omg I have watched you for a long time and I never ever knew but this has made me love you even more, you have made other people be proud and happier to come out and be there self's, you are a amazing person no matter what. Never let anyone bring you down you have come so far and I'm sure you make your mom proud every day, you are you and that's what makes you so amazing, you are beautiful inside and out. Much love to you 🤩🥰

My daughter went to a Dutch elementary school here in The Netherlands and when she was around 8, one of her best friends who was born a boy, transitioned to a girl over the summer holidays. Her Mom told me that from age 5, he knew she was a she, so the family decided to let her identify as female. The way the school, parents and subsequently the children handled it was beautiful. There was never any snickering, judgment or bullying. It just wasn’t allowed. Children learn to be mean from adults. Every one of my daughters friends found it normal and no big deal. Life went on. The way it should be. Nikki’s life path is going to be far more than being a makeup tutorial guru, she a gift and a very special person with an important message. ♥️

I hope the person who blackmailed her feels like a damn fool. Actually, I hope nothing for them, that person is literally insignificant. They were like “I’m going to ruin her life, just wait until the world knows” but then the world was like “WE STILL LOVE HER” and that person instantly became the least important person in the world

What a beautiful soul. And the support and love she has around her is wonderful.

Gorgeous inside and out. I had no clue but now I understand the happiness that beams from you. It's your accomplishments and I thankyou