Please stay strong Kevin. You have a lot more living to do. I'm incredibly grateful for your service and America is indebted to you for your sacrifice. Much love to you and please don't ever be afraid to reach out for help. ❤️🇺🇸

Thank you for your service.

Thank you for your service! May God bless you in all ways! ❤

If you see this, thank you for your service!

Kevin stay strong bro everything is OK bro

I feel this one!! Awesome!!!

PTSD isnt any kind of joke! 💯

So very loved .

💙🖤💙

Tim Barry- South Hill. Hope it finds you well!

😢 thank you

yep same here

Perfect. 🙏🏻

Well said. I was still curious about him the first couple bars in, addicted a couple bars later.

Ur offer is sefless and appreciated Thanks so much may hit u up one day when needed. USAF.VET

Your words are heartfelt. Reaching out is one of the most challenging things that many of us struggle with. But your offer and kind words help. Thank you!

@@georgemurphy5529 I can only imagine. I've heard the phrase "thousand pound phone" in aa and na meetings a lot, and it really resonates with me. I say this not to in any way discourage people from being there for folks who are struggling, people like the person who posted this comment is doing the best thing a human can do, but I know I've heard lots of people say they don't understand why addicts/vets/sexual abuse survivors/depressed people don't just reach out and talk. Well, to be honest, sometimes you just end up feeling guilty that someone *did* offer to listen if you talked to them. Like I'm so flawed, and have been so selfish, I don't deserve to have someone show me kindness and compassion like that without expecting anything in return. Or, worse, occasionally you worry that they might actually help you. Honestly the vulnerability that comes from taking those first steps is one of the most horrifying things a human can step into. We'll stay in absolute hell if we think reaching out might hurt even more. "The devil you know" n all that... TLDR; Like I said, the op did an awesome thing by offering to talk if someone reaches out. I know the reasons I listed for why we don't reach out sometimes aren't logical, and it certainly wasn't justifying it. Reaching out is the best thing I've ever done to be honest, got me on the path to getting my life back. Just thought it might be helpful for folks to know. But I'd like to second that offer about being here to listen for anyone who needs that. I can only speak for myself and I'm not a therapist and have only been through the ringer with addiction, but never served in the military, much as I've always wished I could push myself to do so, but maybe that's enough experience that I could at least be useful to someone struggling lol. I've come to realize that's the only worthwhile thing I can do with my life- be there for others : )

@@jacobl6714 Wow! You put into words what I've felt so many times. Thank you!!

Salute

Hes hella famous in my book and I pray for my crew on the daily

Tanya Kwiatkowski He is now, that comment was 1 year ago.

@@Snicklefritz10 I for one approve an appreciate Tom on a level some people will never understand :)

Tanya Kwiatkowski 👍

He is now lol

Keep your head up bro .and thank you for your service if you to talk hit me up

my step brother is also a iraq vet an afgan vet as well iev seen 1st hand what he went thu when he came home god bless u sir an thank u for ur service

Thank you for your service, God bless

Hope you're heads still up ☝ stay true brother in arms

Thank you for your service.i appreciate you.God bless you.today, yesterday, and forever.you mean so very much to me.my Dad was a vietnam decorated vet .I thank all our son,all our daughters.i pray.i care.hang in there.much respect

Thank you for what you have sacrificed for all of us. It takes a good, strong person to do what you have done and it takes an even stronger person to wake up and push through every day even when you feel like you can't get up. I'm glad you made it back home safe and am sorry for the lose of your father. I hope whatever kind of struggles you may be having or are dealing with get better. If you ever need someone to talk to or just want to vent some im here with open arms and ears. Remember "Everyday in Everyway are getting better and better" -Stormy

Thank you for your service

Welcome home

Thank you for your service! Stay strong, for you and your brothers, God Bless 🙌

Mr. West thank you for your service sir and God bless you always, thank you you are our hero sir.🙏🙏🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🙏🙏🙏🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸💖💖💖🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸💖💖🇺🇸

Rachael Thompson me

OMG GIRL! :) YES! I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM! LIKE I WAKE UP - PUT HIM ON AND ALL OF HIS PIECES ARE MY FAVORITE! :)

Today

I heard him on a Facebook post a year ago never saw his name rediscovered today and subscribed hope this guy blows up with Son real

Dam skippy

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

Totally agree.

