I literally cry because I think about how other people don’t even have a second thought about anything they do and they can enjoy so many things. I feel so debilitated and like I can never live my life fully again. I hate myself for the decision I made because I feel like I ruined my life.

@@victoriar8928 I felt the same thing, it does get better though

Same. Same dude. It's killing me right now. I just want someone to tell me I'm gonna make it

@@SchweppeSounds I wish we could know the future how are you doing

@@arielabeyta9500hey Ariel how are you doing now? It’s been a year.

Hi do you feel better? Mine has never been this bad before

Coryn Elizɑbeth hello!! I’m so so sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you and I really really hope you’re doing ok. My UKposts app wasn’t allowing me to view certain comments for the longest time and I have no idea why, but I just got on to check on comments again and realized this one was fully shown and available to reply to now! I hope you get this and again I really hope you’re doing better!

I hope you are okay chris. I got this in 2018 after smoking weed and I have had ups and downs. I am 19 now and I am in some of the worst emotional pain I've ever been in, I really need help

@@SchweppeSounds I'm so sorry! The only thing that has ever helped make it go away is xanax. I have been taking that for 27 years! It's get me through the times where panic and dpdr last for months .... then I try not to take it at all. I hope this helps.

@@chubster71 I've really been thinking about getting on it. What could i tell a psychiatrist to maybe get on it? Is it super addictive and does it really make you feel like a zombie?

@@chubster71 do you ever have moments of normalcy?

Harambe hey man, first off, love your profile name hahaha. But man I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. But that’s insane that same thing basically happened to me as well when I was 17 :/ I remember feeling “depersonalized” on lsd but it went away when the drug wore off. Then while laying down like a month later it felt like something just snapped me back into dpdr. I thought I was having an acid flashback (still don’t know if those are real) but after a couple months I finally researched my symptoms and realized I had dpdr, then after that it took me probably about a year to get out of. I’m currently dealing with it for the second time and it’s even worse than the first. I’m really sorry you’re going through this and I really hope it eases up soon for you. Hang in there and try to stay as calm as possible. And don’t know if you’re already doing this, but I’d recommend stopping all drug usage.

@@dannypassenger6234 One of the main reasons people take shrooms and lsd in the first place is to get a climpse at "depersonalization". I don't know whether what the Buddhists are trying to stabilize is the same thing you guys are suffering from, though.

Stay strong. Im dealing with it very bad too

I'm dealing with the same symptoms. Stay away from anything negative.

Are you doing good now?

@@Oma.intern in and out most still depersonalized

@@wakabarz5880 how are u doing now?

How u doin now?

I get the same feeling. Feel like I'm on auto pilot. I end up questioning everything dam feeling of mine. I overthink about my perception of life etc, and I am always in a high state but for no reason. I feel like I'm in my own high bubble all the time, and have some weird flu like symptoms. It scares me, particularly when choosing to start a relationship.

How are you now

Raquel Bernal hey! So sorry to hear your goin for this mindfuck of a ride for the second time also :/ it’s crazy how different it feels this time and how much more intense it’s been. But gettin there slowly I hope. I’m definitely here if you’d like to talk to someone!

Danny Passenger yes. It’s so much worse than before. Almost another level! Before I could actually live with it and be okay, but now it’s every waking moment. Do you ever have confusion out of no where then you start to panic?

Raquel Bernal yeah I still get that sometimes. Not fun. I had a pretty long period of time where I had terrible terrible confusion. I would go to sleep dissociated, have dreams of dissociation, then wake up completely lost. Like not knowing where I was or what I was or what the hell was going on and shaking/trembling from panic. It was awful.

Raquel Bernal have you tried things to try to ease the dissociation at all already? Like exercise and cutting out caffeine/drinking/smoking if do those at all? Or any supplements or medication?

Danny Passenger So, I have completely cut out caffeine because it was giving me terrible anxiety. I don’t smoke at all and I do drink on occasion. The drinking makes it somewhat better, but the next day I feel worse. I have just started taking magnesium supplements to see if it helps. I haven’t been exercising :/ I do eat fairly healthy though.

