Undiagnosed Autism: How Autistic Adults Go Unnoticed

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Is autism on the rise? And how do autistic adults (like me) go unnoticed and undetected for so many years? Today I'm here to tell you 6 reasons that autistic adults go unnoticed, based on my own experiences as a late-diagnosed autistic ADHDer. Do you generally fly under the radar? Why do you think autistic adults often go unnoticed? Be sure to share in the comments! ⤵️
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0:38 Reason #1 - Masking
2:57 Reason #2 - Invisible
4:21 Reason #3 - High IQ
5:55 Reason #4 - Adaptable or Have Help
8:13 Reason #5 - Hide Struggles
9:59 Reason #6 - The No. 1 Reason (in My Opinion!)
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@Agaettis 15 днів тому

The fact that you said you can pay attention better without eye contact... I totally get that. My friend stopped talking about their trip because I wasn't making eye contact... I had to tell them that me not making eye contact is actually a huge compliment, it means I am super comfortable and no longer masking

@kensears5099 14 днів тому

I have hearing loss. Genuinely. But I admit that sometimes I overdo the turning my good ear (rather than my eyes!) toward the speaker, because they know I don't hear so well, so I get a pass. What they don't know is that I'm not looking them in the eye because I actually DO want to hear, really hear, them, and not be distracted by eye contact. Plus, I complement the effect by giving them repeated if not sustained eye contact while I'm talking. Then they talk and I go back to "talk to the good ear, please." It works really well.

@ess1163 14 днів тому

It’s nice for us NT to know that

@AmyStoneYT 14 днів тому

Agreed! I can’t make eye contact. If I do, people might as well talk in one ear and out the other. I just can’t focus and it’s so uncomfortable

@user-xl6sb3gu4h 14 днів тому

Spot on✨👍

@Aaron.Thomas 13 днів тому

If I'm looking in your eyes while you're talking I'm definitely spacing out. If I'm staring off into space I'm super focused on what you're saying, like you would while listening to an audiobook or podcast. Who's eyes do you stare into when listening to a podcast? Do you not think you're able to pay attention to your podcast just because there's no eyes to stare into? NT assumptions are inconsistent.

@guera18cpt 15 днів тому

I am just realizing that I am autistic. It has answered so many of my questions about being the way I am. I learned how to mask and tried to be the person I thought someone else thought I should be. My autistic traits went unnoticed or just labeled as me being a sensitive child. In the 90’s raised by parents that did not know anything about it, they saw it as tantrums and me being spoiled…. Yeah, no.

@zenpie5093 14 днів тому

I also learned I was probably autistic last year and am in the process of getting a diagnosis. I’m also born in the 90’s. I went undiagnosed because a) I am pretty similar to my mom and she had patience with me because of that and b) my mom was scared of the stigma, meds that could change me and me being taken away from her since she was a single mother. She was just scared and left alone. Wishing you the best for understanding yourself and getting the support you need ❤

@heathertoomey7068 14 днів тому

Aww, I'm sorry. ❤

@AmyStoneYT 14 днів тому

@@Sarah-with-an-HSame!

@meganray2376 9 днів тому

Congratulations, it's a huge feeling!! I got my diagnosis about a month ago and in the time leading up to it, sooo many dots have connected and the level of self-compassion and understanding that happened almost immediately absolutely changed my life. Like seriously. Keep exploring what feels better and be kind as you learn! It's a big process! ❤

@mapatterson173 8 днів тому

When I was a little girl in the 60s, I was hospitalized for pneumonia and high fever. I was a "painfully shy" little girl, who also twirls her finger in her hair. In my little fevered, terrified state, I twirled my hair so much, that I kind of went bald on one side. The nurse asked my mom if I was the "r" word (a word used frequently back then). Mom had a fit! It wouldn’t be the flash time someone asked my mom that. My mom used to tell the stories over and over to friends and neighbors. I grew up thinking I was a little bit of that "r" word. Learned a lot of masking as an adult.

@biaberg3448 15 днів тому

In Norway probably 95 % of the autistic people are undiagnosed/ unnoticed. We are faaar behind the US, Australia, UK Here most people, authorities and health personnel still use the term Asperger and think that autistic people are non verbal and hardly able to work. In reality there are thousands of autistic people all over. And most of them have no clue why they’re struggling. I realized I’m autistic last year, age 63, after watching videos like this. I really wish I knew 45 years ago.

@regig.9493 14 днів тому

So I'm in Germany. My teen, 17, is really struggling in school and life in general after having no problems until two years ago. Husband and little sister have ADHD. We went to a child psychologist to see if she might have the inattentive type of ADHD, and to be honest I think she might also be autistic. And this child psychologist, working at a big university hospital, told me that " if the teachers haven't noticed so far, she hasn't got it". She thought it's depression. Even though the symptoms don't actually match to that properly. Or at least I think it might be caused by ADHD/autism. That's how it works in Germany. It's ridiculous. Way way behind the US.

@jaosandv 14 днів тому

The same with me. I was denied a diagnosis, last week. I have to take it private and that kosts a lot. I'm 52 years

@biaberg3448 14 днів тому

@@jaosandv I don’t care about an official diagnosis. I actually think I know more about late diagnosed autistic people than most healthcare personnel. I tried to get an appointment at a hospital last year, but was denied because “I don’t struggle enough” Sure, I’m just not able to work any more, I’m in a constant burnout. And there are so few resources, so they better use them on younger people.

@jaosandv 14 днів тому

@@biaberg3448 When you know how mutch monney we have in Norway. Why the f. cant we use them?

@Weird_guy79 14 днів тому

I don't think Australia is really all that better, its a big country and basically only those in cities get any sort of anything. there is nothing for 1600km around me.

@thebeggarfromthedunghill 14 днів тому

One of the main reasons I remain undiagnosed to this day is that I hate going to/talking to doctors/therapists so I just avoid it. It's hard to get a diagnosis if you refuse to speak to those that diagnose.

@PlayOfLifeOfficial 13 днів тому

They can’t diagnose something they don’t understand, reading something in a book is not an education.

@batintheattic7293 13 днів тому

Personally, I think it would be wonderful if we could grant access permissions (for our minds) to trusted professionals. It's the seemingly endless 'stop stop start' that is seriously depressing my diagnosis journey. In the UK, we have to be assessed for ADHD before we can be assessed for ASD. That takes months. A whole lot of waiting and a fair bit of preparation for every stage. It seems like therapy wants to throw every other possibility at us, first, before assessing for autism. It's, probably, extremely damaging. Meanwhile, we become increasingly reluctant and avoidant - particularly if we can force some sort of stability around us. When we're not in the midst of a storm - getting us to stop sailing and try to demonstrate the rocking the boat for half an hour, so that the next therapist can tick some boxes and redirect the case notes, is no small ask.

@meganray2376 9 днів тому

I had negative experiences in the past, but sometimes it takes persistence, which sucks. I was finally able to find a therapist I really get along with and she was able to connect me to a doctor who was amazing and completed my assessment. I know it's hard, but it can be really helpful, both in the short and long-term. I'm fortunate to live in a major city now, which was not the case growing up (no clue what would have happened if I had an assessment when I was in school?). Regardless, I hope you're able to show yourself love and compassion with whatever is going on in your brainspace and body ❤

@notsomeoneofnormalcy-cv3yq 4 дні тому

@@meganray2376 In what ways have you found it to be helpful? I'm genuinely asking. I've never been able to come up with any clear benefit. It sounds like a lot of time and discomfort invested to find out what I already know, and then... what? I don't know.

@taraking6472 3 дні тому

I can’t seem to find someone who can diagnose me. It’s frustrating.

@CuriousRoamer23 14 днів тому

Reasons why I think I went undiagnosed: 1. My ADHD hides the Autism, which hides the ADHD. 2. My siblings and parents are all NT. As the middle of 3, I think I was perfectly positioned to learn what "normal" behavior looked like, according to my age. 3. Media provides an excellent source for an autistic person to learn masking techniques that further hides the autism. 4. This is more personal, but I've always struggled with asking for help, even when I needed it. Thus, in school, I was the quiet kid who was praised for my independence. Nobody looks at a student like me and thinks to ask what's going on inside my head. Obedient, studious, and self-driven, I wasn't a problem. Thus, nobody suspected I was struggling. I was Dx with ADHD at 23, ASD at 32. I met with dozens of mental health professionals between those years (receiving several wrong Dx), and nobody caught it because they weren't asking the right questions because, like you said, non-autistics don't know much, if anything, about ASD.

