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Lost Dreams

Lost Dreams

8 місяців тому

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The couple faces ups and downs, their love is like a constant challenge. With a fragile smile covering the pain, together they overcome the dark night. The promise and strong will are the motivation for them to never give up. Despite the times when dark clouds obscured them, they still held each other's hands tightly and walked steadily on the long and challenging road.
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@bradleyarnoldd
@bradleyarnoldd 8 місяців тому
Who else put these playlists on when they’re going to sleep
@shaynagraux2524
@shaynagraux2524 8 місяців тому
Me
@CJ_21538
@CJ_21538 8 місяців тому
Me too
@youmakestraykidsstay5036
@youmakestraykidsstay5036 8 місяців тому
Me
@scoredzuess0353
@scoredzuess0353 8 місяців тому
Every night
@lonelykuroo6937
@lonelykuroo6937 7 місяців тому
I feel called out 💀
@rnbwdsh
@rnbwdsh 5 місяців тому
your skin isn't a paper, don't cut it your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it your body isn't a book, don't judge it your life isn't a movie, dont end it you're beautiful the way you are, dont listen to them, your life is amazing
@oliviat1388
@oliviat1388 5 місяців тому
😭❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹😭
@shropshiregirls3324
@shropshiregirls3324 5 місяців тому
Well said. i will pass on this saying, very wise of you.
@GilbertBlytheisinmyfridge
@GilbertBlytheisinmyfridge 5 місяців тому
you da best for commenting this
@dohnjohnflibberschnidt8152
@dohnjohnflibberschnidt8152 5 місяців тому
However... I am a man, best to leave them I am a human, best to fear them I am a vulnerable person, best to ignore them I am a weak individual, best to break them Life is ugly, best not to avoid it but to face it head on, even if you have to go at it alone.
@charliemoon1806
@charliemoon1806 5 місяців тому
Ha, 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@jas.xoxoxo
@jas.xoxoxo 7 місяців тому
To whoever is reading this, I want you to know that you’re incredible, seriously you are. If you’re going through anything right now I’ll be by your side the whole way even if we haven’t met in real life because I care about you. You can’t go through shit on your own love, it slowly kills you and I don’t want to lose such a talented, beautiful, kind, and amazing person. I don’t want you to lose yourself because of a few words that someone has said to you because I’ve been there and you feel absolutely hopeless but love, try your hardest to escape this darkness and look for the light. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be upset but it’s never okay to suffer in silence. Talk to someone love, talk to me, I’m right here. Ending things is not worth it babes I’m so proud of how far you’ve come and how you’ve stayed so strong through everything that’s happened to you. You deserve to feel loved and cared for. This is a safe place angel, I love you more than words can describe. You honestly deserve the world gorgeous you’re more than enough I promise. Don’t beat yourself up over your regrets and past mistakes because everyday is a new day. Don’t let your intrusive thoughts get to you, you are worthy, you are NOT useless, you are NOT ugly, you are NOT fat or too skinny, you are NOT unwanted, you are NOT a problem, you are NOT annoying, you are NOT dumb, I’m so glad that YOU exist and that you are here on the faces of this earth. Don’t give up on life just because you think it is for the best, it’s not trust me. Don’t spend your life wishing you were someone else because YOU, YES YOU are one in a million, you are worth more than any type of currency in this world. I need you to keep going in life and don’t give up, for me, please promise me :). I wish I could hug you right now and tell you that it is going to be okay, I would much rather have you ranting to me for hours than losing you, you’re the most precious person in the world, I need you to believe me. Your feelings, opinions, and thoughts are all valid my angel. Don’t be afraid to use your voice and stand up for yourself. You know you have some great music taste, right? Music helps you get through anything, am I right? You relate to those lyrics, don’t you? That’s okay beautiful, you will always be worth it. Your smile brightens my day instantly love, I hope you know that. You are not a burden, I love you forever. I’m so sorry that no one has noticed that you cry yourself to sleep each night, I’m so sorry that no one hears you, I’m so sorry that you’ve lost yourself because of everyone around you. I hate to see you so hurt and broken, I wish I could take that pain away from you. Take a deep breath, you're doing so well. Drink some water and eat my angel, take care of yourself and your mental health. I want you to know: I love your smile I love your laugh I love your hair I love your eyes I love