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CROWNNNNNNNNNN😊

Be yourself because you are awesome 😎

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I fall in love 1 year and a half ago with a girl i met online... We Just clicked... It was so easy with her... From the first Day, we coild talk and laugh for hours... Talking about anything.... So much natural chemistry... And the more i learned about her, the more in love and connected to her i felt....we had so much common points, values, goals in relationship... We both wanted long and secure relationship... I really think she was the one, its so rare to have that much chemistry and connection to someone... Most People live their entière life without finding that... I was so Lucky to find her.... But it was a trap.... Love can never be simple it seems... She has an avoidant attachement style... It me ans she grew up with distant parents who didnt give her, her émotional needs and she learn to not trust other, to not communicate, not express her True feelings because it equal pain and disapointement.... She has a fear of abandonnement, a fear of being vulnérable and her défense mécanisme is to pull away and ghosting when its too much for her.... And it complicate everything.... It seems the more i love her and fight for her and treat her well, the more she is afraid and pull away From me... Its like i was being punished for the crime that im in love with her... She says that she dont deserve me, that i deserve better than her, than a normal girl would make me more happy... Its sad that she think about hetself like that because i want her... Only her... She is a Wonderful girl... So i fought for her 1 year and half, trying to communicate and help her heal From her avoidant problèm... Forgive her ghosting me for weeks even month... She always came back to me... Even when she tried everything to make me go out From her life by blocking me everywhere... She couldnt do it... And said she didnt know why.... I was clearly more than a friend for her but she always said she didnt know what she felt for me... She didnt face her sentiments, she pull away From it, not wanting to be honest with hetself.... She said i was making her days better, that i was a man made for her but her she was not made for me.... That her life was better with me in it... We even had intimate Phone calls, she really liked my voice.... But she kept a distance between us... Sometimes, she let her guard down and be herself and it was the better moments Where our chemistry was the high est.... But at the first sign of conflit or serious talk, talk about feelings etc... She was scared and put again that distance or even Just ghost me without explanation.... Reczntly, she came back again... After telling me she was not going to Last time lmao because she had health issues and had 0 energy for everything, and didnt want to stay close to me because if her body abandon her, it would be mess painful if we didnt talk anymore etc... So she ghosted me again for 2 month, with me worrying about her, fearing something happened to her and that i Will never know and it was torture.... But she did came back... Wanting to know how i was after 2 months, i was happy to see her being fine... We talked 1 weeks, again, out chemistry was still there, everytime, it Just happen naturaly....everytime she came back, i tried to communicate, help her, told her that ghosting and leaving instead of communicating was not secure and the solution etc... I thought again that we were on the right path, that she understood etc.... She told me that she was gonna visite muséum with a "friend" for 2 days... Obviously, i was a bit suspecious and jealous, but she reassure me right away, that it was Just a friend, that there was nothing between them, it was Just visits etc... We even joked about it like what if you sleep together etc and she continue to reassure me all week long etx....i did the most secure thing and Just trust her, not wanting to be toxic and jealous and possesive, and Just wanted her to be happy and have fun and rest From her work... The Day arrive and i trust her and wishing her a good Day and have fun... She came back the evening and told me it was good, that she was gonna watch a movie with him at the cinéma and go to the hôtel for sleeping... She kept reassuring me again... Even Just before going to the hôtel... I fell asleep trusting her and everything was fine, i was happy for her.... And then, next Day morning...i wake up, look at my Phone and saw a text From her saying "uh i need to tell you something, and you Will not like it".... I said what ? You are scaring me... She said that things went wrong Last night... And that her friend is not Just a friend anymore... I ask if she slept wihh him, she said yes.... And rigjr away, my heart broke into oblibion.... I couldnt believe it... It was a night mare... She did not do that... She did not reassure me all along to do it noneless... Its so cruel.... But she say sorry but at least you know...i let you be... And Just like that... 1 year and a half destroyed... All my efforts was in vain.... What that Guy did in one Day that i couldnt in 1 year and a half ??? It was so unfair and cruel.... But now, its more complicate because... If thats the truth ? Because she is complicated and did lie to me before about her being in a relationship Just to Hurt me and making me abandon her... She confessed month later that it was indeed a lie to make me run away From her... Just to sabotage herself because she think i deserve better than her and would be more happy without her... So im lost... I dont know if thats True or not and its torturing me... One part of myself think it is a lie, that i know her and that those 1 year and a half was not in vain and i know she care about me... And hope she Come back again like she did everytime... But there is also a part of me who is terrified that it is the truth... And that i truly lost her in the most cruel way possible.... I dont know... She didnt Blocked me... So i hope its a good sign she can Come back... All i can do is waiting... Waiting to see if she Come back again or not... I truly hope so... It would broke me if that was True... She was clearly the one... All those efforts to help her, love her, Forgive her... All that for nothing and that she fuck with another Guy in Just one Day ?.... I cant... Sorry for that hyper long text... I Just wanted to let everything go out of my chest and heart... Im so lost and afraid to lose her...