@BipolarCourage 14 днів тому

What were the "several wrong diagnoses"?

@christinechapman9764 14 днів тому

Wow, it sounds a lot like me. Except I am 60 and have never been truly, properly diagnosed at all (I was labelled "hyperactive" by a GP at 3 yo and sent to preschool early as a treatment for chronic extended meltdowns, and this worked, the meltdowns ended and everyone forgot about me). I was a finicky kid, lots of sensory aversions and also sensory seeking. No one knew what that was. I was the "oddball" or "antisocial". Earlier this year my friend, in her 50's was diagnosed with autism, she is also ADHD. She kept referring to me as autistic. I kept saying "I'm not autistic". I think I am though.

@BipolarCourage 14 днів тому

Having more than one diagnosis is more likely to make it more obvious, not hide it.

@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS 14 днів тому

I don't think I masked much, but your story is similar to mine except I was diagnosed with ADHD in my early 40s and and ASD at 54.

@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS 14 днів тому

@@BipolarCourage No, that's not the experience of a lot of people who are AuDHD. ADHD covers some ASD symptoms and some people with ASD notice that their ASD becomes more obvious when they are medicated for ADHD.

@Lauren-kh1sv 13 днів тому

I was recently diagnosed at 43, very adept masker, and very high IQ… I was abused by a coach at college and was never the same, but always suspected ptsd. I was forced into working at restaurants after the abuse derailed my college plans and I was avoiding the hard science classes where I belonged, because they reminded me of the semester I was abused. I couldn’t ever hold down a job for very long, but I must have worked in 20 restaurants as a waitress and bartender, and I learned to mask like a ninja. No one would ever have guessed, except when I would sometimes miss jokes, but I would play it off as being a dumb blonde. Forcing myself to go to each and every shift was like a nightmare. Sometimes once I got there it would be busy enough that I didn’t have to talk to anyone and there was an amazing peace that I found in the chaos. When I was a high volume bartender for a short time I was finally ok. I would wear earplugs and lose myself in the music, and it was too loud to hold a conversation, and I had a barrier between me and the rest of the club, and I could be “part” of a social situation that I would have never been able to navigate if I was on the other side of the bar. Unfortunately it was short lived, and life has been an immense struggle. Diagnosis has helped me understand that I’m not weak or incapable, just different.

@Marc16180 14 днів тому

50+ years undiagnosed due to coping skills developed from highly-introspective analyses of how things seemed to work around me combined with way too many self-preservation skills from childhood trauma. It all adds up to an interesting tool chest of skills for adapting to the world (and people) around me.

@patriciadepiazza1182 14 днів тому

I too experienced childhood trauma around 4 y/o which surely kicked in survival mode, a go unnoticed way of being, I honestly have no idea what is me and what was necessary. It’s definitely worth untangling but feels sooo daunting. Onward I go!🙂

@mindymac_does_stuff 13 днів тому

This! I'm 43 diagnosed ADHD last year, which makes things more sensible in my life, but I definitely have some autism traits (inability to make eye contact, sensory overload in certain settings, stimming, a deep aversion to small talk or non deep convos), buuut I also have childhood trauma from being raised in an alcoholic verbally abusive home. Untangling all of it is hard, what's ADHD, what's a trauma response what's possible autism. Ultimately I'm working on all of it, because I want the best quality of life I can give myself, but it can be exhausting being non stop dismissed from the autism conversation (notby anyone in this space, just friends and family) because I'm really really good at masking my discomfort.

@batintheattic7293 13 днів тому

I prefer to think of it as a shell rather than a mask. That shell is all of our experiences and how we reacted to them. Does that make it a bad thing that needs removing? My shell is my mask. At first sight (to those who know and are looking) it's all trauma response - but it's gone through decades of recombination and Kitsugi and the pieces are speckled with mica. I would like it if people could be content with just looking rather than having to handle. For many people the first thought seems to be, "Will this re-break for me?" as everything to do with society seems to be about jostling egos. Everybody thinks they're in virgin territory and entitled to plant a flag or that it's their destiny to remove the sword from the stone. Our interesting tool chests may each be unique to us. I think, though, more often than not people can swiftly tell there is something very different about us. Usually, any speculation stops where it's delightful or beneficial for them. Beyond number are the times where I've been told that I seem to understand the human condition better than anyone before. To me - it's basic curiosity and interest and it's really depressing that I might be the first person, that somebody has talked to, to have manifested it. It makes me think we live in a world full of extremely disinterested people.

@geekcollage 12 днів тому

40+ and yup.

@Passing_for_Neurotypical 10 днів тому

Same here. I recently got diagnosed because I wanted to know.

@ruthhorowitz7625 14 днів тому

I wrote my book Living With Autism Undiagnosed to help other undiagnosed autistics recognize their autism, and to help the rest of the world understand us better.

@elementaryfundamentals 6 днів тому

Can you post a link so it can be purchased?

@MandiSmash 14 днів тому

Also... women and girls. We are often misdiagnosed as being bipolar or having bpd or having anxiety/depression and that's it. The misconception that autism occurs more often in men and all the symptoms being defined by the male expression has hurt women tremendously and so lately that is becoming more clear and we're seeing more diagnoses of women. In addition, people who are non-binary or have other gender expressions are also being more studied and considered, when in the past the therapist may have only focused on their gender identity and not on their neurotype.

@NiaLaLa_V 4 дні тому

Also anger problems. That is what everyone said was wrong with me, I was prone to anger outbursts and had no ability to control anger. And then anger management techniques did nothing for me so we kept looking. Then my nephew got diagnosed and I was researching how to be there for him and like many others went uh oh this is describing me. Doctor actually thought I was already diagnosed and just not talking to her about it because people hide it.

@cammie49 11 днів тому

Recently diagnosed ASD at age 62. My autism went undiagnosed because 1) I’m female and 2)my ADHD hyperactivity and executive functioning problems were much more noticeable and my dyslexia just made me seem low IQ at school because of my extremely slow reading speed and terrible spelling. But my inability to comprehend social rules & make friends along with my general weirdness led to constantly being bullied in school, workplaces and even in church communities! Once I got on ADHD meds at age 41, the autistic traits became more apparent. Even being organized and less impulsive and less hyper, I still had problems with relationships especially with bosses and coworkers so I never kept a job for more than 2 years (or 4 years if very part time). Doing great now with my Air Bnb business!!! No boss, no coworkers but they gave me a mentor to contact when I need help. Perfect!!

@caroleschaffer9470 14 днів тому

I suspect one reason for going undiagnosed is that many of the challenges stem from experiencing more extreme versions of "normal" human experiences. For example messages like "everyone feels anxious sometimes" do not take into account the degree or frequency of anxiety.

@bunny4298 14 днів тому

I was diagnosed at 58 when I was unable to mask as I had before. I had known something was wrong but was able to hide it for many years. But as I grew older, I had difficulty coping, my anxiety grew worse and finally I sought treatment. It took awhile but was finally accurately diagnosed.

@ruthhorowitz7625 14 днів тому

Same, 57, I was in total crisis. Still trying to recover from the autistic burnout.

@user-hg2uj6hc3q 14 днів тому

Same happened to me at 56

@shellyjohnsen3667 13 днів тому

Same at 51. Masked all thru training and career, exhausted all my inner resources. diagnosed ADHD age 47, now self identified as AuHD I feel so much better hearing other people’s stories!

@eh6454 13 днів тому

It’s really helpful to me that you’ve described your experience this way. I’m not diagnosed but have consciously masked to fit in since early childhood. Since having a stroke a few years ago, I find it’s just too much hard work to mask, so I’ve withdrawn from social situations as they’re overwhelming now. Not sure whether it’s worth the struggle to get assessed/diagnosed now, so just live in the way that’s comfortable for me.

@ruthhorowitz7625 13 днів тому

@@eh6454 if you are still working a diagnosis would make you eligible for accommodations. But the processes aren't easy.