your nose I love your lips I love your flaws I love your insecurities I love your body the way it is I love your kind heart I love how beautiful you are I love you on your sad days I love you on your happy days I love your scars I love how you care about others so much I love your style I love your voice I love you when you cry I love you when you feel like no one does I love your facial features I love how unique you are I love your music taste I love your personality I love how you’ve kept on fighting I love how brave and strong you are I love how perfect you are I love your humour I love you when you dance I love you when you sing I love you when you feel hopeless I love you when you feel depressed I love you when you like like the whole weight of the world is on your shoulders I love you when you feel happy I love you when you feel sad I love you when you feel like no one cares about you I love your failures I love your accomplishments I love your gratitude I love you when you overthink I love you when you try new things I love you when you feel like your a burden I love you when you feel worthless I love you when you feel alone I love you when you have anxiety I love you when you feel like to can’t talk to anyone about your feelings I love everything you do I love you when life becomes too much for you I love you everyday I love you forever I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you. If you’ve read this whole message I hope you have an amazing rest of your day/night. You deserve everything in this whole entire world, now wipe away those tears and smile for me babes. I love you, please hold on for me and don’t leave this world. You are more than enough love. You can read this message anytime. I genuinely mean every single word in this message. You're amazing. Sending you virtual hugs
@lakimacollins
@lakimacollins 7 місяців тому
I’ve tried talking to people but they always have an attitude with it and been calling my attempts stupid decisions
@jas.xoxoxo
@jas.xoxoxo 7 місяців тому
awh love I hope ur okay
@XEN0Z.
@XEN0Z. 7 місяців тому
You know. I’ve had years of therapy, some during a bit of the trauma and stuff, but it still seems like I can’t get out of the suffering. It’s hard I’ll admit, harder than anything I’ve gone through now that I’m out of that terrible time in my life I can’t emotionally attach myself to anyone, I am bitter at the world but not as much as I think I should be and that’s okay, I feel like the weight of the world threatens to suffocate me at times, I have dreams of my important people dying which isn’t the scary part…it’s the inability to feel hurt, to feel anything at all, and I know for a fact that’s how it would be in the real world too. I know I want to get better with all I have, and I have come so far but it just seems like nothing now makes it better and I take medication because i think they'll heal my pain. but sooner, i realized it only heals symptoms not pain. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, what I’m not doing right, who to ask, where to go, how to respond and it’s killing me. It hurts so bad and I notice I can’t hide it anymore which I hate. I’m zoning out more in conversations, I’ll go blank while just sitting down and feel like I’m slowly sinking into nothing. I WANT to be better. I WANT to be a good son…I just am lost now and can’t see anything that can help. I’ve gone to the gym, hit the books, read, write, hangout, talk with my dogs, I mean I haven’t cried in years going to show I can’t seem to let it out other than writing. I feel like I’m tapped out and I’m not even afraid of dying anymore like I used to be. I have gone to my therapists, psychiatrists, physicians, anything you can think of. I’m so lost and don’t really care if anybody reads this because it’s for me to let it out. I wish with everything fiber of my being to find something to help I really do. I don’t want something to magically fix my problems I want to have something help me find the way, guide me towards what I’m missing, because quite frankly I’m losing gas to keep going. I got to such a good point but for some reason that I can’t find no matter what I try, I stopped getting better. I have stayed in the same place now for so long with no improvement and little to no worsening. I don’t want to become some, thing, that’s just empty because THAT’S what scares me. F*ck this sucks, I hate being like this, I do so much to fix it still. Hell I even started going to church again, I pray, I help out. I need help and there just isn’t a place that has a system put in place strong enough yet TO help. and here i am, sharing my feelings with people on the internet,im not sure if some care or not,which i dont really care if they care,its the fact im sharing the emotions im feeling on the inside with strangers on the internet. Please just, don’t let me become like that. I would rather die than come even remotely close to it.