Lindsay Dickinson hey thanks so much for reaching out! It was definitely very comforting to read what you’ve dealt with. Just to know you can over come this multiple times. Inspiring indeed. Although I’m sorry it’s a recurring thing for you that also sounds terrible. Hope you’re continuing to feel better!

How are you doing now?

Same aff i HATE THIS

I am experiencing same symptoms. I'm staying away from anything or anybody negative. They are trigger stressors.

@@jonathankropinskiyeah same here. Trying my best to avoid triggers but it’s difficult

What most people don't understand is that these types of illness are spiritually related. Today I just spoke on the phone for over 2 hours with a young man who has experienced all the symptoms I've had for 5 years he was trapped and depersonalization derealization for 16 years and has been healed. He explained to me how to get healed and I am taking the path to find Deliverance. The triggers are based off moral or ethical issues. That is why they are hard to avoid. This is why psychiatrist and psychologist are very unhelpful is because they're not willing to go down the roads of discussing morality which are the triggers to these illnesses. It's not politically correct

Almost everyone that has had depersonalization derealization has had some kind of recreational drug usage that has helped trigger the symptoms. These are correlating avenues that this illness finds a way into people's lives

@@jonathankropinski yea that makes sense when you think about it

Jason Perez hey man!! Yes absolutely that’s one of my most hated symptoms. It’s so frustrating and can be such a downer when you’re tryin to keep your mind off of the condition. But yeah places I’ve been and people I’ve known my whole life feel foreign to me and it breaks my heart sometimes. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with that part of it right now, but know you’re not alone man and it can get better! I’ve gotten through it before and am trying to be patient. Stay strong man! If you need anything else I’ll be here!

Thank you for the positivity man I really appreciate it and all the feedback. It means a lot hope you are finding more relief as well!

@@dannypassenger6234 how are you doing now?

SpeedBoy damn I’m so sorry to hear that. Have you seen a doctor about it? Sounds like it may be a concussion related thing then?

Yes I suffered a few blows to the head after a really bad car accident. I’ve slowly became worse, hoping to see a plateau then at least I’ll know I won’t be getting worse.

I agree wholly with what you said about most Dp/Dr. sufferers seeming like really good people. I've often thought that as well. You were really on the .mark describing this stuff. It is very scary at times, sometimes almost managable.I just pray we all can get all the way back to where we need to be.

Memory loss is also a hallmark of DPDR. Brain is so stressed that hippocampus shuts down. But the brain is like plastic it can heal, memory will heal when dpdr is healing. If it is dementia sorry to hear that

Fellow DP/DR sufferer here, whatever I am! I'm not sure what is real. What is "I"? Where is this "I"? These and more questions go round and round in many a person's head. In my case, too much.

How are you doing now

Kassie Castillo yes absolutely! It’s a very scary feeling. Voices in general became weird to me. But yeah mine especially was really strange and was easy to obsess over

Yes my vision is spotty and blurry, it’s like I can see everything normally but I don’t feel like I’m actually seeing anything it’s so annoying I’ve had it for 3-4 years no I really don’t know what to do

@@adamyoutube1742 yes I get it when I've been drinking or don't get enough sleep the night before. It's like I can see but I'm seeing things TV like

i feel this 100% 😓

@@kaseyex760 when did yours start?

Kenni Charne I’ve had it on and off for about 10 years, but since the pandemic hit its gotten really awful.

Jason Perez yeah man :/ that’s one of the worst symptoms of this damn thing. It’s like people you’ve known your whole life who are the closest to you become foreign all of a sudden and look strange. I still have this symptom pretty heavily sometimes. It’s terrible. I’m sorry you’re going through this I hope it eases up soon.

