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The most tragic thing about people BPD is their disorder usually pushes people around them to want to leave which is their biggest fear.

“your emotions are like a dance dance revolution game”

bpd is more than big feelings. it’s the worst pain you’ve ever felt times 100. it’s so painful and it causes people not to like us due to how emotional we are. it’s so excruciating. i don’t think i’ll ever be normal or have good relationships

My wife has bpd. I think it's actually one of the reasons we work. I tend to have muted emotions, but her more intense emotions tend to help me and my less intense emotions seems to let her temper her emotions off of me. I think we balance each other. I love my wife and I don't think it is necessarily a bad thing in our relationship. It just is.

I'm having flashbacks to the guy who asked, after someone said "BPD" "what police department is that" Followed by "I just googled it and I'm so sorry"

I would love to see “I spent a day with people having Schizophrenia”

When Stacy said it’s shame, constant, constant shame. That shook me to my core because I’ve never heard a more perfect way of describing my bpd shortly.

“I had a desire to manipulate someone to be with me “ is such an amazing self realization to have. It’s very hard to admit and even see yourself. @6:06

"When you don't think you're worth anything, you tend to gravitate toward people who will treat you badly." Never have I heard a truer statement.

“When you don’t think you’re worth anything you tend to gravitate towards people who will treat you badly.” I felt that ...

As someone who has BPD, I’ve had a healthcare professional tell me that I might be faking my depression (I suggested it while in a paranoid breakdown). When I suggested I might need to be hospitalised, she said that I should slit my wrists and go to the emergency room and then they’ll take me seriously. She was someone I considered a friend because I’d been seeing her for 2 years. It still hurts.

As a teen with BPD I grew up thinking something was wrong with me. I never had anyone around me feel the way I did. I would just feel this overwhelming amount of emotions from something so small. It’s hard for me to understand many things others can just overlook. It felt like I was just going in circles. I was in 5 hospitals before finding out what was really happening. I hope to learn how to control or try to control my actions from my emotions.

Anthony is the only interviewer I will ever trust.

My sister has BPD and her whole life people has just labelled her as a “brat” or “looking for attention”, which makes me so angry. People genuinely don’t understand the disorder and categorize these people as overreacting.

I have BPD. Im constantly empty and I cannot accept love from others because in my mind, they have ulterior motives. I grew up with a narcissistic mother, who to this day, will not change. She triggers my BPD every day, and its always all about her. Thank goodness I have two wonderful therapists and a good, solid group of friends at my new recovery home. Plus, my cat doesnt think im so bad, either ❤️

Im sick and tired of these internet “profesional psychologists” telling everyone how much they support people with mental illnesess them tell everyone that “anyone who is showing sadness or is difficult should be marked as toxic and left alone until they magically heal.” This stuff is so common on instagram and makes me so mad. Thanks for the video.

The psychologist that diagnosed me with mild BPD told me "Good luck finding a therapist to talk to, nobody wants to work with BPD people because you all are manipulative". Thanks dude lmao 11/5 update: I just spoke with a counselor who is referring me to an intensive outpatient DBT program. I’m super excited ❤️

I met a girl with BPD during my stay at a psychiatric hospital and she was so so sweet and still my friend today

Both I and my girlfriend have BPD and what helps us a lot is noticing and supporting each other when we are falling into a hole or feeling overwhelmed, sad, abandoned or angry. We talk it out and reaffirm to each other that we love each other and that we are not broken or unfixable. We need to support each others emotions more than a "regular" couple but we both agree that we have never been in a more stable and healthy relationship. I plan on proposing during our trip to Japan next summer. I know she'll say yes.

I have BPD and while I'm in a stable relationship it is VERY hard on not just myself but my wife.... I can literally go from fine or happy to crying or screaming in anger.... I also have autism and ADHD while with autism meltdowns it can make my BPD look SO MUCH WORK

The fact that he admitted he did something wrong, was willing to manipulate someone... just wow... hes so strong and brave

6:32 So technically he said : Trisha , don't diagnose yourself off of my videos thank you : )

I watched this when it came out and thought I was very similar, but didn’t question it. Now two years later and I was diagnosed with bpd. Rewatching this really helped me come to terms and made me feel less alone. I’m so thankful Anthony does these videos

A big danger with BPD as well is staying in toxic and/or narcissistic situation/relationships...knowing that toxicity will stay to repeatedly refuel itself having a willing host (being the person with BPD). Most toxic ppl fear abandonment just as much as those with BPD, so its rare to see either person leave the relationship to become healthier.

