You gave Koji a wonderful foster home when he most needed a safe place to land. Livestock guardian dogs can be tough that way, they will protect a homestead with their life, but they get out of sorts when they have to leave. What a lovely family you found to adopt him and now you have new friends as well!! I wouldn't sweat the trip - I think it's meant to be just a special trip for you and your grandma.

I don't get it! Why not just have the friends "dog sit" when you go on longer trips? I feel badly for Koji, he may feel just tossed away again. We have a kitty who was passed around to 3 other houses before landing with us his 4th. He refuses so come out when anyone comes around. He doesn't want to be "taken" 😿

Koji is a large guardian breed which means he needs to and wants to guard a home and it’s surroundings. It’s his job and it’s what he is genetically programmed to do. I laughed seeing his paws hang over the steps as they will usually dig a hole and hang their paws in it while they lay on the ground. I’m a Maremma Mum so I fully understand your thought process. You have made a fantastic decision for him even though your heart is breaking. I’m sending you big hugs and letting you know that you’re going to be ok and so is Koji. From Jodie in Melbourne Australia. ❤️💐

My heart broke for him. I hope those people are a good fit for him and his forever home.

When you took him in I thought you were just going to get into trouble, He is big and old and with your life's ideas I immediately saw you would get into trouble, You really should have thought before you saved him and gave rico a friend, Because she will be a big loser in this too, And 2 months is enough for Kogi to have attached himself to you and now has to go back in and find peace with other people and dogs, he will get stressed and definitely have a hard time, A dog have feelings and don't believe we always know what is best. You have to think that children in the future will also put many restrictions on you throughout life. Especially when they have to go to school and have friends, You can't do everything you want all the time, It's responsibility and obligation. Felt very sad for Kogi and Rico. Hope this will be a lesson for you and not just decide such totally responsible matters overnight, but review the pros and cons. And you shouldn't visit him for the time being, it will make him confused, He needs to know you are now gone and only come to visit, Yes, life requires a lot and remember we choose how much responsibility we want to take on, You can't play with living creatures according to what pleases one in the moment and just throw it away as garbage. After all he got a home and not a cage in a shelter, God bless Kogi,🙏❤

Don't go and visit him. It will just confuse him and Koji. Haven't you considered getting a house sitter to stay with him when you go on your long trips or even let him stay with the two girls you've placed him with? That way, they have quality time with him and he gets to come back to his home from a nice vacation and will be glad to see you. Think on it.

Well I'm bummed out.

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He's such a blessing & a sweet doggie! Aww😢💙

Hi my friend I worked with all kinds of dogs from what I seen he was listening to you word for word. He know he was going to another home 🏡. And me to I cry easily. 😢just please remember he will love his new home. I have been where you r at .lots .I love animals ❤️ you have a beautiful heart❤️ my friend. Beautiful video 👌👍🙏😢you r my star .

You need to understand that this is going to be very hard for your girl Rio she's not going to understand and I've been in rescue for very very many years and you should not go over there and two days and see him you need to give him time to understand that he's living where he's living and yes new mama's so you need to rethink that and give him some space for a little bit and then and sometime you can go and visit him but you need to give him some time to understand that you're not Mama anymore it will just confuse him

It's really good to take care of yourself and be honest with yourself about what that looks like. It always winds up better for everyone involved even if not everyone sees it that way at the onset. Keep doing what's right for you. ❤

You should keep him and forget about Alaska

You need to give him more of a chance adopting a dog is really hard on them. There is a saying that you don;t get the dog you want you get the dogs you need.

Celebrate the time with your grandma! They’ll be a next time for a group. As someone who recently had to let go of my favorite person in the world, who is also my grandmother, that time is so precious. This video is so genuine and beautiful, while also heartbreaking ❤️‍🩹 it looked like Koji is in a great home! Much love to you Alyssa

Wow, for Me, I could Never Give up My Beautiful Lady. I Guess I'm more of the Accommodating for her kind...if I had to leaver her with someone else temporarily to do my trips I would.. But That's just me...Other wise, Too Much Thinking...I Use to be that way Too...but the older I got, it just got Too Exhausting and didn't find true Freedom in that. I found I was too much of a prisoner of my own mind....By getting out of my own head, I found less restriction, less Anxiety, a Real Sense of Freedom...And Developed a Go With The Flow Type of Attitude...I feel So Much More Free And No Restrictions, less Hastle, Smell the Air Every Day Kind Of Freedom, and Just Glad to B Alive, and Experience what Every Day has To Bring, Surprises, or no Surprises. Just Glad, and Appreciate Being here in the Present...Love Watching U Grow, Many Blessings...❤❤❤

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You are such an amazing person thank you for sharing your beautiful live with us. I could see how difficult that was to do. Be strong. We all know you are. ❤

I hope Koji adjusts to a new home. He's such a sweetie

Wow, what a hard moment, a release of emotion. This must have been hard to record, edit & share. Thank you for sharing.