@thegiantmimir4664 10 днів тому

I went undiagnosed for 50 years because - I didn't know about autism, my family didn't know about autism, healthcare professionals may have known - but by the time I was seeking help I was disinclined to engage with them and there seemed to be simple pill-based treatments for mental health symptoms like depression and anxiety which made their ineffectiveness easy to ignore. Finally, to get diagnosed cost me thousands of pounds and, at 50+ and with no prospect of receiving any kind of support there seemed to be no strong reason to pay that money.

@patriciadepiazza1182 14 днів тому

I turned 60 this year and have no real hope of getting a professional diagnosis however the community here has been invaluable to me in my journey of self help and discovery. Burnout have got me in it’s grip right now and honestly I feel I lost all ability to mask so I’m hiding out at home unless I absolutely have to leave. Thanks to all sharing their experiences to help others. 💖✨

@clara.c.m. 14 днів тому

I hope you get well soon 💚

@AmyStoneYT 14 днів тому

I’m 50 this year and feel the same way the only time I go out is when I have to. I go take care of my parents, I run to the store (in and out as quick As possible) and I walk my border collie pup. Usually for several hours a day… alone and in, typically, quiet places. I have had people ask to walk with me and I usually try to say no. I need that time alone.

@samsmom1491 14 днів тому

I turn 60 in a few months and I could have written this word for word. My last job I worked publicly was in customer service until I had a meltdown of epic proportions. I did managed to hold the meltdown inside until I got home. That was five years ago. I rarely leave the house because I think I'm burnt out from masking for almost six decades.

@laurellewis1638 13 днів тому

Add me to this … stay at home, pick up groceries and have things delivered. It’s lonely but also stable, removes the fear of meltdowns… this channel is lifesaving ❤

@cnightingale9 9 днів тому

I just turned 60 as well and was able to mask for many years until menopause symptoms made it impossible to continue. I am still trying to get my health and energy back after a few years. I look for little ways to make each day special. I focus on enjoying my day rather than being productive. I hope you feel better soon. ❤

@picaludica 13 днів тому

I'm turning 40 this year, and I've only started my dive into neurodivergence research about a year ago. I always knew I was different and I couldn't explain my struggles to myself, nor why all the self-help books and methods I looked into weren't actually helping. Learning properly about ASD and ADHD has answered so many lifelong questions and has already led to so much improvement over the past year! So I'd say that for me, the main reason why I flew under the radar for so long would be lack of awareness. If I had a proper awareness of what ADHD and ASD were, I would have identified it in myself much sooner. When I was a child, ADHD and ASD were considered male-only disorders - as an academically gifted, non-dusruptive girl, there was no reason for me to be screened for anything. High IQ and the combination of ADHD/ASD (which compensated for each other in some areas) helped me adapt to a neurotypical world - but even though I could function and be independent, I could never thrive. I was socially unhappy and constantly exhausted/ill. Learning about and understanding my neurodivergence has helped me take care of myself better because I understand my needs now, and I don't feel like I'm a failure. I was just a fridge trying to be a toaster, but now I have the correct manual =)

@wannaknit 14 днів тому

I think a reason you missed is "because you're old". I'm a senior (female) and when I was young in the 60s, there were no 'isms' - just 'weirdos'. At various points in my first three decades, I was referred to professionals, singled out at school for being abnormal, or sought out therapy as an adult, but there was no awareness at all of things commonly diagnosed today (autism, ADHD etc.) so I never received any useful support. I had no idea what was 'wrong' with me until family members started to joke that I was like Sheldon on Big Bang Theory (I am), and that eventually in the long term led to self-diagnosis after I had retired (after periods of mistakenly identifying with labels like 'mild depression', Highly Sensitive, Introvert, short-tempered etc.). It seems so obvious now - I wish I had known during my working years because it would have made such a difference.

@eleonorelee267 3 дні тому

I feel you! All there was growing up was "dyslexia" in "my world". My older and younger bros are dyslexic. I am a female middle child, forced to adapt and deal since I have a memory (or before probably). The idea that I needed support, or had a cognitive difference (vs being over sensitive, whiny, friendless, demanding, shy, grumpy) was just not-possible. Now that I have an idea of why, I am between elation, and tears (because the list of things I thought i was, all that negative stuff in brackets/parenthesis is super triggering because I have heard it all my life and felt so horribly responsible for it.) Decades of internalizing shame brought on my a cognitive/neurological difference will undoubtedly take a while to come to terms with. Like you, I wish I had know earlier-or even just been afforded a little grace from the people nearest "and supposedly dearest) to me.I do not yet understand what it means to have a safe place where i can comfortably unmask. I wish you all the best, and hope your next many decades are filled with self-discovery and acceptance from those around you.

@lynettejwhite 14 днів тому

An angle that you didn't mention is that I believe Autism and ADHD both have an inherited component. So I grew up in a neurodivergent household, that was my 'normal' and I didn't know or understand how different I was until later in life. At school the bullying was a tell; that and being a quiet studious type meant I got praise for my independence and maturity. No one noticed or at least commented on my anxiety or my lack of social skills. Later I went on to male dominated and fairly high ND careers in engineering and computer science, so again kind of stayed in the community. I remember Dad encouraging us to 'people watch'; that is totally code for 'how to learn to mask'!

@markday3145 10 днів тому

A week before I went off to college, my mom (who was probably autistic) said that I was the only person from my high school going to that college, so nobody there would know me or have any history with me. She said I could be whoever I wanted to be. I interpreted that as encouragement to create a brand new personality for my masking. I decided that I was going to be outgoing and social -- quite a change from what I had been before. It turns out that successful masking depends on what you have observed, and what you are capable of perceiving. I have come to realize that there are certain social/emotional signals and non-verbal communication that are outside my ability to perceive. Plus, I only saw outgoing and social people in certain situations. So that meant that my attempt at mimicking failed pretty badly. It was also orders of magnitude more draining. So I reverted to a mask that was much closer to the real me.

@Bee-gl2dy 14 днів тому

It is crazy how real this is! I did not realize just how much been raised in a military family helped me mask and hide. I was able to adapt really well, and the ADHD helped cover the social awkwardness because of how friendly I was! I always wondered why I was really organized in some areas, like annoyingly organized, almost OCD, and super flexible in other areas. Autism and ADHD together, the world is not prepared! 😂😂😂

@DarklyYours 14 днів тому

Discovering autism and masking later in life has been very impactful for me as an alcohol addict. I could never fully communicate my relationship to alcohol because for a long time I was taught that being neurodivergent was even worse than being an alcoholic. I blamed everything on the drink and played like I was perfectly normal and just a little bit of a party animal. I avoided diagnosis for more than 30 years, but I'm really glad that I finally found a therapist that saw my problem.

@aurian-lay 14 днів тому

Diagnosed at 68 years old. I also have multi-sensory aphantasia, severely deficient autobiographical memory (SDAM), CPTSD and a long list of other neurological 'wonky wiring' How was I not diagnosed earlier? As a child, autism wasn't 'a thing' If I didn't look my mother in the eye, I was belted. If I stimmed (as I now know what I was doing) I was belted. So I learned to disappear, to be still and to always look people in the eye regardless of how uncomfortable I was. I learned to swallow my pain and discomfort. I am a world master at masking. Learning - and accepting - that I am autistic has been such a relief. So many things in my life started to become clear as I learned to understand myself. I made a decision to not hide this diagnosis, to be up-front about my differences. They are part of who I am.

@wdc_nathan 14 днів тому

My number one reason: monotropism. I’m so focused on a few things at the exclusion of basically everything else that autism never penetrated into my bubble. Until it suddenly did. When I was 40.

@RickyMaveety 14 днів тому

71 and only recently diagnosed. Highest tested IQ = 170. ADHD, PTSD, severe anxiety, with a host of physical issues as well. I stopped being able to mask about the time Covid hit. Partly from Covid and long Covid (8 months of that), and partly a series of falls. After 3 years of trying to get help, I may have found someone. Several of the things you mentioned hit home for me. I have never been able to manage time. I’m either deeply immersed in something, or I have no interest at all. I mentally check out if I can’t ask questions when I need to, and by the time I’m allowed to ask, I can’t remember what the question(s) were. I could go on, but I’m already forgetting what I wanted to say.

@assimilateborg 14 днів тому

oh wow, that's a pretty high IQ. Did that help in any way? For me people seemed to cope with my quirks (yeah, metldowns) as they really liked my good analytic skills.

