Hope you learn something new today! We also made a video on Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD): ukposts.info/have/v-deo/l12Zraqggm6jq2w.html​ P.S Disclaimer : This video is made for informational purpose and not intended to diagnosis anyone.

The worst part about having OCD is doubting your own memories, If i check the door, the second I turn my back away from it, my mind goes : "Are you sure that you checked the door though? What if you didn't and your house get invaded?"

i have ocd. wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. if you have ocd you are not alone trust me!! you will get through this

Society should definitely have more of a conversation around intrusive thoughts. From age 18-21 I was constantly worried that I was turning into a pedophile and a serial killer. I wanted to KMS to keep other people safe from me. Then I found out about OCD intrusive thoughts and realized that I was sick, not a monster. I confided in my psychiatrist and she prescribed me Duloxetine and it’s made things far more manageable. I rarely have those intrusive thoughts unless I forget to take my medication. It also helped to realize that the fact that I was actually worried about the thoughts meant I didn’t want to act on them. An actual pedo or serial killer would lack the empathy for others required to feel bad about it. They would relish the thoughts, not feel queasy and guilty. If you’re in the same boat, please get on medication. What’s in your head doesn’t define you, your actions do.

I currently am going through my fifth OCD depressive episode. I was admitted into a mental hospital twice in the last month. I legitimately have nearly every type of OCD that was mentioned in this video. I have had (and still have a few of these) Pedophilia OCD, Racism OCD, Incest OCD, Contamination OCD, Ritualistic OCD, Harm OCD, False Memory OCD and more. The Racism OCD is EXTREMELY distressing to me. In fact, the distress is constant. My whole life I’ve been taught to be kind to all people, regardless of the color of their skin, their ethnicity, their culture, their sexuality, their age, their ability to do certain things, etc. So when I get these disgusting racist intrusive thoughts, I constantly am saying “IS THIS TRUE? DO I BELIEVE THIS?” What’s worse is that I avoid POC (mainly black people) because I’m so scared that just by being near them I will be hurting them in some illogical way that my OCD has created or I’ll have a disgusting intrusive thought about them that’s the opposite of how I typically feel. Then what’s worse is that when I avoid them to keep them safe or so that I can’t have the intrusive thoughts, my brain is like “You’re avoiding them because you’re racist and you don’t like them.” So then I get triggered by that and it’s just this vicious, debilitating cycle that makes me question myself. I’m absolutely terrified I’m never going to see black people the way I used to, without feeling fear and anxiety that convinces me I’m racist even though I NEVER want to be something so disgusting like a racist. The very thought of racism disgusts me so much that when my OCD is convincing me I’m a horrible person, I get cold sweats, shake, hyperventilate, cry, etc. Update 9/30/2022: What’s especially painful is that my OCD has gotten worse and rather than just getting intrusive thoughts about black people, it’s now ALL POC. The last three days have been hell for me. I’m so disgusted with myself and so confused. 😭 UPDATE 10/4/2020: Racism OCD is hell on Earth. These last eight months have been hell on Earth. My values used to be so incredibly clear for me, but now they feel nullified and dull. I still act kind to everyone I see and talk to but I have such intense guilt for the intrusive thoughts and feelings I receive. :( I’ll see POC in media, on TV, in books, etc. and every time I do I feel so much shame and guilt. What I absolutely hate most about my OCD is the fact it has linked dread, fear, doubt, guilt, shame, etc. all to POC. I know in my heart that it is NOT POC who cause my OCD, it’s just that my OCD sees them as