@jas.xoxoxo
@jas.xoxoxo 7 місяців тому
@@XEN0Z. I just read your whole comment, you're going through a lot right now and I'm so so sorry you don't deserve to feel this way at all. You honestly deserve the world and I hope you find a way to get out of this darkness, you deserve to live not just survive. You've come so far and I'm so proud of you. I wish to the best for the future and I hope you heal.
@QuinteriaTheDragon5083
@QuinteriaTheDragon5083 7 місяців тому
For some odd reason ..I don't think I could do this... What no one knows the answer to is true freedom. Like running through the grass like a free animal or Flying through the clouds like a dragon.
@DaNi_CrAzY280
@DaNi_CrAzY280 3 місяці тому
Who else is to empty they can’t even cry 😭 💔🥺
@maddie9637
@maddie9637 19 днів тому
ME!😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺
@Haileythehedgehog
@Haileythehedgehog 17 днів тому
Me
@ashikurrahmanrifat8695
@ashikurrahmanrifat8695 2 дні тому
😢
@catslover3593
@catslover3593 7 місяців тому
They said the hardest is when you start to forget but no, the hardest is to live with the memories and to be tortured by them. But sometimes it’s just impossible to forget even if we want to.
@zhanelmiller2994
@zhanelmiller2994 7 місяців тому
Как же я тебя понемаю это очень сложно
@CleanVersee
@CleanVersee 7 місяців тому
@@zhanelmiller2994 "Они говорили, что самое трудное - когда начинаешь забывать, но нет, самое трудное - жить с воспоминаниями и мучиться ими. Но иногда просто невозможно забыть, даже если хочется."
@sandu-4
@sandu-4 5 місяців тому
Fr ;]
@dohnjohnflibberschnidt8152
@dohnjohnflibberschnidt8152 5 місяців тому
...and sometimes it's the worst memories that become the best catalysts to better yourself so those memories are never re-created.
@cheto0s_
@cheto0s_ 4 місяці тому
0:00 lovely- Billie Eilish, Khalid 4:00 Where's My Love- SMYL 7:58 somewhere only we know- keane 11:44 Je te laisserai des mots- Patrick Watson 14:57 Falling- Harry Styles 19:49 Attention- Charlie Puth 23:40 We don't talk anymore- Charlie Puth, Selena Gómez 27:59 Story of my life- One Direction 31:07 We don't talk anymore- Charlie Puth, Selena Gómez 34:34 lovely- Billie Eilish, Khalid 38:35 Where's My Love- SMYL 42:32 somewhere only we know- keane 46:18 Je te laisserai des mots- Patrick Watson 49:30 Falling- Harry Styles 54:15 Attention- Charlie Puth 58:16 We don't talk anymore- Charlie Puth, Selena Gómez 1:02:33 Story of my life- One Direction 1:05:42 We don't talk anymore- Charlie Puth, Selena Gómez 1:09:09 I'm lost- Ale Kadr
@Unknown666FFF
@Unknown666FFF 6 місяців тому
😢 anyone else just feel like just giving up and just ending it all
@Titan-us3te
@Titan-us3te 6 місяців тому
There's never a moment I don't think about it. At school, home, on the car drives home, listening to music ........ it never goes away.
@milasantagostino6619
@milasantagostino6619 4 місяці тому
Life is so special and there are so many memories you can make, God put you on this world for a reason, and even when times get tough I promise you can make it through. You’re so much stronger than you think and you deserve so much more than you think. Never give up, don’t let your family down, and especially yourself down. Praying sometimes helps me and going outside and just looking at nature and this beautiful creation God left us. think about the amazing things in life and things that make life so so special. Domt give up, ur so special and there is so much more rhat god has ready for u xoxo
@leanadistelrath5284
@leanadistelrath5284 2 місяці тому
Here...