@RickyMaveety 13 днів тому

@@assimilateborg No, it did not help. If anything it made me seem weirder to my peers. My analytic skills pissed people off. I angered people in college, medical school, and law school. Even worse, while I enjoyed school, I hated having to practice with real life people, co-workers and patients/clients. Not because I didn’t like them. I simply hated the stress.

@CricketGirrl 14 днів тому

I was diagnosed last year at 49. I am extremely high masking with a high IQ, which probably contributed to the late diagnosis, but my money is on lack of education of healthcare professionals. It's really, really bad in New Mexico. I don't mask much anymore, which has made it next to impossible to deal with NT people. I am so tired of trying.

@Catlily5 3 дні тому

I live in New Mexico too. I was diagnosed last year at age 47. I don't think that at our age we would have been diagnosed anywhere unless we were obviously autistic as children. Asperger's wasn't in the DSM until 1994 in the USA. So we were already adults when that came out and adult diagnosis was rare. Maybe if we were born more recently they would have caught us but not back then.

@user-kt5cp7lv5e 13 днів тому

Self diagnosed at 54. 72 now, also I'm Mensa. I was called strange, weird, lazy, stupid. Made to feel like I was nothing. My father told me I wasn't worth much. My mother felt that she failed, so she blamed me. My sister wants to have guardianship over me, because our mother said, when we where children, that I could not live alone, even though I have for 50 years, now. I am strong. I have had to be. Not sure if an early diagnoses would have helped. Probably have made it worse and easier to have me put away.

@AG-yj1jv 13 днів тому

My thoughts are with you, stay strong. But also? Look around and see who you trust with your medical decisions if something were to happen to you. If you had a stroke or a brain injury who would you trust to take the reins - and let go as you healed? I had a brain injury which transformed me from a functional person to one unable to hold a job. This does not mean I cannot live alone. It means it would be a lot less stressful if I had help with paperwork, but I can - and do - drive and live alone. If someone is trying to take control of you, then you need a plan in writing, agreed to by your emergency support person or people, that is made into a legal document so you are protected if you become injured and temporarily require in home supports. If you cannot afford an attorney,look up autism support in your area or check with your nearest university law library. Hope this helps!

@user-kt5cp7lv5e 11 днів тому

@user-kt5cp7lv5e I have no one. I recently had two operations, one I was hospitalized for almost three weeks. I am old if I die, well I was going to get around to it one of these days. The doctors and hospital does not have any in case of contact info. Legal documents are a prepaid cremation and a will. My sister gets nothing. Autism support is worthless here. I reach out to them for help changing jobs. They could not help me because everyone who know me as a child was dead. I was the oldest of anyone still alive, and therefore could not be diagnosed. Not their problem. I have no one in this state. Closes is three states away. Paperwork is a stress, but being dyslexic it always was. Now with spell check I do OK. I am calm and happy for the first time in my life. Only wish when I die make it quick.

@Disgruntled_Kinkajou 14 днів тому

Prior diagnoses also play a big role in autism being a missed diagnosis. I am diagnosed with OCD, and this was used to rule out an autism diagnosis by a clinic that specializes in autism in Upstate New York. This was after a short questionnaire and about a 10-15 minute interview, where the interviewer said I clearly just have OCD (I remember masking by forcing eye contact, which people can usually do for a short time. I think people mostly unmask only after getting comfortable with people first.) OCD is commonly used to rule out an autism diagnosis, as if autistic people can't also have an anxiety disorder. I think a recent study found that people diagnosed with autism are 37% more likely to be diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in addition, so any test that uses that against a diagnosis needs to be questioned immediately. OCD also runs in both sides of my family, so I'm pretty sure all of my siblings have OCD, and I just turned out to be the autistic one in addition to having OCD. Im not officially diagnosed still, but a family member who became a counselor brought it up again after I couldn't tolerate the heat and changes in plans at our last family vacation, and they now firmly believe I'm on the spectrum, but of course can't officially diagnose me. For years I've been in and out of jobs, experiencing burnout, and having meltdowns where I'll literally punch a wall, throw things, pull my hair, scream, etc. I also hate the heat and will start sweating at the slightest amount of heat and stress. And I detest when people either change plans or want to be "spontaneous" and not have a plan. I also have always tapped things, made noises with my mouth, and stimmed in other ways. People are going without care due to the carelessness and negligence of these institutions and our awful healthcare system in the U.S., and it makes me irate. These places need to change the way they do diagnostic tests. They should be listening to people like you on UKposts who actually know what is to BE autistic, who have more insight into actual symptoms, rather than relying on antiquated ideas of what autism is for their diagnostic evaluations.

@Heterogeneity 11 днів тому

HEAR HEAR!! So much of what you said here resonates. ❤

@Catlily5 3 дні тому

That makes no sense for them to tell you that you can't have OCD and autism. It is fairly common to have both.

@alexiacerwinskipierce8114 14 днів тому

As a female who was a child in the 90s. I was constantly in therapy, seen so many different doctors. Got almost every diagnosis under the sun except for the right one. By time I was 10 years old, I'd been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, adhd, and depression. Spent a good portion of my teen years institutionalized. In and out of psych wards, juvie, group homes, and residential treatment facilities. Many of these places were abusive on so many levels. And people seem dumbfounded as to why I have been so hesitant about seeking "help" for my children. I don't want them to go through anything I went through. I have to hope things have changed since 20-30 years ago.

@nude_cat_ellie7417 12 днів тому

My experience was not as extreme, but I empathize with what you say. I spent 16 years with misdiagnosis and medication before finally getting an answer. My youth was wasted feeling sick and gaslighted and I will never forgive the medical establishment for what they did to me.

@alexiacerwinskipierce8114 12 днів тому

@nude_cat_ellie7417 it's a difficult thing to forgive. And sucks even more when you really need help and can never trust another therapist or psychologist ever again.

@Heterogeneity 11 днів тому

Similar experience here, I'm so sorry you went through so much pain. You deserved better. I hope you and your kiddos find support that heals and helps you rather than "treatment" that harms you. It's so painful to want to find solutions, be willing to work hard at feeling better, but then the professionals who are supposed to be guiding you through the difficulties are the ones who make everything much much worse.

@alexiacerwinskipierce8114 11 днів тому

@@Heterogeneity thank you 🥰🥰🥰

@OfficialFoodForThough 14 днів тому

I found out I was autistic six years ago when my oldest was diagnosed. I taught myself the look between the eyes instead of directly. It gives the illusion of eye contact without the add mental stress. My hubby got me a spinner ring to help with stemming and overwhelming situations. I made my autistic son a Viking style cuff to help him with his stemming at jr high.

@wisecoconut5 12 днів тому

Standing a bit farther away helps too. Then for can look generally at person, take in most of the body, without staring at any one part.

@samanthareddoch 14 днів тому

I was originally diagnosed with ADHD at 8 years old...as I got older, it was clear there was some other psychological stuff going on...I've been diagnosed and medicated for so many disorders...OCD, Pure O OCD, Depression, Bipolar I, Bipolar II, anxiety,...the list goes on. Every time people have tried to medicate me, things usually end up much much worse. I fell down a rabbit hole about Autism about a year ago when I read that some of us have "people" as a special interest, and that resonated with me in a deep way so I started researching. I'm convinced I'm on the spectrum as are my two daughters. Unfortunately, it's challenging to find people who can do an assessment and make a diagnosis for less than 3k and a 2 year wait :( :( :( *Edited to add: I do definitely have ADHD...but I never understood why I am always in conflict about having a routine and needing to break out of one. I thrive in routine, and I can thrive in change if I am initiating the change, but if I don't initiate change, whew, look out. I like your videos. Your content resonates with me in a way that other folks content about ASD has not. I think it was your disclosure of you "buddies" that got me. I have a large, stuffed Tiger that I got when I was 11 (I'm 36 now), he was my imaginary friend back then and still is. I can have full conversations with him in my head....but this makes me feel silly, so I gave the tiger to my puppy (his name is Chase (the tiger, not the puppy). So I started thinking about what other "buddies" I have, and I realized I've been naming cars and motorcycles since I was very young. They all have personalities , too.

@kimsherlock8969 13 днів тому

I haven't learnt to be comfortable with large family gatherings Anxiety left to my own social devices I find a chicken pen and escape from the crowd

@nataliesirota2611 14 днів тому

❤Next level ninja work! I masked so well, I was not diagnosed until age 58! It was such a huge relief that I feel like I have a new lease on life!

