I recently realised, If you aren't happy from within then nothing from outside can make you happy. And to be happy from within, self improvement, working on yourself and being thankful for everything is the key.

Comment section under dark academia playlists (or any playlist actually) is the most wholesome place

When I was 21 I was heartbroken and felt betrayed. I realised in all of my sorrow, that more than anything I had to work on myself. I had to work on how I perceived the world, how I saw myself, how I loved, loved life, loved the people around me, loved myself. So. I started working. I started going out in nature, I started going to the cinema, I started going to the forest, I started going to the library, all of it by myself. When I started exploring I suddenly found what I had longed for all my life. I found what I had searched for, but I didn't find it where I had searched. I didn't find it in other people. I'd thought that someone loving me, all of me, required me to love them with everything I got. I thought it required for me to soothe my own wishes and preference. I thought it required for me to suppress my inner voice. To make them feel loved, I suppressed my inner voice, my own wishes and needs, as an act of love. For them to feel loved. The only way I thought all of me could be loved. If another person loved me. But as I was there, in the park, listening to calming music, looking at the lake behind the tress, I heard it very quietly. There it was. What I had searched for. My companion. My inner voice. I knew I had to keep working to keep it by my side. I knew I had to show it all the love and kindness and tenderness I had waited my whole life to show another's soul. As time passed and my visits to the park, to the forest, to the cinema, became more, and I heard it, my inner voice, louder and clearer. I decided that till the day I turned 23 I would give myself the privileged of feeling incomplete. I needed time to get to know this new companion of mine. I had to give myself time to learn. Every moment I felt incomplete, I would tell myself I had yet to turn 23. That way there was no reason to worry about my incompleteness. All I had to care about, was making my companion feel loved and welcome by my side. As the month passed the voice grew and it stayed. It became the norm to have it by my side, just like the love and tenderness I showed it. The summer I was to turn 23 I felt it so presently, that I stopped thinking about it. My companion had become a part of me. A part of me I'd lost in my wish to show others love. To be loved. But here I was. Complete. Completely loving my companion, the way I had been longing to be loved. For the first time in my life I didn't long for love. Love was now rooted in me. That summer I met a boy. A boy that made me feel safe and calm. A boy that made me feel like I had never felt before. He made me be present. He made me not worry about the future. He made me feel. He made me feel that to be myself, was the most normal thing in the world. As if I hadnt spent my whole life worrying about letting myself show. Letting myself feel. Feel the world, and feel who I was. Instead I had felt for everyone else. He made feeling be a good thing. But without my companion I would not have been able to meet him there. I would not have been able to show him the love that my companion had brought me. And I would not have been able to feel myself. I only realised that true love does exist, when I found it in myself and another person. Now everyday I'm thanking the universe for my love's existence.

The comment section just make me realized that Humans are not that bad. Stay safe. All of u

Even though my comment might seem like a small ripple in the digital sea, if it's reached you in any way, then it's more than just coincidence. Here's a comforting thought - these words are a reminder of your worth and potential. Embrace life's challenges, safe in the knowledge that you can overcome them with grace and resilience.

Love exist, but to capture love and keep it alive for the rest of your life is the hard part. You have to water it everyday, put constant effort to keep it alive. I hope to achieve it again someday , with someone that values my love as much as I value theirs.

I am 23 right now, will be turning 24 in May. I am still in the process of loving myself and learning to spend time with myself. I know I'll meet someone when I am ready. Staying hopeful!

I accidentally clicked on this video and it made me cry. When I was 20, the person who I trust the most left me. We were friends for 9 years. We were dating for 3 years and planning to move out together. However, as I noticed later, I was the one who tried to made it all work. I believed that this heartbreak was my fault. But you should understand that every single relationship could fade away if one side don't work for this bond. You can't make bond for two on your own. After that rough experience I tried to start another relationship but another partner went crazy in our first conflict. I decided that I can't take another aggressive treatment so we broke up. I decided that no one can give me enough love if I can't love myself, can't stand for myself. Now I'm doing my best. I go to psychotherapist every weak, I keep working, I try to make myself loved and happier. I met someone, who cares about me, someone I can trust again, someone I can argue with knowing this person won't hurt me anyway, won't be mad at me. I choose to be loved and realised that I'm falling in love again. And now I believe it is not just amorousness. It's something stronger. This is a bond for two.

I recently read Phantastes by George MacDonald and he said it is nobler to love than to be loved. Even if the person you love never understands or reciprocates, the important thing is that you loved them. True love never asks for anything in return.

