I don’t want to be free of anxiety. I want to be free of the FEAR of anxiety.

Thank you so much for sharing this video! I've had anxiety for several years. It can be so isolating at times. Thanks for sharing!

I've had anxiety and depression my whole life. Love hearing your story. You've always been a role model of mine x

thanks for sharing your story, michele. i’ve been dealing with anxiety on and off for a couple years and it’s been super bad and then it just went away for me. now i feel it creeping up again so i’m finally seeing a dr about it next week. anxiety/depression runs in my family but it’s just as scary and foreign when it happens to you, like a guilt you have and wish you could control but can’t. i feel much more at ease getting help now, thank you for that.

I have struggled for years about 15 I’m 36 now. I noticed my anxiety gets worse around my period. I have not been on medication I fight it a lot which probably isn’t good. I swear a lot has to do with hormones. I now meditate and PRAY a lot. Lord take this anxiety!! Thank you for sharing Michele

OMG EXACTLYYYY! Everything you mentioned I’ve thought/done myself suffering with anxiety. It’s so comforting to hear someone else say the exact words describing the same experience ❤️

Hi Michele, so grateful to you for making this video. I've never suffered from anxiety but it is one of those things I've been hearing about and would like to make a conscious effort to truly understand what a person goes through when dealing with anxiety. Your experience expands my knowledge for sure. Another reason why we all need to be more considerate and understanding of each other because we don't know what kind of struggles people are going through.

I'm so relieved to hear I'm not alone. I knew I wasn't, but just to hear all the same symptoms and even the same triggers come up. Thank you so much for sharing, I feel so much more hopeful

Hi Michele! What has helped me is prayer; asking for God's love to flow through my spirit. Loving and forgiving myself. Loving and forgiving others. Always meaning good in everything that I do. I have understood that we all need more love. That is it. Loving and treating people with kindness is so important. Having pure loving thoughts is a must. *It is so important that we lived in the present moment.

Been watching you for years and years and I have to say this is the best, most useful video you’ve done. Thank you for doing this!

I’m not even half way through watching this and just have to thank you for sharing this. It’s insane how anxiety works itself into us and how similar or different everyone’s experiences with it is. The water and gum as your saving graces 💯% same!!!! I won’t be caught ANYWHERE without water.... I’m in a bad panic loop myself currently.. hence probably what brought me here.. and its just so reassuring to see someone whose been there overcome and come out strong and to know that no one is battling this alone thank you again ❤️

I have never suffered from anxiety or depression, but this video was SO eye-opening and informative. Wow. Thank you for sharing.

I'm a longtime follower but rarely comment. I'm so glad you made this video because I know you will be helping many people. I suffered for a few years with anxiety and finally found a good doctor and began medication that was life-changing. That was almost 20 years ago and even though I'm well now, I can completely relate to your story.

Dang girl, after all you and your family have been through, you'd be strange if you didn't have anxiety. Have been watching you and your strength is inspiring. WHAT a beautiful family you have. And no matter what crap has been thrown in front of you, you and your family has risen above. Ya'll are amazing.

Thank you so much for sharing your story 🙌🏾. I’m currently struggling with anxiety and you described my experience spot on. That feeling of needing to “go”...so much so that I haven’t driven in year because that’s mostly when I’d experience it and was constantly afraid of running a red light. It’s so hard to explain and I thought it was just me. I’ve distanced myself from family and friends because i just feel like I look like a complete weirdo. Your story gave me more confidence that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Words cannot express how grateful I am for you taking the time to share. I making progress with therapy, meditation and most importantly prayer.

Stay strong girl 💪 I live with anxiety already 5 years. I try to live “ normal” and I learn do everything what I did before. And I can. I sent you a lot of love 💕

I'm here from Melissa's channel. She talks about you frequently. I'm sitting here shaking my head agreeing with everything you are saying. It's exactly what I'm going through. Crying too because you are making me feel like I'm not alone. I'm doing everything in my power to get better. Started therapy and trying to keep myself busy. Starting to explore meds. Thank you so much for taking about this subject.

Thank you for sharing your anxiety story Michele ,it is so appreciated.Blessings to you and your beautiful family 🙏🏻❤️

Thank you making this video! Struggling hard these days so this video is much appreciated!