a trigger to so much pain and anxiety that as a defense mechanism I automatically feel a bit of resentment naturally now. I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself because of that. I hope to God these horrible, fucking DISGUSTING thoughts in my head will go away someday. I just want my old life and self back. I feel like my values are gone and that I am now racist and trapped in this way of thinking forever due to irreversible trauma. :,( With the contamination OCD, I constantly feel like there is something on my hands that can cause someone to be raped or killed just by touching them or touching whatever I touched with that hand. I constantly wash my hands due to this. I constantly get thoughts that if I don’t clean my hands or wipe them off in a safe place, I purposely am trying to get something from me inside my mother or other members of my family, hence the Incest OCD. It is debilitating. I legitimately burst into tears and can’t even move when I have thoughts like that because I care for my family so much in a completely normal healthy way. OCD takes my familial love for them and convinces me that instead of normal love for my family, it’s sexual attraction. It makes me sick, and has legitimately made me hunch over and gag. I try to check my past memories and think “Did I wipe my hand on the table to have a “part” of me inside of my mother?” Or “When I hugged that baby when I was younger, did I molest it in anyway?” It’s horrible, terrifying, and absolutely horrific. When I try to compete with my compulsions, my OCD automatically tells me that I’m doing this horrible thing on purpose. That’s what’s so hard about fighting OCD. It’ll convince you that if you don’t do your compulsions, you’re trying to hurt someone indirectly. The Pedophilia OCD was at it’s worst when I was 15 (I’m 19 now). Like the others, it was debilitating. I couldn’t sit down anywhere in fear that a kid had sat in that place, and by sitting there something from them would crawl inside of me through my *censored* and something from a kid would be inside me, and therefore I’d be having sex with them, even though of course that’s absolutely illogical and that’s legitimately not how sex works. That’s what’s so hard about OCD. Deep down you know the compulsions are absolutely illogical but they feel so unbelievably real. I would avoid children like the plague. The way I got over this type of OCD (for the most part) was going to an Intensive Outpatient Program that specialized in Exposure Response Prevention Therapy. I’m now getting treatment again. It’s so incredibly hard. I wouldn’t wish OCD on my worst enemy. I truly believe it is the most painful thing in the world. It takes what you care about most and convinces you that you want to completely corrupt, destroy, rape, harm, etc. them. It hurts so much. I’m praying someday I’ll get better but I may never know. I just hope by writing all of this people who feel like they’re alone will know that they are not. OCD is a monster, but it is possible to beat it. A Very Important Thing to Note: OCD attacks your values. It takes the most important things in a person's life or a person's moral compass and tries to manipulate it and twist it. My whole life the most important thing for me has been being kind to others. I also have wanted to be a teacher since I was seven years old, and family is extremely important to me. Hence, I have Pedophilia, Incest, and Racism OCD. Pure O OCD comes from a place of extreme self hatred and (usually) some type of trauma, so receiving therapy for that may also help. UPDATE 2/26/2022: Alright everyone!! I’m doing so much better. :,) I ended up getting IVIG treatment because of the discovery of me having PANS and it’s helped IMMENSELY. My Racism OCD is quickly fading away, along with the Incest OCD. I was finally able to have a conversation with my brother about my trauma with OCD and was able to apologize for allowing it to hurt our friendship. There are still hard days, but they’re so much rarer now. I’ll keep you all updated but as of right now, Im doing so much better. 🥹❤️