@Haileythehedgehog
@Haileythehedgehog 17 днів тому
👋
@KingOfsomething773
@KingOfsomething773 14 днів тому
No because I still have things to do
@ChezkaBree110
@ChezkaBree110 6 місяців тому
"Just keep smiling " , im trying to stay as happy as i can so i dont get stressed with the many responsibilities i have now and the expectations my whole school has for me , i hope ill be ok , but rn i can rest my tired body and im glad i still have these alone moments to think and calm down instead of being busy
@isaaccardenas5622
@isaaccardenas5622 7 місяців тому
All I wanted was just a hug
@ryangallagher5853
@ryangallagher5853 6 місяців тому
Here's a hug brother 🤗
@landonklein9099
@landonklein9099 6 місяців тому
Me to
@bestiiejenn
@bestiiejenn 2 місяці тому
I relate to this
@leanadistelrath5284
@leanadistelrath5284 2 місяці тому
,🫂🫂🫂
@PISCES2028
@PISCES2028 6 місяців тому
Hurting someone's feelings is as easy as throwing a rock at the ocean, but do you know how deep that rock goes?
@texxdexx2010
@texxdexx2010 5 місяців тому
Depends how far it’s thrown from shore
@____emily_
@____emily_ 4 місяці тому
i wish people actually understood this, because the ocean is alot deeper than how it looks from the surface.
@LDominique
@LDominique 3 місяці тому
​@@____emily_yes, most people don't realize that
@nourhanadly589
@nourhanadly589 7 місяців тому
0:00 lovely 4:00 where’s my love 7:58 somewhere only we know
@chris_everyway
@chris_everyway 6 місяців тому
Yeah! I agree, but some songs are missing here. For example - Another Love
@user-tq9zy4gi1v
@user-tq9zy4gi1v 11 днів тому
To whoever is reading this I wish you the best in life. Please dont give
@60secondsofyou
@60secondsofyou 7 місяців тому
In this world of hustle when we stop and look back ..we lost a beautiful age ..we lost us
@nathangamer2209
@nathangamer2209 5 місяців тому
Lost me grandad 5 days ago can't stop thinking about him the memories and seeing him before he died, ig these songs take me out of reality. I see him in my dreams when I close my eyes I feel like I can feel his touch but when I wake up back to reality I realise its all just a dreamn
@elenalisok9853
@elenalisok9853 3 місяці тому
feel u I lost my mom almost a year ago the pain is incredible. my mom was my best friend she made me smile when I dindt feel like smiling i just miss her so much it feels like my breath is being cut off.
@animegirl3960
@animegirl3960 7 місяців тому
Where is my sweet childhood 💔😭
@Savanah-ev3gy
@Savanah-ev3gy 6 місяців тому
If u wear headphones literally best affects
@AllissonRockwood
@AllissonRockwood 5 місяців тому
Anyone else truly believe that when you have those cuts on your wrists and the water runs over them or the fabric or long sleeves touching them, isn't that pain kind of relieving?
@lilah_jean-fg1yy
@lilah_jean-fg1yy Місяць тому
for the people who need to vent but cant bc they feel like no one is listening>>> i am here to listen to you!
@gl_endhim
@gl_endhim 4 місяці тому
People listening to this and remembering all the sad times in your life and all of the up and downs.you got it you dieing sounds great to you but it's not everyone you know will be devastated to even people you think that hate your really they would be sad on the inside and they know it and you should know it too. It's ok, be strong. I've lost people closest to me and been in my whole life cheering me on. I've lost. But I'm here today loving my life with friends and family, and you can just push through it. You'll get thought It I know u will😊😊
@LDominique
@LDominique 3 місяці тому
The people who I think hate me won't be sad, why else would they bully me?