I think of you often because your the strongest person ever. The amount of things you’ve been through in the past few years is more than most people go through in a lifetime. I’m so glad to hear the anxiety didn’t reach you in the times you needed to be strongest! I also took medicine but for depression. While it did help me feel better, my main complaint was how tired it made me. I would nap for 3 hours a day sometimes! I also feel like it messed with my memory. I have very few memories from the years I took anti depressants. It actually freaks me out because I won’t remember people I met during that time etc.

I can’t thank you enough for this video. I’m in the thick of it right now. Hardly leaving the house. Your story gives me hope. Xoxo

Love love love this video michelle. I've watched you since back in the day and I can relate so much. Thank you for sharing.

Great video Michele. I deal with anxiety attacks and have on and off for years. There are definite triggers and it’s definitely situational. I do believe hormones play a role as well. But I agree it’s important for people to know that so many people are living with anxiety. And it is like depression on the rise. Thank you for being so open about it. ❤️

Hi Michele, what has helped me is doing breathing exercises, meditation, yoga, and praying. Going outside and doing things outdoors definitely helps as well to get rid of my negative thoughts. Thank you for your video and for sharing your story.

I suffer from an anxiety disorder and I love that you shared this. It helps hearing others stories so I don’t feel alone. Thank you! I think you explained it so perfectly. I relate so much to this. (The news triggers me too)

Wow, our anxiety journeys are insanely similar. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really is as if you were reading my own story. You are so correct in saying it helps immensely to talk about it with people who understand, and just knowing you get it made me feel less “weird”. Been a follower since the beginning and have always felt like I could relate to you, now it’s on a whole other level. Anxiety is tough but we’re tougher :)

Thank you sharing your story. It’s informative, helpful, and I’m going to share with my daughter.God Bless You and your Precious family.

Oh my goodness…. You are describing EVERYTHING that I am experiencing.I’m not even halfway through the video and had to comment. Thank you for sharing.

I’m 22 w bad anxiety I been fighting it for 6 months now , i don’t go out , I don’t drive I miss my old life . I refuse to give up god save us all

Of all the videos you've made, this is definitely my favorite. Thank you so much for making this video and sharing your thoughts. Its almost like you've torn a page out of my journal and described how I've felt, from the need for water and gum, to bathroom stops while traveling! I've dealt with anxiety off and on since 2012 and it's only been this year that I've found a way to feel myself and live my life well again (talk therapy+med). Sending love to all of the subscribers that are still finding their way ❤️

Thanks so much for sharing your story! I'm 29 now and have had depression since 2011 (officially but I remember symptoms since I was 14) and anxiety since 2015. My anxiety also started due to a very toxic work environment. Leaving that job and transitioning to working from home was the BEST thing I ever did for my mental health (and life in general). My anxiety and depression have been well managed for a couple years now thanks in large part to CBD flower and mindfulness. I'm strangely thankful I went through what I did because I have been able help others in my life who are/have struggled with it too. Several of my family/friends have since struggled with it and I love being able to help them. I completely agree that being grateful and present are so important and make your life so much happier.

This was so helpful! I have suffered from anxiety since I was a child! I didn’t realize what I was feeling and never talked about it. I thought everyone had butterflies in their stomach all the time. As an adult I had children and taught full time! I would sit up at night and think I was having a heart attack. It wasn’t till I was much older that I started taking Cymbalta and feeling so much better! I still take medication and still even suffer anxiety at times but it is easier to control! Anxiety is pervasive! It is especially hard to deal with as a child! The more awareness we can shine on mental health the better for people suffering from it.Until you have had anxiety you can never appreciate how awful it is!

Love love love this Michele. Thanks so much for sharing.

Such an amazing video. Thank you for this. Helps so much to know I’m not alone. ♥️

Thank you so very much for this video. Eliminating the stigma surrounding anxiety, panic disorder, and depression makes it easier for others to seek out help without embarrassment or shame. I can relate so much to your story and truly appreciate you sharing it!! 🤗

Hi michelle ...a brilliant post👏👏...thats the thing we all think we are the only ones that suffer but its so common ..and yes yes after struggling in the past i too am learning ways to keep it under control..the main thing is accepting it , dont fight it , ..exercise, talking it out and breathing exercises..lots of things help....💖

You explained this very well!! It is so hard to tell someone that has never experienced it. I have been on medication most of my life. Don’t know how not to worry!! When you feel fine or even happy and bam panic attack. The waiting is so true!! I can’t watch the news and even a program I enjoy at times. I feel so overwhelmed. It does help to know that your not the only one. A good Dr. is really important. Thank you so much for doing this❤️❤️❤️

