And I still listened to this on 2x 😂

I agree if people(usually neurotypical) are talking too slow(for me),,,I get bored and reatless

Yea except his solution is "take pharma meds or get the stick". Luckily for us, this video is old as dirt, and we have better answers our there than what this quack is preaching.

​@@intraterrestrial5035yeah, I noticed that, too. While I definitely did better as a kid in the structure of grade school than I did as an adult in college and in the workplace, he made SO MANY "all or nothing" statements that I don't identify with. And where I struggled in college with the delayed feedback loop (homeworks returned after weeks or months, grade is mostly mid term and final), I know so many ADHDers with a graduate degree or two. It's like he put a modern (for 2012) understanding of ADHD on a 90s caricature of "who has ADHD". But I do appreciate he views it as an executive function problem and not a lack of attention. And I can appreciate that his audience isn't us with ADHD but clinicians who need a kick in the pants, so hyperbole for effect may have its place here. Executive Dysfunction instead of lack of attention was a pretty new understanding in 2012. If you want your blood to boil, read WebMD's description of ADHD. It's like a poor interpretation of the 1990s understanding. And there's still clinicians stuck with that 1990s view.

@@intraterrestrial5035 Really 🍸😈

LMAO! Me, too!

Same here 😅

Same and then my “investigate later” screenshots build up and I avoid them like the plague

Lmfao my phone memory is taken up by screenshots and random selfies I say I’ll post later after I edit them in a super cool way I see inside my head, but right now I can’t

Stfu

Damn that was some serious testimony. I wish you to overcome this one way ir another. If your attempts have failed, try new ones like breathing techniques, cold exposure, DMT or hallucigenic experience. As long as you haven't done everything seriously, I suggest you keep going on with the will necessary during the attempts. I know how it feels to fail to find a solution when it's about your health, but when ruminating about not being able to overcome it, tell yourself that it gives you something to go on while giving up won't bring any solution. Wish you the best.

How's your nutrition?

This is so validating for me! Just found out I have inattentive ADHD. I had an 1180 SAT so everyone said "go to college". Horrible time in college, barely graduated. Horrible time at the white collar job I got. I had to quit or be fired. I now earn a living at a tipped job at a hotel. ADHD is like a cruel prank. I'm smart but unable to use it.

​@HappyMSI1 Hey there. Are there any other methods you tried that helped you out? I'm going to look into breathing techniques and cold exposure you mentioned. Unfortunately, DMT is illegal where I am. The other prescriptions I'm taking only help for 3-4 hours in the day, still trying to find the right balance with my doctor.

@@Random_User_042the medication isn’t going to be a full day solution, realistically. For me it’s a good boost to get myself up, on track, and in the right direction for the day. I pack as much as I can in the first half of the day, because I know it will start to decline during the second half until I crash after dinner. If I ate better and exercised I’m sure that would help in keeping my tank full for longer. There’s a European Dr I watch who also suggests *not* drinking caffeine until midday, or at least late morning, because it’s more effective as the day goes on.

Same here, been doing research not knowing why my brain is wired differently and this video just clicked. I recognized myself in what this doctor said just like looking in the mirror. Darn, this adhd is exhausting, ruined everything for me. I’m also feeling tired all the time, very poor concentration which makes it very difficult to study. I wonder if it’s part of adhd or some other health issue I might have.

I understand you brother

Same here😢

So many things to cry about with adhd :(

Same 😭

+Ryan Hobbs same

+supermuble - So true. This was quite the revelation to me, sums it up perfectly. But not just for things I'm interested in, it's everything. Not knowing it was related to my ADHD, I thought it was/is another mental disorder. Definitely need to learn more about this defect. It's just seems like there's so many accommodations / adjustments required to implement and that's the original problem.

I have ADHD and this is exactly how I feel too hahahah man

adhd ruined my life and that phrase finally put feelings into words for me

Yep, utterly frustrating. So much want and desire, but implementation is utterly awful. You know it, you know not doing it is wrong, but you can't bring yourself to do it. Like a prison in your own mind.

Extremely well put

I will use this one thx

I usually ask them what they do when they have to do the dishes. If their answer is "I do the dishes" I tell them about how I have to mow the grass before I get to the clean dishes. About how I went to do dishes then saw that the dish rag and drying towel was dirty, then I saw that the wash I ran the day before is still in there and smells kinda funny, so I have to re run it. I go to put down the rag and towel in a basket but realize I have no empty baskets because I have a clean cloths in them. So I put them on the sink side and go to fold the laundry in a basket to have a dirty clothes basket. When I go to fold the cloths I see that I have my wives garden stuff on the bed that I just got her. I go to take it out to the shed and realize on my way out that the grass is a bit long. That leads me to start mowing. Then i get to work backwards from there.

Like going back to your parked car but the cars gone.

@@dukkibhoy1990 and you remember after freaking out for 5 minutes that you were dropped off.

Yeah this kind of material is super helpful. He has a great youtube channel with other videos which go in-depth into ADHD: Russell Barkley.

L-Methionine and Trimethilglycine! Due to a mutation, we with ADHD have a chronic deficiency of those amino acids. Being deficient in Methionine causes, that your brain can't degrade catecholines, which are the root neurochemical cause for the negative aspects of ADHD! The difficulties falling asleep due to an overactive mind being one of them. If you take this advice, welcome aboard, if you don't, I'm chalking it up as you not being ready and be done with it. Have fun!

This 100%. Feels like this man knows me better than anyone and I’ve never met the guy!

Probably has ASD. Want real fun? Try being ASD and ADHD.

@@SevScoutUm, but you didn't actually give any advice, you only gave information, with no indication of what to do with that advice. Do you have advice on how to manage and curb those deficiencies? Perhaps food that can help? Are there supplements for it?

I know that all too well. Started using a habit tracker for daily routine stuff, went well, but then i just stopped doing it for whatever reason. Reminds me of my relation to books. Even if im really interested in what im reading, i just put the book away at some time and then never look at it again. I'm not diagnosed by the way and although i resonate with things in the video and in the comments i am still very sceptical if i have this disorder

I know exactly hiw you feel, and after awhile you know the end result is going to ve the same so, why bother even trying. But you still do.

I feel like I have giant disobedient dog on leash, it bigger than me so no matter how hard I pull it's does whatever it wants. And whatever I do, whenever I go feeling of leashes strain is there, all I need/want to do is there haunting me even when it time to rest.