@Laiquatan 14 днів тому

One thing that goes along with the lack of awareness/understanding of autism is the fact that if we're getting by, there's no one really pushing for a diagnosis or more exploration. Even after I had taken a self-test that showed me "mildly" on spectrum (I don't have diagnoses but as I dig deeper I suspect I have an ADHD component as well which I feel kept me from testing as high as I might without it), I largely found that mildly interesting. I didn't really start exploring until my son was diagnosed with autism related to a speech delay and it was no mystery which side of the family that came from. Of course once I started exploring the autistic experience, more and more parallels became obvious.

@DWSP101 15 днів тому

I can tell you exactly how I went undiagnosed because I had the skills of mimicry masking on an extremely efficient scale, probably the highest degree of masking almost to the point that it corroded my core self being able to blend in like a chameleon and camouflage is exhausting and doing it your whole life you eventually damage yourself don’t do it just be authentic. Don’t do what I did, I learn to lie to avoid to avoid detection of my stranger abnormal behaviors because I was afraid of being ostracized because I don’t feel like people will accept me. Are you stuck in perpetual circle?

@kensears5099 14 днів тому

Getting older (66 now) has made masking more difficult. Yes, even when I didn't know I'd been masking and when I couldn't, therefore, calculate that what was getting harder WAS masking. I just knew that...well, SOMETHING was getting harder. Like for instance keeping it together through hours-long talking-forever getting-nowhere permeated-with-hivemind-signalling-and-jousting committee meetings of one kind or another. Over the past 20 years or so these meetings and the whole insane (IMHO) set of rituals connected with them, the emotional subtexts, the pregnant silences, all the stuff you know everybody's avoiding saying, all the conclusions and decisions you know 100% from Minute One that the meeting will inevitably come to but for some reason The Hive is playing this excruciating, nauseating charade as if we can't and won't know until we finish this ritual--it's both mentally and PHYSICALLY shattering to me, I mean like a dull but sustained cattle prod shock to my gut. Sometimes I just have to do a bathroom break simply to pull the molecules of my brain together out of the air where they've been whirling around me like a pulverized solar system and collect them again into some semblance of a person I once knew called Me. And whisper a quiet prayer, "God help me, God help me, I can't stand this, I just can't stand this...." I was pretty handy at tamping all this down and gliding above it, like a singer with a bit of a cold sometimes just has to "sing over it." I didn't KNOW I was doing that, but I did it instinctively. As I got into my 50s and 60s my capacity to "sing over it" incrementally disintegrated and I would find myself at these meetings barely able to conceal the existential horror at the whole proceeding from my face. One way to conceal it was "eyes closed in deep reflection," ostensibly on some gem just offered by a meeting member. When really, of course, it was a silent prayer, "God help me, God help me...." Now, at my ripe old age of 66, after knowing about my autism for a year, I feel...I'll say it...entitled to simply bow out. To say, "If you want my input, here it is in advance, in writing: 1, 2, 3. But I don't need this meeting and the meeting doesn't need me."

@noblethoughts4500 14 днів тому

Love, love this comment!!!

@caroleschaffer9470 14 днів тому

You are awesome!

@barbyoungberg 14 днів тому

I thought for a long time it was just because I was getting older but now I know better.

@kensears5099 14 днів тому

@@barbyoungberg Yes, it is such a sense-making realization, isn't it. Rather than being an inexorable process you have no say in, you discover that it's...well...perhaps still in some sense inexorable, but actually something you have choices and prerogatives and...really...power in. You're not the problem, the authoritarian rigidity of the Hivemind and all its unquestioned rituals is. Carve out your true self's niche. Sure, not arrogantly or obnoxiously--we don't want to be that--but at the same time firmly and non-cravenly. Don't let others "un-be" you.

@kensears5099 14 днів тому

@@noblethoughts4500 Thank you!

@occultexaminer 14 днів тому

These videos are helping me out so much. Hard to not feel cheated in life now. Maybe we are the normies since we seem to notice everything lol

@KyleClarington 12 днів тому

So very spot on! I can't put into words how comforting and the relief i get hearing Chris explain things the exact same way i would...really is just everything for me. Thanks again.

@meganmindcreates 14 днів тому

Idk if I commented on another video about this but… I diagnosed myself with adhd at 19 years old. Was officially diagnosed at 20. A year goes by and I thought I had my adhd control, I had a miracle healing from God who healed me from anxiety but… there was still something there that I really haven’t figured out. Like there was something missing. Then at one doctor appointment I was saying something to my dr and he then said “that seems pretty autistic… you might have it but we don’t have to diagnose you cause it’s so mild.” (Paraphrasing what I got out) When I heard this It shocked me. Even if he said maybe, it’s pretty clear now to why I do things the way I do. I get home and do my research (hence going to ur channel) and the more I indulged myself of the topic, the more I am open to it. I heard self diagnosis is valid which is nice because I don’t think my doctor would let me in his opinion. Like he would but he wouldn’t recommend it. He said when we have the best exercise, eating , and sleeping that that’s all that matters, Is you taking care of yourself. So yah that’s my story… Oh also my mom doesn’t believe me which makes me sad.

@charlottekylin4169 14 днів тому

I figured out I'm autistic at 71, 3 years ago. Someone I admired mentioned she'd been diagnosed as neurodivergent. As a word nerd, of course I looked it up. I was gobsmacked. It all made so much sense. I grew up before autism was well known, even to doctors. My parents had no idea how to deal with their youngest kid who was too scattered, too noisy, sensitive, picky, unmanageable. I was smart but didn't 'apply myself'. I didn't make friends or eye contact (look me in they eye when I talk to you!) So by my teens I had learned to hide my feelings at school, and from my parents at home. I always had one or two good friends, but groups made me uneasy. I joined stuff just to seem normal, and to gain the acceptance and friendship I craved. In my 20's I rebelled as a hippie and free spirit. Grass made me too introspective, but alcohol made me forget. Fortunately I had the will to finish college though it took me 9 years and 4 schools on 2 coasts. And I got sober, came out and fell in love with a woman who I now see was neurodivergent as well. But after 19 years our differing ND traits had rubbed both of us raw and we parted. Now I'm retired and spend most of my time alone. I live in a small city and it's hard finding other older autists.

@Heartmade_by_Aunty_Tiah 14 днів тому

Some people would described me as a chameleon because I adapt very well and I’m great at masking (but I’m always exhausted).

@ChrisandDebby 14 днів тому

I know exactly what you mean!

@malcolmtheyeti2871 14 днів тому

I was recently diagnosed as autistic…Im 67…also dyslexic…let’s just say it’s been special. The journey has been lonely and brutal and I have had to find my own way in this world. After street fights, alcohol, drugs I have come to a peaceful place of understanding. The world will never know or understand me but the universe has always loved me and held me dear. Im also the Chief engineer at a rather large aerospace and engineering company and Im flourishing in ways in never knew. I built a bridge back to the world that had forsaken me. I’ll build the rockets and pay there taxes but under no circumstances will I ever put up with there bullshit. In peace and love..Malcolm

@eh6454 11 днів тому

@malcolm I loved what you said there- ‘The world will never know or understand me but the universe has always loved me and held me dear’ - that is a truth which brings me peace, too. You’ve done well in your career. I had the potential but didn’t find a niche where I could excel, so have always settled for less, the ‘comfortable option’ as far as my social skills are concerned. I still feel I’ve done remarkably well considering. Now I’m older, I feel more comfortable and secure about honouring what others may perceive as my ‘quirks’, instead of giving myself a hard time, trying to mask and be like them. I’m similar age to you and undiagnosed, still working but entirely from home now for the good of my mental health. I have a very small social circle of people who ‘get’ me, plus my grownup children, and life feels mostly very good. Best wishes to you.