A common line I use to explain my intrusive thoughts in ocd is “imagine if your head never shut up? It just keeps annoying you with the same shitty things over and over again, imagine if this chatty terribly intrusive mind starts to control you and everything in your life, and you feel like you’d give anything for it to just, shut up. That’s ocd for me”

I'm seriously gonna cry, this entire time I thought I was a bad person or crazy, this makes me feel so validated I wanna cry

I have SERIOUS intrusive thoughts OCD. I was diagnosed early 2021. I am glad that this video mentioned it because I feel like people only pay attention to the checking and the symmetry types of OCD. thank you.

It also happens with touching. For example, touching things with both hands, and if you happen to brush your arm you got to do it with your other arm to feel 'right' and not 'unbalanced'. This is my type of OCD and it could be a big distraction to daily activities.

Learning this has made me more sensitive to OCD jokes- though not malicious in nature, it is a reality some people live thru that isn’t a laughing matter.

You forgot one common thing: rituals. And if you don't do them "properly", nothing will go as planned, or something terrible will happen, and you just won't be able to think of anything else.

I’ve had OCD ever since early childhood, I had always thought that I was strange or insane. When I finally discovered what OCD truly meant, I decided to see a doctor and was medically diagnosed. I have many mental illnesses but OCD is the one I despise the most, it’s torturous, my thoughts are constantly flying through my head and it is as if I have an endless list of tasks that have to do every single day. It is like a curse, in which the only escape is sleep.

I was diagnosed with OCD since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting OCD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

I recently got diagnosed with OCD and my therapist said something really beautiful about it. She said that having OCD means that you feel responsible for your own thoughts more than other people and that's not a bad thing we just have to learn how to embrace it

Having undiagnosed OCD is a different kind of mental hell. Just when I was worrying about it today I see this video in my recommendations omfg. I love ya'll, you're not alone.

I am in my 40s and have experienced OCD all my life. I can say that my ocd became less powerful and much less disturbing overtime. Have had a lot of cognitive behavioural therapy. I didn't accept any medication because of all the negative side effects and the chance of becoming addicted to it. What really helped me, is becoming aware that the EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT to these negative, compulsive thoughts, are the root cause of behaving obsessively and doing rituals to ward off bad things happening to us or our dear ones. They are ONLY THOUGHTS that our mind gives importance to and they aren't really happening in real life! It took me a while to accept this fact and that we don't have fully control over a lot of things in our life that causes suffering. The irony is that all those obsessive, compulsive rituals we do to prevent suffering, eventually give us so much more stress, thus constant suffering. Things, good or bad, happen in life, even if our mind tricks us to think we can ward it off. I don't take my ocd thoughts, in the moment they appear, too seriously anymore. By giving too much power to our 'ocd mind' it starts controlling us. My therapist once said:" Oberve your ocd thoughts with logic. Breathe and let them pass. Don't take them too seriously." I made this my mantra and it became a gamechanger for me! You are so much more than your thoughts. Hope you find peace in your mind🙏🏼!

As someone who is diagnosed with OCD. You're one of the best videos that explained OCD. I'm happy people are learning more about it.

So happy that you talked about how there are different types of OCD, and even included different types of intrusive thoughts, I feel less alone now.

"I tHiNk i HaVe oCD, I liKE tO cLeaN!" - Some people

1:11 intrusive thoughts and rumination 2:53 checking 4:53 contamination or mental contamination 5:51 symmetry and orderliness 2:56 among us

I was diagnosed with ADHD and the (as the video says it) “intrusive thoughts type of ocd” a few months back, it sucks because people think that because ADHD is not paying attention and ocd is crazy attention-paying, people think that’s it’s impossible for me to have both. People have such a surface level understanding of these things so thanks for letting people in on information

As someone with diagnosed severe OCD, this is one of the better videos I’ve seen on OCD. There are many many ways OCD manifests but most people think it comes out as “germophobia or perfectionism.” It’s not just repeatedly washing your hands or having a repeated thought three times a day or needing everything neat. For the people who deal with OCD it is constant horrible torture. Please take it easy on your friends and loved ones with OCD.

Also about symmetry: it's not just about symmetry around you. Also symmetry OF you. You need to feel symmetrical and balanced. If someone taps your shoulder, you might feel unbalanced and wrong until they (or you) tap another shoulder. I can't stand the feeling of one wet hand and one dry, for example, so if i take something out of the water, i put another hand in the water, too. I also know a guy who hates the feeling when someone passes by him from the left or right, so he always turns by 90 degrees, so this person would pass by his face.

I rented a book about OCD from the library after researching online and had the biggest “wow, I am not crazy” moment when I realised that other people have the exact same thoughts as I do! After years of doing weird things I finally found the (possible) answer

thank you! I always thought I've been faking my ocd and it's invalid, because a lot of people focus on the checking, symmetry ocd which made me feel like I'm just faking it for attention or something 💀

I dislike when people say they’re OCD because they like orderliness (non actual obsessively OCD) I have to pray 6 sets of 3 prayers before going to sleep because my mind tells me that otherwise my room will be invaded by demons and they will eat me. It’s hard, sending love to all of you my fellow OCD friends

1. intrusive thoughts & ruminations 1:11 2. checking 2:54 3. contamination or mental contanimation 4:53 4. symmetry & orderliness 5:51 I hope I could help! :)