I totally understand letting go and I also know how hard it is. I commend you for making the right and unselfish decision you have made.

good for you. So glad you are taking back control. Social media has a ways of changing people but not for the better. They put on a show and everything is perfect when in reality it is not. You did the right thing by your dog, you loved him enough to put his happiness first. And by putting his happiness first you were able to take back your own life and make it the way you want regardless of what others say. That is power. Congrats, heres to new beginnings

Thank you for sharing your sweet heart. You have to do what was best for him! As adults we have to make hard decisions, and do what was best for our fur babies. You are an amazing young lady, with a heart full of love to share. Keep doing what your heart tells you. Blessings to you!

❤ that was a bit sad 😢,but with love 💕 Alyssa you are a trooper and a beautiful soul. I’m very glad that it’s going to be just you and your grandmother on the the Alaska trip. Take care sweetie and have a wonderful week. 🤗

❤❤ I absolutely love the little slice of heaven you are creating♡♡ be kind to your self and take each day as it comes❤

Really good.. you are honest with yourself and that is so good to see. Letting go can be really painfull but it is the most beautiful thing there is. Good job met Koji, finally i see a real dog owner that only think about the dog and is not selfish... 🧡

Wow, when you were crying, I was too, but he will be happy and you can see him anytime. You and your grandmother will have an awesome trip, spending time in Alaska.

Your wonderful home and land is like a little slice of Heaven !! Your view alone is just magical !! You seem to be finding your inner peace and what a Beautiful thing that can be !! Thanks for sharing your sweet life with us.

This is such a fine heartful video - it's touching me so much. You did the right decision for Koji. And also for the alaska trip with your granni. You are so brave. We have to leave our beloved 2 cats in Bali, coz we are moving back to Europe. Thats very emotional so I can understand you very well Alyssa. Sending you love and appreciation.

Now he has three moms! One thing about dogs…they are so adaptable and their love just grows and grows. ❤

My heart sank to see crying, I felt so bad, you are a wonderful woman, to allow Koji to live his lifestyle, I wish there were more people like you in the world, you are an amazing human, you have the sweetest soul ❤🌹

Animals are a commentment! It's like buying a bunny for Easter but damn the shine wore off!

What you did was beautiful for you, for Koji, and for his new family. Hugs to you 💛

Rewatching this one even though I saw it went it went live. I just wanted to say that knowing when to let go of someone (animal or person) is incredibly important. It can be the hardest thing in the world but the right thing. Sending you love, Lyss!

I'm sorry you had to let him go I had to do the same thing last year with one of mine. It was so hard but I know it was best all of us all the way around. I feel that you will enjoy your trip so much more and grandma and you will make such beautiful memories that you can hold onto as time marches forward. Letting go of things you are comfortable in but needing to move forward is necessary in all our lives you just seem to have a better handle on it than a lot of people or at least you are currently seeking it to improve your journey. As always sending vibes of Blessings and Love for your continued adventures in your journey through this life.

OK now I didn’t plan on bawling my eyes out. Sometimes letting go is the journey to the next step. Thanks for letting go and bringing us along with you❤😂😢 🐕

Good for you ❤ what you did for koji had to be so hard. It’s not easy to let go. But sometimes it’s necessary for the greater good. Keep following your gut and your heart and your mind. Ultimately you DO know what’s best for your life. Don’t let the people with strong opinions and closed minds get to you with their words. You did the right thing, even though it was heartbreaking. That’s admirable ❤❤ you and too will find another buddy. There’s tons of doggos that need the right home for them.

Why get him to get rid of him..I feel bad for the dogs now they are gona miss each orher

I feel your heavy heart .. Giving that baby a better life is to me, as beautiful as giving a child a better place for life! What beautiful beings you gift to someone in this World❤

I agree to an extent but see it from Koji's side , he was just settling in and now you have uprooted him to another family who have 2 dogs and left him alone and somewhat scared. Okay you say you are close to him and as you filmed that episode we could see his eyes, as if knowing in advance what your decision about him was and that was sad to watch.

you still bought him to where he was meant to be, wouldn’t be if it weren’t for you, so proud of your ability to let go n do what’s best for a being that ain’t yourself. inspiring. hard. proud. and i thank you. this is huge.

When you talked about getting Koji's DNA tested in the first video after you got him, you already had a clear idea of what breed he was - Maremma or Great Pyrenee. I believe you researched those breeds. And now that you've all beautifully bonded, you're rehoming the poor guy because - surprise! - he has the temperament of a Maremma or Great Pyrenee. "He just wants to be a porch dog"? No, he's being the good livestock guardian dog you picked out of tens of thousands of shelter dogs that may have been more suitable for your lifestyle, whatever that means. You bought a homestead to renovate that you're not renovating, you invited people on a trip you're not taking, you adopted an abandoned dog only to re-abandon him, and your pretense for not committing, not following through, not taking on responsibilities, not adulting, is this repetitive pseudo-deep, pseudo-philosophical blah about life and love and how everything should only ever be about you and your happiness only.

