"too lazy for a suicide" hits very differently when you actually used this exact wording to describe your situation SO many times

“too lazy for suicide i just watch the days pass hoping to die” the definition of my life

When a song is so deep they give you a help line

in may of 2020, i was more depressed than i’d ever been. someone i had considered to be my friend had done something truly terrible to me and i felt alone. i felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone because of that on top of being under quarantine. the week i found palaye royale i had spent hours crying and begging for my life to end. i found palaye by chance, this video came up and i found a new community. one that made me realize i wasn’t alone. the album came out and i had something to look to for joy and for a moment to forget what was going on in my life. i’ve heard people say before that a band had saved their lives and i never thought i would say that, but this song and this album and this band did save my life. over a year later i am still so proud of you guys and all you have done and will continue to do. thank you🖤❤️

“My life don’t mean that much to me so I live it for you” it’s just so honest and true for people who deal with suicidal thoughts and depression

This song and video is extremely personal to me. As a child I was physically and mentally abused. Which caused me to become extremely depressed and suicidal. I always thought that I was the problem, that I must of done something so wrong to deserve that type of abuse from a person who was supposed to love me and didn’t see any other way out. It’s the reason I started wearing makeup because I thought if I looked like a different person ,I would become a different person. A person that stands up for themselves. I somehow made it out alive and so grateful everyday that I did. If you or anyone else that you know is going through something similar please make a stand or be a friend because you could save a life. -Remington Leith

It hits hard when you think you hear your parents fighting again but you then realise it's just the music video

damn he sang through heart and we can feel it in his voice

You'll Be Fine: "Cause mama say don't go" Lonely: "I'm sorry, mom, I've got to go" :'(

This band deserves the world and nothing less I swear

Lyrics ❤️ So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home My life don't mean that much to me So I'm living for you Yeah, I'm living for you And you can't stand the sight of me So what's the point of this Fucked up catastrophe? I'm waiting for my time to start As I waste it As I waste it I pop the pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home Daydreaming of my funeral Like who would show, bet no one would go Hey dad, would you show up for me now? Just to bury your little boy in the ground You broke my heart when you left me Was just waiting Was just waiting I pop these pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for a suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave!

Damn- this song hit home- Palaye Royal deserves so much more

This Song perfectly shows emptiness, loneliness, sadness, it touches my heart

"The only home I know it's my bed" That lyric, THAT LYRIC, summarize perfectly what it's like to have deppression or anxiety. When you are sourrounded of shit, of a sadness so deep that touches your soul, the only thing that comforts you it's your room, your stuff, and above all, your bed.

“Suicide is so selfish” The selfish thing is that you want the person in pain to keep living that pain

I get depressed but I never get suicidal. But I just want to say that whoever else is struggling out there, just know that you're not alone. We're in this together. P.s. I love Palaye Royale so much!

I can't stop thinking how Sebastian must have felt when he heard this song for the first time as a big sister and being the person who took care of my little sisters most of the time I can relate to him so much and I know he has been the father figure to both Remington and Emerson I can't even imagine how he must have felt when he heard what his little brother been through and imagine him dead.. shit I just teared up

this song is so haunting. its not like their usual 'hard guitars, screaming lyrics' this song is hauntingly mellow with very dark undertones in the melody and lyrics edit: for anyone who might take this comment the wrong way, I meant it as it's a good change from what they usually do and its very well executed

This song should've been more viral it truly opens peoples minds to be kind to everyone no matter what 😞

To all my friends listening to this song, the world is a better place with you in it. Dont give up! I wont even though its hard sometimes.

A piece of advice, if you can’t give a good future to your kids.. DON’T make them!

The shoveling is actually a metaphor for Remington unearthing all of our deeply buried childhood trauma

I think the most beautiful thing is when someone turns their pain into art or in what they are talented with Instead of suiciding. The inner wound of father abandonment goes deep into the soul.

These guys are so underrated!!! My daughter introduced them to me. Awesome band!

"My life don’t mean that much to me , So I’m living for you" this song hits way too close... I'm living because I don't want her to suffer, I'm literally going to college just cause she wants me to

*Smashing Pumpkins:* "Farewell and Goodnight" *My Chemical Romance:* "So long and Goodnight" *Palaye Royale:* "So long, farewell" MCR was heavily inspired by Smashing Pumpkins. Palaye Royale was heavily inspired by MCR. I'm not saying this is an intentional reference, but the pattern is beautiful.

