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Anthony is the CEO of loving his mom

To the girl who survived sexual assault/attempted murder: You are not a train wreck. You are a beautiful survivor. I repeat, you are beautiful. And strong. Never forget that.

“I spent a day with therapists” honeslty would be such a good video. I’d really like to know there struggles and stigmas

i’m not even a mom but Anthony saying “Mom, you’re not a burden.” straight to my face hit my soul hard.

The girl who shared her story of surviving that possible rape and definite murder attempt was incredibly brave to share her story.

It really sucks that the girl who was almost murdered thought about all the things she wanted to do before she died and now can't do any of those things because of the consequences of that event

As a person with anxiety, calling myself a panic attack connoisseur sounds so much more sophisticated. I love that so much. 💁🏻‍♀️

My late husband had this. He didn't like his own family coming over. Rip. My love

You should do "I spent a day with people who have schizophrenia." Because schizophrenia is such a heavily stigmatized disorder. Edit: He did it everybody! And ALL of us made that happen! : ) I would say go and watch it, but let's be honest: You already have!

When he looked at the camera and said “mom you’re not a burden” I started crying. Anthony, the people on your life are so lucky to have you and we (your fans) are so lucky too. Thanks for everything you do

I love how Anthony told the girl not to push herself to tell a story she wasn’t comfortable sharing, and later she said she was so glad she had a place to talk about agoraphobia. The best part of this series is how clear it always is that Anthony cares about the wellbeing of the people he’s interviewing

My daughter has this, she became overwhelmed with her depression and agoraphobia where she tried to take her life via overdosing. She’s doing well now and is finally back at school! I’m so proud of my baby and the steps she takes everyday to get better!!!

Imagine raising Anthony Padilla. His mom has my respects because she did a great job

please do an episode of "i spend a day with people with OCD!" its so highly stigmatized as just being a perfectionist

Agoraphobia has a spectrum. Some ppl can leave their house but most ppl can’t. Some ppl can’t even leave their bedrooms. Agoraphobia is a panic disorder. My heart truly goes out to all my fellow sufferers, God bless us all! 💜

Charles Darwin had agoraphobia. He couldn’t even go to his fathers funeral.

Would love to see “I spent a day with therapists” or other people in the field. As mentioned, many people have a toxic outlook on it, which is really sad.

"Panic Attack Connoisseur" really shouldn't have made me laugh like that.

"But I love when it rains, cause I'm agoraphobic."

Feeling like a burden is one of the worst aspects for me. Because when you can’t work and you can’t go out and you can’t contribute you start to venture into some dangerous territory in terms of wondering why you’re still around. If anyone else feels like this just know I’m rooting for you. I hope we all get through it.

"Can I consider myself a trainwreck?" I'm pretty sure you wouldn't want to be Anthony's hair in 2018

whenever Anthony talks to people with some form of anxiety disorder you can tell some parts hit him harder than expected. I just wanted to say thank you to him for not only helping educate people with these videos but also for being open himself and sharing his own experiences. it's comforting to know that someone who online seems "normal" (whatever normal is) is just a human like everyone else and its a good reminder that you never know what is happening in someone's life and to always be kind and considerate. I look forward to these videos every week.

15:23 this conversation, this was great, its 100% how I feel with my social anxiety, wanting to be a responsible adult but not being able to have a job, and getting so upset that I have to live off my parents, the hardest is when your called lazy..

I would love to see a "I spent a day with Indigenous people" theres so much stuff to be talked about. Conditions of reservations, murder of indigenous women, misconceptions on money, etc.

Anthony: How many rings should I wear His wardrobe: Yes

"Can I be classified as a train wreck" Me:"I fricking love this woman"

Just 5 or so years ago, I couldn’t even walk too close to the front door of my house without having a panic attack. Now I can stand outside of my house alone (for short periods of time) and go for car rides, etc. Progress is slow but considering I never thought I’d be able to do these things, I’m proud of the work I’ve put in.