Anthony should do "I spent a day with suicide prevention hotline dispatchers"

As someone who has BPD, this video made me cry. It seems like no one talks about it, and it’s so misunderstood. I was diagnosed last year by my psychiatrist, and even my dad who is an ER doctor did not believe that I have it. Even some medical professionals don’t totally understand it, and it’s so hard to get better when your own parent can’t get behind it. Thank you for this video. This gave me a lot of relief, truly.

Having been treated for BPD for a couple years now, I can say that even after recovering a little bit and learning to manage symptoms and irrational thoughts, the *worst* part of BPD is the stigma behind it. The moment people learn you have it, they seem to confuse you to be a narcissist or psychopath... it's really upsetting. Other than that, it's always been the overwhelming fear that you'll never get any better and that everyone will leave you.

What can also be mentioned about the gender gap are people being misdiagnosed. It is fairly common that women with ADHD are first misdiagnosed with BPD since there are quite many symptoms that overlap (impulsive behavior that can be risky or self destructive, emotional dysregulation, higher chance of substance abuse, rejection sensitivity, to name a few) . When I was diagnosed with BPD, the criteria almost felt like it was made for me, but as I got older and changed environments, I no longer fit the criteria. 6 years after my BPD diagnosis, I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD (ADD). If I remember right, I also read that men are commonly misdiagnosed with ASPD or NPD before getting their BPD diagnosis. I would love more studies on this because I think it could change a lot in the medical world and how they look at mental health.

I’m surprised none of them talked about feeling empty, depersonalization, derealization, dissociating. I deal with those symptoms the most and it would’ve been nice to hear their experiences.

It would help so much to see a “I spent a day with ADHD people.” ADHD is so misunderstood to the point where people think only kids and males can have it. I could have got diagnosed so much earlier if there wasn’t such a stigma surrounding it! (edit: ALSO IT’S ADHD MONTH :))

I’ve never had a “Stable” relationship in my life. My father was/is a Narcissist and Sociopath caused by child abuse and my mother is the same diagnosis. I was an only child born into a cult marriage. I’m all kinds of messed up. I’ve had just about every diagnosis in the DSM batted at me over time since my first hospitalization at 10. I’m 32 and currently standing with 28 Hospitalization and on 16 pills a day (Most are multiple pills of one drug given throughout the day I don’t take them all at once) But it’s my BPD that causes me the most trouble. I have no one. Except my abuse ex I cling to because he’s all I have left other than my Cats. I’ve lost the will to live at this point. Not to survive. I don’t WANT to DIE I just have no motivation to go find a good life for myself. I’ve now been bed bound for 4 years and am desperately trying to claw my way out of this hole anyway I can. But when you’re being put down and screamed at all day it makes things worse. The worst thing is I know my ex could survive without me but I can’t without him so I have to humiliate myself by giving him money to help me because I have no one else who gives even cares. We had two kids together, my only two good decisions I’ve ever made was to give them up for adoption as babies to the same family so that they could at least have each other if I couldn’t be there and be well enough to care for them. BPD is a rollercoaster from hell with no seatbelt, you’re lucky if you survive at all and you’ll definitely be permanently injured by it at some part on the track of the roller coaster. Stay strong everyone. Don’t give up hope. Keep trying. I hope all sufferers don’t have to go thru what I do. Love and Light to All❤

I've destroyed every relationship I've ever had. Either because I cannot believe someone truly cares about me and I drive them away, or because they truly didn't have my better interest in mind and my disbelief led to finding out the truth. I'm going to destroy my friendships by constantly verifying their validity or I confirm that they were invalid, dishonest, and malicious.

I would love to see you do a “I Spent a Day with Formerly Homeless People”. My boyfriend recently transitioned out of homelessness and I think a video with more people like him would inspire and make him feel less alone.

Can we please talk about how people with BPD are often the ones being abused in a relationship instead of the other way around because it's so easy for toxic people to take advantage of? They're not always the villains.

I used to have BPD. I’ve heard BPD used as an armchair diagnosis and insult, by the people around me, not knowing that I had BPD. I have tried my best to suppress this part of myself, because I knew that if I showed the people around me this “dark side”, they would all run away. The people that I have shown this side all have. It takes so much effort to just stay alive, to suppress these mental illnesses for the comfort of others. I used to think I would rather just die, existing in this pain was just too much. But with a lot of self awareness, reading a lot of self help books, visiting a psych, going for therapy, taking my meds every day, I have improved so much. I am no longer diagnosed with BPD. It’s not easy, it took me years. But I just want to let all the people who have suffered this same illness know that, there is hope. It is possible to come to appreciate this life and all the things in it, in spite of your illness. Sending love to all the people suffering out there, you can do it. I see your efforts, trying to stay alive. And I am proud of all of you. Keep on the good fight, and never doubt that you deserve as much love as any human on this planet, in spite of your illness.