It truly feels like a spiritual experience reading comments under dark academia playlist videos. Everyone has so much to say and so many experiences to share. Reading people talk about what they know about love from their own experiences really makes me happy. I feel we don't talk enough about love on a deep level these days so, I guess I really appreciate the input given here by others.

Oh, please, STOP! ❤️ Whoever creates a playlist like this, can only be a wonderful soul. Thank you, dear Helder!

20 y. o., still single, still haven't found my lover... I wish one day I would listen to this playlist and think about him/her... I hope everyone will find their "second half"💜 Stay safe~♡

*Listening to dark academia tunes feels like wandering through the corridors of an old library at midnight, surrounded by the whispers of forgotten tales and the echoes of lost loves*

She was as beautiful as the ray of sunshine in the morning, she radiated happiness wherever she went, she was kind to everyone, she loved me in conditionally and I did and do too. My first love and the first time I felt the pain of a broken heart. My Dear ❤️

HAVE A NICE DAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!!! BUT ESPECIALLY, LOVE YOURSELF AND STAY HYDRATED!

As much as i do not believe in "true love" existing, I now know that love is real. I love my friends, I love my cats, I love my family, and that's enough for me. That's all the proof I need to know that love truly does exist, even if I've had some bad experiences in the past.

Perhaps it is too early to call it love, but that's what it is. Maybe it's not the love an elderly couple who wrinkled together feel, or the love a husband feels for his highschool sweetheart, but its own little kind of love. A love I reserve and feel for only you.

frankly I hesitated between that and hard metal, realizing that true love doesn't exist makes me feel so alone. Thanks for this playlist

its almost 3 am in the morning, ive been crying nonstop because of how evil my family was. im cryingtoo much that when i was taking a bath i didnt even realize there was a worm crawling up my legs. it hurts, i felt numb. i cut my beautiful long hair i always perish to everyone today. the only thing that makes me pretty, and i lost it to pieces. i felt like my soul died, and nothing can recover any soul that has been destroyed. yet somehow i always forgive everyone, why? why am i born to existance like this?

I was listening to the first piece and suddenly I pictured my boyfriend in my head. I was thinking how much I love him and appreciate him THEN I read the title and I was like "ohhh that's why I was thinking of him, he is indeed the love of my life

8:52 When I came here, I fell into a big void and what I experienced came to my mind. My disappointments, my waiting, my efforts to find hope, my efforts to hold on to my love... I felt very different while this piano was being played.

When I was a kid, my mom told me that love is a luxury good, and it can't be possessed by everybody.

Thank you so much for another wonderful playlist

You know it's love when she's there even when the money's gone

I didn’t realize how much I can picture in my head from just a playlist like this I can literally picture me and my crush in a ball dancing from enemies to lovers … and I’m just 12

Helder!!! Thank you so much. I've been awaiting another masterpiece. I listen to these playlist and share them with many. Thank you again!! ❤

15:19 - 18:17 If you want to listen to the music that plays between the minutes I've written: "Alexender Motolov - Reverie"

These playlists are truly amazing. They really help me studying, read, process life or just help me calm down in general. Keep making these man!

Helder! I was looking for a playlist of yours and coincidentally found you in my feed. This is the best part of today. Thank you so much for this.

Put this playlist on as background music for my writing, ended up finding inner serenity.

These comments are so lovely. I myself have had a similar experience of rebirth. My entire childhood I had let people walk all over me. It was a painful experience. It took me till 9th grade to find friends. And many of those friends were bad choices. Closer to a drug addiction than medication. I only realized I was not healing when I stopped seeing those people. When I graduated from Highschool I noticed that no matter how much I gave a crap about those people, it meant nothing to them. They did not care or love themselves and I, in turn, picked up the bad habit just by being around them. I had attachment issues. I clung to people like it was my last hope. I had only had one friend I confided in for a long stretch of time. And I stared repeating that habit. I didn't realize it then, but it then but was a really unhealthy attachment style. My parents have a lot of unaddressed trauma that has passed down generationally as well. And for a long time I was lost in my head. Not eating. Barely sleeping. Scared that I will be judged for my every action my the people that were supposed to love me the most. It was a terrifying time. And I didn't even know it till I looked back. A shift started happening over the course of a few years. I threw myself into the bowls of growth when I read the book A New Earth by Eckart Tolle. I stared staring my past in the face. Wondering how I got here. How I could make myself better for the future me. There is something far deeper in us that we could not possibly grasp. That we are not the labels we give ourselves. We are God and so is everything around is. The fact that anything like this is here at all is amazing. Shocking even. It was a once in a trillion chance I would take on this form. And it happened. Isn't that fantastic? So I started setting up boundaries. Protecting myself from people that merely wanted to use me for my energy. Dumped off everyone that was no longer serving me or themselves in any loving capacity. And put myself to the grind stone. It's been two years now... I've still got a long away to go. But seeing how far I've come makes me all sappy and giddy. I'm so fortunate. So overwhelmingly lucky. Despite my rough start the tree of adoration I've been fostering in me is growing tall and strong. True love does exists. And I'm living proof.