@gl_endhim
@gl_endhim 3 місяці тому
@@LDominique Becuase they won’t have anyone to bully
@bigman2165
@bigman2165 20 днів тому
I've seen, heard, and been through lots of shit but there's just some things that can't be fixed and by damaging yourself will only make it worse for yourself and the people around You. I'll admit I've done some damage to myself but sometimes you just can't hide it, and that get people mad. So all I've got for you is whatever your going through, won't last. And if it does then you have people you can turn to, even if you don't realize it there are still people out there. So put the blades away and put the lighter out, it's not worth it I'll be checking like every comment this gets because
@user-fc7es1yg5h
@user-fc7es1yg5h 2 місяці тому
i just lost my grandpa 3 hours ago, i had slept the whole day and i think it was because of god, he told me to sleep and let me sleep through his passing. i would have taken it so much harder then i am now. the playlist itself is aimed at couples, but it hit hard for me. looking back on the memories i have with my grandpa for the 13 years of my life, ive watched 5 people leave my life and it hurts so much. i try and put it as when you die you get enternal happiness and the heaven gates, just like god said, but how can they be happy without the people on earth? i never understand things and ive been so stressed lately, im scared and its valentines day, we lost him on the day i was going to go on a date with my boyfriend, who probably thinks im mad at him. i was asleep all day and his mother said something to me earlier that may have put something in his head that i was going to leave. I dont know how im going to tell him what happened. but my point is for everyone reading this, its hard to lose someone no matter who it is, but that doesnt mean give everything up, try and look bright for everyone else, dont let it bother you. it happens to everyone, you'll join them on your own time, i promise my loves.
@ashlynoman1496
@ashlynoman1496 2 місяці тому
Oh sweetheart, I’m sorry you lost your grandpa I know how it feels. I lost both of my grandpas in just a few months and I really miss them. I think about them and then I’m like oh I wanna do this with them! But then I remember that they’re gone and I’ll never see them again on earth. I’m glad to hear you’re still going and don’t stop. It’s never worth it to just stop living and I’m glad you’ve realized this! I hope you have a year that gets better as it goes and you learn how to work with the feeling of those who left. I love you and you’re amazing ❤️❤️❤️ and happy Valentine’s Day! And here’s a virtual hug 🤗
@KamilaMed_7
@KamilaMed_7 2 місяці тому
I’m so sorry you have to go through that,and I can’t imagine what you might be feeling and how much that hurts especially as a 13 year old,I’m 14 and the only thing I’ve ever lost before was a dog and that hurt me a lot.. can’t imagine how hard it would be to lose family or anyone close to you.. not counting mentally. Mentally I’ve lost a lot of friends including my best friend. But what I do know is that God has a plan and comforts us whenever we need it. God bless you and I’m very glad that you are so strong and keep going. ❤❤
@iixoemmq
@iixoemmq 5 місяців тому
it hurts so bad when the only person i want a hug from is the one who hurt me so bad to make me physically sick
@MasonKendall-zl2vx
@MasonKendall-zl2vx 2 місяці тому
me to
@King-th6en
@King-th6en 4 місяці тому
Anyone who reads as comment just remember this be confident become a monster and you won't ever feel depression again❤❤❤❤❤
@curious_cloudy
@curious_cloudy 7 місяців тому
A very underrated playlist ♡
@LwkyDead
@LwkyDead Місяць тому
If you're reading this?.. let's talk. I know you're tired..
@ebboplayer
@ebboplayer 25 днів тому
How are u
@ebboplayer
@ebboplayer 25 днів тому
How was your day
@maddie9637
@maddie9637 19 днів тому
I wanna talk🥺
@LwkyDead
@LwkyDead 19 днів тому
@@ebboplayer I'm content, how are you?
@LwkyDead
@LwkyDead 19 днів тому
@@maddie9637 How's it going?
@yornsreykeo8568
@yornsreykeo8568 Місяць тому
I really need this kind of playlists before go to sleep
@laibakhan4639
@laibakhan4639 6 місяців тому
I guess only my pillow is my life long real partner at least wipes all my tears without ever complaining 🙂
@sandu-4
@sandu-4 5 місяців тому
Even pillow do ...