@ninaleach6350 11 днів тому

As a little child I was seen as quiet and shy, then when I went to school, they added on "not very bright" but it was the 50s so few people knew about autism. I talked very little, only to my Mum really and in whispers but at 8 with a good teacher, I learned to read and write and began to talk. As I got older, I got increasingly anxious but couldn't identify my emotions properly (still can't)so I only really felt sad or afraid. I was easily manipulated and suffered trauma from abuse but it was "normal" to me and I began to feel increasingly different and unable to cope. I had my first "nervous breakdown" in my teens. The rest of my life until I was 67 was me being a weird failure, dependent upon antidepressants and sick to death of it all. Now I know that I'm a high masking autistic with ADHD I'm not high functioning but many people would give me that label because they saw me doing what I could do, not struggling with what I couldn't do because of the mask that I didn't even recognise myself. It was second nature to me to try to fit in, to not show my "weaknesses" and vulnerability, to please people and hide my discomfort. In the past 5 years I've been able to ease bits of my mask away but honestly, people don't like it......only my very nearest and dearest understand and let me be myself. I'm kind and caring still but a little more confident and frank......it's perceived as rudeness, smugness or being awkward and argumentative. I care about that and it hurts. I'm just beginning trauma therapy for my CPTSD and hoping it will help but I'm often bitter because of how I've been treated. The manipulation by people I trusted and the gaslighting by medical professionals have left me a physical wreck. Most importantly of all, I just want children today to get early diagnosis and proper support but not therapy that makes them act like a neurotypical 😢

@HopeThisWorks 14 днів тому

I'm in my Mid 40s, and it is content like this that has helped me relate my internal struggles to Autistic traits. I'm Worried about getting diagnosed as it has been quite the ride just connecting the dots, and considering Autism as a possibility. I've always been described as Quirky, and I have never had a friend that truly understood me. It's always been up to me to fit with them. (masking apparently) It has been a rough go at life, and understanding I am othered because i am fundamentally different at least helps calm the self-condemning internal narrative. I appreciate this content, the importance of spreading awareness about autism can't be understated. Thank you!

@jakke1975 14 днів тому

Self diagnosed with A LOT of online tests aged 46. Why I went undiagnosed, exactly your #1 reason: awareness. Autism = Rain Man (that was about all I knew about autism) and I was never like that. Same thing with ADHD. I've had a couple class mates that were so obviously ADHD'ers, very hyper to say the least.... but a lot of people with ADHD are not hyper at all, at least not from the outside. Again, I could never have that. But when I take a test to see if I have it, there you go. I always felt different from everybody else around me and I was always told "everyone's unique", basically dismissing me completely. Instead of searching what was wrong, instead I was encouraged to just learn to deal with life and all the hurdles it throws at us ND people.

@antoninasanchez1869 13 днів тому

I am a recently self-diagnosed 20yo with AuDHD, and strongly agree with all the reasons. I was not a problem child, as I was mostly quiet and had good grades and all my free time was occupied with music, handcrafts and reading, so no one suspected anything atypical. I considered being neurodivergent only thanks to youtube videos like this last month, after my life colapsed and I was constantly trying to find answers to countless question 'Why am I like this?' for more than a year, having been diagnosed with adjustment disorder and depression during this time, which explained some stuff, but not all. And only now I'm starting to understand myself on a new level! Thank you for sharing information and experiences, this is enormously helpful!

@rsh793 14 днів тому

Just a whole awareness thing - and if you are an adult who doesn't have a child, who then gets diagnosed - then chances are, unless you happen on someone who "knows", then you'll never get diagnosed at all ... That said, it really is awesome that more people get diagnosed now - and younger - but also older - because it explains so much of what's going on for people - and, even more, it actually means that we end up with role models in the places we want to see them - and, no longer is it hidden away because some people think that "an autistic person can't do X, Y or Z" like it was when I was younger.

@duikmans 14 днів тому

When I was told about my autistic traits, I wanted to prove them wrong. So, I did some research... well, a lot of research and that's how I found out what a special interest is, and I learned something fundamentally new about myself. It only took me 50+ years to find out... sigh...

@meeeeze 12 днів тому

This comments section is comforting to read, we are not alone 🐾🐾

@staceysmith4868 14 днів тому

Over the past few months I have come to believe that I may be autistic... and after watching this video, I think it would be a miracle if I wasn't, as this is me to a T. Every single thing you said elicited a big, fat YES from me. Thank you SO much, Chris, for this eye-opening video!!!

@jonlilley2832 11 днів тому

I've never been diagnosed, but I'm fairly sure that I am. Listening to everything I can about it has convinced me that there is at least, a possibility I could be. I don't stim. I don't have other health issues that seem connected, but I do have anxiety. I'm working on it. And you're right about not looking at people when they are talking - I do listen better! Thank you for the information. I'm grateful someone's talking about it now.

@benediktornhjaltason7948 14 днів тому

You are completely correct. I internalized completely as much as possible. I had two big explosive meltdowns when I was forced to be in scenarios where I couldn't control the amount of people I had to deal with, but other than that, I hid well. I have also realised I grew up with a parent who is autistic. This person still doesn't know it.

@juanarocho973 14 днів тому

Chris, you just described my life exactly!! I was diagnosed last year at 52!

@robnorris8053 13 днів тому

Great and informative podcast, friend. I'm 47 and getting tested for Autism soon. It's very freeing though, to realize there are REASONS for my bizarre behaviors..

@user-lx6pk9os2d 11 днів тому

This is so accurate. I got to my 50's before I reaslised I really was different. I thought everyone felt the same as me but just handled it better...

@LilyRiver-FoxandLittlePrince 14 днів тому

A big thank you from France.... I'm 41 years old, going through the diagnosis. It 's huge.... learning about myself without masking anymore. The mask exploded with the last burnout. France is in late in the understanding of what is autism... Thanks a lot.... 🙏👍👍

@SuperGingernutz 12 днів тому

As a late-diagnosed AuDHD (High-Functioning Autism and ADHD) woman with many chronic invisible medical conditions (one genetic, others are fallout from the undiagnosed ASD stress factors), I totally empathise with everything you say here. I was diagnosed as 'hyperactive' (the old money word for ADHD) when I was young with a High IQ long before my formal diagnosis of Aspergers/High Functioning Autism at the age of 49 years. Autism was not even mentioned until much later. In the meantime, it did not help that my family members were physically and/or mentally ill, which caused lots of upset, abuse, bullying, etc., where there were few people to confide in. I didn't realise I was masking until I was teased and made fun of. The figurative elastic on that mask would wear out. Then, when my love for Japanese Kabuki Theatre was kindled, a swap occurred between the figurative mask and elastic going off and the kumadori makeup that Kabuki actors apply for each character and play that won't fall off under figurative hot lights. This continued right up to fighting for a diagnosis of Autism, but the figurative kumadori continues. Yes, paying bills is a pain for the same reasons you state, and how you handle them is how I handle them, too. It helps lessen the stress, anxiety, meltdowns, needless drama, and shutdowns they and every situation in the NT world give me. Autism can be a crown of thorns or a crown of lilies for many varied reasons and situations.

@rebmedina2835 13 днів тому

I understand the masking, putting on a good face for work. Then I come home and want me time. It's been hard in relationships as boyfriends don't understand I want to be on my own. My IQ is high it was tested when I was 16. I haven't been dx but I see traits in myself and my daughter

@tracirex 13 днів тому

im so happy that i can listen to you without background music. (there are still distracting sound effects). now i would like to see you, but i have to turn the screen away from my autistic eyes. so many camera changes and inserts and dreaded stock photos. please inform your editor.

@SweatyHaggis 5 днів тому

I know I’m autistic but I don’t even know how to bring it up, I can’t find the words to explain how I truly feel inside.

@user-dy2px8gt1g 14 днів тому

I was diagnosed at 37 after self referral to autism research centre Southampton in England. I a, female and had five kids. I masked for years successfully until I lost a daughter at 2 years old in a drowning accident and they didn’t understand what they thought was an inability to react. In uk, it’s not great. All my kids are autistic but only three have a diagnosis out of the five remaining. You learn to mask in the eighties where it was that or be beaten up? I never quite realised that my constant falling asleep at bus stops on way home from school and college was because I was so tired from masking . Also rainman has a lot to answer for.

@lovisaricks9168 14 днів тому

Yes! Yes! This is exactly it! I wish I could help people understand.

@mapatterson173 9 днів тому

Just ran across an article in the AMA Journal of Ethics, "The Myth of the Normal Brain: Embracing Neurodiversity," by Thomas Armstrong, PhD. Okay, I’ve got idea-bubbles 💡 popping all over my mind, so I need to step back before I get a migraine. Your videos are so helpful and easy to watch. Thank you for sharing your experiences. You make the information easy to digest. (Unlike migraine inducing findings from peer review studies.)