I'm crying also sorry you are losing your dog , you have a nice quiet place to live, I'm sending you peace and hope my friend

Awesome and yes dad that you found Kogi a new home . I also have been dealing with letting go

I'm sorry that you're heartbroken,it's never easy to let go,but u absolutely made a good choice for him,and it's great that u still get to go see him,I know he will be happy and u did the best thing for him and his life style .also love the cute setup u have going on outside,so chill and awesome vibes,ty for sharing ur life qith us and always keeping it real and raw..❤ have a fantastic week.

You have a big heart and you are doing what's best for koji. Love ya.

You did the right thing , I had to give up my German shorthair Sandy , I miss her , your lucky you get to visit, your a good person God Bless You ❤❤❤❤❤

Don't get it, seems like a great dog, when dogs get old they need love not abandonment, but I am sure his new home will keep him company.

Personally, I could not give up one of my dogs. They are part of the family, it's like giving up one of my kids.

Bless your heart❤😂 what a bitter sweet and big hearted 💔 thing you did here big hugs!

We support your decision and know its for the best hes going to love his new home and your so close you can still go see him!

I, for one, will miss the big guy, but I totally understand and respect your decision. You truly have a big heart and wisdom beyond your years, Lyss. ❤

Hey Lyss, this was a tough one. Kogi has the spirit of an older dog. He seems to be done with the running, rolling and chasing everything that runs through the yard. Like you said, the wanderlust isn’t his thing. That being said, it’s not easy giving up a fuzzy buddy, but I think you did the right thing… and even if you realized the challenge of him was too much for you, you still did the right thing. He’ll be happy on that spectacular porch. Also, don’t let the big Alaska plans discourage you, the fact that your still going with your grand is the most important thing anyway. ~ I really like how you often turn to poetry for answers. There is comfort in hearing emotional sensitivity, knowing you’re not alone. The pain will still happen, but you, like the poet, will get through it okay. ✌🏼❤️

Sometimes I dont under stand what you are talking about. I dont see the struggle ...?

Just watched this gotta do you and what's best for you always. Take your grandma to Alaska. You do not need a bunch of extra people there to ruin your memories on that trip. So you fostered a dog for a spell. You found him a great space to roam and people to love him. We all go through our struggles. Take your time on doing you. There is no rush in figuring out life, I'm still doing it myself. I know it's not in my current situation but one day changes will come as well. Have a wonderful week ahead

I think it’s perfect and even better that it will be just your grandma and you on your Alaska trip! You’ll create cherished memories together. I too had to let dogs go because it was best. It was very very difficult.😢 You did the right thing, for sure. Hugs.❤

will watch. 6h00 pm eastern time on sunday. Always a good place to be

You did good! He will be just fine!😊

You are an amazing soul. Don’t ever feel guilty about being who you are. Absolutely an earth angel. ❤❤god bless you

Your such a beautiful lady with a nobel soul! Live your life to the fullest that you can because one day you'll be looking back on your ( movie ) called life, have no regrets! Life is a bunch of lesson we learn, take the good, forget the bad, and just be happiest person you can be! I hope you and your grandma have a beautiful time in Alaska!

I can’t believe you did that

You’re so sweet, ur not loosing a pet, you’re gaining some new friends with a great excuse to go visit now! As i live in Guam and travel Asia a lot, I bought a fish!. lol; I love the way you open up your heart, so just keep doin’ you and making great thought provoking content….. your neighbor from Guam!

Love the way you deal with thingh! Keep up! Never give up!🤗

I am a dog lover so I totally get where your coming from but like you said you'll get to see him so don't be to sad love your videos.

Please don’t ever stop making your videos 🙏🏻 I can’t tell you how excited I get when I see you have a new one. You’re so vulnerable and genuine and I know you’re audience appreciates it as much as I do 🫶🏻

Hi I cried with you. . I have had to rehome a dog, but I too waited for the right home and ir came. I love getting pics.

I just wonder how Rio feels. He gained a pal and now.... It is good you can still visit.

well i am glad he is going to a good home and hope he will be as happy

I rarely read comments, or comment myself. However, I want to say I know you are hurting. I know life feels difficult right now. I also want to say I honor you for experiencing it in all its rawness. I'm always shocked at judgements from others. Please continue to be you, honor your heart and soul, and as far as other's opinions, they belong to them. Hold yourself in sacredness through this time of healing, always💚

Personal growth rocks! You just scored big time and I'm happy to hear but saddened by your loss.