Important note from a therapist: agoraphobia is not just “I don’t want to leave the house”. That’s a super common misconception! Agoraphobia is that if we are not with a “safe” person or near a “safe” place then we will feel panicked and unsafe. So most people with agoraphobia are able to leave the house, but feel limited sometimes by distance away from home or doing things by themselves ❤ love your videos!! Just wish this had been addressed

He should do “I spent a day with Suicide/eating disorder/drug addict/self harm survivors/recoverers”! I would love to see it.

anthony needs to do a video with people who have OCD, because it is SO misunderstood and literally everyone claims they have it. but not just people with contamination OCD but people who have the other types like checking, intrusive thoughts, mental contamination, ruminations yk, it would be really awesome to see that also when that one lady was talking about how when some people tell others that they have agoraphobia and OCD people say they do too, i have OCD and almost daily at my old school people said they did too and it was so annoying like (ONLY if someone pointed it out otherwise they wouldn't notice) they would say something like "i'm OCD and that table hurts my OCD like if ya gonna pretend you have a disorder at least put it in a sentence that makes sense lmao

I teared up when that woman genuinely said, "this was worth pushing myself for"

Can we just take a sec to appreciate how understanding and kind Anthony is?

Kylee is such a badass, that must have been so traumatizing I can't imagine almost dying and then losing my younger siblings

damn it’s so weird to hear the story of someone who was actually almost murdered

I'm here after corpse's song . Hoping for the best for all people who suffer with this

I have been completely housebound because of Agoraphobia since 2005, I am so thankful to find this video, I think a lot of people think 'why don't you just go outside?' there is a lot more to it and not being able to go across the threshold is so difficult beyond words and I have not seen much information about it. When they were asked 'how does the quarantine affect you?' I said out loud 'it doesn't affect me my routine is the exact same'. I always feel like such a burden and do not contribute to the world. Thank you so much for this video and I hope your mother and everyone else in the video is doing well

Can we just take a second to appreciate that Anthony takes all this time to make great videos that are factually correct and important! ❤

God this representation is so important. Therapy should be “normal”. I have 3 anxiety disorders and although they aren’t specifically addressed in this series it’s so validating to see people who understand that anxiety is out of our control and is more than a fear of people

" they wouldn't approve", time to stop thinking that having anxiety is a choice. Did it ever work, when you were stressed, someone told you " Stop stressing" and BOOOM, not stressed anymore. If anyone could control that, we wouldn't be even stressed or have anxiety.

So watching this again two years later. I have had agoraphobia for 10 years. It was so crippling that I couldn’t step out of my house for more than 5 minutes at a time at its worst. 2 years ago my family and I moved across the country to our new home. I have had several small adventures and experienced different things I thought i would never be able to do. For my fellow agoraphobics, there is hope!! I never thought I could do this ever. Taking baby steps and you are stronger than you give yourself credit for! My biggest hugs to all of you. You are not alone and you are so loved! And to Anthony, that part where you told your mom you are not a burden and that whenever she wants to you will take her to the beach hits so close to home. I am 28 and a mom to 3 and can relate to your mom’s story so much. I know we are around the same age but you are such an incredible son and big hugs to you as well. Your series is incredible and thank you for giving people a voice who aren’t heard very much.

Trisha Paytas’ next video: “I have.. AGORAPHOBIA😔”

You should do “I spent a day with therapists”

As someone who has agoraphobia and is still trying to 'figure it out' to explain to people, this video was so validating, ESPECIALLY when they talked about small mundane tasks being big achievements. I'm working my way to going to the shops by myself so there's a mission for me to complete! I remember I created an analogy that sort of explains how it feels personally through it: having agoraphobia feels like having a ball and chain around your ankle. It's always there, nobody else sees it but you and every 'mundane' task you need to complete depends on how much energy you have to drag that ball and chain around with you. Sorry for the splurge of text there, but yeah this video helped a lot to validate how it feels!

That self-proclaimed “trainwreck” has a heartbreaking story. My stomach sank listening to her story of surviving the attack.

I didn’t realize how addicted to UKposts I’ve been since isolation started, but now I’m watching UKposts videos posted “40 seconds ago” 😭😂

That black haired girl must be so strong to go through what she did and want to be able to speak out about it.

This was oddly comforting. I suffer from agoraphobia and I’ve never an seen accurate depiction of what it’s like in media before. Thank you for this.

I’m sorry but I lost it at panic attack connoisseur.