Thank you so much for sharing your story Michele! I have struggled with anxiety and can totally relate to the feeling of needing to “escape”. I also started being afraid to go places because I was afraid of that feeling coming on. A few things that have helped me are this bible verse in particular “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind”. Also learning about the concepts of rewiring the brain & neuroplasticity. Very helpful & many books and articles available if you google. Hope these ideas can help someone💕

Thank you for this. Anxiety is so terrible and I wish more people understood how debilitating it is. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I’m on medication which has helped me tremendously even though the panic does creep back in certain situations. I just moved from Arkansas to Texas on Xmas day so now I’m trying to find a dr who will continue my treatment plan, which is stressful. What I’m taking works for me and I’m terrified I won’t find a dr to continue it.

I have been with you since your closet days. I love this video. Thank you.

some of these work places that claim to be positive and professional are extremely toxic!! It is a shame they continue to get away with treating employees this way but they do. Anxiety is horrible to deal with. Thank you for sharing your experience.

Thanks for sharing. I've been following you since you lived with your parents and had no idea you'd ever struggled with anxiety. I first got diagnosed in college and I couldn't understand why I had anxiety if everything in my life was fine--looking back, I wonder if my anxiety was just triggered by college stress. I took a medical leave from school and was on Zoloft for about 4 months. After that, I felt better for years. More than a decade later, I've struggled with severe anxiety due to being bullied at work. It's sad that work life can have such a severe impact on mental health. I was taking a tranquilizer as needed, but I still felt like I was living a nightmare in terms of anxiety. A few weeks ago, my doctor put me on Lexapro and I felt amazing when I woke up the next morning. I wish I'd spoken to my general practitioner sooner so that I wouldn't have suffered so much over the past year. Now I'm working on facing my bully in a professional manner so that I can learn to cope with what is unfortunately, a hostile work environment. Thank you for sharing.

It was almost as if you were describing my story. I started having anxiety and panic attacks in my mid twenties. It is truly crippling and debilitating. It affected every thing I did. Besides my ex boyfriend at the time, I thought I was alone in this. I really relate to the fear of having all attention on me. I dreaded my wedding day for that reason. The mass was the hardest part. With some natural pills and a little wine beforehand, I got through the mass, and was able to look forward to the rest of the day. Talking yourself through it, is of great help. I am 52 now, and still have episodes from time to time, but, I try to manage it. It is not as traumatizing as it used to be. Thank you for sharing this personal struggle was us. I truly respect your genuine nature.

Thank you so very much for sharing. I am on medication but continue to struggle daily. Your video is helping so many people.

Thank you for sharing. After being one year post chemo, my anxiety has now hit me harder than ever. I was questioning how can I be strong through cancer and now that it is done have crippling anxiety?! Now it is time to get it under control. This video came at the most perfect time. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to know I am not alone.

Thank you for posting this. I have mild anxiety and heart palpitations sometimes. It's helpful to hear what you have gone through in case mine gets worse which I know is a definite possibility. It is really strange how it comes out of nowhere when you aren't directly in a stressful situation. Also, just wanted to say I got my Neverfull on vacation in Vegas also. It was really special!

Thank you for sharing your story. I have been on medication for a long time - I did go off them ( the correct way) once, and had to go back on - I am ever so grateful that these meds exist! They have saved me too -

Thank you for sharing your story. When I first experienced panic attacks, I thought I was losing my mind. No one discussed anxiety or depression. I saw a psychiatrist and he basically told me that this had been building up in me due to past emotional and physical abuse. He explained that I would basically hold my breath and not realize it. Like a child having a temper tantrum. Since then I have learned to control it without medication. I can feel it coming on and can now talk myself off the ledge. God Bless you and your family.🙏🏻

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can relate to so much of what you said! I spent years trying to ignore and push my anxiety away, but it didn't work. I ended up getting sick all the time because my body was constantly in fight/flight mode and I pretty much just broke down a couple of years ago. Talking about it with my friends/family and getting help has made such a difference. I needed medication in the end too because my panic attacks and general level of anxiety were just so debilitating. I had similar experiences to you; for me it was shopping centres, driving, public transport and basically anywhere that was busy. I've made a lot of progress thankfully but still have a ways to go in my journey. It's crazy how physical anxiety disorders and panic can be; I didn't even know that's what I was experiencing at first.