My relationship with BPD is so complex. My mam has the disorder. I know the pain it causes her and feel so sorry for her, but I also hate how she manipulates me and has since I was a small child. She is a victim of BPD, but in a lesser way so am I. It's so complicated and hurtful, and although I love her so much I cannot speak to her about the hurt she has done to me, because I know the reaction I would get from that conversation. It's also extra complicated as she is also an alcoholic, which exacerbates the issues. But no child should be stopping their mother's suicide attempts or being told they are hated, and then within hours being love bombed and cried on about how much their parent misses them. A horrible illness, for which the patients need much more support, but also their family.

“Emotion Regulation Disorder” - dude, that’s a MUCH more accurate name!! I’ve been taught that BPD is on the same wavelength as sociopathy/psychopathy. This video is really eye opening.

When I was in college, newly diagnosed with BPD, I was in a psych class taught by a licensed, practicing psychiatrist. When BPD came up, she went on a long tirade about how even mental hospitals shouldn't bother to try to treat these hyper-manipulative, evil, incurable women. I was lucky that incident made me angry at her instead of myself, because that could have been devastating. She was supposedly reprimanded, but as far as I know, she's still working.

My girlfriend has BPD and we’re always talking about our problems to each other. My OCD and her BPD, the things that we’re going through and how we can manage it by helping each other. I’m always helping her whenever and however I can and she loves me for that, and I love her for having the courage to tell me these things because she feels like she can’t tell anyone else.

I have been diagnosed with ADHD but I know a lot of people with BPD and some symptoms I really empathise with - like the ‘shame’ part that the writer woman talks about. People with ADHD also always feel shame from loss of control and not being enough etc etc. Talking to my friends though I know the crossover isn’t that huge between BPD and ADHD, it’s such a shame that BPD has such a bad rep though, everyone I know who has it is so full of love and especially when they manage it and work on the behaviours that push people away.

I would love to see "I spent a day with EATING DISORDERS" or like recovered eating disorder

*I spent a day with Anthony Padilla* I would love to hear him out too if he's comfortable doing so💕

It was nice (as someone with BPD) to see how amazing Anthony is at giving an interview that is completely removed of stigma

My mom has it, and now I understand a little more what she feels when that wave of emotions arrives

When she said “if I had to boil it down to two main things, it’s the rage and the shame” that hit me right in the chest

I love that Anthony is so open minded and he actually treats everyone like they are valid and I love that Edit: sorry if my wording made it seem that I think people aren’t valid. I was more trying to make a point that Anthony is such a nice human being and also, if I made my wording unclear I just thought it was nice that he doesn’t care because he is such a nice person... sorry again

I was diagnosed with bpd almost a year ago while in the hospital, I still remember how hard it hit me when I got the diagnosis. Now I’m going to therapy regularly, trying to form healthy relationships and slowly learning how to manage it. Thank you anthony for taking the time to learn and educate others on a disorder that has been demonized for far too long ❤️

When this video came out it helped me get diagnosed with BPD and the years of treatment because of it has changed my life. Thank you, Anthony.

As someone with BPD, I am ALWAYS a little hesitant when I see media discussing us, since we're so often demonized and misunderstood, but let me tell you, my little overly emotional heart is filled with joy right now! Thank you for giving us a voice and taking the time to listen, it literally means the world!

I've never clicked so fast. I have BPD and it's SO hard to find good representation of our disorder. The stigma around BPD is horrible. Most of the books you find on it are about getting away from us, how we're awful and manipulative and abusive and it's honestly so heartbreaking. I'm about to watch the video, knowing that I will find an interview that is fair and treated with kindness and understanding. Thank you for these videos.

I know that this is an older video, but I was recently diagnosed with BPD. This helped me further understand my diagnosis. I always thought I was just really sensitive, but this is very comforting to me

It's horrible to be abandoned by the person you trusted the most.

This is the most positive comment section I’ve ever seen

When Anthony talked about the self shame associated with depression, I felt validated. I often felt guilty for being depressed while living a very nice life. Like I was thinking about how people have it much worse than I do and it’s wrong for me to feel this way. Thank you, Anthony, for mentioning that.

How terrifying to have someone threaten to put you away!! Boy, do I KNOW how THAT feels!!

I have BPD and it makes me feel bad when people around me leave. Thank you for talking to people like me about their lives. You helped me understand more about my disorder.

Could you do spending a day with people who have OCD? I think that would be cool and insightful! (I fixed my typo sorry about that...)