Anthony is one of the best listeners I’ve ever seen. He seems like the type of guy that you could have a conversation with and not even realize that you’re talking for hours.

Anthony: Talks about his mom and how much he loves her My heart: Melted like the cheese on a pizza 🥺👏😭

I’m a fully housebound mother of 6 with agoraphobia. I’ve had it since I was 15. It was so relieving to me to hear that your mom is agoraphobic. Gives me hope that my babies will turn out ok! ❤️😭❤️

I literally have the worst agoraphobia. I didn't know what it was, so I called it, "The leaving the house thing," because I could absolutely not leave, having extreme and intense, debilitating anxiety.. the longest I stood at the door trying to leave was 10 1/2 hours. It is so intense and it is the most frightening thing. I was mugged and almost d*ed, have a traumatic brain injury and also had a lot of traumatizing experiences, so I thought it was just the PTSD. Then the doctor said agoraphobia and I totally didn't believe it, knowing I'm just panicking because I have some "leaving the house thing" now. Then I realized it's what the leaving the house thing was. It's so awful, it's sooo bad, I avoid people, can't answer people texting or calling and then they think I don't want to speak to them or that I'm ignoring them and I'm absolutely not, I tell them but they don't understand. I repeatedly have to explain myself to the same, small amount of people that I do talk to (sometimes..when I can by forcing myself to because I really want to talk to them) no matter what I say- they don't understand. It's been severe for 6 years and was bad before that too, but now it's something that's with every single thing. If I go to CVS, it's literally the biggest accomplishment ever. It's so embarrassing and I swear no one I know understands or even tries to. It's very scary to not have anyone I know that wants to even just give an attempt to try to understand a little- just respect it and not get angry with me when I don't answer the phone or when I can't leave the house. That's just ridiculous and I can't stand being alone. I know other people in this world have it, just not anyone I know even tries to care . It hurts. Btw- I love people and want to go outside soo badly and I'm just terrified. I love meeting people and making them laugh. The agoraphobia just prevents me from being able to be myself .

Mykie: what accessories are you gonna wear? Anthony: *yes*

I just want to hug the MySpace girl. She is so cute and I cried hearing her story. She is so strong and I am so blown away by their bravery for telling their story. Hugs to everyone on this video. You are all loved and wonderful. ❤

We will never feel like we aren't a burden. It's just part of the mental health process.

“If it feels too much don’t force yourself to talk about it”. Amazing Anthony, so much love to you for actually caring and looking out for the best interest in the people you speak to.

Anthony’s dedication to his mother at the end has me literally in tears

Hearing Anthony say "You're not a burden" even if it wasn't directed to the audience almost made me cry. I always feel like a burden to everyone and I just needed that at the moment. I also want to thank Anthony for all of his interview, especially on mental health or physical health, where he always treat people with so much respect and don't push his guess to talk about traumatic event, those interview are the most respectful interview I have ever seen. So for all your work, thank you!

Anyone here after Corpse’s new song

you could have brought corpse in again for this one /hj /lh (edit to add tone indicators ^-^)

she almost got murdered and then her little brothers died... I can't even imagine functioning after that.. she's so strong, what an amazing woman. also it's horrible that some of her family and friends would disapprove, she's been through way more than many people ever will...

In a way, weirdly this series has really rekindled my faith in how there are people who are inherently good

Ok but I almost cried when Anthony talked about his mother... like, every time Anthony talked about his mother

I keep coming back to this video when my agoraphobia gets worse. It feels so good to remember I'm not alone

Anthony is interviewer goals, he listens to his guests & never interrupts them. He is so genuine & empathetic.

*Just waiting for Trisha to claim she has agoraphobia…*

I had extreme anxiety disorder for a good while, now I’m on medication and having therapy for another condition which has settled it to generalised anxiety. I still feel anxious in new settings though and sometimes I have bad days where I feel like I’ll have another dissociation and panic attack episode. This video is so important, thank you Anthony.

god, kylee's story had me in tears. she's been through so much.