This is beautiful! You have no idea how much this has helped me. Its very inspiring. Thank you so much!

The most beautiful playlist I have ever encountered so far. Thank you!

been waiting for another amazing playlist❤

"So she really is the one, isn't she?"

thank you sm for this amazing playlist helder, you always made my day ♡

No puedo creer la paz y la serenidad que esto trae a mí. Gracias

Your channel is the best thing for my ADHD. Thank you so much!

This has helped me find the calm in the chaotic. Thank you so much 🙏🏽

I loved her, I want her in despair. I loved her, I believed in her, I want her down. All that's left of noble feelings is ugliness. Totally soft, I remember the first times my fingers touched the silk of her skin. I remember her smell, her scarves. The way she dressed. I remember my pupils dilating, our first glances that brought tears to my eyes. I remember longing for her body, because above all it was her. I didn't want to capture her soul; I wanted to bind them. I wanted to marry her, to protect her if anything happened to me. Something happened to me; I lost her. I'd like the world to be on fire. Let blood cover the surface. I'd like tears and cries to be permanent. I am the rage, I am the shame, I am the regret, I am the past, I am the irremediable sadness. I still love my beautiful soul, this sweetheart. She's worthy of the most beautiful creation, of all humans, she's the only one who can claim to be conscious. She's sensitive, funny, intelligent, charming, beautiful. I like her. I lost her. I want her to die. I want her on my sides. I wanted to carve both our names on the grave. I wouldn't have a grave, only ashes. I'm not worthy of ashes. I did my best, I didn't spoil anything. She's just gone, I'm gone too. I'm just a shadow. Nothing, just a fool. Don't let me down, please came back. I loved you, I love you, I will. I will do anything for you. Blink. Part. No cohesion. Distress. Disorder, loss. I'm just a fool, illness. Don't cross me, you'll only see a brown stain. A scum, a filthy spawn, a zombie. I'm less than that, I'm just a rat, human-sized. Hideous, despite my angelic face, there's nothing inside me but a devil. Less than a devil, otherwise I'd have value, a little demon. An inferno, one of those that don't count.

I donnow whenever i open ds kind of vdos. These hv beautiful cmmnts... feels like u r cmpltly in a dffrnt world.. evry1 has dffrnt prspctv, dffrnt opinions nd nobody actually qstns dat. They accpt nd value each other. Dats d best part of these vdos. Obvsly big thanks 2 d music... it shows how music impacts our brains..

Hello Helder! Thank you so much for creating these beautiful playlists. It really helps me with calming down, sleeping, writing, and drawing. I really love your playlists 🤍

I was doing my History homework with this playlist. It was really calm and comfortable, thank you very much for this!

Profoundly lovely and moving ❤

Dear Human , I don't know how are you feeling today , but if incase no one is there for you then consider me your friend I am sending you virtual hugs and love 🧡 look at the sky somewhere , someone is also looking at those stars and moon , you are never lonely ! I wish you live every moment of your life in happiest way possible Leave every burden in your head to the universe , it's going to be alright !! Love your life and yourself 💛

I can't stop crying listening to this playlist. I clicked thinking it will be background music while I do something else, but I am just starting at the pictures of the video and listening intently, crying, closing my eyes, and feeling so many things. Thank you for this.

The day has already been lived well, haha. thanks for the playlist, you did a great job, I know this even after the first song💌

Using this playlist to write a checklist for the camping trip with my sweet

We all deserve true love❤

I despaired when I beheld my love. And it was not true. All loves are selfish in some way. And in my bitterness I said foolishly, there is no love. They all walk in a vain show, and do not cease from lying. All the words of our mouths are falsehoods. "I love you." Is a lie. And at this I resigned myself to hatred, for I hated my self. There is no love! I bowed low in my spirit, pressed sore with the weight of such darkness. And if there is no love, the grievous wound struck my soul, there is no God. For God is love. Or so he says. And then, as if at the very time the jaw of hatred should clamp down on my heart forever and harden it against my Lord and my friend, lover of my soul, Whom I had thought to have lost forever to the terrible truth. The Comforter in still small voice, not with physical voice, but the echo of eternal truth finding its way into a broken heart which mourned the death of God brought to remembrance miraculously the words of my Lord. "God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?" God is not a man that he should lie, what profit are lies to him who has all things? When he says "God so loved the world" he means it. God is love. His only is true.

