I keep on going to write or share things, but then go back and delete them or even fail to start, because a voice in my head keeps telling me that no one cares what I have to say and that expressing myself is pointless and selfish. All day yesterday, I thought about quitting on the things I love or maybe shooting myself. I'm not doing that, but the urge was there. I deleted some of my own things yesterday out of programmed self-hatred. Some of you left some nice comments on them, and I thank you for that. You were heard and appreciated. I want so badly to love myself and feel good about sharing my art, but it still brings up guilt. My happiness is fake. I feel like the world has beaten the passion out of me and I don't know how to get it back. I'm still filled with self-hatred. But, it fuels my art. It gives me a reason to raise my middle finger to the negative and hurtful voices inside my head and create art. Thursday is my special day. I'm going to spend it in meditation. I meditate by playing video games. The games keep the monkey mind busy so the rest of me can figure stuff out and heal. Thank you for listening. I hope you are all doing well. Hugses and namaste. Thank you for your kind videos, they do help a lot at times.

Let it be known to all: Through the Holy Spirit, God has put it on me to preach to those lost in the devil's deceit! I tell ye, truly, Jesus of Nazareth is the propitiation for the whole world's sins. He is the anointed one, for he is, Jesus Christ. God the Father has raised him from the dead; who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God! Angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life: no one comes to the Father, but by him. They who believe and are baptized with the Holy Spirit shall be saved; but they who believe not shall be damned. For they who believe not on him, shall die in their sins! I tell ye now to repent of your sins, accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and you'll receive the gift of the Holy Spirit upon asking the Father! There are *NO* sub-divisions of Christianity. You're either a disciple of Christ or not. A Christian is someone who follows God's word, not a religion. Who obey the Father and follow his will; not man's nor their own heart's. Unless you keep Jesus' commandments, think not the Holy Spirit will dwell within you! They who heed this message and did what was stated with an open heart to God... Read the Holy Bible (KJV) daily and every time before you read, pray to the Father and ask: "Lord I ask that you give me understanding of your word, that I interpret it the way you want me to, and none of my own. I ask you in Jesus' name, amen." 1 John 2:2 KJV 2 And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world. Acts 13:26-33 KJV 26 Men and brethren, children of the stock of Abraham, *and whosoever among you feareth God, to you is the word of this salvation sent.* 27 *For they that dwell at Jerusalem, and their rulers, because they knew him not, nor yet the voices of the prophets which are read every sabbath day, they have fulfilled them in condemning him.* 28 And though they found no cause of death in him, yet desired they Pilate that he should be slain. 29 *And when they had fulfilled all that was written of him, they took him down from the tree, and laid him in a sepulchre.* 30 *But God raised him from the dead:* 31 And he was seen many days of them which came up with him from Galilee to Jerusalem, who are his witnesses unto the people. 32 *And we declare unto you glad tidings, how that the promise which was made unto the fathers,* 33 God hath fulfilled the same unto us their children, in that he hath raised up Jesus again; as it is also written in the second psalm, Thou art my Son, this day have I begotten thee. 1 Peter 3:22 KJV 22 Who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God; angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. John 14:6 KJV 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. Mark 16:16 KJV 16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. John 8:24 KJV 24 I said therefore unto you, that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. Acts 2:38 KJV 38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. Luke 11:13 KJV 13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him? John 14:21-24 KJV 21 *He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.* 22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world? 23 Jesus answered and said unto him, *If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.* 24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and *the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.*

@@Call_Upon_YAH I met Jesus in person in RL. He said only two things to me. "You worry all the time. Everything is going to be alright." There is no judgment and nothing to be saved from because humans made up that idea to get others to comply with their desire for control and power. I was raised in an abusive religious cult. Slowly, over time, I have learned, If it creates a separation between you and "the world", it's a cult. If it claims exclusive truth, it's a cult. If it demands its followers follow a prescribed morality, it's a cult. If it forbids you from exploring other ideas, it's a cult. If it creates a line between the "saved" and the "damned", it's a cult. If it can't live and let live in non-judgement, it's a cult. If it puts you into a social or racial category, it's a cult. If it demands obedience, it's a cult. If it has unquestionable truths, it's a cult. If it demands you change yourself to fit in, it's a cult. Cults are evil, manipulative, and oppressive, and are the only thing on this planet that I am truly against. Instead, I choose love.