This made me want to cry. This is something I've struggled with for so long, so hearing others share their experiences too feels both painful but relieving at the same time. Thank you for spreading awareness on this debilitating disorder.

It's now BPD Awareness Month, and as someone who was diagnosed with 15, this is in incredible video. The love, the understanding, everythinh about this is wonderful. I'm now 20, turning 21, and I am in a fairly successful relationship for almost 4 years now. The number one tip I can give you is communication is key. Find different ways to communicate if talking is hard. You got this

Always in pain is how I would describe it. Pain of shame guilt emotion emptiness. Something that hurts.

I was diagnosed with BPD when i was was 16 and have never heard someone elses story or met someone who openly said they had it. This video made me feel less alone and thank you for giving a platform for people to talk about it ❤

I have BPD and I’ve wanted him to do this for so long and I’m literally crying

I was misdiagnosed for nearly 30 years as just having depression. Finally diagnosed a year ago with attachment disorder and BPD. I still struggle with these and more, but at least I am now medication free and can practice some mindfulness. I am very aware of others emotions, but unfortunately you will no longer find many in me. I say that I feel for others when they're having hard times, but I truly don't get to the level of empathy.

Aspiring therapist here and I am cringing over how y’all were treated. This video is fueling the flame for me though 🥺

I would love to see “I spent a day with people with PTSD” it’s not always represented well

Love that Stacy mentioned the positives of feeling intensely.

I wish we could have a 2nd part to this video because there is so much more I could cover and explain to people as a person with BPD.

My mom has BPD and ive been trying really hard to understand her side of things so thank you for helping me understand her a bit more

My names Christian, and I am medically diagnosed with BPD. She's right in saying mental health professionals sometimes refuse to treat us. I recently went to a mental hospital off a suicide attempt, and the doctor released me immediately as soon as I revealed that I have BPD. She said "we can't help you, you're too manipulative". She barely even talked to me for 10 minutes lol wth

I found out I had BPD through a mental hospital, not through the place I was going to therapy for years. They always dismissed my explanations and say it would be describe by it being my depression or like “processing.” It made zero sense to me so, I of course ended up in a hospital and a doctor just flat out told me after asking a few questions that I had BPD. Brand new journey really I have a whole new therapy place I go too and met my new psychiatrist. Went through an IOP program. Next Monday I get to get in with my new therapist and hopefully establish a therapist as well as going through the proper diagnosis system, because I was told I’m high in some of the test I’ve done, for both BPD and Bipolar so it’s definitely a confusing process. And frustrating because once a proper diagnosis is made I can try to help myself better than just being stuck between two disorders not really knowing wtf is wrong with me.

Borderline here. Still working on understanding myself more, but I just realized I have NEVER planned a leaving of a job. It has always been a super emotional and on a whim experience where I leave that VERY moment due to some sort of emotional outburst

Spend a day with autistic women! Autism is very different in males and females, which is not a wide known fact. Women with autism are usually diagnosed very late in life (30yr+) or they may go their whole life undiagnosed (due to masking).

When I google bpd to find other people's experiences with it, I only ever find articles about how to deal with family members who have it, and how to deal with "their manipulative ways" 🙃

I have bpd. I have never felt so seen. Thank you Anthony. I'm crying just watching this. It's so hard to remember you aren't alone. Thank you, you have no idea how much this means to me.

The fact that these people can open up about the things they've done because of this disorder shows an enormous amount of self compassion. That's amazing.

I'm a "quiet" borderline. Which honestly just adds an extra layer of shame and guilt because I still experience all of the symptoms without having the "proof" of big emotional outbursts. I feel like I'm constantly trying to convice those around me who only see the high functioning parts. This video is incredibly validating, and it brings me so much comfort to know that the dialogue around BPD is becoming less stigmatized and more accepting. Thank you ❤

please do “I spent a day with severe phobia disorder” as someone who suffers from an extreme “irrational” phobia, it’s something that drastically impacts my daily life and I would love to see other people who can relate to this and bring awareness to it Edit: thank you so much for everyone who has shared their phobias❤️ reading these comments have made me feel so much less alone in the struggles I go through everyday. Anthony PLEASE do this episode it would mean so much

As someone with bpd I feel so validated and finally humanized, the way Anthony talks about us is sympathetic and it feels so nice to have someone not only listen to people and learn from people with bpd but have a completely open mind about it and not completely assume we are monsters.