Man this is so sad I feel like crying.. actually I’m holding a pen and paper right now going through this exact routine you mentioned and then I got on youtube and found this video. I don’t want to go to a physiologist or get diagnosed.. I guess that would be the case for some time..

Ohmy god yes! This is my life

Yesss same! I Love it when people talk fast in videos. Then I can watch the videos on 1,25 speed and not 1,5… I wich there was something like this in real life

Validation!!! Yes

Damn I only got to 4 12 😬😔

OMG I never realized that I am better able to listen to people who talk fast 🤯 until you put it into words

Yes! Everyone talks soooooo sloooooooowwwwww.

Same here, the stressful traumatic childhood might trigger adhd in children. Don’t think we get born with it. I grew up in a horror like home where my dad would daily punish my mom and siblings. Grew up with hearing my mom screaming and siblings being scared before and when he got back from work. It’s still haunting me to this day but messed up my life big time and I’m left with the concequences.

Same. The idea of making you more accountable.. I don't need more guilt and shame associated with this. My self esteem has been hit hard by not having a diagnosis in my childhood. It feel like this statement is a recipe for developing performance anxiety:/

Agreed, if I was too slow to do something or did something wrong, I had the ban hammer fall onto me by parents and teachers. Added consequences when I was genuinely struggling made me not want to try things, for fear of failure and shaming. This guy doesn’t seem to get that people with ADHD are human beings with feelings.

What’s more high pressure? Small goals with rewards for completion, or not doing anything then scrambling last minute only to fail? What’s more neglectful? Are you not continuing to neglect your needs now as an adult by not getting anything done? You can take the good things and leave the bad, ya know? Consequences are good. Immediacy is good. Even pressure can be good to a degree. Those things are not synonymous with emotional neglect and you can learn to separate them.

Just know that I understand you 100%. I was diagnosed ADHD PTSD, but as much as it hurts you need to learn to overcome the PTSD because the world does not care and will be happy to not assist you. Therefore, you are the only one that can do that and should do that for yourself. I know the past sucks but don't let it keep you on your knees forever.

I was a cook for most of my adult life, and it's the same concept. We used to call it having a sense of urgency. My favorite job was teaching cooking, so when that ended, I went back for my MA, Ed. Turns out I just like teaching cooking! Not teaching, teaching!! Hahaha I couldn't get my $hit straight no matter how many different age groups, subjects or organizational systems I attempted. The only time it worked was when I substituted, where the teacher left detailed instructions for me. So, kind of like the scaffolding- I think. I'm not sure, tbh, I didn't finish the video. 😮

Working on an IT support desk works for me - driven by the phone calls of people needing help with their computers, and by the list of pending tickets in the queue. Plus I play a game in my head of doing as many as possible each week, to see if I can empty the queue. I've refused promotion out of that role as the motivation and people-connecting would never work as a back-room server-programming kind of person on my own.

​​@@Bluebomber85I find this hilarious because I've learned that I'm hopeless once a recipe goes beyond 5 ingredients. After that I lose track of where I'm supposed to end up and I become the Swedish Chef. I think it's so funny how we're all the same, but in such different flavors. I also do well in an environment where you have appointments one after another, but what happens in them is unpredictable and immediate so it's easy to give your full attention to the problem.

I always say to people 'you have no idea how badly I want to want this' I just have a voice inside screaming do it! just pick up the pen or just get up and do it but I can't and then I watch the time pass until it's too late and beat myself up over it and it's SO.FRUSTRATING. Because why can't I just do it? like everyone else. Even the stuff I love (like drawing, writing, walking whatever it is) I can't bring myself to do anymore, sometimes I just feel like a vegetable unable to move or do anything even talking is exhausting sometimes, it's like watching your whole life just unravel and get away from you and you don't even have the will to hold on

@@HereToProcrastinate. Accurate!!!

Feel you

I didn’t know I had adhd until this year 😩 I just thought I was depressed or something and couldn’t find motivation.

I wanna be an engineer, but ADHD: N O Dyslexia: reading? Nah you don’t need that :)

Wish I didn't know what that feels like.

lmao

I relate to this so hard.

This is sooo relevant right now in quarantine 😭

@@bellyfulochelly4222 If you mean hyperfocus, that you studied all day without noticing, it's one of my favourite ways to work. I have to be hyper interested in the topic. I wish I could do it predictably. I need a compelling question, and then I can't stop studying. Without one, it can be hard to focus.

Get a better doctor or practitioner, like a psychiatric nurse or similar. Medication, time released Concerta, changed my life for the better since diagnosed in my 40's

Find a better doctor, and externate your feelings to someone you really trust

Also if there's no one you trust to talk to, try to see a therapist. or if you are financially bound, try reaching to local groups/ free online groups about mental health or adhd and talk it out. it will take some time but trust the process. take medications, IT REALLY HELPS. Start with prescribed doses then decrease them eventually. it might take 2-3 years of understanding every aspect of it then however you'll handle practical situations way better in a real time scenario. However after these you'll have a way way more clearer and productive brain. trust me.

@@Dee-ow9fbThank you for your kind advice. I recently tried to get an appointment with a registered psychiatrist. I phoned a dozen of them: I only got answering machines stating that « Doctor So and So does not take new patients and registered patients must book their appointments on the Internet « . The situation of psychiatry was critical before COVID in France, it is now near impossible to see a psychiatrist.

You should explore "Maps of Meaning", a series created by Dr. Jordan Peterson.

Keep the faith and know you are valuable. God bless you.

Therapeutic ketogenic diet, And lions mane double extract with crocus petals extract.

Don't give up! Keep looking for solutions and what will work for you.

It's definitely more "dirty" than pharmaceuticals but coffee with a little CBD may temperately help with motivation. Coffee gives you the drive the CBD takes off the anxious edge while helping you remain calm yet focused. Although if tried most of the meds then this probably won't do much. Find a job that lets you be you. Structured jobs like sitting at a desk all day won't let you be you. However many blue collar jobs will let you have a bit more freedom as long as you end the day getting done what was asked.

xD if you can see how many tabs i have open

u just described me :(

Yoooooo that's me

Yaaay... I'm not the only one.

😁

You caught me 🤣🤣 and i had to scroll down FAR to see this comment.

oops, I scrolled down to read the comments before watching the video. also I should get off youtube because it's after my bedtime 😅thanks!

No, I actually paused the video to write a comment. :)

Hhhhhh are you talking to me,.

Thank you 😅

For me coffee with a ton of sugar works like a charm. It keeps me energized and makes me do all the chores that I would put off if I wouldn’t drink it. I don’t drink it daily though, I let my body rest the next day without it so I don’t become too dependant on it.