“this was worth pushing myself for” has to be one of the most rewarding things to hear

I started bawling when you said "if you woke up and didnt have agoraphobia what would you do" I have agoraphobia and multiple other mental and physical diseases and disabilities. And my only answer was to get my surgeries that i need.... its life or death now with the infection in my jaw and agoraphobia and now the lock down.... I just wanna go get help... I just want my surgery.... I'm so tired of being so sick and tired.....😭😭😭😭

Anthony, your mom is my hero. I also have agoraphobia; it is so entirely debilitating, and the fact that she's able to live with it and raise such an amazing person as you is truly an inspiration. Your speech at the end, and especially when you and Kylee spoke about agoraphobics feeling like a burden really touched my heart. It really is so ingrained into society that if you're unable to work, you're a waste of space and just "need to suck it up". To see you speak about that assumption being so brazenly false just... really helps

I suffer from agoraphobia, OCD, and body dysmorphia. thank you so much for your representation

“i kinda consider myself a train wreck” GIRL SAME

The thing with feelings of shame associated with "feeling like a burden", that's not a mental issue, it's a social issue. Shame is a social feeling, it's a relational emotion through and through, and like you said, the mantra in the USA is that everything is earned, even dignity, and that all value is derived from usefulness. Pragmatism, meritocracy, utilitarianism, it all stems from a staged belief in individual "virtue" through work, as a way to evaluate self worth, and capitalism in essence is designed to embody that belief, it's a social system designed to evaluate worth on an individual level in markets that are construed as fair and equally opportunistic. That's why you need "good credit" to find even the crappiest of crappy dwellings, your market value and your personal value as a human being have been merged, if you have good credit, you're a good person. Bad credit, bad person. Easy a pie. And I'd add that it's that way because communities and solidarity are dangerous forces for progress, the "market" is not. It's a gambling field, you may have the best hand, but if you can't afford to play at the big table.... tough luck. Whoever has the deepest pockets can generate a cult of personality, why? Because they "proved their election". Just like Beyoncé said, best revenge is your paper. (She MIGHT be a black Bill Gates in the making!) It fuels everything in American society, from reality TV to new protestant religious movements to televised sports to Elon Musk to Alex Jones to Donald Trump. Your political system, social system, economical system is all based on that simple lie, or illusion, that one's dignity and worth relies heavily on their financial success and autonomy. Since it's already tl;dr, lemme go off: without the "self-made" illusion, such an inequalitarian society couldn't thrive! The only way power and money can remain into the hands of the "elected few", is if the people at the "bottom" believe that they are there because they deserve to be (the poor, the disabled, the marginal, the disenfranchised, those who have one or more discriminating risk factors tied to their gender, age, origins, cultural identity, etc.), because they supposedly CAN and SHOULD be able to rise to the top if they are worthy, and "hustle", work hard enough. The powerful can legitimize their privilege through that lens of "hard work" and "merit", but to do so, they can't admit that there are systemic roadblocks preventing other, more or as deserving people to take their "hard earned" place in the world, or the whole edifice upon which they built their own self-worth is gone. It's not like they're gonna go "Oh well! Guess we didn't deserve it that much after all!", no... Like Tucker Carlson, they'll fight for their unfair share of the pie, like those parents from the college admissions scandal (before they got caught). They feel ENTITLED to it. About that scandal... we'll put up a show once in a while, to reaffirm the myth. Sacrifice a few perceived "offenders" to the collective consciousness, to preserve the image of a working system. As we do with Wall Street and other white-collar crimes, send one or two in jail for fraud, or "cancel" a company or two. We like to pretend like their actions weren't perfectly in line with the business model, but the results of a "few bad apples".. Just like we'll use different terms for white mass shooters ("mentally unstable individual" vs "terrorist"). Because admitting that their actions are tied to their culture means questioning our OWN culture, our own societal flaws. And we don't like to think of ourselves as a society, even less a flawed one! MURICA THE GREAT! Furthermore, we like to think of ourselves as a group of individuals, as "Maggie" once famously said. Especially when someone fucks up. When they succeed, then perhaps we can risk a little "he's one of us!"... It's kinda like a parent whose kid turned out a killer, "We didn't raise him that way! Not my fault! No way!", but if that same kid had become a doctor, or a lawyer, the parents would want to believe they had a hand in setting him up for success. (It's more complicated than that, it's about more than just family influence, the example is grotesque, but you get the idea..) Even though we know from over a century of social science that class mobility is at best very limited, this "lottery of success" has kept american society going for a while, and selfish behaviors are usually rewarded better than social care and solidarity. Domestic work is not considered worthy, because we used to have slaves, and then women for that, working for free. Now the rich pay the poor to do that "degrading" work. Feminists have written extensively about the devaluation of domestic work, and invisible labor. We're seeing now how poorly the "true heroes" of society are being treated, the people who care for others are often underpaid, and often seen as a threat to the elites (think of doctors vs nurses). Politicians of that mindset are more inclined to "sacrifice others" (such a fucking oxymoron) without their consent, to let the weak and the poor die "working the fields", or "keeping the economy afloat", as they say. That's also why they don't want a dignified universal health care, one which you don't have to "earn" access to. Same with education. If you get too smart, you'll come to realize the subterfuge, and without steep loans to pay back, you'll be free to create your own opportunities, inspire and uplift your communities, instead of having to work off that loan for more than half your active life for a tiny slice of "capital pie", and maybe a bit of enjoyment after you "retire" from that miserable job you kept because of the family insurance plan and the minimal safety it provided for you and your loved ones. There's only so much "risk" a young graduate can take when they are responsible for others, which is probably why the wealthy and aspiring "tycoons" don't reproduce as much, and later in life. IN CONCLUSION, haha... You are more than just your resume. Everyone is "useful" and should have the same right to a dignified existence. You can choose stuff, sure, but none of us are completely free from systemic structures that precede us. You are, WE are groomed for labor, not unlike cattle, learning from a young age to submit and obey rules and not question people in positions of power too much. Education doesn't only serve that nefarious role though, as only through education, through knowing how lightly or heavily determined and influenced by outside forces your existence really is, can you really free yourself from those dynamics, and learn to value yourself differently, based on less falsely darwinistic ideals. (The fittest is not always the richest, as we've seen of late! *coughs*) There's no shame in not knowing something, as long as you can admit it, it's not about intellectual elitism, but about the difference between freedom and "freedumb", or the right to be right all the time like a fucking narcissistic idiot. It's a real issue. A problem acknowledged is a problem half solved, they say... There's no shame in wanting to feel valued by the people around you, and the only thing in the way is that ONE idea. That really deeply ingrained idea that you are only worth what you can produce and offer on a market. I hope that after reading this, you don't feel as much like a "burden". It's not you, it's US. (As in WE, not as in United States, but pun accepted.. lol) And if you made it to the end...CONGRATS! You get a PhD in reading more than 140 characters from Internet University! YOU get a degree, and YOU get a degree! FREE OF CHARGE, mofos! lol Meanwhile, I spent more than an hour drafting an essay in a youtube comment section, so that you can benefit from my education. I won't be getting royalties, so if you feel like leaving a comment, or a like, I'll accept those in exchange for my free labor! ;) haha Gimme the "care", I value it greatly!