Danny Passenger thank you for the response god bless

Peacemaker hello! I am so so sorry to hear about the state that you’re in. Honesty breaks my heart because I’ve been there. Look I’m no professional, but my heart tells me you have severe depersonalization/derealization. I don’t know if you’ve experienced any bad trauma in your life, but dpdr is definitely a symptom of ptsd. But for all the other things you think you might have, I am 99% positive you don’t have those things and only dpdr. I know your psychiatrist doesn’t seem to help, but I’ve heard that often with dpdr. Unfortunately it’s pretty hard to find a therapist/psychiatrist that actually understands/specialize in dissociative disorders. But trust me I thought I had all of those things as well. My dpdr came back worse than I had ever known November of last year, and I’m just now starting to feel somewhat normal again. And that’s after attempting everything I could to feel better. Even seeking professional help. So I’m gonna make another video on my recovery so far very soon, but probably one of the only things that helped me were Xanax. And I am NOT trying to promote benzos, but it really helped me. I went to the emergency room on Jan 1st for the worst panic attack/dissociative episodes I’ve ever had and was gonna be taken in for a 51/50, but then the doctor gave me a Xanax first. I passed out in the hospital right after taking it and when I woke up, it was like I was normal again. Very confused as to what had just happened, but normal. That feeling eventually wore off, but the fact that I got to experience what normal felt like again, I knew it was possible to get there. They gave me a prescription of only about 10 and I currently have one left. I didn’t abuse this because that can be VERY dangerous and even worsen your symptoms. I would only take one when I felt the worst of the worst panic attacks coming on. Anyways I know that’s a long story, but maybe it’d be worth trying to get off medication and trying something else? But I’ve also heard you have to stick with a medication for a couple of months for it to fully work so it’s hard to say and again I’m not a professional so I don’t know if you should take my advice. I’ve done SO much research on this disorder, and the thing about being on medication is that it seems to help some people and not help others unfortunately. But that DOES NOT mean that you can’t be cured. It just may take a longer time and the most patience you’ll ever use in your life. I recommend looking up a channel called “IN PEACE WITH REALITY” on UKposts. She has a video describing her experience with dpdr and other videos about her recovery. But just hearing her talk about what she felt when she was at her worst, then hearing that she came out of it eventually was so relieving to hear and helped me so much. She said it took her two and a half years but she did it! So please please please hang in there, I promise you I was just as bad for too long also. If you have more questions feel free to ask! I hope this helped at all!

Peacemaker ukposts.info/have/v-deo/boCpn69qg22osp8.html That’s the link to the video I mentioned!

Hey how are you doing now?

MATE COMPLETELY THE SAME. FUCKING HELL ITS LITERALLY COMPLETELY THE SAME. FUCKIMG HELL LITERALLY ME ALL THE YIME ITS INFINITE. FUCKKKK

Joseph Cassano Hey man I’m really sorry to hear that. But if it helps at all I at one point totally related to what you described, and it was so scary. The whole feeling of knowing what nothingness feels like. It was terrifying. So when I was at my absolute worst one of the first things I did was scheduled an appointment at my local mental health center with a therapist and psychiatrist, have you seen either? How long ago did you take the acid? Cause I also made the mistake of trying molly while having it pretty bad which is what sent me into the absolute worst of it. All I can say is try to get help and try your hardest to just hang in there, because that’s all you kinda can do right now you know? I’m currently still dealing with it everyday but it’s way better than it was at its worst. Took about 3 months or so just to be able to function again really. I was bed ridden for so long pretty much but just hang in there. Try everything and anything such as supplements/exercise/yoga/massages (helped me feel a bit grounded) and try to stay away from further drug use. Even nicotine/alcohol/weed if you can. Hang in there!

Danny Passenger hey thank you so much for replying, it honestly makes me feel a lot better that I’m not the only one who’s went through this. I wonder if there is a deeper meaning to it and we can make something good out of it. It seems to me that the people who have this are usually loving people and deep thinkers. Some days are worse then others, I took the lsd about 3 and a half weeks ago. My dreams are sometimes more real then my day to day life which is also a big issue that is confusing the hell out of me, I also remember most of them. I’m seeing a therapist at school and she’s done okay so far but not a lot of ppl can understand this, it’s very hard to put into words for someone who has never had it, that’s why I think places like your channel are so helpful. How did you deal with the feeling of not being in your own body, like when you look at your hands or in the mirror, or try to sleep