You guys deserve everything on offer when back on your own soil. Seems you's get lost in system - disgusting! So glad Tom has brought attention to this issue.

PUPPET ACTRESS 🤔....🤷🏻‍♂️

PUPPET ACTRESS not gonna lie, it’s a struggle every day... but yea... thank you.. I do appreciate it.

PUPPET ACTRESS thank you. Sorry, I’m at a a pub-crawl right now. It’s insane. It’s a marvel comic crawl... everybody’s hammered... but you seem like an awesome person.

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

Hey I am a female Army veteran. I get the wanting to punch out, but don't break your ppl's hearts! There is always one reason to stay...God bless

@Marco Roman How are you doing 10 months later? I'm truly sorry about your friend, I really am, I hope you've had time to realize that the pain he left you with is a pain you don't want to leave anyone with. I hope your depression has lifted and you've found happiness. I hope you have a wonderful day Marco.

I’m reading this a year after it was commented I hope your feeling better suicide doesn’t stop the pain it just passes it on

Hope your still here Marco

💜🙏😔

I’m so sorry, my best friend was murdered and I have PTSD and depression.

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

JUST REMEMBER TO KEEP A GO TO LISTOFBUDDIES...sometimes he won't want to talk,but they can get it out of hom.

So sad

RIP bruh. See u in Valhalla. Sorry and thank u/for ur service and sacrifice.wish he had been able to get saved.

@@samanthapinto9317 thank you and crazy thing is he loved that faith..and i tried to save him i was 5 minutes to late

@@sonofjudah4343 yea most of my boys would say the same send off...and who wouldnt love the viking faith its got thor in it and all..they lived as gods had a Burning Burial at sea and went to Valhalla to be God's. They were all about family and community and equality for the strength of their partners. Best ppl, best warriors, hence our boys liking them so. And plz plz dont take it hard u wouldn't have made it in time and had u stopped that one there is always another. When i hung myself in may i was in my moms shed moving stuff since she was getting ready to leave to Florida. My ex whose my best bud was in his truck outside to the right of shed. 2 guys powerwashing my moms house to the left of shed. My mom was inside and somehow our neighbor, whose an observant police officer, came over to mow the yard and (he uses our riding mower)-(which i had directly outside of shed.)(dbl doors were wide open to shed too btw) NOONE EVEN NOTICED! I literally told ex dont be mad but take me home to change left with no word to mom made excuse up later and was honest when i came back. "God says im too bad and the devil isnt ready for me to take over"...been unable to die since 1985 (& Valhalla thinks i have more warrior duties here still?) lol.-- Not a laughing matter but i deflect with humor often. Honestly it sux for those we leave behind but (at least in my opinion) know when we succeed at suicide we weren't strong enough anymore that the struggle was going on longer than we ever showed signs of and the longer we fought to remain here for the ones we love (to not cause any pain) the weaker we felt and then by the time people saw it's almost too late we're exhausted and drained and tired of hearing that it the weak way out or how much loved ones will hurt(no offense) cuz we have been hurting we have been strong n at some point u can't anymore. Never believe the what if. To reach that point and succeed there was no coming back there was only the delay of the inevitable. Stay strong bruh. U will see him in valhalla too some day. Families of fallen warriors are warriors themselves. And it helps me to try and help others while im here so i know i mattered at something i didnt just cause pain

@@samanthapinto9317 when he got home he said he lost faith with our god the god of israel so i said well let's find you new ones and we found this one for him

same x

Tell your grandfather I thank him for his service!

@@heavensennamon1938 I told him :) He said thank you :)

@@flintsmiley9595 He's very welcome. He deserves all the best things in life! And you do too!