Those of us with OCD cannot prevent intrusive thoughts, but we CAN control how we react to them. My therapist recommended perceiving intrusive thoughts as a train running in circles in your mind. You can’t stop the train, but you CAN decide not to get on the train. Allow the train to run its course, and the obsession will pass. I generally find an obsession lingers for 3 days and leaves, as long as I don’t board the train! Hope that helps someone in this thread! 😊

I’ve been struggling with OCD since I was a tiny kid. I began to notice it soon after I was diagnosed with ADHD. All my life I was told I struggled with just fear issues. But when I was about 10 years old I figured out that I had OCD after realizing it wasn’t normal to wash my hands up to my elbows frequently for minutes on end. I was so preoccupied by my health until I was about 17 and then it got a lot easier somehow, but I still struggled with background symptoms. When I was about 23 (I am 26 now) I had a horrible relapse that developed into other obsessions and it got easier after a couple years without fully going away, but I’ve relapsed hard and am currently amidst another obsession. I teared up watching some of this after finding out the idea of OCD attacking what is important to be true. It’s been a 26 year battle, but I’m finally seeking therapy. Wish me luck. 🤞🏻

They didn't even mention counting. This part drives me crazy. When pumping gas, I like the total cost to be 11.11 or 20.20. I refuse to pump gas from pump 13, etc. I have to take 11 or 12 steps when crossing a street. I can't step on a doorstep or crack when walking or entering somewhere. My shoes in closet cannot touch each other. It's aggravating and a lot of work to keep others from noticing.

OCD is no laughing matter. I’ve had it ever since I was a little boy, and it has tarnished some of my relationships in life. It gets way worse during periods of stress. It does get better and more manageable with time and effort. Stay strong everyone

i’ve been diagnosed with ocd since 6th grade, prozac helped me a lot but it’s still such a struggle. you all are not alone ❤

I don’t really suffer with the symmetry thing so I thought for ages I couldn’t have ocd. But my psychiatrist has diagnosed me recently and it honestly makes sense. I suffer with the other three ocd behaviour things on varying levels. For me I suffer more with morality based obsessions. I am constantly stuck thinking about whether I am good or evil despite the fact that I am a pretty good person I think. I constantly have thoughts like “you’re a monster” and am always needing to ask my family if they love me or think I deserve to live. I know the answer, but I need to hear them say it to make the thoughts go away. Anyways just wanted to say this vid was pretty on point for me. Even if you don’t meet all those types it doesn’t mean you don’t have ocd guys. If you are suffering then see a professional because you deserve to start your journey to work through this.

I can not for the life of me stop myself from going to the bathroom and washing my hands after touching the slightest of dirty things

I was diagnosed with OCD: intrusive thoughts and counting. The intrusive thoughts were really really bad and they made/make me feel ashamed and dirty. Something my therapist told me and has helped me is to acknowledge my intrusive thoughts. He said when I try to ignore or push my thoughts aside I feed into them and make them stronger. However, if I acknowledge them and let them know that I hear them over time they'll slow down or even stop altogether. He gave an example of someone knocking on the door cause they know you're inside and they want to come in. If you just ignore them and don't acknowledge them they're going to continue to knock on the door, possibly even start pounding on the door and/or yelling at you to open the door. However, if you simply acknowledge them and say you don't want any visitors they may not get the point right away, but eventually they leave. This analogy really really helped me and I use it to this day. Sometimes I even say out loud to myself "I hear you" when I start to get them and it really helps me.

3:4 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MENTIONING THIS. im always checking my body after an intrusive thought and sometimes i DO feel something, which makes me feel like a disgusting person. knowing that its out out of my control makes me so happy, thank you

I have OCD I sometimes think about dark scary thoughts that I shouldn’t have but when I do this this makes me feel better and right in my ways

I haven't been clinically diagnosed with OCD but I burst into to tears when I watched this because of how well it describes my mindset. It is something that shows up in the small things but you know what they say, the devil is in the details. It is so much worse than you would think to constantly doubt what you should know. I am 13 and I have been struggling with this for as long as I can remember.