Danny Passenger I also smoked weed while on the lsd which catapulted it , the ceiling looked like an ocean and everything started breaking apart in square fractals, it was like weed paranoia x10

Joseph Cassano hey man sorry it took me so long to reply, was pretty active over the weekend and didn’t want to give a half assed answer lol. But as far as the “deeper meaning” question to all of this, I wonder that same thing everyday dude. Like why have I experienced this? Why would anyone deserve this? No one does, and I so agree that everyone that has this seems like a good person and compassionate for wanting to help others. Not sure what the meaning is, but the simplest one I can think of is just patience and mental strength. Whoever’s able to go through this and come out the other side, now has the mental strength of freakin Rambo I feel. Also one thing I’ve noticed is that it’s humbled me out in a weird way. Like you just want everything and everyone to be ok, and for me it makes me less tolerant for people that want to hurt others. Idk man it just gives you such a fucking crazy perspective on the totally insane mystery we’re experiencing daily called life, that a lot of people don’t really stop to think about what the hell is even going on. Anyways hope some of that made sense haha. But as for dealing with feeling outside of your body and learning to sleep, I still haven’t fully been able to get there, but am getting just a tad bit closer everyday I feel like. Lately when I start to feel panicky I just try to tell myself it’s just dissociation and keep going about my day or night. Some days are harder than others, but we don’t really have a choice yuh know? Like I said just trying to push my patience to the max everyday. Something I haven’t done but maybe I’d recommend, there’s a guy that makes videos called The Anxiety Ninja and he has a program he made to help people get through dpdr. Like I said I’ve never tried it but it helped many people! Maybe it’s worth checking out!

Joseph Cassano sorry just realized I missed a couple of your questions, but as far as looking in the mirror goes I still cant really do it for more than just a brief moment at a time. Still weirds me out unfortunately. But I can wash my hands now and actually enjoy a shower more which I’m stoked about. I literally wasn’t able to shower at my worst and showers were like my safe zone for my entire life. Just the feeling of looking down and watching my limbs move was just way too freaky, same with washing my hands. But I can do them now, definitely still get in my head during both sometimes but it’s way easier to manage.

Zachariah Turner hey thanks so much man! So don’t know how much research you’ve already done on dpdr, but basically it comes from high anxiety and panic levels. Your “fight or flight” response. So the tingling and pains you are feeling I’m sure are from anxiety and stress. I actually saw a doctor once about all my pains I was experiencing and he couldn’t find anything wrong with me, then he asked if I had anxiety. Basically I told him I have extreme anxiety and he told me all the pain I was having was very common in anxiety and stress. I’ve dealt with the tingling a bunch when feeling very anxious also. And I’ve done a lot of research on dpdr and a very common symptom is the whole “cotton brains” feeling. The pains are all over my body, but mostly shoulders, neck, and back pains that are all very common with anxiety. Along with headaches also. So hopefully no need to worry that it’s something else. But I do recommend if you have insurance to get checked out anyways just so you can confirm you’re all good and you can put the health anxieties behind you! And lastly I relate 100% with the whole feeing like you’re already dead feeling, again that’s also very common with dpdr. But we’re not dead! Not yet sir! Hang in there man it takes so so much patience and time but just try to cooperate with it and enjoy the small parts that you can, it’ll ease up.

@@dannypassenger6234 thanks so much for your reply. And yes this all came after long long long period of high high anxiety and super panic...... To me my body couldn't take it so it shut down and became numb. This all came from what I call intrusive thoughts with the thoughts can panic attacks anxiety. for me I feel like at times I have the flu all the time although I know I don't my body just feels like LED and I'm constantly feeling weird of course. I drive at night with my job so I drive long hours and my body always feels sickly like I have the flu. Another question is does your dp/Dr make you have bad acid reflux or almost at the point when it's extreme it almost makes you want to throw up. And the last question sorry to bother you at night when I drive and I'm going through it really bad feeling detached so to speak I feel like I have on a pair of sunglasses at night it's like my vision is going away from me at times it's so weird it's as if I'm out of my body and when I look out onto the dark road it looks as if I'm squinting or I have on really dark sunglasses again this happens when it's really bad. But thanks for your video glad to know I'm not alone hang in there brother thanks a lot!!