11May 2024,it hits differently when you have lost a loved one to suicide 😢😢😢😢

What 🐈 this guy is.

Ay que bonito que nunca vi uglydolls en toda mi vida pasada y también presente.😎

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ilove

“I care for you still and I will forever”just hits. I miss him sm

Any 2024 here

Whose listening in 2050

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Every like this comment gets ill do 1 pushu 😅

so fuck me and everybody you know what fuck me just me

I wish my son would have said something God he's gone

Imma play this for my mom on mothers day who else 👇

I dedicate this song to the love of my life my sahiba, Hawwa Inuwa.

I love this song❤ . .

Hey guys this is giving me ideas like we can chat in the comments

This rock 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

Making me miss my special person, and now we can't be anymore. He left me and didn't have a chance to come back to me. I really want him back😭🥺

OMG

😭❤️

2024 Anyone?

SIX YEARS AGO?! s i x. 😭

❤

anyone here in 2024?

🎉

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Who will comment on tis song ill b back an listen to tis masterpiece ❤️

To my autistic son 😢😢😢😢I love u son...I got u until my last breath

Who is listening now

Can I disappear and die be gone from this world pls god💔🪦

Love you mom sad miss you rest in peace amen 😢😢❤❤

You're not human if this song doesn't make you tear up

I wound up in the gay side of utube again.. this is the music my brother listens to after getting girlfriend xD

2024

Still listening

This is my first time listening to her and this is beautiful ❤

Memories

I love you so bad my moon ❤😢

n. o. s. t. a. l. g. i. a.

It's 06/05/24 💔

😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

노래 넘넘 좋아요 ❤️❤ 24년 5월5일 일

They said "you're being cold" who taugt to be? They said "spend sometimes with us, what chill you get by bieng alone?" where have you been while my door was locked and I was screaming? They said "you should change yourself" now how much I have to change?

Parents never stops loving their kids Actually age matters alot we can't make a perfect commiunication we can't share our thoughts and parents always push us to do or to be the way we can't evend breath properly, then a misunderstanding starts, some of us always tries to be the way they want to see us and can't live their life and some of us aways get failed to be that person and we also can't live our life properly. Yes we are deppressed, The maturity is when you can understand everything but you are hopeless. Even I'm so clueless it's really too hard we can't blame parents and even can't accept everything..,,,

I’m can’t express my feelings how depressed am listening this song I can’t stop myself crying 😭😫🫠

My mom passed away last year and this year has been a monsoon of emotion. I’m so tired of starting my statements with, “This is the first (insert holiday”) without mom.” There’s no getting used to to it. She had dementia and I was her primary caregiver and I missed out on a lot of things socially and a lot of my friends saying it sucks that you have to take care of your mom like that.” I told them, “I don’t Have to take care of her, I GET to take care of her.” People nowadays take their parents for granted, life is too short. So take a few seconds and hug their necks and tell them they’re loved by us. Ok stereotypical rant over thanks for reading.