My therapist told me that I may have mild OCD, and it confused the heck outta me. Hearing the first type of OCD clicked, and now I totally understand. It's sad that people only really associate OCD with the last two because of modern media. The others are just as frustrating and debilitating

This channel has been a great comfort to me. Thank you for what you do.

I absolutely LOVE your videos! They just help. Even if you don't relate to a topic, your explanations help to understand these conditions so much better.

My mum doesn't really believe me when I say I should see a therapist, according to these I should...

To everyone who's reading this: you're cool and adorable stay safe 💜

You're an amazing channel! Thank you for helping us understand what people we know and care about are going through❤

I wish I knew this video exists when I was younger - it’s nice to see how many people understand what I was going through. I only wish that I could’ve found this sooner because when I was in the worst period of my OCD, the people around me didn’t know how to deal with it and in some ways made it worse - only leading me to believe that I was the only one dealing with these problems and making me feel like a burden to my friends and family. Now I’m crying just watching this video + reading these comments, seeing all the people who do understand and all the people offering support.

I heavily relate to the first and second ones. Sometimes it can be hard for me to be productive (especially at night, which is sad since I’m a night owl) because I’m constantly worrying about either huge things like nuclear war (yes I worry about that lot), or tiny things, like whether I remembered to put a period at the end of my text to my friend and if they’ll be angry at me.

As a sufferer of ocd, I really appreciate this video. Thank you for educating people on this very misunderstood and misinterpreted mental disorder and for helping someone who may not know they have ocd to get help. :D

Im glad you put out this video for people with OCD to feel seen. I was diagnosed with Anxiety disorder and OCD. Quite conflicting ones. Anxiety fuels my need to be sure about things, while assurance sometimes triggers OCD worse. Im practicing the "maybe" when I ruminate on things. Sometimes it's hard, but I guess we just have to take baby steps and learn to be gracious to ourselves

I have not been diagnosed, and I am not self-diagnosing but this is just my thoughts on the topic. I’ve always guessed that I may have OCD, since I heavily relate to practically everything I’ve read, watched, seen about the disorder. But what seriously took me by surprise with this video was the contamination part. It described me exactly, I’m constantly washing my hands to the point that it’s weird to people around me. It’s an actual issue for me, since I will literally wash my hands after putting down the toaster, or opening/closing the microwave, or literally just touching anything that doesn’t belong to me or that I feel is dirty. For the longest time I seriously thought that was just something stupid that I do, since my friends have made a joke out of it. My mum is always acting like something is wrong with me, and will yell at me saying things like, “do I need to take you to a doctor?!”. It has seriously affected how I live, and sometimes affects the people around me, which honestly breaks my heart to know. I have considered talking to my mum to actually take me to talk to a therapist or doctor, but I struggle a lot in building courage to do that, even though there’s seriously nothing for me to be embarrassed of. Please reply if you’ve experienced something similar to me, I really need advice 😅

Before covid I got admitted to a mental hospital and started getting diagnosed but never got to finish because insurance cut out This channel is amazing and educates people and helps me to talk to my therapist about how I can relate to the signs and how I feel Thank you

As someone who’s been diagnosed with OCD, it feels really nice to watch this honestly. I relate to the first one a lot! I OBSESS about relationships and love... and it’s really hard not to. I’m always wanting to find a relationship and also used to have a lot of intrusive sexual thoughts... I’m a little better now, but I know everything is still in the back of my head alllll the time! I do have therapy though! Anyways, yeah... OCD is pretty stressful and I feel awful for the people who may have it worse... just know you’re valid if you do! And you will be okay!

Thank you for educating! I have OCD myself. I have really bad intrusive thoughts, including violent, taboo, pedophila, etc. Its terrible, It’s unbelievable how people think that it is perfectionism. It’s not good to have, its extremely painful. I haft to go through day to day situations, talking to my friends and thinking TERRIBLE thoughts. Thank you so much for educating people about this.. they need to learn more about OCD.

As an OCD-haver I literally cannot relax unless things are perfect.