Zachariah Turner sorry you deal with intrusive thoughts :/ I definitely have those they’re not fun. But it’s a very real thing you can actually google and read about! And there’re ways to try to neutralize them. So for your first question, I do have weird throat issues because of anxiety, like I always have to clear my throat, but nothings actually wrong. I got my thyroid checked out and everything and I guess it’s like a nervous tic I developed but yeah it constantly feels like somethings in my throat. I’ve never really actually felt nauseous I’ve always had a pretty strong stomach, but again if you look up common high anxiety symptoms nausea is actually one of them. I had a roommate that also dealt with high anxiety and he always had stomach issues, I felt really bad for him. But for your last question, it’s kinda hard to explain. Basically when my dpdr was at its worst, the best way to describe my vision was like I felt like my eyes were closed or I couldn’t open them enough, like nothing was registering and there was such a disconnect from everything in site. Like my brain wasn’t really grasping what I was seeing. Hope this made some sense. But I have a question for you, you say you drive long nights for work, how’s your sleep? Sleep deprivation is TERRIBLE. I had it for a long time and it worsens dissociation so much. Sleep really is no joke. It’s so so important!

@@dannypassenger6234 I actually sleep fine I sleep like a baby LOL. I just feel like when driving it makes it worse at least at night I don't know it seems like every day there's something weird that comes against me something new and you're always like is this the one that's going to kill me some new pain or some new weird symptom running through your body. I find with me I realize every single Creek every single movement inside of my body now that I had depersonalization I feel like I noticed every sharp pain everything is heightened in my body sometimes when I eat the food going down feel so weird at almost drives me crazy

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Relentless God hey man! So sorry it took me awhile to get back to you. But I am so so sorry you’re going through this at such a young age. Hang in there bud I know it’s hard. Try to do things to get your mind off of it for even a second if you can! Go outside and just try to enjoy your youth! Have you talked to your parents about this? I’m here for yuh bud if you have questions. Dpdr can stem from many different things, any idea when it started?

Danny Passenger yes I’ve told my parents about this my mom helps me and says it’s gonna be ok and my dad too I think this all happened with one panic attack about three months ago in an elevator I felt dpdr it was still there the second day then for three months it’s been on and off till last week when it felt like it went to another level Now I feel like I forgot what was life I have no sense of self I feel like I’m gonna go unconscious any second and be like a baby again and unaware I have the weridest dreams most of the time I feel like I don’t know where I am and much more I don’t even feel like I’m living life I feel like I’m detached from life and I it’s this feeling like what is life what am I where am I have to constantly keep reminding myself it’s like I forgot what it’s like to be normal I swear sometimes I think I’m in some weird world or a video game and I feel like a video game character my birthday was yesterday I’m 12 now I went to the pool with my friends and had a pretty good time I forgot about it for a little bit but it felt weird like even tho I had a good time it felt like I wasn’t truly in the moment I don’t know it’s hard to explain I question everything i don’t know man have you felt like this? Have you got better from the state that you where in in this video?

Btw I also feel like i don’t even exist I can’t recognize my self in the mirror my thoughts don’t feel like mine my memory’s of what life used to be like feels weird I don’t know it’s hard to explain

Relentless God first off happy belated birthday man! Glad to hear you had a good time and were able to get your mind off of things for a bit. But after reading your comment I just want to assure you that yes, I have felt all of those things very strongly before, and that they are all definitely symptoms of dpdr. Maybe the more severe symptoms, but dpdr nonetheless. I know they can be very terrifying and disorienting, but know that you are in no immediate danger, even though it may feel that way all of the time. I’m very sorry you’re going through this at such a young age man, but just no you’re not at all alone! Even if it feels that way. I’m really glad to hear your parents are supportive of you, have they tried taking you to see a doctor of any sorts? You seem like a very very smart kid dude. Hang in there! You’re gonna figure this out, it’ll seem like a bad dream after awhile. You’re still so young and I know you’ll get out of it eventually. Try anything and everything you can and just try to stay strong! And yes I have definitely gotten better since this video. Not fully recovered yet but it’s definitely not taking over my life as much as it used to. Things are still scary but way more manageable. And sometimes when I’m having a good time I forget about it for awhile which is nice.