@@heavensennamon1938 Thank you So much for the Great things you are saying hope the best for you and your family :)

Heaven.. I subscribe to your channel :) you like the same kind of music as I do thats wonderful!!

@weezy Lloyd. Never feel horrible sometimes when life feels like its putting the weight of the world on our shoulders it is so overwhelming and almost too much, its good when u hear about others problems and realize urs are not as bad it helps you to see the light at the end of ur tunnel(so to speak) and then some people that feel alot of pressure and stress lift so sudden that they may also get inspired to comment on others more severe situations to provide encouragement or even an ear to listen....which in turn helps another. Even though listening to another vent/or being the ventor doesn't solve the problem/situation just having someone listen to u as u vent or even just getting an offer for that can help provide some relief, temporary or not, it can mean the difference between hopelessness and remembering even a stranger can care enough to reach out. And that can also be the difference between a life or death decision at the time for some.

Just remember that it's ok to feel bad, even if other people went through different things. It's ok to see your problems as that, do not invalidate yourself

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

Well thank you anyways sir for the price you paid for thousands of innocent people

TheMuzzleflash120mm bless you...

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

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Thank you for your service I wish there was more I could do to help you man but as one American to another American who sacrificed so much for me and my family thank you from the bottom of my heart and I hope things become a little easier and you gain the proper skills you need in order to cope with that part of your life and be able to live out the rest of your life in peace!!! Again a big THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE!!!!!!!🇺🇸🎖️

Thank you for your sacrifice, hang in there

Richard Stone I can't shake your hand and say thank you face to face like you deserve but in this exact moment I'm am physically saluting you and giving you my respect and gratitude. You are not alone. You are worthy and you are appreciated. Please never EVER forget that. -Respectfully Hillary Marek

Thank you for services Mr. Richard Stone!!! *Salute*

I’ll pray for you man 💯💚

I fully support and echo this message. Good job Mike :)

Hilari Knox Could not have been said any better. God bless you also.

@HilariKnox from a veteran to you. Thanks n God bless u too darling and glad some people have respect and realize the true lack of it given to vets. Never change for anyone. Hope ur family shows u mad pride for being so awesome! Stay safe.

As long as us vets know there are people like you worth defending we will always fight for you. Even if there are only a few for us to fight for.

💔 we don't. GOD please please bless our Soldiers 🙏 in JESUS' Name. amen

💜

Jeff Burke rip to ur brother man i hope best for u and his 2 kids and wife

Rielly Jarrell thankyou im doing my best look after them n my sis law. Sometimes it don’t seem real.

Sorry to hear this brother. Best wishes for you and his wife and kids.

I'm so sorry for your loss dear sir. PTSD is a brutal and merciless monster. It doesn't discriminate as it continues to punish an already hurting heart. Seek out help for yourself and his family so you can grieve properly and process what and why this has happened. My heart and prayers go out to you all.

Jeff Burke I'm sorry for your loss brother

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

God bless you and your daughter and family. I've made a request to the Father for your beautiful daughter and your whole family. May you all be blessed by His peace that passes all understanding, in Jesus' mighty name. Stand strong sister! With my love & heart. Peace & Love❤

I will pray for her. I know from personal experience I've been homeless. I've been gang stalked. Ran for my life all night. White knuckle grip on my weapon. Yeah, it fucks you up. Changes you. Never can be same again. Can't unsee what you've seen.

@@Cactus17Flower Thank you for your kindness. Your prayers are greatly needed and much appreciated.

@@earthobserver1007 That is a tragic story, and I'm so sorry for your experience. I understand never being the same again, but I pray that both you and my daughter find your way to a more happy and fulfilled life. No, we can never unsee the horrors we've lived through in this world, but I pray for peace of mind and enough positive experiences with the love and compassion of others that will eventually outweigh the bad. Many thanks for your prayers, and I will pray for you too.

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

much love and respect from 225

Same from the 816

Much love and respect on wut your doin Tommy Mac!!! From the 920 Keep doin u bro!! Change 4 kno1

From the 920

Same from the 484

James Headrick Have you tried using CBD?