I did not realize how common anxiety is until recently. My trainer at the gym had to leave and cancel class due to a panic attack. She seems to have it all together but has major anxiety issues. I have actually been to the ER not knowing I was experiencing a panic attack. I was just browsing at Office Depot and it came on. I also cried all the time. The meds just take the edge off but I still worry a lot and need to learn to cope better. Thank you for sharing your story. PS I cannot watch the news either.

Glad your talking about this. I started having panic attacks in 2006...took many er/doctor visits to finally get a diagnosis. Wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy....in 2020 I’m still on an antidepressant. My daughter started having these at 23 and I knew what it was. I always said I wasn’t depressed but they are all related.

It’s like you are taking words out of my mouth in this video.

such an important subject thank you for sharing your journey. xo

Thank you so much for sharing!! I actually had a panic attack this morning. So much of your experience with anxiety is relatable for me. One thing that I learned to do recently when my mind starts spiraling, is to change the phrase “what if” to “even if.” For example, instead of “what if I get home and am too tired to cook?” (A lot of my anxiety is related to not taking care of myself) “Even if I get home and am too tired to cook, there is food for me to eat and I’ll be ok” I hope this tidbit will help someone else as it has helped me more times than not.

I’ve become a semi empty nester and have been overwhelmed, with anxiety and depression. I worry constantly about my young adult kids, in this terrible world, hoping no one hurts them, and on and on...It can be really overwhelming. Never, ever went through this when they ere younger...It’s so weird. We do the best we can as parents, but you know how it can be. Thanks for sharing 😉

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It definitely helps to have someone to relate to with this. As a stay at home mom in a different state than my family it can be lonely. Me and my husband both developed anxiety during his cancer diagnosis. He was healed and it just hasn't gone away. Having my daughter has also made it much worse because theres so much evil in the world and I have to stay away from the news as much as I can. I've had my hormones checked but didn't show anything wrong. Thinking I may need to put my pride aside and talk to a doctor. Thank you for your tips and sharing experience ❤

Thanks you so much for sharing this it really makes me feel much better I thought I was the only one going through this

wow! Thank you for this video.. I feel like we are the same person. I have attributed my anxiety to overstimulation.. being in a crowded place, in my home if there is too much happening at once, if the space I am in is messy, etc. It took me until having kids to fully realize this (thank you multicoloured, overstimulating children's toys LOL). I, too, have had some bad things happen in my life. My daughter was born with a rare liver disease and needed a transplant. And like you said, I fully expected this to break me.. but it didn't. I had laser focus. Yet with my second, completely healthy child I dealt with so much anxiety postpartum. This is such an important topic and I am so thankful you shared this with us!

OMG I feel the same way about my job! I just feel stuck in it. Thank you for doing this video ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you so much!! This is so helpful ❤️

Thank you so much for sharing this!!

Thanks for talk of this issue. I think is very important make these kinds of situations visible , usually not seen as normal

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, felt more confident that I will get through this SOON.

Michele I so can relate. I have had struggled in the past with this. I still take time to breathe and I’m type A too. I also found out when I started to heal my thyroid it helped so much. Sometimes there may be an underlying nutrient deficiency.

Thank you for sharing , your story helps me feel better.

Thanks for sharing your story. I love how you mention the word anxiety...another term often abused is OCD. If you love to organize and love your home very neat and tidy....you are NOT OCD!!! Its a real thing and people just toss around the term almost like it's a good thing. I have a relative with OCD...its consumes her entire life....nothing fun about being OCD. She cant function at times, can't travel, can't, can't visit family...etc.

Yes. Waiting for the floor to drop. Ughhh... Thankyou for sharing this.

Thanks you so much for sharing. I suffer from anxiety for years now on and off. I know exactly what you mean with having a water with you and I keep mints. It’s like you feel safe or at ease knowing you have it. I started really thinking hormones were playing a big part too. I’m even afraid to go places sometimes, just for the fact of its new, don’t know what to expect, and I hate feeling that way. Like you got on a plane with Leo by yourself, I don’t think I could have done that. I also feel like I hold my family back sometimes with things because I don’t think I could handle it or afraid, so then we don’t do or go certain places because I say no I don’t want to. I want to try and be more easy going where if they want to go somewhere crowded for the day it’s not going to freak me out. Please feel free to comment if anyone has things that work for them to help with this. So I hope this forum helps some and gives others ideas and tips on what helps. Thank you again💗