Felix Paz yeah man unfortunately. It’s been getting better forsure though, but there were definitely moments where time got so so strange. This may be a dumb comparison, but you know when people say that dogs don’t perceive time the way we do? I felt like I was pretty damn sure I knew how they experienced it. It was so distorted for the longest time I can’t even really describe it. There were moments when I’d have to drive back to my house multiple times because I couldn’t get in my brain that I had closed my garage door. Short term memory was shot. But it’s just the disorder man it gets better. Even if you google like “anxiety time distortion” there’s a good amount of articles relating back to symptoms of dpdr. Hope you’re doing alright this thing is the ultimate mind fuck I don’t wish on anyone. Hang in there.

@@dannypassenger6234 thank god im not the only one living in this state of mind. I feel dumb because there are some words that i forget to spell that i knew for sure how to spell. although im still in this Derealization mode i feel like itss getting better because ive come to terms that this is just something that can come from panic attacks or generalized anxiety disorder which is what i have. all the doctors say im fine my blood is fine, heart, and brain ( didnt take MRI but passed Many Physical exams). My Therapist also come to the conclusion that I have Derealization. she explained to me how she had it when she was younger and got over it and she'll be able to help me out. Im just very glad that people are also going through things like this as I am.

TOPPO THE GOD OF DESTRUCTION hello! Sorry it took me a sec to respond. But yes absolutely to both. My memories felt very strange and foreign and felt like I was “remembering” them wrong like I couldn’t get the original view of certain memories right. Don’t know if that makes sense. Or like I would wake up and immediately start thinking of the past and it felt like it had never happened. Very scary. And focus problems for sure. When it was at its absolute worst I felt so scared driving because I felt like I was gonna lose consciousness at any second and everything seemed foreign to me and when I’d drive to places I’d been 1,000 times I would second guess myself on how to get there and feel like I was almost lost most of the time. This disorder is so insanely disorienting and so frustrating. I hope you’re doing ok though. Are these symptoms pretty strong for you?

Every hour, it's called daydreaming

For me weed just brought it out. Then I took lsd and well yea you can only imagine. We’re going to get through this though I think the best thing is to have community on here to help each other

yeah weed brought it on for me dude shit sucks everyone always says OH WEEDS GREAT YOU CANT OVERDOSE ITS NATURAL AND MAKES YOU FEEL AWESEOME yeah well they never told me about the panic attacks anxiety and derealization

Yo bro do you still have it as bad ?

@@tristanroche5895 no early February it started to get better now I’m in school and doing well I feel it in moments I’m hoping that it never gets that bad again I’ll literally do anything to change so that I never experience that again

Don't worry things will get better. I'm experiencing the same thing you're mentioning.

Literally man likr im in a hole forever and ive goven up trying. I need to get back but i have no idea how. I hope youre doing better?

Hang in there man

Yo bro are you still having this happen to you ?

yes. some days I feel like I've already lived through that day.

Same

Same

Kassie Castillo Hey! So yes I believe I’m getting better. Thanks so much for asking. I’m definitely still “in it” but I can function pretty normally now. Like go out with friends and have drinks and go to the damn grocery store without freaking out lol. This thing takes so much patience it’s insane. How are you doing? Any progress? Even the slightest bit? I remember at one point a few months ago when I was at my worst I couldn’t imagine what life would be like right now but hey I’m here. What a trip.

Jblade0077 hey man! So sorry it took me so long to respond! But man I’m sorry to hear about this. How’ve you been doing? Were you able to get rid of it from 24-51? Can’t imagine getting it from a car accident. But yes people definitely get it from weed. Such a bummer

A lot of it is mineral imbalance, unfortunately nobody talks about that.

Do you have more information on that?