I wonder actually if reducing sugar and going low carb/keto is the other option. If cell energy regulation is the problem, using fats and proteins for ATP synthesis is a much more stable way of doing so

I could never do that as a diabetic... it would send me right to sleep apart from the general harm too high a glucose level does in the diabetic body. Low carb is a safer approach for me, to keep the glucose regulated.

And people always assume in that analogy it's you calling people stupid. But what you mean is that you don't have enough room to move your thoughts into action inside your own head?

@@HonestAuntyElle Thats the whole point you missed. The problem isn't merely confined to converting thoughts into action and its more about converting capability into performance. You can have the highest level of skill in a field and the definition of ADHD is that you can't turn your capability into action because of neuro-genetic issues of your physical brain. Practical solution is breaking a task - small or big into micro tasks and try to finish one task at a time. Killing your confidence and peace of mind by a relentless assault loaded with motivational thoughts (internal or external) is definitely not the way out. The best psychological self-help will be performing the immediate micro task and a proper handling of self blame & stigmatization.

@@NishantShyamGoutam "I" missed????

I like this analogy. I love F1 as a sport too. I like the quirkiness of my personal vehicle and the amazing things I accomplish with it. What I hate is being forced to onto a monotonous motorway closely hemmed in by a million others doing 20mph when my car doesn't really come to life until it hits 120mph. Another useful sport analogy would be cricket with its combination of standing around and bursts of energy when a good hit is made on the ball, rather than tennis with its regular volleys. Yeah. F1 is much more fun. Lol

Wow... just so dead on

So frustrating, same story at all my jobs, yes I understood the task given, yes I know what to do, but no I don't know when I will get it done, I don't know why I am not completing it in time, I don't know what help I need.

its gets even more frustrating if you havent been formally diagnosed like me. Everyday i wake up all pumped up for all the things i want to accomplish and by the end of the day i haven't done anything an feel defeated. I genuinely want to learn things i am interested in but its like the energy barrier to get started is just too high.

Wow yeah you are so smart and cool everything that is wrong with you is based on ADHD yeah sure

If u have a lot of money, u can just get someone to do it 4 u..

Yep. It's crippling.

I’ve heard this theory before! It has to do with our ease of distraction benefiting us when predators lurked around every corner and hyper focus when zoning in on prey.

Professional athletes are 3-4 times more likely to have ADHD than the general population, because exercise is so good for their function, they have a superior ability to hyper focus, and I hypothesize that things like postural sway from poor proprioception ultimately lead to faster reaction times.

I was just thinking that when I came across your comment! Strange. We need to find a job and hobby where we can feel like hunters. I really wouldn’t enjoy killing animals so it has to be something creating the same kind of focus.

The audacity to claim it’s a disorder then turn around and say it has benefits

@@vladimiragreen3581 Photography has been my answer

On Dec. 15th I’ll be granted my BS in Microbiology and have just gotten an assessment for ADHD and I too wish I would’ve gotten help earlier in life. I’ve stopped internalizing my shortcomings and began to rebuild my confidence by learning more this disease well, myself. Truly astounding to learn THIS

Same here at 42 year old

45 here.

The doctor who invented ADHD said on his deathbed that it was a fictitious disease. You are a normal human.

45, and same.

THANK YOU so much Dr Russell Barkley 👍🏻😃 I'm 39 and to use a gaming analogy you've helped me finally figure out the controls to myself to play in life 🎮🧠

I can relate 😭

Did you ever think it might be the expectations of the society we live in? Go outside and stare at a tree for an hour. Calm, calm.

Dude totally. People spent so much of my childhood telling me how smart I am. And yes, I am smart. But if you look at a lot of my work it looks... not that amazing at times, even though I am capable of amazing things. Now that I have kids I tell them being smart don't mean squat if you don't utilize it.

So you took Adderall to get higher scores. You are a cheat quite frankly if that is the truth.

@@alanberkeley7282 Lol you're so cripplingly insecure you anonymously pick on women on the internet. Pretty pathetic. Go back to r/incels, "Alan".

We are great at seeing other people’s schtik, less so our own. Also the environment and family culture we grow up in is how we build our emotional toolkit and some people got stuck with flogging a dead horse in that regard. ime sometimes this pov you’re expressing *may* reflect a dynamic that’s about trying to manage emotions of overwhelm and rejection. Not to say that your attempts to creat strict are a bad thing, obvs you love your family and are trying to make things easier for everyone, but nd folks generally have heard ‘you’re not trying hard enough’ quite a lot; and you may find that turning your attention on yourself and looking at CBT strategies to manage your own emotional response to how it feels when you efforts to organise aren’t working (eg, things like rejection sensitivity, overwhelm) that might help a lot to take the emotional pressure out if the situation. Also, because different tools can help have a look at these worksheets and if they seem like something that has a different approach to the one you’ve been trying then talk to your fam about what they think about this and is it different livesinthebalance.org/cps-materials-paperwork/ and then also have a look at thinkkids.org pages for parents. Evidence based and great tools and skills.

Noted. My kids are 16 and 20 at this point, so there’s a certain amount that they’re going to have to sort out - neither are on any medication, but even they were, learning to be more mindful can help mitigate, and that’s only works if the person decides to establish that practice and engage the right help. There’s no cure, just modalities. And everybody has to dance with it a little differently.

@johnfreund4456 Yeah, totally.. may still come in handy .. it informs how I grandparent and also now a lot of my own self talk mainly because of its plan c ‘only tackle a few problems at a time, shelve everything else’ which stops me feeling that sense of overwhelm from a laundry list of things. But all the feels on the teen years I wasn’t diagnosed until I was a grandma but I was still a nightmare teen. So you defs have my empathy. The main reason I take medication is that it helps a lot with the emotional dysregulation, I tend not to get RSD effects at all when I’m taking it. But I do think that learning CBT from a great psychologist has helped me enormously. And there are some great DIY CBT content creators on here too. Also mindfulness. I do a lot if guided meditation type stuff. It’s how I quit smoking and the effects of a good track that I can sink myself into give me about three or four hrs of the same calm the medication gives. Takes about an hour though. Steve g jones does a really good ‘healing green liquid’ track. but really as you say, everyone is different and what works for me might not work for everyone. These are just things that don’t cost money that have made the most difference to me I guess… things I would have loved to know about much sooner.