Love this! Thank you❤

Sound of Love ❤

Another magnificent playlist like usual 🫶🏼🫶🏼

Mă bucură faptul că ai reușit să simți cât de mult contează dragostea mea și să-ți dorești să fii mereu lângă mine ca EU să-ți spun ce simt pentru tine și încet încet să te scoată din melancolia plutitoare.

Thank you so much Helder for making such a magical playlist like this one. I rarely finish listening to the whole playlist (from other channels) in one sitting, but with this playlist, I can't stop listening to it. I love every single song from this playlist. They all feel so relaxing and comfortable. These songs somehow make me feel that i don't have to pay so much attention on the things that stress me out. Instead, I focus on the present moment and realize I'm just a tiny part of this universe and that feels relieved. Again, thank you so much for creating such a beautiful playlist.

love love love... so infinite that we simply don't understand it...

Beautiful music! I like it, you do a great job!

This has become my go-to to listen to while reading, I’ll have to check out more of your mixes

This playlist is currently helping me through overnight cramming for an exam. Thanks for the amazing playlist!

Love this.

im in eleventh grade now, and i've had bad experiences with guys i tried talking to, so i've never really gotten my hope for love back, even though i know im young and have my life ahead of me.. i still feel like it could've worked out somehow, or at least it could've been better than what it was, or maybe just maybe, i was enough for them to actually like me back. but then again, as hard as it was and as hard as it is now, i'm forcing myself to just, not talk to them, to not get attached again, to not get hurt again. but anyways love the playlist its such a vibe, the comment section as well

thank you Helder

Beautiful songs, they are so calm and melancholic. I do believe in true love though, the one you have for yourself, also for other people, just because it ended doesn't mean it wasn’t true.

Your pullign me to the flower!

Of course it does, don't lie to yourself. Always keep ya head up and move forward

your music is great😍😍😍😍

I just wish I could've seen through his intentions. The way he made me believe I was the one he loved and then pretended I didn't exist... It just broke my heart in so many pieces that I'll fine real trouble trying to gather them together again. Love hurts so bad, sometimes.

I don't believe that true love exists but if it really existed, this playlist would be the best thing to describe it.

Very hard to shower low lifey till now, but now have been doing it and or not lovingly! That since beginning of time with Ireland!

I recently found that the best person to love is yourself. After I had been dumped by my best friend and boyfriend of two years, without even an explanation, I was despondent. Nothing could cheer me up. I spent about a month in solitude before my best friends managed to pull me out of my shell and get me back on my feet. I am forever grateful for them. Three months went by, and I went through some of the stages of grief, denial, anger, and bargaining. Then I became depressed. I was wondering why I was still in love with him even after everyone told me that heartbreak only lasted a few months at best, while I was about to complete month four. I realized that I was spending so much time trying to live my life on other people's timelines, not my own. Though I still love and care for him immensely, and I know my love for him will always be unconditional, it still hurt like I had been stabbed in the gut. But despite this, no one changed me. I changed the way I saw myself. I changed the way I saw my world, and myself, and learned to love the world around me. And I can fix what was wrong in it. In a way, you also help yourself. I won't deny it still hurts, but it's up to you to let it hurt for longer. You make the decision to change for the better.

First i read "does not exists" and i was like yeah it really feels like it but then i realised and now i think maybe i'm who doesnt feel it

Realmente me has ayudado mucho a pasar esos duros momentos de una forma más hermosa, gracias.

📝 Whether you're working, studying, or chilling, this playlist makes every moment better. Thumbs up if you're here for it! 👍

-pov:- you just realized that *she* isn’t being nice.