This has been my life for as long as I can remember, and no one in my life understands. It’s a lonely and scary place to be. And OMG!!! The news! I haven’t been able to watch for years and years because I just can’t handle it. It’s triggers so much fear. 2019 was such an intense year for me. I had my first baby, had complications and a scary delivery, a really rough recovery and lasting effects, deaths, issues with my in laws and boundaries, life altering diagnoses for my baby (totally wrong by the way) and it’s all weighing on my relationship and ruining the lead up to our wedding. It feels like everything is falling apart, including me. The only things that help are things like this video and meditation. I don’t think anxiety ever goes away or is cured, we just learn to manage it and sometimes fall off the wagon. Stay strong everyone, we’re all in this together! (🎶 high school musical anyone?! Lol)

That exercise is key. I had to get serious help when I was a teenager, then panic attacks and chronic physical symptoms came back post-partum. You are not alone! ❤️

Thanks for opening up about your struggles, it's relatable for so many people💋💋

My anxiety popped up when I was 44 years old. I didn’t even know I had anxiety until I ended up in the ER thinking I was having a heart attack. The medical staff was incredibly insensitive and rude to me and all they said is your heart is fine and were surprised your Pee test came back clean. It was when I was reading the discharge paperwork on the way home that I saw panic attack and I was floored. Then the anxiety floodgates opened up. The sense of impending doom is nearly crippling. In the beginning triggered mostly by medical issues after having 10 years of surgeries and complications. It has now morphed into fear of flying and being in busy traffic. NO news or scary movies. I am practically a hermit now. For me breathing counting exercises really help and essential oils when a panic attack is coming. I have only had 2 panic attacks but the anxiety is nearly constant. I spent all of 2019 fighting breast cancer and now that I am through the cancer the anxiety is back. I now know it never goes away, you just learn to manage it and it always pops up when things are going well!

Thank you for sharing your story ♥️♥️ it's not easy having anxiety! I've had it my whole life. I've been on lots of medications! I was off it for awhile but recently was put back on.. I feel so so much better! My doctor said to continue with your self care and to push myself to do things I'm scared of. I think I'm going to share my story on instagram so thank you ♥️♥️♥️

Michelle you are so strong and inspiring thank you for sharing I can definitely relate to things you have said

I do not watch news as well ... I always say if it is an important news it will reach me. I have stopped watching triggering movies and tv. I m fragile and self care has helped me a lot!!

Your story gives me hope ❤️

Best video you've ever made.

I’m so glad you shared this, I struggle so much with anxiety. I’m constantly searchinv for tips. I always try to think of the worst case scenario and how I would deal with that and talking things out helps me.

Hi MIchele, I started having anxiety and claustrophobia !!!!!!! Never even thought about it and it would come on !!! I have found if I keep air flowing around me at all times, its a lot better. I also take lorazepam and it helps a lot, and I don't have to take it as much lately when I find the AIR !!!!!! xo Simone

Thank you for sharing your story 🙏🌹💓

Thank you michele for opening up about this. I have anxiety too and it’s mostly triggered by my stressful work and the need to always be the best at my job. I recently just realized that work is work and it’s worth putting your health at risk. Exercise has been my go to whenever I feel anxiety is coming and talking to my husband and close friends. You are definitely right about those things! Much love from Guam ❤️

I have a lot of friends that also have anxiety but never really relatable anxiety. Your video made me feel not alone, I’m the one always looking for a way out, an exit, a bathroom and driving for me is hell. I pray for the day where anxiety is out of my life.

Thank you so much for this video it helped me. I am going to start my meds because I am feeling like I can’t function

I get anxiety and am on meds which really help . Prayers do too, thank you for sharing your stories. ❤️😘🙏❤️😘🙏😘🙏❤️🙏

Thank you for making this

When you said you felt like a weirdo I completely feel like that I’m glad some else knows how this feels.

Sharing my story i dont have friends so this is my way of letting it out. I was in a relationship for over 8 years we did everything together. Over a year ago my ex left me for another women i was completly devasted thats when i noticed my panic attacks i was so used to having him by my side 24/7he was my bestfriend. Going anywhere i feel so out of place even being around family makes me nervous. Its so sad to live likes this but i pray everyday which helps alot. I pray that i can have that strenght to be confident independent and to find a good man to start my life get married and have children im 31. I hope everyone here can in the comments everything gets better for everyone. GOD PLEASE HELP US GIVE US THE STRENGHT TO GET THROUGH THESE TOUGH TIMES I LOVE YOU GOD AMEN

I totally relate to you❤️thank you

I deal with anxiety during storms, fireworks and car noises. During storms and fireworks I use headphones, weighed blanket and listen to soft Christian Music plus during storms use my weather radio.