100% on that. Diagnosed in my 50s. When I told some of my long-term friends, that I had been diagnosed, they replied in some form with good-natured sarcasm: “Really! You?!!!” Having a sense of humor about myself actually helped me. There is a disconnection from our autonomy that I think some of us feel, which often becomes the “I’m inept I’m lazy I suck” voice in our heads. The fact is, these thought patterns are part of our magic while they can also nail one foot to the floor. Being diagnosed allowed me to view the mental habits as part of me and not the whole. The self-effacing humor allowed me to turn that virtual 3rd-person perspective from critic to mentor, from self-effacing to self-soothing. …From “Lamont, ya big dummy!” to “John, you’re overthinking again”. Kinda CBT before I knew what that was!

@@johnfreund4456 Totally. I mean there is a part of me that feels a little less competent (ok, a lot) because I thought I really had all the things together but life was throwing too many curve balls at me. But I’m so glad now I understand that people who I thought were being mean to me weren’t.. I was just being easily distracted and neither of us knew why.. But what I found most interesting was how many people wanted to reassure me that I probably didn’t have it.. like it was a definite net zero to get a dx, like cancer or something. It was really hard to get through to a few people that this was a wonderful thing.. bittersweet because if grieving who I thought I was for a bit.. it does really pull the ground out from under you eh! But also I found my tribe. I just kinda fell in love with life and my kooky brain. Because from the very first moment a freind said “I think you should read this” it was all just me. My life. But it was all the things I’ve always loved about me., the hyper focus. The heartfelt feels. Being really good at puzzles..

Best analogy I've heard....a Ferrari that doesn't run rite (right) LOCKED in the garage... Lost the remote to the garage door opener...

Oops!! Lamborghini...adhd strikes!

Curious...what "I. Q." were you told you had??

Marie DeLozier thank you! I’m flattered😇 I’ve never found out my IQ, although I’ve had teachers tell me they don’t understand how I’m so smart yet so “lazy” haha Which I beg to differ, I prefer the term work smart, not hard ;)

Ahahahahahah brilliant 😂👍

Yep

It’s scary

Therapy is a scam. Most of the shit out is like this.

100%. Holy shit.

Não tenha dúvidas. Em Portugal, alguns psicólogos e psiquiatras dificilmente sabem o que é tdah

Yeah, and I thought no one understands me untill now.

Man, I hear that. This whole time I've been searching for the answer in self-help books and lectures with no such luck, and now I've finally found the answer - I have ADHD (I got diagnosed a few months ago).

Like being fully charged with nowhere to go 🙃

For me its like putting your foot on the accelerator but not getting very far then you realise you've been living with the hand brake on and not being able to release it.

good wording kidd!

For me it's like I've got so many winning ideas (multiple epiphanies per week) and I want to pursue them all at the same time, but then I become overwhelmed and don't pursue any..

You have the attention span of a goldfish, that's it.

"I'm not going to go through all that right now" translates to "I'm sure if you're watching this video, it's very likely you have ADHD and I'm probably starting to lose you since I'm 12 minutes into a 16 minute video." Thank you, doctor. You are correct.

I shall seize this brilliant man and talk him in to helping me.

Littlemetalpixie, I made it 46 seconds

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.

Yes very sure of Dr.benfungi. They helped me too to overcome my anxieties and get to the root of much of my "mental Illness" which is all rooted from trauma, abusive relationship and a chaotic childhood and addiction. Shrooms made a huge huge impact to why am totally free today.

Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

Oh man I feel for you because I'm that way too. When I stopped my stimulant meds after 20 years(!) on it, I still knew how to get myself to do what I need to do. But now there's more psyching myself out. MY ADHD means I start repeating to myself that I really need to do something (like make an important phone call). It is a bad sign--if I remind myself more than 3 times, forget it. The self-talk takes the place of whatever satisfaction I'd find in doing the thing I need to do. How about Russel Barkley, he is uncommonly good, is he? Talking about what its like and what helps.

My man, this is so relatable :( I've always described my brain as a battle between what I WANT to do and what I NEED to do. Always wanting to succeed, but being too worried about failure to move forward. I hope all has been well now.

This was me, but stopped in 9th grade. I was even in accelerated classes. Sadly I recently found out that was due to family issues. My father ( he was a family practice physician ) took me off my ADHD medication. He took me off the medication for his fear i would become addicted to drugs (eg: meth), because around the time i was in high school my parent's found out my brother was doing meth. I was only told this after he passed away from leukemia and they lied to me saying my brother left college because his fraternity brother died of blood alchohol intoxication. This was 10 years after I was off the medication. During those year I failed at college so many times and my father's passing didn't help either. I'd rather have failed college than losing my father, but I got both.

From other comments, "It's like watching your life in third person", and your "I fail because I'm afraid to fail." Is by far the most relatable thing I've read so far. I stopped taking Adderall back in high school because I felt like I didn't need it or could over come it. For many years of my life after that, the original need for taking the medication went unnoticed; I thought it was behind me. I took up aviation training to become a pilot and it's been without a doubt the most eye opening experience where I realized that ADD is something I never defeated or outgrew. Self sabotage, day in and day out. I know what I need to do, I tell myself I need to do it, and then I constantly fight with myself to get anything accomplished.

That happened to me to. I would park at a park near by and sleep

I could’ve written this myself. I was in tears during that part. I have never felt so validated.

So valid

@@Treardet Some of students have ADHD. When they are on medication it’s a world of difference. When they forget to take them there’s just no getting to them.

Oh god, I spent years lying to myself that I can actually adapt to doing things the way other do it, and yeah, as expected, I failed again and again. Accepting that my brain works differently has been a major step for me. Sadly, most of the "outside world" still expects me to function "normally" even when they see it's not the optimal way for me.

@@vojtechvaligura7054 oh you need to do it in the way that make you feel good and happy ,for that we are in this world , not to do in the way that other want .And to be like that start a business or stay in one village .

I have a BA in psych, seemed a natural thing. Could have taken a programing course, this was 1966, instead of psych 101. Gotta say I never put the psych to use. Really couldn't keep a job. When I was about 50 I was diagnosed, put on meds, and discovered computer programming and got an MS in it. Programming suited me, worked in the field successfully until I retired. Wish I were diagnosed and had taken that programming course in 1966!