@Burdenofknowing-yj6qe
@Burdenofknowing-yj6qe 5 місяців тому
Is there anyone else just frustrated all the time, who has to sleep in their floor because discomfort is an escape sometimes, who has to create a new account to hide your identity because if anyone you know discovers what you feel you will be judged and rejected. Life just keeps getting tougher, the fact that almost all of us are younger than 30 and feel this ominous dread of nothingness. When I am awake I want nothing more than to sleep, and when I lay down to rest I can’t sleep because I’m restless. I just wonder sometimes, why am I like this. Than I realize, I’m alone. Maybe not physically alone, but emotionally and mentally I am. Anytime I confide in someone or express my feelings for someone I feel an instant dread within myself. Because I’ve had horrible relationships where people emotionally abused me and used my anxiety and depression against me. And another relationship I was judged because I was depressed and anxious when I can’t help that I’m this way. Many people believe it’s just a plea for attention or the cause of sin. But what about people genetically predisposed? Does anyone else feel shame and guilt for no reason and a fear of being judged. Does anyone else just try to escape by distracting yourself, and does anyone else have their only friend as a therapist. This generation is so strange, we have so many people alone yet still treating each other like trash and wondering why we are the way we are. I’m just so tired. The last girl I was kind to and hugged let me know the next day she actually had a guy she was already talking to. My parents are always gone and so are all my siblings. I regularly don’t see anyone in my day from 2:20 to 10:00. I am to ashamed and afraid to tell people these things and it really is a plea for some sort of attention or love. I just want someone I can hug and live with, yet everyone I’ve tried to, either friend or more than that, have all left me. And it makes me wonder, is it because of who I am. And I think the answer is yes. I just need someone in my life who will take the time to care about me and affectionate, I’m my 17 years of life, I haven’t had that in anyone. I’m at a point where any type of affection makes me feel guilty and ashamed because I’ve always been taught and made fun of being affectionate. Thank you to whoever read this.
@LDominique
@LDominique 3 місяці тому
Don't be ashamed for being affection, I'm sorry that people make you feel that way, I'm sure that someday you'll find the right person and they'll love you so much. I can't believe that they judged you for being depressed and anxious they should help you and be there for you, sometimes you just need a hug, I feel like you need a hug, unfortunately I can't give you an actual hug but I'm giving a virtual hug, things will get better for you. And if you want to talk to someone, I'm here for you
@MEOOWMEW
@MEOOWMEW 7 місяців тому
I want my sweet boy back..
@hannahfowler7044
@hannahfowler7044 7 місяців тому
Me to honey me too:(
@ryangallagher5853
@ryangallagher5853 6 місяців тому
Sorry
@its_me.K.Z
@its_me.K.Z 14 годин тому
I miss him sooooooooo much i really miss him i miss his: 1.hugs 2.smile 3.smell 4.eyes 5.heart 6. presence 7.everything he is the only one who gets me its like a world where its only him and I I miss you N ..I miss you . I really miss him he is my everything but i have been hurt in the past a lot of times how do i know he might be the one ? But this is a differnt feeling i hsve never felt befor ..i really miss him {sorry guys I got in the moment
@-MarissaRose-
@-MarissaRose- 4 місяці тому
I feel so hurt inside and I try to talk to people about it, but I know that they're going through things themselves and I don't want to throw everything in my life down onto their shoulders as another burden that they have to carry. I have memories of being with people that I cared about, but then I lost them. I lost them because they left, or I had to leave, and now I don't get to see them. It hurts so f-ing much when I know that they found a new person to be close with. I know it's jealousy, but that doesn't make it any less painful.