@@Call_Upon_YAH Also, Jesus was a Mystic Buddhist. Read a REAL book, would ya?

Funny, but the moments i treasure the most are simple everyday things. Drinking a coffee with a friend, invite someone over and just have a nice chat, talk or argue about our faith and believes (I am christian but keep these conversations with atheists too). In my 22 (not much) years of experience these are the most fragile things, that can change in the blink of an eye. And the easier to forget. We might not forget about our wedding day or graduation, though they certainly fade in our memory. But something I regret is not living, and "time capsule" the most simple little moments from when my fathet was alive. He died 4 years ago. I can't recall his voice anymore, or remember everyday moments with him. Since than my mindset is to try to treasure each moment here and than, no matter how small they are, because they can be ripped from me at any moment. Never think of these moments as something I want to just experience later. My hearth desires to stuck in these good moments forever, but the brain tells something different. Each one of them is so unique and important. Even the sad, hard times are. They were al carefully planned for us (and ONLY for us), the way every little detail in our life connects in the end. Seemingly lose threads will later lead to solutions. And these precious moments can give us the strength and experience to go on later, but never a chance to relive them.

Thank you so much 😊

Yes I hated covid but loved the how we slowed down and had more time with love ones and space x

They who have ears to hear, let them hear: Through the Holy Spirit, God has put it on me to preach to those lost in the devil's deceit! I tell ye, truly, Jesus of Nazareth is the propitiation for the whole world's sins. He is the anointed one, for he is, Jesus Christ. God the Father has raised him from the dead; who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God! Angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life: no one comes to the Father, but by him. They who believe and are baptized with the Holy Spirit shall be saved; but they who believe not shall be damned. For they who believe not on him, shall die in their sins! I tell ye now to repent of your sins, accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and you'll receive the gift of the Holy Spirit upon asking the Father! There are *NO* sub-divisions of Christianity. You're either a disciple of Christ or not. A Christian is someone who follows God's word, not a religion. Who obey the Father and follow his will; not man's nor their own heart's. Unless you keep Jesus' commandments, think not the Holy Spirit will dwell within you! They who heed this message and did what was stated with an open heart to God... Read the Holy Bible (KJV) daily and every time before you read, pray to the Father and ask: "Lord I ask that you give me understanding of your word, that I interpret it the way you want me to, and none of my own. I ask you in Jesus' name, amen." 1 John 2:2 KJV 2 And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world. Acts 13:26-33 KJV 26 Men and brethren, children of the stock of Abraham, *and whosoever among you feareth God, to you is the word of this salvation sent.* 27 *For they that dwell at Jerusalem, and their rulers, because they knew him not, nor yet the voices of the prophets which are read every sabbath day, they have fulfilled them in condemning him.* 28 And though they found no cause of death in him, yet desired they Pilate that he should be slain. 29 *And when they had fulfilled all that was written of him, they took him down from the tree, and laid him in a sepulchre.* 30 *But God raised him from the dead:* 31 And he was seen many days of them which came up with him from Galilee to Jerusalem, who are his witnesses unto the people. 32 *And we declare unto you glad tidings, how that the promise which was made unto the fathers,* 33 God hath fulfilled the same unto us their children, in that he hath raised up Jesus again; as it is also written in the second psalm, Thou art my Son, this day have I begotten thee. 1 Peter 3:22 KJV 22 Who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God; angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. John 14:6 KJV 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. Mark 16:16 KJV 16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. John 8:24 KJV 24 I said therefore unto you, that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. Acts 2:38 KJV 38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. Luke 11:13 KJV 13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him? John 14:21-24 KJV 21 *He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.* 22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world? 23 Jesus answered and said unto him, *If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.* 24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and *the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.*

@@Call_Upon_YAH not relevant to the current discussion. Christians can be so arrogant and agitated/agitating. Jesus points to God. This man’s teaching here in no way contradicts God’s will. Why must you go on a diatribe about your religion? There is no need and no benefit to you or anyone reading it. Just love your neighbor and stop brow beating people. God is love.

Aww thank you so much and yes, just do the best you can 😊

thanks so much for sharing your experience.