Im so worried about re-adjusting when quarantine ends. I had a time in my life when I really struggled with my anxiety and didn't leave the house for weeks at a time. My mom had just left my dad because of the abuse and he was breaking into our house. He would rent different cars and sit outside our house in literal wigs and disguises. I used to get panic attacks leaving and going to school. I moved across the country for college so I could feel safe again but I'm so worried about slipping back into old thought patterns

People who are just now finding CORPSE and want to know more about him should reallyyy watch this video

I broke down crying when you said, "The people around you help you because they love you and care about you and want you to feel safe. You're not a burden." I am disabled and have been my whole life. I definitely feel like a leech, and it's actually the primary reason why I feel so embarrassed whenever I talk about being disabled and whenever I have to mention that I live at home. I don't think I've ever heard it explained that way when we (disabled people) talk about feeling like leeches. Nobody has ever really said anything before that has made me feel like I'm *not* a burden on my family. Thank you.

I’d love to see “I spent a day with adults with ADHD.” I personally have ADHD and my adult life seems to be drastically different than other neurotypical adults. ADHD is so widely misunderstood as a disorder and everyone seems to only understand it in terms of kids in school.

Can't believe I only just saw this. I've been struggling with argrophobia for a couple years now, and I feel like I'm losing hope recovering from this.