@Bhatonia_Jaat
@Bhatonia_Jaat Місяць тому
In the end it has to be a happy ending like every tale but if it does not feel that way maybe it's not the end someone else is there who care most about you, one day you will meet I trust
@ipiastypastrong9595
@ipiastypastrong9595 5 місяців тому
This song and this coments did so much to me i am feeling better when i listen to sad music and watch comments thanks guys love you all❤
@pvtcheeks6114
@pvtcheeks6114 7 місяців тому
You know. I’ve had years of therapy, some during a bit of the trauma and stuff, but it still seems like I can’t get out of the rut. I’ve tried everything, more therapy, telling those closest to me, and it still eats at me. It’s hard I’ll admit, harder than anything I’ve gone through now that I’m out of that terrible time in my life. I honestly seemed to do better in the chaos, the evil, the sick things that happened. I can’t emotionally attach myself to anyone, I am bitter at the world but not as much as I think I should be and that’s okay, I feel like the weight of the world threatens to suffocate me at times, I cant fall in love with my girlfriend no matter how hard I try even though she is amazing, I have dreams of my important people dying which isn’t the scary part…it’s the inability to feel hurt, to feel anything at all, and I know for a fact that’s how it would be in the real world too. I know I want to get better with all I have, and I have come so far but it just seems like nothing now makes it better and I refuse medication because they don’t fix things only treat symptoms. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, what I’m not doing right, who to ask, where to go, how to respond and it’s killing me. It hurts so bad and I notice I can’t hide it anymore which I hate. I’m zoning out more in conversations, I’ll go blank while just sitting down and feel like I’m slowly sinking into nothing. I WANT to be better. I WANT to be able to be a good dad, husband, son…I just am lost now and can’t see anything that can help. I’ve gone to the gym, hit the books, read, write, hangout, talk with my dogs, I mean I haven’t cried in years going to show I can’t seem to let it out other than writing. I feel like I’m tapped out and I’m not even afraid of dying anymore like I used to be. I have gone to my parents, therapists, psychiatrists, physicians, anything you can think of. I’m so lost and don’t really care if anybody reads this because it’s for me to let it out. I wish with everything fiber of my being to find something to help I really do. I don’t want something to magically fix my problems I want to have something help me find the way, guide me towards what I’m missing, because quite frankly I’m losing gas to keep going. I got to such a good point but for some reason that I can’t find no matter what I try, I stopped getting better. I have stayed in the same place now for so long with no improvement and little to no worsening. I don’t want to become some, thing, that’s just empty because THAT’S what scares me. To think I might one day look at my sister, my little sister I sold my body for to feed, went nights without sleep making sure she wouldn’t get touched and instead be me, the days on end I wouldn’t eat so she could. I would do it all again without question, and I don’t want to see a day I might think I wouldn’t. Fuck this sucks, I hate being like this, I do so much to fix it still. Hell I even started going to church again, I pray, I help out. I need help and there just isn’t a place that has a system put in place strong enough yet TO help. Please just, don’t let me become like that. I would rather die than come even remotely close to it. Please.
@rheatirkey4371
@rheatirkey4371 7 місяців тому
Find jesus . Just once . I did too
@pvtcheeks6114
@pvtcheeks6114 7 місяців тому
@@rheatirkey4371 thanks for the ideas and I have. It’s a big part why I’ve stayed at church. It helped tremendously
@rheatirkey4371
@rheatirkey4371 7 місяців тому
@@pvtcheeks6114 I'm here to talk . I know everyone says that . But talking to strangers help . Sometimes I prefer talking to someone who know nothing about me because there's no judgement .but God bless u . Praying for u and ur girlfriend .
@pvtcheeks6114
@pvtcheeks6114 7 місяців тому
@@rheatirkey4371 Thank you so much and if I ever need to I’ll gladly take you up on that offer. It’s nice to know the world still has some nice people in it out there. 😊 God bless you too and have an amazing day stranger 😁😁!
@Person-yr6td
@Person-yr6td 5 місяців тому
I know this was a month ago, but I hope you're doing better now.