I recently have been diagnosed with OCD, and it honestly clears up a lot of my issues regarding my brain, personality, and how I operate. This video came with perfect timing😌

I have intrusive thoughts about my religious beliefs. I've even went to confession and talked to a priest about it and my poor husband is constantly having to reassure me about where I'm going after I pass away. I'm so glad I found this video because it makes me feel a lot better. I love you all and remember you're not alone and you can get through this!

I was diagnosed with OCD maybe 3 to 4 years ago, I continue to learn and battle it as I get older. My type of OCD that I have are more of the intrusive thoughts, I continue to have them but I always remind myself of the words my therapist and supporters let me know and gives me courage to stay strong as I label them as intrusive thoughts and not something part of me.

Really thankful to you for making us aware of things like this ❤️

As someone with OCD I hate when people just assume it's being clean and organized. My OCD manifests in several ways, but the most severe being emetophobia (an irrational fear or vomiting or vomit). It plagues my mind almost every minute of every day, and going out in public is sometimes unbearable. I have given myself many hard scratch marks or bruises from self-harm that occurred during a panic attack because of this fear. Thank you for bringing so much light to this still misunderstood disorder, you guys are great :)

I hate how people who are meticulous about things go “Oh yeah I’m sooooo OCD!”

I appreciate this video a lot! There are many forms of OCD, but you focused on examples that are very commonly destructive to someone’s wellbeing

THANK YOU! This video helped so much,… I understood so many things about myself that have been so hard to deal with recently.

Your channel actually informs me on many things^^ my mom doesn’t want me to see a therapist since she states that “therapy is only for crazy people” so me and my sister are trying to convince her Also when I heard intrusive thoughts I thought of Thomas sanders Also the Voiceover is super calming ^^

I have mental contamination obsessive-compulsive disorder and it is absolutely insufferable. I feel that this type of OCD is much lesser-known than the others, so thank you so much for covering it in this video and spreading awareness.

I really like that this channel has blown up. You're doing good and important work.

I originally clicked because of the artwork, but was pleasantly surprised at how accurate the information is. This was insightful and compassionate. You going a very good understanding of the condition. Thanks we need more videos that are this informed

I'm actually scared, but I will see this anyways I don't want to go to a psychologist, help

Ocd is a beast of its own, manifesting in so many ways! And often it goes unnoticed, especially if it's all internal. I have the first two as well as an obsessive nail picking habit and perfectionism. When ocd is thoughts and rumination, it's difficult to address and be aware of. Mindfulness is key. Be kind to yourself. ♡ It will come and go and learning to manage ocd will help keep you from getting sucked into negativity and anxiety.

Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.

Thank you for highlighting OCD in such an accurate and educational way. I got diagnosed 2 years ago I have 3 out of the 4 types mentioned in this video. It's very exhausting at times I get so lost in my mind that I feel trapped in a continuous thought loop. I go through days where I just sleep because I'm so tired. I went to therapy to help manage it. I personally recommend doing this it certainly helped me gain some control. If you have OCD remember your not alone and it doesn't make you a bad person. Take care.

iv had ocd for around 5 years since when i was about 7, recently it’s got worse because my intrusive thoughts have gotten really bad and because of that my anxiety has gone 📈 and my rituals have also gone 📈, it takes up hours of my day doing all of these stupid rituals. ocd is not a joke, thank you for spreading awareness:)

👍Obsession symptoms Fear of contamination or dirt. Doubting and having difficulty tolerating uncertainty. Needing things orderly and symmetrical. Aggressive or horrific thoughts about losing control and harming yourself or others. Unwanted thoughts, including aggression, or sexual or religious subjects.

People diagnosing themselves really need to be careful. Also people that go once to a psychiatrist and immediatelly get a diagnosis should also be careful. There's a lot more to the human mind besides just, hey, I'm like this since I am sick and my mind is not working correctly. Usually anxiety comes from something not being right in your life, figure out what it is besides just treating the symptoms.