@ChrisandDebby 8 днів тому

The article sounds interesting but agree about the migraines 🤣 might take me some time but will check that out!

@moonyfruit 14 днів тому

Trying to find a professional that even looks at autism in adults in my area is impossible. I still haven't found any. Don't they realize that children grow up? I am in the South though, so maybe that's part of the reason? Ones I've found online either don't do virtual sessions in my state, or are ridiculously expensive since they don't take insurance. 😢

@wdc_nathan 14 днів тому

Yep I paid about $2k out of pocket

@TheFishman3226 14 днів тому

I got diagnosed last Oct at age 50. I was always the class or workplace clown who always worked out an efficient way to do things. If it got changed I would struggle but ultimately adapt. I hated - I mean HATED that social game so I avoided outings as much as possible. I can now point to the multiple meltdowns over the years and go 'ohhhhhhhhhh'. I was undiagnosed cause I played the game well but was also labelled 'anti social' and/or 'introvert'.

@ess1163 14 днів тому

Wow. This was one of the best videos on informing me for my hi masking sister. Her daughter.

@ChrisandDebby 14 днів тому

Glad it was helpful! ☺️☺️

@Krista-fr6ri 14 днів тому

Formal diagnosis of ADHD at age 31. Seemed to explain most of my life. Now 33 and it was suggested I consider autism as well. I didn't consider it at first and when I did do some reading, everything made sense for the first time. It was wild One huge gap in many sources of information is talking about substance use disorder with ADHD/Autism. And not just alcohol or pot. Being untreated and undiagnosed, left me with a mess of a life without the skills, tools and support to figure it out. Yet still being expected to do it. Other discussions that need to happen..I had to find my own ways to survive. SIB Eating disorders Intimate partner violence I could probably go on. Thanks for reading

@melissadhp 5 днів тому

Great information! I have suspected that I’m autistic for many years. I have struggled with many things my entire life but learned to mask at an early age. I also have ADHD signs. My son was diagnosed when he turned 4, though I knew he was autistic earlier. I’m his biggest advocate because I don’t want him to go through the same things I struggled with growing up as far as being forced to mask. I am also an advocate for my students. Most people only believe autism looks one way and if someone is good at masking then they must not struggle. My son has a diagnosis of autism but he was also found to be gifted when they did updated evaluations.

@HappyHoney41 14 днів тому

I was diagnosed as a child, but they didn't want me 'using it as a crutch'. They helped me learn to mask my dyspraxia and autism. I found out a couple of years after a severe autistic burn out caused me to finally retire early.

@Rose-zy6vv 12 днів тому

I was diagnosed with a learning disability in elementary school but I had meltdowns and sensory sensitivities my whole childhood. I was then diagnosed with anxiety and depression as a teenager. I was so isolated and a loner even when I had a lot of friends and bullied or taken advantage of a lot. It was not until my kids were evaluated and diagnosed that I realized I am also most likely autistic. My childhood was so difficult at times and it would have helped if those around me had known and for my own self awareness. I am in my forties so thankfully times have changed and there is more awareness for autism but I do agree we need more research into the anxiety piece because my kids and I struggle daily with it.

@keirapendragon5486 14 днів тому

ADHD, problem solving and avoiding triggers, taking care of myself and knowing and sticking to my boundaries. My anxiety is sky high. Body tension is massively high and I've often felt like I wanted to crawl out of my own skin, especially as a kid. Because of my childhood experiences I decided at a very young age that I did not have nor was I willing to waste energy being a fake version of myself. I have no social life and am a massive hermit because I loathe the way I feel under social pressure. I used to have to drink at social gatherings to dull my senses enough not to suffer sensory overwhelm and an anxiety melt down. As I've learned more about myself after my ADHD diagnosis it's gotten easier, and I think now that I've started to recognize the possibility that I'm on the spectrum as well it's helping even more.

@Stormbrise 13 днів тому

5 decades of going undiagnosed here.

@JessieThorne886 12 днів тому

Wonderful video, so relatable. I think the main reasons I went unnoticed is I'm pretty sure my parents have the same traits (but undiagnosed and un-realized), and I was an only child, so they didn't have anyone to compare to or any understanding of what 'normal' should look like. I was stimming like crazy as a kid, rocking back and forth forcefully in school, etc, but no teachers (or the school psychologist) recognized this as a sign of anything, except both my teachers and parents did their best to teach me to "stop doing it and act normal". I quickly learned that it was shameful to act like I wanted to. My dad was my rolemodel, since he was able to mask rather well, and mom was the shame of the family because she couldn't hide it, doing stims like turning around herself in circles when I'm public, etc. It wasn't until my late 20s that I had learned to suppress the urge to stim in public, at least when at school or work. As an adult I can smalltalk and read others fairly well, I just hate doing it, and get completely exhausted after social gatherings.

@ElectroDimentonCrew 14 днів тому

I consider myself as a master of hiding and appearance also can say I mastered the masking thing… with the time I learned that I was a different in many ways but it wasn’t until I find out “masking” that I got interested in autism and of course I find it out! Now I’ve been so much happier since I know exactly how I am❤ Edit: I’m 26 and just got my diagnosis a few months ago

@SpecialEdTalk 10 днів тому

Really love your videos.

@desireeandrews6710 13 днів тому

I was tested last year. I’m 45 and my results came back as negative. I’m pretty sure I have it. Just really good at masking.

@wendyfrederick5965 13 днів тому

The not looking people in the eye thing, yeah I do that! But since I live in Florida I also wear really dark sunglasses, with side panels. Nobody knows I'm not looking. I figured that out when I was a kid and my folks would take us surfing, I wasn't as tired as the rest of the family when we got home, because I had NOT been masking all day like usual.

@ChrisandDebby 12 днів тому

Oooh this is a great idea! I also like wearing sunglasses - especially ones that are reflective so no one can see my eyes - but didn’t think about how it also helps me to not be forced to make eye contact. Mostly was glad that I could look at other people or things around me for as long as I wanted without any judgments 🤣

@greendogwax 13 днів тому

It's also really expensive to get a diagnosis over here. So I haven't bothered.

@smol-one 10 днів тому

Typically, the reason we go unnoticed is because we spent our childhood masking like crazy, so now we pass as a 'regular'. And instead of seeking out more information, we just internalize a bunch of stuff and feel miserable all the time. Which could, in turn, be easily misdiagnosed as depression. This goes double or triple for anyone that falls outside of those 'gold standard' autism traits. Just being female makes you less likely to be believed. So, it's the combination of a lot of stuff. But a great deal of it is when you're an adult, nobody gives a shit anymore. Everyone expects you to just 'figure it out'. Which is insane for anyone, but particularly so for anyone born differently. Maybe it's different in different countries, but in the US there's an astonishing lack of empathy and compassion. For other people, but for ourselves too. You're doing your best, you'll make it. ❤

@susskinsgamer 4 дні тому

Thanks to you, I now have a blue Nee Doh cube. Can’t keep my hands off it. I’m 62, and I am scheduled to be assessed for Autism on July 1st. Been fighting anxiety and depression my whole life.

@ChrisandDebby 4 дні тому

I’m glad you’re enjoying it as much as I did when I first got my very first Nee Doh. It also helps me with my anxiety and depression - even when I’m at work, or the hair salon, or appointments, it helps a lot to keep me calm.

@ChrisandDebby 4 дні тому

Good luck with your assessment - if you want to plan ahead, jot some notes ahead of time to help you feel less anxious as the day approaches 😊

@rebeccasatterley1542 4 дні тому

I was diagnosed with depression in college, and "depression-related anxiety." Then, about 7 or 8 very up and down years later, I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Than, 11 or 12 years after that, I finally had a therapist who diagnosed me as autistic. Also the anxiety came back, which has helpfully cracked my mask.

@Marie_Adams 14 днів тому

If they're masking subconsciously, it doesn't necessarily mean they need less support, it means their body has learned how to adapt to their environment (even to their own detriment) because of a lack of proper support, just my thoughts based on my own life experience. I was diagnosed at 40. I think mine went undiagnosed because the adults in my life, told me that their needs mattered more than mine. I also didn't love trains or have similar traits to boys (except I do remember rocking as a young child) I also had panic attacks since childhood that were only just diagnosed. I envy autistics who have the support & ability to get married & start businesses. I lost the only man I ever loved because of my stupid broken brain.

