As a child, the term "ADHD" wasn't even a term for anything. I was good student, for the most part, but did have issues focusing. Mainly because I had been through quite a bit of trauma as a child. As far as my report cards went, I got pretty good grades that could have been better if I could focus. Especially during grade school, Every teacher I had would make a note at the end of the report card... " has trouble focusing and paying attention". I was scolded for this when I gave my parents my report card, and that made withdraw into myself. When I reached my preteens, a friend of my parents started offering private art classes on the weekends. By private, I am referring to non school related, but it was a small gathering of people for each class. For the first time in my life, I would feel that I would lose myself in the art, and finally able to focus. During the lessons, I would completely focus on what I was doing... This "getting lost" in my art. Nothing could break my concentration and I would feel at peace. Not that it would draw me from my shell, but it would relieve the anxiety and I would feel so at peace. I don't remember why, but they pulled me from the art classes, and I was back at square one. I continued to paint at home, but a lack of instruction and learning to paint different things... I struggled to expand my talent. I grew even more depressed and anxious after that. Art was an outlet for my anxiety. While painting, my mind would only focus on the art, not the depression that I had since I was very young (around 4 years old it started). Parents not understanding why I would withdraw, and break down crying for no reason, and when they asked my I was crying, I would not answer them, so they tried a child psychologist to find out what was going on. That helped nothing. Art gave me a purpose, and made me feel like I could let go of my traumatic very young childhood (even though I was still a child when I started the art lessons. For being so young, I was very good at it. It is amazing what Art can do for those with all the symptoms of ADHD. It wasn't until more recently that I took a standardized test for ADHD and finally realized what I have been dealing with all my life. Like I said, they didn't have a term for it during my childhood years, and after graduating high school, I still didn't search out what was causing the confusion, the inability to focus, the depression and anxiety. I finally know, but I lost so much time in my life not understanding why I felt the way I did, and why I am the way I am. I feel like the self destructive tendencies I have put myself through would have not have happened if someone would have recognized this sooner. Maybe I would have been more stabilized. I don't have a doubt that I would have. Now I have to learn how to "fix myself", and get myself on the right track in life. Maybe watching more art videos will inspire me to pick up a brush again, and help bring more focus, and less anxiety, into my life.

Thank you for sharing, your experience is beautifully put in this message :)

@@ajwehrig7068 Thank you also for sharing, I also have adhd amongst the triad of things that come with it for women and or biological females from studies… the hard part is sometimes getting started, maybe you could commit a time of the week to follow Jay’s paintings/paintings along with them while watching? I have heard it said before not confident where, one of my strengths is collecting knowledge and things, and maybe ADHD is more normal than confining ones self to a systematic structure which is more learned, that said I do not think you need to fix yourself or learn to fix yourself but more understand yourself and how you operate best/when and how you are your best self and how to make that possible.

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NGL I disagree with you. Artists use a variety of different tools for different reasons whether it is for texture or shape. I may not see many artists using spoons but I have definitely tried it myself, due to the amount of shaking I do it doesn't come out half as good. Obviously you are entitled to your opinion but bringing negativity just to be negative doesn't help artists and can often discourage budding artists.