As a first responder i suffer ptsd from a car crash. It was an ungodly sight.

DKEL West Sorry to heat that, have you tried using CBD for PTSD?

This isn't a miracle cure in one day but over time, it will def help. Meditate, but not only mediate while you are just breathing tell yourself I AM happy, I AM healthy, I AM etc. Tell yourself what ever you want to believe, yes it's brainwashing because once you have told it to yourself enough the brain and the body will start to believe it. And whenever you are thinking about the stressful situations, change that thought to a positive one, a good memory or I am.... Mental training is by far tougher than any physical training, but it is def the most rewarding if you stick with it. Hope this helps. If you need help just look up affirmations on UKposts and follow along with them. Helps greatly if you commit to doing it every day, the longer you do it each day the faster you will see results. If you can't sleep, cut on some affirmations and just repeat what is being said as you lay in bed, and clear the negativity out and I promise you will sleep a lot better.

J 23 CBD also can help

I love that your family is your salvation. Thank you for your service.

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I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

I suffer from CPTSD and count myself blessed to not have a memory of life without having PTSD. My heart goes out to those who mourn their lives before going through trauma. I also say thank you to all of our Veterans who served our country and you are definitely true Heros and celebrated every day in my home. After years in therapy, inpatient and out, sometimes on 13 psych meds at once, an alcoholic since I was younger than 13 years old, I am now off of most of the toxic medications, living a sober life for almost 7 years now, mentally better than I have ever been. I was called hopeless for so long but I never accepted it though I was always suicidal and I can not count how many attempts at taking my life that should have worked but failed. It was not my time. I now am thankful for those failures and am making the most of all my time and appreciating life. Please understand if I can anyone can. If you are a Veteran and my Hero then your lives are already worth more than I was ever considered worth so you are already further than you think, stronger than ever. Much love and respect. I hate seeing these pansy liberal idiots use the word "triggered". One second in your or my mind and they would be 6ft under. American Veterans have been making America the only safe place on Earth and they are too dumb to even know. God Bless You and God Bless America!

Thank you for sharing. I guess I would never understood my "alters" have they not shared my past trauma. I'm thankful to them, for the mind is kind

As the producer and co-writer of this song, it pleases me to hear that. I can't help but agree!!

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Thats the point. Weve all gotten comfortable with those facts. If this wakes one of us out of a million up to help then its done what the man intended.

Song ain't gonna ever erace PTSD or suicide believe me it will make me feel better for a bit but it never goes away! Never

@@meredithahern-tamilio4667 no nothing can ever take it away but bringing awareness might help the world/country start to be more proactive about helping us and others, that struggle so much with it, to learn and use the tools that help control it so that we can live a better life. We will never be the same we will have bad and worse days but if we can do something that helps us to see the positive or the light etc. And maybe then less of us will die feeling alone when its really the ones that we cant see that are always loving us that are alone when we're gone. USAF veteran. Thank u for ur service and remember u made it back. Broken bruised and mangled with no hope of healing yet ur wounds may have the unseen ones seem to make us lose hope that we can heal. Remember that we don't need sacrifice any more than we already have. Thanks for yours and wish u the best during ur recovery.

@@meredithahern-tamilio4667 no you're correct, the PTSD never really goes away. But the more time that passes and the more wonderful days you have/had it does get a tiny bit easier. I am a hurricane Andrew survivor from Homestead/Florida City FL August 24, 1992. Lost everything, was 6 months pregnant, almost died and got buried alive with my husband and parents. Lucky to be alive 🙏🙏💙💙 hang in there. Sending healing vibes your way 💙🙏🎶

This is exactly why this song is so important and powerful it gets people our of there comfort zone and shows them how dangerous mental health can be to the individual suffering if left alone and unchecked there is a reason why our Chain of command pushed so hard for us too look out for eachother even off the battlefield. I would still do it all again I truly do love my country even I don't always agree with its politics

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Justin Nicholson him and Upchurch if you don’t know Ryan Upchurch you’ll be mind blown