@alisonduffy6206 14 днів тому

Another fantastic vid by ninja Chris :)

@computerlove87 14 днів тому

I was a young middle-class white boy once... So why did my autism go unnoticed? Trains! You see, cars are my special interest, doesn't even quite cut it, they're really integrated into my soul. Because of this I had a weird irrational hatred of trains, or at least toy trains because I felt like they were always being shoved down my throat. Like please, just give me some cars. what is this weird blue idiot train with a face on him?! OMG... So once again trains screwed me over and caused something bad in my life!!! F*** you, trains! Trains and I actually made up when I had to take a train everyday to and from high school lol. But it's funny to think that the stereotype was potentially one of the minor factors that caused me to go unnoticed 😂

@jairai5922 10 днів тому

I grew up as the same. Eye contact is horrific. It takes so much energy. I really can't control it anymore I just end up looking at the floor and thankfully people I interact with don't mention it 😅

@DavidPalin 14 днів тому

Internalising all of my struggles and not talking to anyone about my struggles has kept me from seeking help but I have often wondered if I was autistic. I didn't understand autism properly until my son was diagnosed and even now I'm still trying to understand my own journey as I wait for my own assignment.

@Leena79 13 днів тому

I was diagnosed at 42. I think I went undiagnosed, because I grew up in a stable, stress-free environment, where things stayed unchanged. I had all the (now seemingly obvious) signs of autism when I moved from home to study, but when the autistic burnout made me crash, I thought my only issue was social anxiety, and I went with that diagnosis, and panic disorder, for 20 years. I was being treated for the most obvious symptoms, but the underlying autism was missed. I actually only got diagnosed, after I got frustrated for things not improving in my life, and doing my own research, and finding new studies about autism.

@flowerchasethesunshine9063 13 днів тому

Very similar here! My parents were calm and homebodies. We had our family traditions, not a lot of surprises or anything, I didn't cause troubles. At 20 I realized that my main problem in life was social anxiety. I treated it on my own for approx. 8 years until I realized that I was still the same and stuck in life. I tried to find my root cause to solve the problem for good. Didn't find any.. until I learned about autism in women and girls. I got the diagnosis two months ago at 31.

@isabellammusic 14 днів тому

Amazing video!

@MILKSHAKEPOD 15 днів тому

Second! Third? Idk. Just happy to be here.

@brentjohnson7044 13 днів тому

All right, I reckon I'll go see if I can get assessed...

@EbyonTheEnbyDragon 8 днів тому

I'm not diagnosed yet, but I started to realize about 7-8 years ago. Mentioned it to my autistic friends individually, and they all agreed i came to the right conclusion. My doctor was super unhelpful when i brought it up, saying she didn't think adults could be diagnosed. I've always been incredibly high masking, and i suspect my dad is too so he kept the house in a tolerable way for our undiagnosed butts, and i was homeschooled so i never had to deal with the overwhelm of public school. My parents always described me as quiet, meticulous, and sensitive. When we would have people over, and i got tired of them, i would sneak to my room and hide in my closet to read. Basically, masking was incredibly easy as a kid, so i flew well under the radar. As an adult, some of my unique subtle stims are my facial piercings. I initially got my lip pierced, and those allowed me to chew on something that wasn't my fingers (i used to chronically bite my nails and the skin around them). Then, when i got a job that required me to remove my lip rings, i got my tongue pierced, so i just roll that around the inside of my mouth when I'm at work. I've also learned to identify the specific people who expect eye contact in conversation due to my special interests being psychology and behavioral analysis. I once heard it explained by an autistic person that it is not that they are unaware of social cues, they're just clueless to the correct response, which has always been my issue. I used to smile and nod like an idiot. Now I either ignore it and let them follow up if it was something i was supposed to pay attention to or understand, or if it felt like they were really looking for some kind of response I'll just ask clarifying questions like "what do you mean by that". If i get a weird look, i usually explain it as that I'm a little socially inept at times, and people tend not to ask further questions.

@faeriesmak 14 днів тому

That was an excellent list. I think that mine went unnoticed in part because most of my family is actually autistic as well so to them I seemed fairly normal. Now that I am very educated on autism I can pick out all of my wonderful autistic relatives and on my maternal side that is almost everyone. Also..I am 49. I grew up in the 80s. They were not diagnosing anyone with anything back then.

@Amyjones-su4tt 11 днів тому

Ty your explaining it well.i think my daughter is ,i think i am a little.but more adhd.ty again.god bless 🙏 take care

@kathstone8321 8 днів тому

I'm a female and was 54 years old when I was diagnosed (I'm in the UK and had to go private because my GP wasn't having any of it!) I put it down to my most amazing masking that I was never diagnosed before because 3 of my children have ASD and I was totally overlooked.

@Medicinalmagic911 4 дні тому

As a 20 year medic ff. Who was dx with asd, adhd, ocd in my late 30s. I believe it went unnoticed because there are quite a few of these subsets of people in the emergency field. 🎉🎉❤ 12:20

@johnhatton4290 11 днів тому

Reasons it wasn't noticed that I was ADD and ASD : 1. High iq - was able to analyse what was needed to fit in (i.e. masking), and my 'quirks' were dismissed at school because I was good at doing the work (until they changed from teaching us for o-levels to having us take the first GCSE exams, which completely triggered my ASD and cascaded into completely trashing my A-level grades as well, I was forecast for 3 @ B/C and barely scraped 2 Es at A-level). 2. My family all had ASD or ADHD traits so they didn't think anything was unusual, especially as I had both and they often seemed to counteract/contradict each other. 3. I was just seen as the shy child, and was told this so often that I then believed that everything I felt was just normal as I was just 'shy' and should just get over it. 4. People didn't understand ASD and ADHD when I was younger (especially being able to have both) so unless you were completely non-verbal or bouncing off the walls you were 'normal'.

@MsLisa551 14 днів тому

Yes.. you're right ....decades! 57 years of no diagnosis. Not fitting in but being forced to. I'm exhausted. I'm adhd and diagnosed late. I have Alexa remind of the day, date and weather. Lol

@Gngatho 5 днів тому

I've also struggled a lot with time management..like a lot!.. I've struggled remembering appointments and meetings.. I can't do it without an alarm...

@katiebeark День тому

I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder about 6-7 years ago. I really don’t know what’s wrong with me but all I can do is live my life.

@Akaashipotato 12 днів тому

I am in talk with a psychologist for now a year or so. A month ago I came into his office, totally in distress because when I was outside and took of my headphones, the sound of the cars driving by was so loud and so overwhelming that it was drowning me. I told him that, also that the sound of his collegues outside was also hard to deal with at that time. He didnt said anything specific, but told me, maybe its time for a diagnosis. I am now 34 and literally in distress because this describe before and alot of other things hinting for me towards autism (cant deal with social interaction alone only when people come towards me, was bullied as a child because I never was able to look people in the eyes but always looked up, problems with smells and sounds and other things) but all in me is like, someone would have realized you are definitly not autistic enough... like its a ride being undiagnosed.

@digger1989 14 днів тому

I was growing up in the 70's and 80's, there just really wasn't much awareness. Looking back it's pretty freaking obvious, but there just wasn't the langauge at the time.

@verminter 11 днів тому

"I've always been SHYYYYY! I confess it I'm SHYYYYYY!" Also, sick ninja moves at the end! 🥷

@crystalJadeLion 14 днів тому

I've only recently been diagnosed autistic level 2 and adhd. My friends and family just thought I was an alcoholic so I was always dancing and running around at friends houses and then at the end of the night Id be crying hugging the toilet bowl. They ignored my sober traits and labled me a drama queen until I quit drinking 10 years ago and and had my first child, that's when I lost friendships and my masking crumbled. I was diagnosed with panic disorder and GAD when my relationship broke down and went unnoticed until my daughter was diagnosed ADHD and I went for an ADHD assessment 4 years later only to have the therapist write ASD presentation way too many times on my 3 page report for me to ignore. Most of my family don't want to acknowledge I am autistic because of guilt and shame from how they treated me I think and because I kept my meltdowns until late at night and in private (however I'd always have random bouts of Crying in my car alot in order to hold the worst of it back)