Being from Kodiak, Alaska is a lot! If you have more folks than just you and your Grandma have them take the videos and the pictures. Your own eyes are the best way to take life in...you know that! Say Hello to your folks, my home state and all that you meet! Safe travels and take it easy...C.J. Deater.

First I want to say thank you for sharing your experiences with us. It takes a lot of courage. I know you and your grandma will have a wonderful time in Alaska. You did what was best for Koji and found him a great home. Yet I only have one concern about your post. Could you please address if the people who paid for reserved spots will they be refunded? I understand you are under a lot of stress and scrutiny. I have faith things will improve. ❤

You’re such a sweet soul, I’m sitting here sobbing with you….but you did the right thing❤

Your home is awesome and the surroundings are beautiful like you❤

I commend you for doing what you know is best. I myself have 2 cats and am in the middle of my bus build. I'm torn between keeping my cat's as I'm not so positive they will be happy., I guess time will tell.. keep peace in that beautiful heart, much love

You did the best thing for him. It’s still hard to let go. I’m hoping to see my cat Coco Puff on the other side. I had to give her away (and by now I know she has passed.) Nice that you can still see him sometimes. Maybe another pup that likes to travel will come your way. Hugs ❤

You did good! I know it hurts but you put his needs first! And you get to visit… he knows you love him very much! ❤

I really feel for you. That would be so hard. Koji looks like he’s getting up there in age. I think you made the right move. I have a 12 year old shihtzu and I can tell ya he has slowed down n wants to be on your lap all the time. Glad you can see him anytime.

I totalled know how it feels, been there, and it does hurt. A good cry is always a good thing, I cried when we left our little dog with my inlaws when we moved to Australia from Zimbabwe. I wish I could give you a hug right now, but just know that many people love you. Take care

I know that hurts…but you have a good heart. And you did right by him.❤

I wish I read more. Because when I listen to your videos it's like I'm reading a book. You are so poetic. I love it!

I admire you for wanting the best for Koji, however Rio has lost her friend. She will be depressed. I've seen this in my dogs when one of them passed away..

You are giving him your best love by letting him have the life he wants and needs. This was an act of selfless kindness and love. God bless you.

Aww.... this video makes me sad and happy all at the same time. Hopefully he will have a good life with his new owners. You rescued him and found him a great permanent home... you did good. I'm going to miss this big lug. Please share with us how he's doing and hopefully you get some videos on your visits. I think you made a good decision to hold off on the group vacation - hopefully you can still do the Alaska trip with your Grandma soon.

OH THAT SOUNDS LIKE A PERFECT FAMILY FOR HIM! AND ALSO YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH HIS LIFE!💖THEIR HEALER,THAT WAS ON YHE BACK OF THE COUCH,IS THE TWIN TO MY CHARLIE !

Where ever you are is where your dogs home is. I’ve had beautiful loyal German Shepherd’s for years. My lifestyle has changed a lot due to the needs of my dogs. if you can’t adjust to what your dog needs it’s best to find people who can do that. Dogs needs also change over the years. I had a GSD rescue who at age six developed degenerative myopathy and I had to care for him, a large dog who slowly became paralyzed. You never know what your dog is going to need from you.

Poor heartbroken Koji. He found family with you and Rio. I'm really disappointed because I know you're a good person but you should never ever consider adopting another dog. It isn't fair to the dog or to Rio, who will also be heartbroken at losing her companion. The worst part is how you made yourself out to be the heartbroken one. I bet Koji cried more than you did. I'm sorry but I just don't understand how "letting go" is a good thing in this instance.

Totally made me cry. ❤

Wow! This was tough to watch. Strength to you new friend.

Alyssa I cried with you it took a person like yourself to do what was right for Koji sad but greatful for knowing such a good person as you are.

You have a beautiful soul. I love it ❤️

I love love love that you're still helping him live his best life! Those were some big stepping stones for you both! Sending all the love! 💞 You did the right thing, and I admire you for keeping it real and sharing 😘

What about your dog she had a friend? She needs a friend too.

Your a beautiful lady inside and out may zGod bless you and yours and keep you safe🙏❤️

I think you made good choices for you, your dog and Grandma. Have a wonderful time with Grandma. 😊

Jeez the other day it was Grandma and now the Dog🥹very sweet, loving video

Oh my! I was crying for you, I had to put my 15 yr old dog down 2 weeks ago. At one point I had to think & love the dog enuf to do it. She was miserable & I was just keeping her alive 😢😢😢

I admire your beautiful soul ❤

Ahh, being a dog lover myself, I can imagine how hard it was for you to part with Koji. (it hurt like hell just to watch) The hurt will subside knowing he will receive plenty of love, and live a happy life. That was such a unselfish decision you had to make Lyss, ultimately was the best one for Koji.

So touching! Thanks for sharing;)