One of the best videos that clearly explains about ocd , is types and the reason behind a particular ocd.. looking for more such videos.. thank you

This video felt like a mental hug, and these comments make me feel warm and I honestly wanna cry. I’ve lived with OCD my whole life, never diagnosed but discovered last year that’s what it was while I was trauma processing, and also my mom has dealt with it her whole life. It’s been debilitating. Unexplainable at times. THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT SEXUAL ORIENTATION OCD. That has been a big one for me that’s related to trauma. We need the world to be aware of this. I don’t think the percent of people struggling is as low as it is, I think people just aren’t educated or hide it because of shame. Thank you.

Thank you for representing all of the different sides! For example I have OCD but my room is extremely messy, yes it's completely possible because my mess is "organised" in a way and if I change my mess i think something bad will happen or something I am attached to positively will change ect. I definitely identify with the intrusive thoughts and ruminations aspects of OCD

I have OCD and I hate myself so much for having this. I feel like I'm bad because of my intrusive thoughts.... I feel like I'm not "normal" teenager...... It's giving me so much anxiety like everyday, every minute...... I feel like my life is ruined because of it :'( I feel like I'm never going to be okay again. I feel that I'm the worst....... I can't go to clinic, I don't have money and I don't wanna worried my parents since I came from a not rich family. I can't have a happy life because of OCD. I hate it! I'm sad. I'm scared. and now, I'm currently crying.......

I have OCD and have a few of these, but one thing I'd like to note is fear of contamination can also manifest in the fear of contaminating others. Sometimes I'm afraid to even sit on furniture in other people's houses for fear of contaminating them. OCD can take so many different forms, even beyond whats in this video. Don't forget that when someone who has OCD has symptoms that aren't typical. It doesn't mean their experience is not vald.

Just by watching this I know i have ocd now. I have symptoms to all of the types but the one that hit the most was the last one. It hit so hard that I started crying because I've been looking so long for what was possibly wrong with me, and I think I found it. It just so weird how when you explained it, it was like you were in my head. I'm gonna make an appointment with my doctor tomorrow to just make sure.

I finally convinced my mom to get me a therapist because of my intrusive thoughts! I might not have OCD, but it’s still nice to learn about it when there’s even a minimal chance

Animation of your channel is very soothing,I don’t know why but in some way it makes me feel great

I’ve had OCD since early childhood, but it really ramped up after having my kids. Medication has definitely helped, but hasn’t “cured” me! I wish that I could just enjoy a day off & not have these constant thoughts of “you should be cleaning/organizing” and just relax. Even when I’m in pain from my sciatica, I still can’t relax if things aren’t where or how they should be. 😢

2:59 GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I’m so happy you made this video because OCD is so misunderstood! I was diagnosed with OCD about 10 years ago, and recently when I got bad with it again I actually started to convince myself I didn’t have ocd anymore, and it was actually something else wrong with me because it’s so misunderstood. I literally have OCD and I don’t even understand it myself so this video is actually really helpful and I’m going to show it to my friends and family next time they ask me about it ❤️

I was formally diagnosed with OCD about 5 years ago, and I have to give kudos for explaining OCD in a way that feels true and accurate to the variety of ways it can show itself in people across different types of compulsions. A lot of other informational videos about OCD have felt like they just skim the surface of what it actually feels like to have it. This hit all the nails right on their heads.

Videos like these are so important cause they explain beyond the stereotypes of a disorder. I relate to some of these manifestations of OCD but not to others, cause not all OCDs are the same. And sometimes people don’t understand that.

I've been 95% sure I have OCD for the last 2 years. I even spoke to my mum about it a while back and she mentioned things she'd noticed I'd been doing my whole life that she'd thought could be something like OCD, to the point where we both now think I have it - but of course, I'm not diagnosed, so I can't get any help for it, or even validation or an official label for what I'm probably dealing with. The only part I don't relate to & never have is the whole fear of contamination thing. That's never been an issue for me - like, sometimes I'll worry a little, but it's nothing significant or out of the ordinary - whereas the rituals? The intrusive thoughts? The compulsions? The constant uncertainty and checking things over and over and over? That all massively affects me, daily. The sentence "it's about the feeling" perfectly sums up how it is for me. Nothing is good enough to leave unless it feels "right." Also, does anyone else do that thing where if you accidentally hit your hand on something, you have to hit the other one in the exact same way to balance it out, or else everything just feels kinda messed up for the rest of the day? Or if you step too forcefully and your shoe makes a much louder sound so you have to double-hop on the other foot to fix it? Or is that just me????