💯💯💯

God I can relate to this too much

As an update, I have seen 1 Neuropsychologist who took my insurance then after the first appointment called me to say now they don't take my insurance and it cost 3k for the testing to determine if I officially have ADHD, then I found one more Psychologist who 100% did take my insurance and when I spoke to them and just ask to take the official ADHD diagnosis due to my life long issues, all the meds I have been on for depression ( I am not depressed) and Bi-Polar meds ( current mental health doctor says I am not Bi-Polar) I know exactly what symptoms I have dealt with my entire life. That is me 100%. Trying to find a Dr who is willing to just get you to take the ADHD test was hard but I finally found one. I take the test in July so we will know if I am just suffering from anxiety as this newest Dr said she thinks my issue is or if I am a very seriously misdiagnosed 42-year-old man who has ground his way through life never being able to come close to being the best me I can be. I will keep you posted. I just want to have clear slow thoughts and not feel like mentally I am walking a tight rope or going on stage to do a show every time I am doing something out side my home.

Best wishes from a stranger on the internet! I sincerely hope you finally get the answers and treatment you need. Hang in there!

Wow, yeah? I can so relate to that!

I'd like to hug him as well, but it would be a lot harder than you

Omg I hate when people speak slow or use too many words/are not succinct when explaining something.... is that an ADHD thing?

Yeah, finally an informational video I don't have to listen to on faster speeds

mariachristina55 Omg! For me, it is. I have to avoid people who are redundant, speak slowly, or use filler words often (well, you know, basically, um). I think that’s why I interrupt people so much.

Guys, if videos are too slow for you, then you will LOVE this -- there is an addon for your browser that speeds up videos. I watch most videos at 1.3x and it is SO MUCH BETTER. Search for "Video Speed Controller." It has radically changed my ability to focus on videos like this. (EDIT: Yes, I know you can change the speed with UKposts controls, but 1) UKposts doesn't give enough fine-grain control and 2) You can use it on other sites besides UKposts.)

After watching through all of it I realized that he meant "hold accountable" as in "slapping physical responsibility reminders onto your face because your brain doesn't remember them". In a way, it DOES mean holding us more accountable because, he will keep remind us of what we need to do and when and why and what we will get after it is done.

It’s his way of saying find ways to keep you on track or on task. More loving and helpful, less judgmental than it sounds.

LOL same

Refueling the tank is so important

I like how he said it is 80% treatable with medication. I would like to see it. Here is a list of different meds: adderall, adderall, adderall, and Ritalin. Meth

ukposts.info/have/v-deo/oJd0m5t9rpl7o6s.html Hope this might help.

Just a suggestion, there is cure for mankind in the Qur'an, only if you could read the first and second chapter, or even if u could hear it before u learn to read it by yourself by the will of our CREATOR you would soon feel better . A link for you to download it, (u also have the translation in the settings) Check out Quran: play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=co Majeed app on your mobilem.pakdata.QuranMajeed

I felt the same thing! I feel like we should all exchange numbers and create a support group!

@@kathy2888 want to exchange our numbers?

right with you, got the same feelings

Same here bud 😕

nate kingsland yup😢

You are needed just the way you are Nate. Do not fret!

ukposts.info/have/v-deo/hKannGeHfKioupc.html

I feel this so much, i swear!!!

FAX

there's still a lot of general practitioners who don't actually believe it exists or that it's something you can live with.

So well said; I love his passion.

And angry at people who dont want to learn about the help for adhd when there are a lot of help out there.

I assumed the exact same. From the video title I thought it was gonna be a nutcase trying to cure ADHD like those guys that tried to "cure homosexuals" (shudder), so I came straight to the comments before even watching to see the general reception of the video. Pleasantly surprised to see a lot of people with ADHD resonating with the video and feeling empowered by the tools he's suggesting, so it's probably worth a watch now!

"Like a passenger in my own mind." I'm stealing that line ❤

same- like Im not tearing up, my contact lense is irritating me 🤦‍♂

Same

Yep

So true

Imagine discovering years later that it was never your fault to begin with. And that it's treatable. Now does anybody have a time machine we can borrow?

ukposts.info/have/v-deo/l6ShdmN5b3iJzGQ.html I offer this to help not to say all other options are bad but something as simple as changing the food eaten can help should be talked about more before just passing out a pill.

truth....

Woah it feels like you saw me through me, Im litterally doing that what you said right now o-o

I found myself checking reddit at about the 9 min mark. Exactly what he said about running down the tank in 10 mins.

fuck im embaressed

I paused.

@Ashley Elbra Never has any doctor diagnosed me with ADHD. I have been diagnosed with depression and it was suggested to me that I may have dyslexia but, to me, ADHD seems to describe me.

Me too. Doctors used to insist on antidepressants which made me more hyper.

Nailed it.

Wow, I am struggling for so long and not being able to figure out why I do what I do. Now I have something to work with...

Wasted so much time in programs, rooms, 'rehabs' (jails effectively). Fuck AA old heads and any medical professional who refused to hear me when I said 'there's something else, please can we look again, I don't feel like alcohol is my main issue, it the depression, these pills I still wanna fucken die' FUCK PAYNE WHITNEY, FUCK CORNELL WEILL! DON'T SEND ANYONE THERE!!!! FOR YEARS THEY IGNORED MY DIAGNOSIS. I HAD THE DIAGNOSIS. I LEFT WHEN DR ROMANO, THIRD FAILED SHIT ASS IGNORANT FUCK AT E68TH IN 3 YEARS SAID POINT BLANK 'no, that not something we can help you with' . For real, I almost killed myself so many times. I was hopeless, for my entire life. I was just going through motions, not killing myself 100% selflessly got my family who cried a bunch when my uncle died. Finally after years I said ok fine I don't see why a private doctor paid for by my uncle could do something my entire clinic couldn't. Turns out they wouldn't, not couldn't. In one session, I had a second positive diagnosis, a script to pick up, and within 24 hours I had hope that I could accomplish something (like, even coming back to minute tasks) and a will to live. Thank you Dr Griffin for saving my life, and fuck the entire medical machine that wasted so many years of my life. So many years. I almost didn't make it, many times.

he is selling something & paid by big pharma, ALL OF THEM if you check his references & studies

*sigh* I had a feeling he was 'sponsored' with all his talk about medication. His brief mention of CBT does sound interesting though, building organisational frameworks to offset ADHD's spacing out and inability to manage time. Real shame he glossed over that to push drugs instead.

@@alanberkeley7282 That has got to be the dumbest blog post I've ever read. It's basically "ADHD doesn't exist" + a ton of other dubious claims without citations or evidence. If a guy with a PhD that's researched the subject for decades and cites his claims tells me one thing, and a rando on WordPress tells me another, why should I believe the rando on WordPress? Because he tries to make me feel warm and fuzzy by telling me there's nothing wrong with me?