Песня: О Боже, я хочу умереть Ютуб: предлагает номер горячей линии Я: просто тащусь с этого парня и этой песни)

As someone who recently turned 15 and has gone through so much physical and mental abuse from my parent, this song is really personal to me. Honestly if I was a character in movie, this would totally be my theme song. So thank you #PalayeRoyale for making this masterpiece

"Hey dad would you show up for me now, just to bury your little boy in the ground"

TW: Emotionally Abusive Father mention(just in case): Wow, I literally cried watching this. I just recently started going to therapy and my therapist made me realize that my father really was so emotionally abusive. Almost all of my anxiety and other issues is rooted in how he treated me, my older brother and my mom when I was young. The parents fighting hit so fucking close to home. I have such foggy memories that I can just barely of my parents fighting that still fuck me up. I never wanted to admit that what he did was abuse, even though it clearly was looking back. But I was a kid, and didn’t understand. And my father was emotionally abusive, a narcissist, and manipulative. He lied and said horrible shit about my mother and her side of the family to manipulate me, Even now, I can’t handle people fighting or loud noises because of him. Palaye Royale has been such a help for me and one of my biggest coping mechanisms, especially recently as my mental health has started deciding more. I met you guys last year in Baltimore and you were all so fucking sweet and amazing. So, thank you guys. So much.

This song hits every box how I often feel. It is also a certified banger that goes on repeat.

это очень хорошо..нет... ЭТО ИДЕАЛЬНО! Сама музыкальная композиция очень хороша я уж не говоря про посыл и смысл. Она пробивает до мурашек сколько бы раз это не слушал. Видно что песня действительно сделана с душой.

3:09 The dude did a "death" gesture with his drumstick... The tiny details

People who don't know them: "Palaye Royale are satanists" Me: "Ah, yes, they've got songs about gun violence and abuse awareness. Totally satanic." Palaye Royale saves lives. I just wanna reiterate.

This song just hit me so hard. I lost my best friend to suicide, and I've tried to join him 3 times. I used to be a substance abuser (I'm a year and 5 months clean now) and I have PTSD from when I was abused as a kid. The people in the comments, this song, I feel so much less alone in what I'm dealing with. If anyone is reading this and going through shit alone like I did, don't give up. A year sober felt impossible, so I focused on one day at a time. PTSD messes up my life every day, so I figure out my own coping mechanisms. Living without my best friend nearly killed me, so I rememberer him in small ways every day. What you're facing might seem like too much, so just take small steps, even if it's minute by minute. You can survive, and if you don't want to, I get that too I've been there too many times to count; focus on the little things that make you smile inside, or the people who make your heart sing, or use music to drown out the pain. You can survive, I believe in you and I'm so proud of you for making it this far, keep going. I hope everything turns around for the folks reading this.

No matter how much my life changes, I'll always end up here.

I think the most haunting lyric is “I’m sorry mom I’ve got to go” I can’t tell you how many ‘notes’ I wrote starting like that as a teenager

im so sorry you were treated the way you were when you were younger, we can’t change the past but you’re changing the future- some people take their abuse and turn into bad people that hurt others. you’re such a unique individual, and chose to stay true to yourself which in turn inspired so many others in the process. this song is so raw and emotional and i’m sure it hit so personally with many members of the royal council. by simply being yourself, you’ve helped so many helpless people including myself through the same struggle. i’m so, so proud of you for sticking to being yourself and even prouder that you were strong enough to still be here with us today. you’re a gift to the world, remington. please never forget that because we royal council will always be here to support who you are.

This song hits me extremely deep from my entire childhood ever since I was born. I didn't really have a loving supporting family.

This song really does keep me going. It hits on a lot of things in my life that I feel have shaped me into this person I hate. If I could restart, I would in a heartbeat.

this song hits way too close to home. while i’m not abused, i’m still depressed as shit. i’m sorry Remington had to go through all that.

If you've been this low before, you know this song hits different and swings to your gut like a baseball bat. I love it.

It's amazing when you are clicking on random videos and land on one that hits deep af. Needed this.