The worst part of OCD (at least for me) are the constant intrusive thoughts and the feeling that I have no control over my thoughts. It honestly hurts so much to hear people say “oh everyone has OCD and checks if the door is closed”. Just today an insurance guy told me I couldn’t get some type of insurance because of my OCD and anxiety-disorder and continued saying things like “well my wife probably has OCD as well, she always puts my clothes away” and “oh well that’s surprising that you have OCD, so you wash your hands all the time?”. People think that’s all that OCD is about and use it to make jokes but it minimizes the illness and makes people who are affected by it feel like they’re not taken seriously. Added: You can’t always SEE that someone struggles with their mental health. My doctor once said “you think it’s psychosomatic? What problems do you have? You don’t look like you have a mental illness” and that’s not okay for a doctor to say - for no-one actually. SO you should always be careful what you’re saying to other people because you never know their whole backstory.

This was extremely helpful, thanks!

What a great video. Described my issue surprisingly well

I have to say really, really big thank you for this video. I do have OCD, and I've been dealing with it for several years now (and sadly, I have parts of every single type - it's not as bad as it used to be, so at least that's good), and to be honest, I'm really tired of people being like "oh my god, why don't you just stop, it's not hard", "why are you such a perfectionist, it's pointless", "stop washing your hands" etc. I'm really glad that Psych2Go makes these videos, because it helps me understand myself better, and I'm glad that this video spreads the word about this mental illness specifically - I've been waiting for another video about OCD, because it can be as awful as any other mental illness (some people still think it's just "perfectionism", and that it's easy - it obviously is not). So, again, thank you ❤️

I just wanted to say Thank you for those in the comments, I decided to delete that comments as it was open for anyone. As it's been a year I have noticed that my phobia of sickness has gotten worse so I will be contacting a doctor

Thank you for making this video

Something that’s massively helped me is a psylocibin experience my parents believe I’m just insane so I took matters into my own hands and psylocibin has changed my life for the better.

This video is really good at raising awareness. I've been effectively diagnosed with OCD at the age of 16, but I remember dealing with the disorder's struggles ever since the age of 6 to 7. Because it took a long while to properly identify the illness, it's become really severe and even with the treatments I follow regularly, I'll always live with it. However, I can educate myself and others around me!

i always assumed i had OCD and that it was minor throughout my whole life, but literally every single thing that was talked about in this video lined up with things i do on a daily basis but this video also gave me some peace of mind. it lets me know that i’m not crazy or paranoid but rather it confirmed my suspicions and i need to find a way to cope with this truth.

Thank you for the compliation!

I love your channel , been watching a long time. I love the educational videos

I have ADHD but I relate to having anxiety about worrying if I actually did something or not. For example, I might not be able to remember if I took my medication today or if I'm remembering yesterday. Or I might not be able to tell if I did a chore or simply thought of doing a chore. I always feel like I'm forgetting something. The difference is that if I point my attention elsewhere I will forget about the thing and it disappears completely, where as someone with OCD wouldn't be able to stop thinking if it. I'm just left with a lingering feeling of anxiety that I try to soothe with self comforting as skills.

Symmetry hit hard when you talked about the feeling of it. It’s not often, but when I organize what I’m doing to stay focused, I always have to put everything back the the exact right spot or else I will get distracted by it. Whenever I’m walking I have to go line up my feet with whatever object I can see, sometimes multiple, and it has to feel like both feet walk along the object symmetrically. I focus on this while walking so I constantly miss things I should notice and constantly get comments or questions about the way I walk.

Thank you so much for making this video!!! So many people don't understand OCD and that there's different kinds. As someone who struggles with severe harm OCD I get really frustrated when people think of OCD as a cute and quirky cleaning disorder. UGH!!!