I had agoraphobia, anxiety disorder, panic attacks, ptsd from awful panic attacks and social anxiety for years and I overcome all of them by reading about it. Now I'm living my life to the fullest. There is hope for anyone out there.. stay strong! ❤️

I would love to see an "I spent a day with people with eating disorders" Edit: and I would love to see Binge Eating Disorder, included in that

i love how they are in a tv on a chair i just think that’s such a cute detail😭

Anthony Padilla. Is among the nicest people I've ever seen on youtube. He's always reassuring. He's always smiled past his own problems for the interview and allowed for his clients to take some time to answer or to cry a bit hes patient. The world needs more like him

I just recectly developed agoraphobia and am going to see my psychiatrist about it soon and it's one of the worse experiences of my life, nothing can come close to how suffocating and hell-ish it feels to want to live a normal life but the mere thought of going outside makes me have a huge breakdown/anxiety attack... my whole body feels like its on fire i cannot move i cannot breath and going to work is becoming harder and harder, i've had multiple panic attacks at work and i'm still pushing myself to go because i don't want my friends and family to think i'm a pathetic burden. Thank you for this Anthony.

The worst thing is you can never tell if someone has it. So when people think I’m panicking from these small interactions like someone getting to close or looking at me weirdly. People judge and it hurts especially if you can’t breathe and your trying to get your air back and your trying to think clearly and move but everything shuts down and it’s embarrassing when people witness it

CEO of being respectful and loving his mom

This video made me cry...I’ve been struggling so much with my anxieties and going out in public or even to walk my dogs and have no support...this video meant a lot x

It sucks having agoraphobia but also love nature. I remember before mine started, when I was 13, I was always outside either riding my bike or playing in the little creek near my house.

ive been wanting anthony to do an "anxiety disorders" episode for soo long because of his own mental health & his mother's, everytime he brings up anxiety i feel so validated

My heart is absolutely shattered for Kylee. She’s so strong for getting through everything she has been through.

I have Agoraphbic by Corpse playing in the background while watching this

I have mild Agoraphobia. I started wondering if I had it when I just didn't want to leave my apartment. I'm Introverted and I've always been a home-body, but I guess being a home-body made it worse for me cuz whenever I leave my apartment with my parents, it would trigger my anxiety. Some days I'm fine going outside if it's with my parents, and some days I just refuse to go outside. I had one instance where I was outside my apartment with my dad in the car, eating McDonald's and I was really anxious. I don't know why. Having my parents with me normally makes me feel safe. I was close to home, which is my 2nd safety place. I also hate large crowds, like at school, and large parking lots, or really any open space. I also have Separation Anxiety, which is linked to Agoraphobia. Due to my Separation Anxiety, I sometimes can't be home alone for long, so to avoid having an anxiety attack, I always go with my parents to places. Whenever I'm in an anxious situation, I get cold sweats, my heart drops and races, my legs and hands shake, I sometimes hyperventilate, and my thoughts go haywire. Side note: I have Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), Separation Anxiety, and Agoraphobia :')

Anthony would be such a great therapist. He's so great at listening and I've never seen him invalidate anyone for the way they feel. His patience and compassion is absolutely incredible. Keep up the great work.

When she said that when she explains her conditions people go “oh yeah me too” I felt that. I have ADD, anxiety disorder, and chronic depressive disorder, and it’s so incredibly annoying when ignorance is mixed with sympathy. I wish there was more accurate explanations of disorders especially ADD/ADHD cause many believe that it’s not even a real disorder. I’m really glad that Anthony is shedding light on mental illnesses.

Agoraphobia sounded like a joke to me, before I got it myself. Now I know it's a living hell and don't wish it upon my worst enemy.

I just wanted to say thank you for all the awareness you are bringing to mental illnesses. I have this condition and I really felt understood and heard. So you have my upmost gratitude for all the mental health awareness you have spread. ❤️

"Can I just call myself a trainwreck?" Is it bad that I heavily relate to that statement?

How long before Trisha Paytas comes out as agoraphobic? (Or is she too busy chasing Hila's brother?)

I didn’t think that there would EVER be videos about this disorder. I felt alone but now I feel like I’m not alone.