@@OmegaMan. yes sir! watch this video, then google dr l wilson.com. Spend as much time as you can reading the articles about health, etc. ukposts.info/have/v-deo/jF2VfmluaYd7mn0.html Do not venture the internet for more sources, only browse and trust these 2 sources. Start a the free development program, mentioned on the site. (do not try any supplements yet). Email Lewis. I hope I brought to you to the right place :D

Kassie Castillo Hello! Unfortunately no I am not recovered. Thanks for asking though. I think I can say I’m getting better though. Like I’m sure I’m positive I am, but the recovery process is so strange and not a lot of people talk about it. At least for me it is. Like I completely forgot what everything felt like when I was “normal” so I don’t really have anything to compare what I’m feeling now to yuh know? But I’m definitely way less panicky and anxious than I was before. Like things might seem off and weird still but it doesn’t at all scare me as much as it used to. Like when I think of symptoms now, I just think to myself “huh that’s weird” then am able to kinda just go along with things, as opposed to being bed ridden absolutely horrified of everything lol. Hope that all made sense. How are you?

@@dannypassenger6234 hey bro any update ?

Please seek help if you haven’t already. I have suffered for much as well and I have faith that things can get better for you. Stay strong.

@@robojeda9192 thank you for giving me hope

Look into getting Jordan Hargrove dpdr course

AZ hey man so sorry it took me so long to get back to you. How’re you doing? Have you had dpdr for long? I definitely know what it’s like to be bed ridden from this. It’s absolutely terrifying and I’m sorry you’re going through this

Danny Passenger yeah I’ve had dpdr for about a year or more. I’m trying to do better every day but school is where my dpdr is overwhelming man. Soon as I walk in the front doors my dpdr just sky rockets

@@azbeats4067 how are you doing now?

Same afff

Kassie Castillo I was prescribed Paxil but never started it. But I did go to the hospital on Jan 1st for the worst panic attack I’ve ever felt and they gave me Xanax and my god that stuff is a blessing and a curse at the same time I hear. Basically when they gave it to me at the hospital I passed out cause I hadn’t slept or eaten the whole night and day, then when I woke up in the hospital I felt the most normal I had ever felt in months. It was such a relief and insane. But the downside is that stuff is extremely addictive and can make things way worse if you become dependent on them, and the withdrawals are terrible and cause dpdr as well. So since Jan 1st I’ve only taken Xanax about 5 or 6 times probably? Only when I feel I’m at my absolute worst and feeling a panic attack coming on and I think that helped me so much. But again they feel so great it’s easy to get addicted.

Tanner Brandon Hey man! So for your first question no I didn’t get it from weed. I got it once when I was 17 or 18 from lsd, then again when I was 26 from a gnarly panic attack, then again from molly later in the year, then panic attacks kept happening that worsened and worsened it. But I didn’t have it for 8 years really. I was able to get over it for the most part I think after about a year of having it when I was 18. I feel like it never completely 100% went away though, like it was silently still there, like I knew it was a part of me, but I was able to live my life without thinking about it and live normally for sure. But yeah came back with a vengeance last year and I’ve been dealing with it again ever since. Its definitely getting better though. Such a slow progression, but day by day I notice it’s getting a little easier to deal with. I can go out now and enjoy myself more and not be as afraid of existence as before. How are you? Did you get it from weed?

@@dannypassenger6234 so is this something that is permanent?:/

Tanner Brandon No! It doesn’t have to be. Although it was pretty much gone the last 8 years, I could’ve been better to myself. I partied and partied so much which is why I think it never left completely lol. You just need to take care of yourself. It’ll fade. The way I see it is you’re in jail right now. And you have a sentence to be served, even if you don’t deserve it. And you can be patient and do your time, you can worsen the sentence by bad behavior, or you can possibly get out early on good behavior. How long have you had it for?

