"This video was made by a fan, for the fans. Hi! I’m Beatriz Santamaria Pinha, the director of That’s On Me, and the one who was chosen to proudly represent Brazil.
When I first listened to this song, it hurt (almost as badly as stepping on a Lego). Every lyric reminded me: I don’t know what I’m doing with my life! I had just quit my college math major. I didn’t graduate. I definitely didn’t have a plan!
So when I was creating this video, I knew my character had to be feeling the same way. His life has changed course, and he’s trying to find who he is now. Tie-dye, flower arrangements, baking, and… you’ll have to watch the video to find out.
And while I had focused on crafting a meaningful narrative, I knew there was still one thing missing: the easter eggs! You might have noticed a few of them: like the infomercials taken straight from the promotion for Out of Variations, or the Lego house, which was featured in… you guessed it, Lego House! Even the actor, Skip, is sort of an easter egg: he was previously featured in Overpass Graffiti." - Beatriz Santamaria Pinha
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Director: Beatriz Santamaria Pinha
Producer: Bia Bauzys
Producer: Karen Sanovicz
Starring as Alger: Skip Howland
Assistant Director: Reece Ragusa
Director of Photography: Nicolle Batista
1st AC: Kathlyn Almeida
Gaffer: Declan Berkeley
Grip: Xian Zhao
Grip: A. Shoaib Khan
Production Designer: Daniela Taouil
Art Assistant: Melanie Englmaier
Practical Effects Supervisor: Liam Blackburn
Costume Designer: Mara Knight
Editor: Spencer Smith
Color: Ryan Berger
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That's On Me Lyrics:
Is this just getting older?
I can’t get away from this rain
I’m starting to think that’s it’s me
I wanna just create things
But the longer it takes I feel drained
Can’t remember a day I’ve been sober
Not in a place to take blame
Any more weight I might break
Tell me do you feel the same
Guess we all go the same way
I’m in a bit of a mess here
Count to 10 and hope to disappear
I never did my homework
Could I have been more than this
Finding a way exist
Within a world with no risk
Forcing a shoe that won’t fit
I spend most the day stoned and
Making excuses for it
Saying it helped to write this
But on the real, I’m tight lipped
Shooting a shot that I’ll miss
And it’s so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me
Now that the weather is colder
Nothing is masking this pain
The summer was here but won’t stay
We are inside like all day
Regretting the things that we say
And it takes a toll yeah
The conversation won’t end
Being a rock for your friends
Cracks on the surface don’t mend
We only break we don’t bend
And you’d think it was so clear
But I can’t see nothing but the fear
I’m feeling so bloated
Thinking a salad won’t do
Might as well open up two
Locking myself in my room
Hoping that this all ends soon
And no one will notice
What I will put myself through
Coz they will hate themselves too
Isn’t it mad what we do
Pretending to win but just lose
And it’s so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me
Too many things on my mind
To process moments of life
There’s some days I lose my drive
Then some can’t control the fire
I’m aware that things take time
But I’m not a patient guy
Maybe if I wait I’ll find
Resemblance of peace of mind
But this is just getting older
Running away from our past
Knowing the calm it won’t last
Being a mouse in this grass
Feeling the snakes behind us
I’m searching for closure
But nothing is healing these scars
When I open up they just laugh
Saying if they had just half
Then nothing would ever be dark
Is it new me, new year?
Or just the same old blue sphere
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
I know that it will be alright
If it’s not, then we’re fucked aren’t we?
I can’t help myself but cry
Every time that I realise
Maybe I’ll never find my smile
Who’s to blame? Well that’s on me