A guy with a PHD who is in bed with Big Pharma, who receives a third of his taxable income from them, who has made a career and good living out of promoting a bullshit disorder. I'm a retired engineer. I have nothing to lose. I'm not in bed with Big Pharma or taking their money or gifts or holidays or payments. My career doesn't depend on it. And besides this guy has a PHD. So what? He couldn't do my job. He wouldn't have a clue. Just because he has a PHD behind his name doesn't make him a smart, or good person, or in his case moral,. because he isn't. He telling you what his pharma paymasters want you to know. He's nothing better than the drug pusher on the street corner. In fact he's worse.

@@albertogomez-han8366 Prove ADHD or anything else is caused by a chemical imbalance?

Hang in there! If you're intuitive enough and smart enough to create systems that worked in the past, you can certainly develop new systems that can help. Good luck to you, Natalia!!!

@@shessoheavy6130 Thank you :’)

@@kirani111 You're welcome. The detention strategy sounds like something I would do. It's all about forcing yourself to be accountable and buckling down for those two hours (or however long) to get the work done. Maybe someone close to you can hold you accountable? That's worked for me.

Thank you! Blessings to you 🙏 your statement is inspiring me. You know you can overcome, because have done so before. You will again.

Using detention as a study hall is not a sign of laziness, so give yourself some credit! One thing I do (as a freelance copy editor) is tell clients I need a deadline, even if there is no particular time constraint on their end. Most people are very understanding if you simply tell them you need a deadline or you will have a really hard time getting started.

Yes, I can either stay home and clean my house or go to work for the day. I cannot do both of those on the same day. When I come home from work, I'm done for the rest of the day.

I think decompressing after work is a thing for normies, too. I also think better diet, sleep, and exercise will help with that for normies and neurodivergent, too, but defining what better diet, sleep, and exercise is takes a very long time and is tricky to implement. And then once all that’s said and done, a stressful job can undermine all of it.

@@stevebean1234I am to exhausted to do exercise after I get home. I would need to do that right after I leaving my work. If I sit down I would not get up anymore. I have thought about doing exercises before work but that would mean I really need to wake up at 4 am. I love exercises but hate/can’t get to them.

@@Vanadium if you're exhausted when you get home, its probably diet. maybe sleep or stress management but diet is the biggest driver. get a big freezer and meal prep a ridiculous amount of chicken, rice, vegetables. 1lb chicken 1lb cooked rice and 2lb vegetables is about the macros you need. or go get a nutritionist (make sure you find a good one not a quack) and theyll be able to help you get on a better diet. exercise will also push your body to actually metabolize your food, rather than just store it. if you can metabolzie food better you will feel more energetic overall as well. therefore, it is all a process and you need to have good exercise andnutrition for a while before everything starts getting easier.

​​@@stevebean1234did you not watch this video at all? They mentioned diet once, and that was about how ADHD people need rapid glucose to the frontal lobe for maintaining EF. Get outta here with your HelloFresh subscription meal plan, braindead

Me too. The message I hear is you can do it but you won't therefore you will fail unless you just buck up and do it.

me too. I have two careers, speak 4 languages and my parents always say that I don't have goals (which I do). I just don't act on them

Can I get a hear-hear?!

It is just hard for us to apply what we have learned. Knowing is not the same as knowing HOW to use it.

@@Catlily5 totally. How do you manage Cat? I'm about to start therapy and I'n not on medication

I literally just said to 4 different people after watching this "this guy explains in 10 minutes what I've been trying to say for 25 years".

@@bjugler JINX!

I am 41 undiagnosed- my husband diagnosed and freshman son diagnosed no wonder I’m so overwhelmed... this I’m explained me to a t. I’m ready for help but now frozen as far as what to do or how to get it!

Jami Tibbs You can start with your regular doctor as a first step, but expect that they won't know much and you'll have to educate them. It is probably a good idea to look online and see if you can find a specialist near you. Would be happy to help in anyway.

@@bjugler thank you. That’s the problem is I do so much research it feels pointless to go it’s a mistrust I have and it’s just unfortunate

Me too! If I need to buy more dog food, I need to leave the empty bag in front of the door, visual reminders work!

I have done this as well. Schedules. Everything in its place always! Unfortunately, after my retirement, I have nothing or nobody to hold me accountable, to push me forward...there’s nothing. It’s now, that it’s all falling apart. This makes so much sense! I was a construction worker and always physically active.

@@MariposaRedimida I would go past the empty bag and forget it...

@@MariposaRedimida I need a personal assistant.

An assistant sounds like a luxury to me. I need a female assistant to hire.

For me it helps to keep small notes of how long such tasks usually do take but then add 25-50% time to whatever it usually takes, this way your always ahead of the time you give.

Oh I wish my boss could understand this

MAN- word!!

my friends and family consistently tell me to be somewhere an hour before i'm really supposed to be there, i picked up on it so i'm always aware when that's what's going on but in some weird paradoxical way it still works, i'm habitually late on time even though i know deep down im late

I just don’t answer because I can’t even think of a number. I hate when people ask that.

me too!!

yes yes yes yes yes exactly my thoughts. you are not alone!

I was fired from a job that I absolutely loved. I was fired for being scattered, poor time management, making too many mistakes, easily distracted, etc. At least now I know why and how it happened.

Same here. ❤️

Exactly!

Same with me. It hurts!

Nah, you probably hadn’t actually thought about all those things you would have accomplished )

I know, it hurts me so much. I know I’m not stupid. A handful of my friends went to IvyLeagues out of high school. But my dumbass became super over emotional over a break up in high school and I basically ruined my life over some silly kiddie relationship. Here I am now, in debt, 5 years Into community college with nothing to show for it because no matter how many colleges I keep transferring to, I end up fucking up my GPA in the first semester.

@@dailyredapple How about fuck college and go and get a trade aka an apprenticeship. Make friends with someone that owns a business and hammer them to get it!! xx

Same! I have THE BEST ideas, find the best products.... But... Then I see these products on the shelves months later selling so well, but none are mine. I have great foresight and can advise and coach others magnificently keeping them to task.. But not myself. I've been mistaken for a psychologist, marketing manager, teacher and nurse.. Just with "stuff" I've researched and what I think... Zero qualifications as I'm interested in so much but can't commit to one thing. I've been called "lazy" by family as I'm not a domestic goddess (though ok) but others think I'm super organised and efficient, achieving great things in the community... Can't win.