I certainly can relate because I’ve got a little more than 40 years in IT from network engineering to executive positions. At this time I am done with IT because companies and people do expect us to be perfect. It’s a toxic environment to work in IT now compared to the 1980s. I’ve always enjoyed helping people so even at my age rather than just retire I am switching my career. Learning something totally new but that allows me to feel fulfilled and helping others. I was very poor and homeless as a child so I focused on having enough money. Looking back it is better to focus on becoming a better person. I did not discover Buddhism until in my late 50s just the practical “how to” advice and having friendship with a few monks has given me the tools I need to have a much more peaceful life. I pray all beings seen and unseen in all realms and planes of existence have inner peace and happiness. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Hi Jeffrey I totally agree with what you said in your message... 🙏

Beautiful.! You've captured the essence of this amazing living practice..!!! May you have the blessings of the Triple Gem ( The Buddha, His Teachings/ Dhamma, His Noble Disciples/ Sangha).🙏🙏🙏

Aww thank you so much for your kind words Kathy. I’m glad it resonates with you 😊😊

Be it known: Through the Holy Spirit, God has put it on me to preach to those lost in the devil's deceit! I tell ye, truly, Jesus of Nazareth is the propitiation for the whole world's sins. He is the anointed one, for he is, Jesus Christ. God the Father has raised him from the dead; who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God! Angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life: no one comes to the Father, but by him. They who believe and are baptized with the Holy Spirit shall be saved; but they who believe not shall be damned. For they who believe not on him, shall die in their sins! I tell ye now to repent of your sins, accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and you'll receive the gift of the Holy Spirit upon asking the Father! There are *NO* sub-divisions of Christianity. You're either a disciple of Christ or not. A Christian is someone who follows God's word, not a religion. Who obey the Father and follow his will; not man's nor their own heart's. Unless you keep Jesus' commandments, think not the Holy Spirit will dwell within you! They who heed this message and did what was stated with an open heart to God... Read the Holy Bible (KJV) daily and every time before you read, pray to the Father and ask: "Lord I ask that you give me understanding of your word, that I interpret it the way you want me to, and none of my own. I ask you in Jesus' name, amen." 1 John 2:2 KJV 2 And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world. Acts 13:26-33 KJV 26 Men and brethren, children of the stock of Abraham, *and whosoever among you feareth God, to you is the word of this salvation sent.* 27 *For they that dwell at Jerusalem, and their rulers, because they knew him not, nor yet the voices of the prophets which are read every sabbath day, they have fulfilled them in condemning him.* 28 And though they found no cause of death in him, yet desired they Pilate that he should be slain. 29 *And when they had fulfilled all that was written of him, they took him down from the tree, and laid him in a sepulchre.* 30 *But God raised him from the dead:* 31 And he was seen many days of them which came up with him from Galilee to Jerusalem, who are his witnesses unto the people. 32 *And we declare unto you glad tidings, how that the promise which was made unto the fathers,* 33 God hath fulfilled the same unto us their children, in that he hath raised up Jesus again; as it is also written in the second psalm, Thou art my Son, this day have I begotten thee. 1 Peter 3:22 KJV 22 Who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God; angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him. John 14:6 KJV 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. Mark 16:16 KJV 16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. John 8:24 KJV 24 I said therefore unto you, that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. Acts 2:38 KJV 38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. Luke 11:13 KJV 13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him? John 14:21-24 KJV 21 *He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.* 22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world? 23 Jesus answered and said unto him, *If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.* 24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and *the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.*

me too --- i listen every eve!

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Aww thank you so much my friend. I’m glad you had that experience. Rejoice in your merit :-)

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Yesssss! Definitely.

I like it.

Aww thank you so much Marisa for your kind words 😊😊

Welcome to the channel luiza 😊😊

So true, this channel is a great source of comfort and reference 💕

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Sadhu sadhu! Thank you so much 😊

Aww thank you so much my friend 😊 Glad your are enjoying it.

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Wow that’s so wonderful! I love the practice you have going on for yourself. That’s great! Please keep up the great work 😊

@@nickkeomahavong01 Thank you Nick for replying back Much appreciated 🙏🦋

Sadhu sadhu! Thank you so much tan 😊😊

Thanks for sharing!! I’m glad it resonates with you 😊

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Oh awesome! Thank you so much. I was worried it might be too dark 😆 I’m glad to hear.

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@@nickkeomahavong01 Thank you 🙂

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Oh that would be wonderful Matthew. There should be an online application in the description whenever you’re ready 😊

Deborah! So good to hear from you. And yes, no worries, just pick yourself back up again 😊😊

Thank you so much Jeffrey 😊😊

Anytime 😊 Drive on- as we said when I was in the military.

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