@@dannypassenger6234 3 years constant. I feel the longer it's constant the less I'm likely to recover?:/

Tanner Brandon oh man sorry to hear it’s been 3 years but that doesn’t mean it’s permanent! Try looking up “depersonalization 10 years” on UKposts. There’s a dude that makes videos on how he overcame it after having it for 10 years. Maybe it’ll help you? Can I ask what you’ve tried to make it better? Such as like cutting out caffeine/alcohol/weed/nicotine, fixing sleep schedule, supplements, medication, etc?

Kassie Castillo Not annoying at all! Compared to when I was at my worst I’m definitely getting a sense of self back, but it’s still very weak. I think that’s probably the hardest part of all this. For me at least. Mine was so bad I couldn’t recognize myself in the mirror really, and while laying in bed at night I would have a hard time even thinking about what my face looked like. Then when I would look at a photo of myself I would get that it was me but felt very disconnected from it. So scary :(

Relentless God hey man! Sorry I’ve been MIA lately. But I was meaning to message you, I don’t think the last message you sent ever went through. Like my notifications showed me you messaged me, but I when I’d click on it to read it, it was as if it got deleted all together and I couldn’t find it in the comments. But just wanted to know did you end up seeing a therapist yet? But hang in there bud I know this thing is the absolute worst, but you are here and you are real I promise. This is happening and it’s real although it may feel so strange.

Danny Passenger hello I’m I haven’t seen a therapist yet I’m actually going tomorrow but I have a couple of questions if you don’t mind i ask, this is something that scares me at night I can like see my soul like lagging behind my body and it scares me it’s like I can see my soul coming out of me but it only happens when I move my arm up and down but I don’t know if it’s my soul because I see it on another objects sometimes you know like when you move your arm really fast and you can kinda see it behind it Idk how to explain it like the super hero flash when he moves really fast yeah but something like that but clear and I don’t have to move fast so weird and I find like so weird when I move my body it’s just so weird like I feel so fake it’s just so scary and when I’m touching things too it feels like I’m not moving or touching anything like someone’s moving for me did you also feel like your life was unfamiliar like your normal life like remembering it seemed weird like this was my life before this this is how things where? So crazy.

Relentless God yeah man I’ve definitely felt those things before. But geez I’m so sorry you’re going through the worst of the worst. Definitely reminds me of what I went through at my worst for sure though. I’d be at work serving people and not even feel attached to anything. Like I was just watching my limbs do things I wasn’t controlling and felt so outta body. And to be completely honest life still feels very strange and unfamiliar but it’s slowly getting better. Very slowly though. I had lost all memory of what life used to feel like so I’m not sure if or when I’ll hit a full recovery, but I can handle it a lot better than I used to that’s for sure.

You know that feeling of not knowing what the heck you are and what it’s like to be a human? it’s freakin scary

Relentless God that feeling is probably the worst of it all. I at one point felt like I forgot what I was or what was going on and felt like I barely recognized objects and even people I’ve known my whole life :/ It felt like I had just forgotten what existence was. I don’t wish it on anyone. It’s truly terrifying. But hey man, I’m very very slowly progressing out of it. Things are making slightly a little more sense everyday, but there’re still some days I feel it worse than others. How did the meeting with your therapist go!?

The Anxiety Ninja Hey man! So sorry it took so long to get back to you, but I appreciate you reaching out like this it’s insanely nice of you. Can’t tell you how much I appreciate your videos also. But basically I’m definitely better than when I was at my absolute worst and have just been taking it day by day. I can go out and function now though as opposed to being bed ridden so that’s nice haha. But I was pretty much able to get over it once when I was 18, I’m 26 now and it came back with a vengeance last year unfortunately. Way worse than I remember it being. But yeah just trying to stay patient and positive, cause it feels like there’s really nothing else to do.

Usicky12 hello! No. I think you misunderstood or I just wasn’t clear in the video, but I’m currently going through it for a second time, first time being about 8 years ago when I was 18. I’ve tried a couple anxiety medications before and they were a no go for me. I’ve tried many many things for this disorder. Glad to hear you’ve been able to get over it multiple times though.

Danny Passenger oh okay my bad just the way you worded it in the description made it sound like u had it for 8 years straight. Anxiety medication isn’t a cure but they help you break out of DP