Your right. I'm jumping through a hoop right now. Basically have to pay money to get proper diagnosis (hopefully!) just to get the help that's needed.

There is no ADHD

@@alanberkeley7282 just because you don't have adhd, no have ever experienced it, doesn't mean it's not real.

@@tiaryan1350 I've looked and looked and I've yet to see anything to convince me it exists. I was 72 in March

@@alanberkeley7282 it's definitely a real thing. Myself, and my daughter have it. It a feeling, causes many issues with childhood, growing up, effects grades, causes an umbrella of extra things with mental illness. You have to have ADHD to know it. I'm ADD, and so is my child... The more quiet type. I have no idea where to even begin. Do you think you may or may not have it? It's changes in the brain chemistry. Autism runs along with it like a cousin, but the two are very different, yet similar. I have one of each. If you don't have it, it's obviously going to be hard to understand.

its ok. Have faith and work like a dog and read BOOKS ! Books changed my life, on ADHD and PTSD. Most importantly though NEVER EVER GIVE UP !!

That last sentence resonates with me. We're rooting for you! 💗

I had exactly what you have. I changed jobs. Took some psychedelics once or twice. I now work nights.I use Stimulant medication. I am almost a fully functional member of society now. My depression is gone. It is possible to get your life back. I'm still dyslexic but Google helps a lot😅

Hey man, what a story. My heart goes out to you. How are things going? Are you close to a diagnosis and have you found a prescribing doctor?

It can be hard to find a doctor who is willing to diagnose and treat this condition. I was not diagnosed until I was 40. I had started looking for treatment 7 years before I was diagnosed, but the psychiatrist I first saw about it - the only psychiatrist my then-health insurance company covered - lead me to believe that I was within the range of normal. I wasn't. I just happened to be single, childless and exercising 2x a day when I visited with her. So I went about my life, still struggling some. Moved up in my career to management level roles, got married, had a baby...and stopped having time to exercise even 1x a day consistently. And my life started slowly falling apart. I tried again to get treatment, having a new PPO insurance plan, but actually getting the appointment took almost a year. Thank goodness I had gotten recommendations from family and friends about the best doctor to see about the condition and he diagnosed me in 1 visit. Medication isn't a silver bullet. (Honestly, exercising 2x a day was closer to a silver bullet.) But it helps! And so does having a name for the condition and the issues. So I can watch videos like this one, and know a few more changes I can implement to help myself cope. Keep looking for the doctor who can and will treat you! P.S. Besides exercise or stimulant meds, my D.O. psychiatrist let me know that Flax Seed Oil or Fish Oil 3 times a day can help. (D.O.s always wanna try the "natural" approach first. I am personally over the natural approach, but keep this info in my back pocket in case I ever run out of meds between appointments.)

Totally wish I had kept up the Ritalin as well. I got a new prescription, my old diagnosis was still active, and it has been really helpful. Talk to your doctor!

My dear, I don’t know how old you are, but don’t give up. Even if you think it’s too late, maybe it’s not. You can go back to meds and try to develop strategies to better your situation. I don’t know you, but I really hope you can feel better.

try vyvanse

I wanted to suggest you look into neurofeedback for ADHD, because it worked for me. You'd try a psychologist (not a psychiatrist). It's not medication, it's a treatment. Good luck.

Why can’t you use Ritalin again?

On the path to diagnosis at 28. I feel you..

Just recently realizing myself as a 28 year old that I likely have ADHD and it really makes me tear up too being hit with that realization that it’s not that I’m unable to take care of my life how I think I should, but that I’ve never had the right tools… validating and scary at the same time.

I am also 33 and I was diagnosed last month. I learned so much in the past month and started my medication last week. But to fully get better, I still need to develop some good habits and design my environment.

@@jjjooe Can you name the medication please?

70two same here

“WHY I can’t stand myself” OOF, yes, I feel that with my soul

My friends are always upset with me being late and sometimes I dont want to socialize if my house is not tidy enough... and getting there... but give us some names of drugs then? I used to anti medical drugs before this video. ritalin has been compared to cocaine...

Smoke some 420 and rethink life. God.

Miracles do happen with your life changing.

Me too. I am 71 and was just diagnosed this year.

Tenho 61 anos. descobri que tinha tdah há 3 anos e tive de procurar psiquiatra especializada para VALIDAR o meu diagnóstico. Passo por tudo isso. É dose !!

I hope someone in your life has told you that you're doing amazing. And you've done amazing things. Because I guarantee you have and you are.

Late reply but offering this: Drop everything and get a DX and the right RX meds. Then take control of what’s looming and set up clocks in your visual field, in every room! Don’t rely on the iPhone!

@@tonyatorres999 I own a watch. It goes with me everywhere. LOVE it, can't live(properly) without it

Does it still feel Like that? The honeymoon phase always be hitting

Bro, right?! The same fucking day I started, my wife noticed immediate, noticable improvement. Not lasting, but it was there. And me being ADHD, "You think so?" I can't recognize when I'm doing right or not most of them time, I just do and hope it works out at this point.

Everything still ok?

just never ever overtake your meds

Donavan, it's literally mind blowing.

This, so much.

Cooper, I can only speak for myself, but I'm willing to bet you'll be glad you did. I'm 56, have been mostly unemployed for over a year now, and recently got diagnosed, although I always knew I had it. Finally after getting treatment, I can see how it really affected my life, why I never wrote the books and stories I began, why I got fired from jobs, why I am where I am today. Things are starting to make sense, and I'm starting to change a lifetime's patterns of avoiding high EF tasks, and beginning to be able to put into practice some of the time-management and personal development practices I've studied my whole life but could NEVER F***IN' DO. Thanks to my treatment, I really feel like life begins at 56.

frimmin, I am 27 but I am delaying getting diagnosed for at least 5 years now. Main reason is because that is just not something that people do around here, if you have a problem you should just man up and deal with it, year right... Also I am afraid that meds that l get will not help me, so I will be completely hopeless. Right now I know that as long as I can dream about meds at least I know there is hope, but if meds fail I'm screwed.

There are lots of articles and videos about natural alternatives to ADHD medication, maybe these would help?

djlvvy46, Most of the time it comes down to eating better food, working out and maybe taking supplements. I tried all of these. Exercise does nothing for me. Even when I was playing football almost daily I was still struggling with mental tasks.