"the only home i know is my bed" nailed it for me right there.

remington, this is a masterpiece. as someone who has gone through a similar experience, i thank you so much for making a song about it, it feels like im less alone with this. so glad that you were able to make it through to today

Did anyone else notice the name of the field that he is digging his grave in is called "soldier field"? They call their fans soldiers of the royal council. "I dug this grave I call my home." WE are his home.😭

"Too lazy for a suicide,passing days hoping to die"this.

Few months ago i tried so hard to run away from my demons. But thanks to this song. They hugged me again. 🥀

As someone who's still struggling with childhood trauma, this hits me right in the core. I feel the lyrics and I feel for Remington. But also for Sebastian and Emerson. Don't really know what to say, but I feel this song and it's definitely one of my favourites now. Thanks to this band for being so open and honest through their music.

This song is the only ad I haven’t ever skipped it’s such a good song

That tune in the end made me cry.

Never really listened to this band before till last year… he is very beautiful singer on how he views his life . So ppl do not really know till they see it for themselves or lived it. Please pray for the ones that don’t have anyone ❤️

I LOVE YOU MY PIRATE, VAMPIRE, AND GENTLEMAN

"Look at him, he's a coward" Ohh boy, that one hit different. *PS: Although those words hit different, he was right. I was a coward. Without him, I wouldn't be the man I am today and I'm glad he is the way he is.*

Эта песня слишком лична не только для Ремингтона... Она будет близка каждому человеку, который видел некоторое дерьмо в этой жизни....

This song has helped me a lot lately, I have been stuck in my head so much thinking about how I grew up in a home that was not a safe place. It made me realize that I used so much to help me forget everything feeling like I was alone watching my own life pass by me. It gave me the push I needed to get back up and try again because I am not alone going through this. Thank you for helping me be here today , thank you for saving me so I may help others with this

The way he stared at the mirror. That hit me. I started to cry.

To anyone who relates to this song hard... I’m sorry. Free virtual mom hugs. Edited to add: Holy crap!! Thank you for all the likes!!! Free hugs for all! 🫂🫂🫂🫂

This whole video is a pure piece of art

I’m just lonely and depressed so I relate to this.

Remington is so incredibly beautiful that it’s hard to even think he’s real. But I’ve seen them in concert and I can confirm they’re all very real. I really related to this song... I think it’s the most heartbreaking song I’ve ever heard and I’m sorry to anyone going through tough times. ❤️

When instagram's ads have taste in music...

This is great song that finally feels right, existing but not living just watching everyday go by, nothing and nobody caring about you.

Это было классно. Это идеально это даже не описать словами .

this hit real close to home. my dad was never verbally or physically abusive so I thought I had a good childhood until my parents divorced a few years ago and I realized how he is so manipulative and kinda brainwashed me when I was younger to be anxious, look down on people, and be homophobic. Kinda had to get to a breaking point and go to therapy before those things were fixed, specifically the anxiety one because I was always terrified of travelling and leaving home. thanks Remington, you truly mean the world to all of us❤️

Seeing the evolution of this band is truly incredible. I'm so sorry u had to experience the trauma, but the way u express it is a damn masterpiece. This hit home

All stages of my life have felt this way! Thanks for putting it into words! What a poetic song and video!

He just letting others know it's not just them that feels the fear of being alone. We all have this fear. It's pain. It's sad. It's anger. Why not let it be known. It is seen by the one above... so we ain't alone unless you live humanly... thoughts... Creator created these moments to feel alive. ❤❤❤

"Daydreaming about my funeral" Damn this one right in the feels

this hits me. as a severely closeted trans guy, hearing my parents insult me because of my wardrobe choices and my short hair, coupled with so many other issues in my life, i feel this. These lyrics are my exact thoughts "Too lazy for a suicide, I just watch the days pass hoping to die" "Daydreaming of my funeral. Like who would show bet no one would go" "The only home I know is my bed"

at 1:50 I legit paused the video so fast, and my head _jerked_ toward my door because I thought it was my parents' voices...