I might be perfectly fine one moment and then my friend will say something that I perceive as even remotely negative, and I start to distance myself often without even realizing. I am constantly overanalizing facial expressions and the tone of someone's voice for traces of anything other that happiness and if my brain thinks it's found it then it's game over. It leaves me with very few friends and no one to trust, because I always assume that they're mad at me or they don't care or they don't want me.

as someone with bpd, this makes me so unbelievably happy

I would love to see a "i spent a day with a person with narcolepsy" its so underrepresented, misunderstood and even ignored in the medical community! It would mean so much to see some representation, accurate vs the Hollywood version, as a person with narcolepsy!

I watched this before diagnosis, thinking I just had anxiety and depression, and after, and I’m just so shocked that I didn’t see it sooner. All of this makes sense. I love the way he handled this topic because I don’t feel bad talking about. I just feel like “wow this is relatable”, but it feels safe. So thank you again for this video. 💜

i just wanted to say that this video really helped my understanding of BPD! i’ve been cut off by close friends & family members with BPD with no explanation of why. for years, the losses of those relationships plagued me. they still make my heart hurt, but hearing your guests speak about their experiences made me understand my loved ones’ behavior so much better. i think it’s super important to spread awareness and understanding of BPD, as the folks who have it are often villainized by mental health professionals. (i once asked a therapist how to cope with the extremes of loved ones’ BPD symptoms and they told me “avoid them at all costs, that person is toxic to you”. that didn’t help!!!) borderline folks, you are loved and don’t deserve any stigma!

I've struggled with trying to explain BPD to my friends and family. After showing this to my husband he finally said "I'm so sorry that I have not been able to understand what's going on" he's always been there for me but now it is comforting that he understands just a bit more. To anyone who needs to hear it: You are NOT your disorder it is a PART of you. You are a WONDERFUL person and deserve to be loved.

I love seeing him talking about mental disorders that are typically seen as "bad" im so sick of the negative connotation of having bpd and its refreshing to see someone be completely respectful and genuinely curious about its ins and outs. Fantastic job Anthony ❤

Learning the term “splitting” is very interesting to me because I’ve kind of been referring to it as flipping a switch

I had a 16year long friendship with a girl with bpd. Last year I had to cut strings since she refused to get help and always tendet back to self harming behavior which really broke my heart. She also got more and more aggressive towards me so I had to leave for my own sake.. I am so happy to see people getting help and having a somewhat positive outlook on the future. Espacially the words "there is treatment, things can get better" really touched me. I hope she one day will come to that Realisation as well.

would looove to see “a day with social anxiety”, a lot of the time people can think we’re being rude and we dislike everyone but it’s not true!! it’s getting quite common now especially so i think it could open some eyes and maybe help some people to feel less alone! :)

Something that didn't come up during this interview that is important to know is that not all people with BPD are acting out in a way that can be easily seen! There are also people with BPD where the pain and emotional turmoil is first and foremost directed inwards, and there are not as many emotional outbursts. That can make it even harder to get the correct diagnosis, because by many people (including psychiatrists) BPD is always seen as something that is centered around acting out a lot and something that can easily be seen. I've been told by a psychiatrist who met me for the first time that "she didn't think I had BPD" after only talking for a short while, which is a mind boggling thing to me.

I’ve been diagnosed for over 5 years now and I just have to say.. thank you. Thank you for how you covered this and for bringing light to it Love your videos and how you speak on some of the hardest topics with the most compassion and understanding

it's so cool seeing anthony do this now and how well he treats the people he interviews. I love him in Smosh and i'm so happy to see him doing this now!

If it’s possible at all, I’d like to see you do Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD.) I notice that people demonize those that have this disorder too. We’re all humans, I’d like to see somebody talk about this without passing judgment

Just please remember there are different kinds of BPD and not everyone gets violent/angry or manipulative. Some of us are just really sad.

I really appreciate you doing this episode. It's nice hearing others stories with BPD. I related so much. There is alot more I understand you couldn't include but this is a great starting point

this means so much to so many people. thank you anthony

You need to do one on schizophrenia. Seriously, so misunderstood.

"I'm an expert in destroying relationships, so let me tell you..." IF THAT ISN'T A WHOLE MOOD I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS. Edit: First of all - thanks for the likes. It's a subtle reminder i'm not the only one who feels this way. Secondly, for those who may be confused, i'm not glorifying the concept of destroying relationships, nor am i implying i (or anyone else) does it on purpose. To be called a 'demon' is a seemingly-now-deleted comment is a bit much. This is the stigmatizing that i was hoping videos like this with Anthony's non-judgmental approach would help alleviate.

Omg about the abandonment by therapist I went through that and it sucked so much. Feeling like I did not have any chance to get better. Thanks for making this video and interviews. Great input.

This was such an excellent video ❤️I love that you had a number of people who struggled with BPD as it presents differently from person to person.