Your comment made me cry! Same here, but i wouldnt give up

The doctor who invented ADHD said on his deathbed that it was a fictitious disease. You are a normal human.

Keep going sir 👏🏻

Do you work out five times at least a week?

Same here, i'm 40 but at 35 i realized i wasn't lazy, i work 12 hours a day, but i get really easily distracted, when i realized i worked most than every body i know something clicked in my mind, "I AM A REALLY HARD WORKING PERSON", "I AM AN OREDERED PERSON" but i had something else i couldn't understand. I repeat to myself every week these 2 sentences and my self love has grown

Same here (and find your comment😅)

Lol me too🤣 And the bullet points in 2 different colours really keeps the focus

You just described exactly what I was doing

I watch most videos at 1.5x speed. It helps!!

@@yessicajessica😂😂😂I thought that it was normal to watch videos at 1.5 speed

❤️

And then delete the draft 10 minutes into writing 3 paragraphs because who thinks this rant is adding anything to the conversation...

@@phatmattd when in fact it gives quite a lot

@Danielle W. I don't know what kind of ADD you have but if my mind is not stimulated when I want to fall asleep, it's close to impossible if I'm not already very tired, and even then I put like a old episode from a series that I like to run in the backgound for the noise, it's smooth falling asleep after. And I read some other peoples comments doing the same thing so it's not just me.

Danielle W. 💯understand exactly what you're saying and where you're coming from, I can also tell you, some of us, our minds don't stop thinking 💭 unless they are at the point of almost a physical exhaustion. And I think 🤔 that's what the other comment [ (edit) @Om Draws!] was about. I decided to learn Chinese, one of the most difficult languages, just so my brain 🧠 would stop thinking 💭. Or maybe it was as a test, if my brain would stop thinking💭 Lol 😆 It didn't🙄 I actually learned Mandarin 😆🙄So now the challenge is learning to read and write it😁😉

Brings back memories of how I was great at math until we started geometry...

But seriously he said this as I was scrolling down the comments and reading yours 💀 I'm freaked out/happy because I've been studying enlightenment/synchronicities and this was definitely one of them 🤣🙏

You put into words what I could not. I feel like this disorder will ruin my life and I feel so lost.

Just a suggestion, there is cure for mankind in the Qur'an, only if you could read the first and second chapter, or even if u could hear it before u learn to read it by yourself by the will of our CREATOR you would soon feel better . A link for you to download it, (u also have the translation in the settings) Check out Quran: play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=co Majeed app on your mobilem.pakdata.QuranMajeed

@@asdfghlkjh100 only through Jesus will you find peace, love and truth.

@@butsirrr @UCpIuM65UzwYvWxJpOpOu8Cg you are both proselytizing idiots.

@@LenaPatsa No, you don't understand... Only their God can save you! /s

Do u take meds ?

Meditation?? HA! That's a funny joke, sounds like one made by someone who doesn't have ADD/ADHD. There *is no* focus, clear your mind, meditate and etc. with untreated ADD/ADHD. And by treated, I specifically mean medicated. All the other (admittedly important when applied with proper meds) management methods in the world won't do a thing if your brain chemistry's at incorrect levels and your executive functions aren't happening period. You literally CANNOT WILL-POWER or "try harder" your way through this issue any more than you could walk on a broken leg bone. It just ain't happening.

I completely agree, meditation has helped me a lot and exercise helps a lot too. great point!

🍟 How ironic --- that (even white) pesky wannabe righteous christian patriots are now the new religious extremist boogeymen that need to be taken out of the way (with FunVax 'cure' for pesky fundamental belief in and connection with divine nature) so that the billionaire bankster lucifarian poi-zionist pedophile preistclass can finish turning the entire world into a Gangstas Pair-o-dice / worldwide wireless concentration cramp. 'Cognative dissonance' is when innocent minds can't fathom the depth of diabolically deceptive ruthless lengths that those hellbent on total world domination will go to --- to avoid being held responsible for crimes against humanity and nature (and worse). It is all too likely that trump is just acting (in this big political-theatre meat-puppet show) as 'controlled-opposition' to the lucifarian globalist cabal (proverbial power pyramid-scheme) --- when he is totally down with the pedophile preistclass poi-zionist celebutard cabal himself . kinda like how half Ashkenazi jew hitler became the patsy scapegoat catalyst to give the bankster billionaire warmongers a good sounding motive with which to trick the world into another bloody yet highly lucrative (for themselves) world war . catapult the kingpimps into the 'gulag' they diggeth for pesky greedom-fighting freedom-lovers. Could it be --- Trump is like the 'Judas goat' --- that leads the human-chattel straight to the slaughterhouse by giving them a false sense of security and entitlement? 🍟 Howabout some burnt 'freedom-fries' with your njew world order ? Never forget how 'good ol uncle sam' used the 911 inside job as a bogus excuse to rape, pillage, murder, (and worse) all over the globe. American people are still cool with 'US' evicting all of instigator isreal's unruly neighbors in the mideast --- cool with infiltraiting, subverting, and overthrowing democratically elected governments of syria, iraq, libya, somalia, columbia, chile, ukraine, yemen, etc. --- we schmuck americans absolutely do deserve every bit of retribution coming to us for indulging in our spoils of war and blissfull willful ignorance... Best Say yer prayers before it's even more too late ... Just be aware We all gotta realize how left and right (good actors and pure evil) always manage to work together 'nicely' when it comes time to give themselves big bonuses and $ell the rest of the population out . usa (and earth) is getting played by both sides playing good cop bad cop --- when they are ALL diabolically retarded lucifarian flunky motherschmuckers in on the proverbial poi-zionist masonic power pyramid scheme HELLBENT for TOTAL WORLD DOMINATION together . ( Don't trust the Coven-ment ) Their O.T. - O.G. is one and the same as the narcissistic devil he is supposedly against. Playing both sides for schmucks is just how the deceptacon hex-nut pedophile preistclass kingpimps roll ... Spreading the other cheek further for them to rape everything more easily sure as heck aint helping anyone but the big glory hog glory hole himself . (ukposts.info/have/v-deo/moplgoqbioFmwpc.html this used to be a vid by a whistleblower exposing the masonic lucifarian celebutard pyramid scheme secret cult) Of coarse if any professionals come clean with the dirty details of their trades --- we should have mercy on them --- but until then --- they deserve every bit of righteous outrage that's coming their way ... (go Cannonize yerselves ) Goddesspeed yawl !

I remember exercising and having healthy habits... It, like most everything else, didn't last. Except for the depression. It's always there.