I am so sorry Remington you had to go through that and I know what you mean because I was abused too many years or almost whole my life... But this music video and song, and you means a lot for me right now ! Thank you you speak about that. Sending love and hugs ! x

It's 5:46am for me now, the sing premieres at 6am - the things I do for love

"Daydreaming of my funeral, like who would show, bet no one would go." this line hit me very hard cause this is what I would do every night before bed while I was extremely depressed while I also made plans on what would be the quickest way to go out. *Edit* I want the people who see this comment to know that it does get better. Life may fluctuate between good and bad but please hang on to the good memories and the reassurance that the good will come back. 2020 is a pain in the ass but hey, you made it this far so why not keep going. tell 2020 (or whatever you are facing) that it won't break you. You are strong and you are worth fighting for. Please believe me.

First listen end of 2023, loved this song at first seconds, don't know how come I had never heard this song before ❤

so proud of this community and remington hes dealt with so much and the royal council i just want to say im proud of you all even a year later

Literally the best band in the world .X

Anyone else completely freeze when the parents start yelling at each other? Just waiting for it to be over or escalate, you never know which it'll be...

It's scary how much I can relate for this song, I'm trying to fight with my dark thoughts, but I don't know how to cope with it

2:14 I think about this line every once in awhile and it hits me hard every time, would he even come to my funeral, he’s been gone so long I’m sure he already forgot I exist

im never gona get tired of remington in that dress

When the little kid turned into Remington I was just like “oh...o h...*oh*” and realized it’s a song about their father. More specifically I think it’s that his father thought Remington (and possibly all three of them but specifically rem) was “too feminine” (from the dress and the father calling the boy a coward) and how it pushed Rem to self harm and depression (and possibly a suicide attempt). My thought is that in their other videos, it’s always been the three of them taking on an issue but maybe it being focused on Remington with his brothers and the group of people symbolizes Remington feeling like they’re outsiders looking on the issue. Emerson seems to stand up and possibly try to help? But we don’t actually see any action taken. It’s an interesting video for sure that outlines issues with abuse and the various issues that come from it along with dealing with depression (as seems to be a running theme in most of their videos).

1:51 Genuinely got shivers watching this part... It's so well choreographed. Seems like truly genuine rage in the family. This situation (not exactly disagreements between the parents, but screaming in the house) is probably exactly what led to me having depression. Can't wait to get out of this hellhole

This song explained everyway I felt and feel that I couldn’t put into words

the hotlines at the end broke my heart. that hit such a spot and i don't know why

I feel this way on a personal level, my parents would scream and scream at eachother while I was crying and when I self harmed, my mom yelled at me saying I dont have anything to be sad about.

I’m so sorry that you all feel this song a depth most others won’t be able to understand. You’re all loved. And to the artist: AMAZING JOB!!! 🙌🤘🙌

This song just hits differently.. and goosebumps all the way. Thank you for this masterpiece. Truly amzing 🫶🏻

Remington's voice captures this so perfectly. It's raw, and intense, it feels like someone is describing the inside of my mind.

I can already tell that this is going to wreck me Update: IT WRECKED ME

One of the most relatable songs i've heard. Ever.🖤🖤🎧 It hurts how many of us relate to this. It gets worse before it gets better. It DOES get better. I promise. I don't know you but just know, I love you. Stay safe. Yeah?

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger is what kept me from this mindset. As low as ive been within deaths range my pride and children kept me alive. Life is beautiful and within the darkness comes the light. Anyone hitting rock bottom keep the faith and learn to love yourself and your potentials.

334 people missed the like button because their tears blurred their vision.

~Too lazy for a suicide My life's quote to be honest UPDATE : Wow guys, thanks for all these likes and hope you all get through all that shit. You are not alone❤️

This song gets me thru the day, I live in an abusive household and I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for over 9 years. Having something I can relate to helps a lot. This band saved my life

this sound is my heart, when i was going through hard shit this song made me felt understood and better, the lyrics are astonish and so relatable, everytime i feel sad i listen to this and i feel that i have company, i Don't feel alone. Thank you very much.

palaye royale constantly breaking gender roles without making a fuss out of it >>>>

I love how this comment section is becoming a therapy session. I spread a lot of love for you guys, stay safe loves and remember that the Royal Council is there for you all.🖤🖤🖤

One of the most powerful songs and music videos that I think many of us can relate to who have gone through serious trials and tribulations amongst any relationships

This song just broke me... Thank you for the release