Thanks for sharing your story, panic disorder is mental/physical disorder, you definitely needed professional help.

This will help so many!

I have struggled with anxiety for years, but am so afraid to start antidepressants because of gaining weight from them. I know that sounds so vain and ridiculous, but I have such a fear of gaining weight and people noticing it.

Great video a lot of things in common but the best thing is be kind to ourselves, dont let anxiety drive the bus she dont know how to drive, is fine to keep her as a passenger.

I have anxiety to so hearing this is a lot of help

Completely relate. I was officially diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder in 2012 but it’s something I’ve struggled with since childhood, just didn’t know what it was. Medication was a godsend (Zoloft) and like you said, it gave me my life back. I weaned myself off of the meds after seven months and am pretty much able to talk myself through most episodes, breathing exercises help too. I do have a prescription for Xanax but that’s more like a security blanket, I rarely take it. Thanks for making this video, we need to remove the stigma so people can be open and seek help. Here’s to our mental health ❤️

can you do a day in the life of baby Leo at 6 months? Would really appreciate updates and his milestones? Thanks!

omg i have the same experience ( job, panic attack, meds) thanks for sharing

I've had anxiety related problems for years, and I always thought that this was just something happening in my head and if I managed to just not think so much about it then there would be no problem. I eventually got really good at avaiding overthinking and nerves, and kind of "living in the now", so much so that I didn't really feel any anxiety - just normal nerves. I was really excited and proud about that, and decided that I finally could start living my life to the fullest. I moved away from home with my boyfriend and started college in the big city, and I was really excited to try something new for once. Unfortunately, it didn't take long until I started waking up in the middle of the night with a racing heart, trembling and feeling sick. I actually laid down on the bathroom floor one night because I was so sure I was gonna throw up. As soon as I realized that this was anxiety, even though I wasn't scared at all, I started crying uncontrollably. I thought I had gotten rid of it, and I felt so good, and yet it keeps sneaking up on me and makes me miserable. And when I try searching for answers, there isn't really one - you are told that you can't get rid of it, but that you must learn to live with it. That is a pretty crushing prognosis when you are struggling with something like this. The physical symptoms are what's bothering me now. I always get light headed like I'm about to faint if I'm just a little bit stressed out, I feel sick out of nowhere, like I'm about to throw up, I get heat flashes, start shaking, have a resting pulse at 90, and then there's restless nights on top of it. And of course, this all gets 10x worse when you throw hormones into the mix. I'm really starting to feel exhausted, and at this point there seems to be no escaping it. I'm starting to reconsider having children in the future, because I seriously don't know if my mental health can handle 9 months of hormones followed by the stress bomb that is parenthood.

I’ve always had anxiety but after having my son it got so much worse. PPD/PPA is no joke. Then my marriage turned toxic and I could barely function. I’m on medication and it’s helped me so much. Life is great now

I had my 1st anxiety attack when i was 15 and that was 2001 but i was able to manage it and since i wasnt afraid of it so my focus is not on it. It came back year 2012 when again had my 2nd panic attack and was on medication for almost 2 months and as i remember i took atenolol, iterax and jovial or escitalopram. I was 26 then and the widrawal of medication was the worst for me so i had to deal with it and look for some ways to somehow cope from this anxiety and so i was able to manage and then it came back again just this october because maybe of being sad too much , crying a lot after losing my father last nov 2019 and i guess that whats triggers the anxiety and also with this pandemic now it affected us financially but were able to cope up . By the way my doctor got me tested for tsh and found out that i have a hypothyroidism and now im on levothyroxine and every night i took atenolol which my doctor prescribed also. What i dont like the most with my symptom of anxiety is the frequent urination which everytime we go out i do always have to look for the comfort room because i felt afraid about “what if” if i have to urinate. But going into places doesnt bothers me as long as i know theres a comfort room. But travelling far far places make me nervous and it made me pee a lot thinking that what if i have to pee and there is no comfort room where should i urinate? U know? I cant explain it but it made me anxious but there are times when im less stress and less anxious it doesnt bother me travelling far as long as im enjoying the ride. But this symptom hinders me from applying a job because when im nervous i tend to feel like pee a lot and cant get enough sleep. I wish one day i am able to manage this anxiety because i dont wanna grow old thinking and living only with anxiety, i want a change , i want myself to be better. Im quite teary eyed while im typing this and i am reminding myself again not to cry anymore because being sad adds more stress.