True love is loving yourself

Good Work 👍

AQUI ..OTRA NUEVA MARAVILLA ✨🦢 ....SONANDO Y SOÑANDO UNA VEZ MAS 🤍 GRACIAS H.B

Im 19 and I thought I would always been alone forever bc I never had actual friends Only ppl that took advantage of me Same went for when I got into college and I just accidentally shut most social things out bc I was scared But I have been working on my anxiety and depression recently and I started to feel again. Of course that made a lot of passed feelings I have shoved away come back up and lets just say I had a week of crying But another thing kind of plagued my brain. There was this person in one of my classes. Ive never felt so star struck by someone in my life. Ive never felt that way before. But then this beautiful person was there and I had 0 clue what it was or how to deal with it. So one day I grew a pair and I went up to them and called them cute. They seemed to like that. I shook a lot afterwards tho bc of anxiety. And then WHAT'YA KNOW! Instagram showed me they had a profile. I wanted to originally go up to them irl and ask them out (something I have n e v e r done before) but they weren't in class that day. So... I went ahead and texted them, knowing id be more eloquent anyway. And it surprisingly went very well! They agreed to go out and we clicked pretty well. Few weeks later (just a couple days ago) we have officially become a couple. And it makes me so happy. Ive never had anyone listen to me. Like TRULY listen to me before. We have already gotten to know each other's flaws and we still are practically attached by the red string of fate. Ive never met someone so beautiful and honest. And I think somehow I knew that. Like as if something in me was waiting to find someone, to sense someone so honest and pure. Like when I saw them and the more they talked in our glass the more I understood that there was something different about them. Like they don't hide who they actually are. Ive never had such a need to be around someone so much. I am so happy this person is in my life 🫶 they mean so much to me.

nice images, you know your audience.

Thank you for these great masterpieces that nourish souls ♥️Can I know what are the names of these works separately?

beautiful playlist, really nice. any chance you could make timestamps?? :)

Finally some honesty..Thank-you

I found out too late. I will die loving him, come back and search for something that will always be missing if I don't have him.

This was one of the videos in the right row below a video of the Wolf's Rain O.S.T. I was watching, whilst I was thinking of completing my tiny sort-of graphic novel of and possibly animating my versions of Elise and Sonic, taking into consideration the fact that I made them compatible as an adventuring couple! It almost seems like the universe is trying to tell me something nice for a change!

I like this lovely sound and picture ❤

i'll play this playlist all day at my office.

If you were the night sky and your flaws were the clouds, stars, and the moon would you hate yourself because of your flaws? It is indeed the unique flaws that we all posses that makes us, us. Each day the sky gets a new pattern, each day we change. Each change is as beautiful as the previous one, the new clouds might always not be a flaw, it might become a beautiful trait of yours. Love exists in you, in me, and in the sights we see.

Não dá pra viver esperando alguém aparecer, esperando uma companhia, porque as pessoas vêm e vão. A única pessoa que eu sei que sempre vai estar lá quando eu precisar, é Jesus Cristo.

She's wearing make up and minimal perfume and or cologne water and or Mitchuim deodrant!

Swans mate for life. Humans can too, but to workout, you need to realy love the other person, and it takes maturity, knowing yourself, knowing what you want, what you need. Good luck. 😘

I long to remain here eternally. All of this is healing me from within. I've finally started to see where I'm going wrong in life. I'm not loving myself enough; I'm punishing myself for all the pain inflicted upon me. I'm longing to be loved deeply, yet I strangle myself every night in frustration. I'm in awe of the beauty outside me, but why do I fail to see the sparkle in my own eyes? Why do I deny myself the comfort of a tender touch? Why am I the faint whisper of hope in others' ears, the shoulder to their aching body, the praise to their ugliness, the cold comfortable pillow to their restless nights, but a bed of thorns, the rough beatings to my gentle body, the poison in my food, the anxiety in my heart, the cruel master to myself-to this scarred little kid?

I dont wanna lose faith

I listen to your playlist to help me sleep, study and shift at night. thank you helder❤❤

I found true love once and I was firced to give her up 😢 Now, all I want is to destroy everything

I'm 26 and have been single for almost 10 years. I'm feeling done waiting for the love of my life and trying to give up on believing in love but... here I am.

you finally realise that true love doesn't exist 💔❤‍🔥

We met at the wrong time. we were both hurt and needed to work on ourselves. We reconnected 6 years later, but i needed a bit longer. 5 months ago, I began to feel ready enough to date again. I explored my interests, found out who I want to be. However, the reservation were still there until about a month ago. it took me realizing that I am loved in order to rapidly undo the reservations I had. He's been waiting for me to be ready for about a year. In the span of that one month I've undergone a complete metamorphosis as a person. I'm still me, but I'm much healthier as a person. I found out what love feels like physically and it made me realise that I'm Demi-Aromantic, and that even after all this time I still love him. I tell him tomorrow. Wish me luck

Ángel Castañeda ❤

I want to be loved the way i love. I have so much love to give. Sometimes i feel unlovable but i like to think that someone out there will love my like breathing. I am not hard to love

Ppl that are so much better in love ❤