@Sigma_System
@Sigma_System 29 днів тому
Im listening to this to remind myself how much memories i had with random people online games but i had so much fun and moments i want to go back
@lanatalebhawchar7686
@lanatalebhawchar7686 7 місяців тому
I've had depression and suicidal thoughts for a year and have also had SH.. and YES, I talk to friends and family about my feelings and problems, but I just have the feeling that my friends are getting annoyed with me when I ALWAYS tell them tell my feelings... I feel so empty and wrong in this world.. I feel like everyone hates me and I just don't want to have these feelings that I have anymore.. I don't want to be in this horrible world anymore.. 😢❤️‍🩹 I need help and next week is my first appointment with a psychologist but I don't know if she can help me because I have the feeling that I'm being eaten from the inside out... I just can't take it anymore... 😔❤️‍🩹 I thank my friends, family and my pets for always helping me, but I still cry almost every night because I can't do any of this anymore... I just think to myself every day: Why do I still exist? I'm sure I'm just getting on everyone's nerves and I'm a huge mistake in this world...😔❤️‍🩹😢
@ronak155
@ronak155 7 місяців тому
heyy !! u are not a mistake .. even we are strangers but i can tell you. you are kind ,you are sweet , you are amazing ,and most important u are very strong , trust me .. u are so strong and who said strong person dont cry .. its okay to cry .. u are not a burden , u are not annoying .. no one hate u .. who can hate such lovely person .. even anyone do its their loss , they lose such a gem .. And u have to live .. u have to live for completing your dreamss... u have to live for your parents they care u.. u have to live for me .. u have to live for yourself .. dont u want to live your dream life .. its going to be okay .. ik it takes time .. ik now u feel empty but trust me this emptiness will feel with happiness .. it just it take some time ... trust me u are doing so good cuz its hard to cope up with these feeling but u are doing , u are so strong .. just have some patience its going to be okay .. it has to be .. god is their he will help ..trust just him .. trust in yourseld plss Its good u take appointment . im sure its going to help u .. remember if u want to help yourself , then their help will help u .. and remember whenever u wanna to talk , wanna to share what u feel ,, u can tell me .. im here and i like to listen what u share .
@cassidyslade4507
@cassidyslade4507 7 місяців тому
i feel the same way but life is shit u loose people u love and would die for but atleast even tho i dont know who u are i am here if u want to talk and ur first appointment will be wierd but let it out and❤hang in there💜
@lanatalebhawchar7686
@lanatalebhawchar7686 7 місяців тому
Thankst for all the nice comments. But I feel so stupid ... I feel like I'm in the wrong place here... 😪❤️‍🩹
@zainabaliibrahim-4441
@zainabaliibrahim-4441 6 місяців тому
​@@lanatalebhawchar7686 I also feel the same way but remember that I'm here for you , there are many people that are here for you , in every dark story there is a hidden golden light you just need to find and if ever need to talk I'm here , honestly I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for my religion and family , but I'm here and you can tell me anything I'll be your ears even though nobody was there for you , your feelings are temporary, don't leave or else I would fail to protect another pure , kind and beautiful soul . You are beautiful the way you are , inside and out . I'm here for you or anyone who needs an ear . -From a stranger
@davidequagliarelli6267
@davidequagliarelli6267 5 місяців тому
Hi beautiful soul! I have the same feelings as you have and I can understand how it feels, to be a huge mistake in this world. No matter how bad you‘re feeling right now…you‘re not alone. I send you much love and confidence…🙏🏻🍀☀️❤
@imansalem3681
@imansalem3681 3 дні тому
I miss my dad so bad. Even though he did bad things to me and my family, I still need him. Life isn't the same without him and I just realised that. Yes, he hurt me badly and yes, he was an a$$hole sometimes. But i need him in my life, i won't survive without him. And i should talk to my mom about it, but i'm scared. I'm scared that she won't understand it and that she will never let me see him ever again. I miss him, and i really need him right now.
@niceguy888
@niceguy888 26 днів тому
this playlist really helped me get over my darkest time it really helped me believe in myself a lot more/at times I wanted to give up. thakyou so much because of this I am alive today. To me its a sign for GOD💔💔💔❤❤❤❤❤ THANKYOU.
@Gamblingaddicts-qj6ge
@Gamblingaddicts-qj6ge Місяць тому
In deep conversations with sister about life and this music in background 🤩
@HarlequinS1mp
@HarlequinS1mp 8 місяців тому
How is everyone ?? You can vent here
@h0pe906
@h0pe906 8 місяців тому
I'm good how about u XD
@emilyunknown3651
@emilyunknown3651 8 місяців тому
How do I even describe what I’ve gone through. My cat who is my most favorite being in the whole universe was dioagnosed with cancer. I’m numb. I don’t know how to live without him. My best friend who I loved so much is gone. She’s done with me. And yet I can’t move on from her. I am barley eating and it scares me to eat any meal over 100 calories. I cut my legs and now they sting. How can a heart still hurt after its been shredded into a million pieces. The realisation that I have to fight everything alone because no one sticks around long enough to fight with me has made me so indpentdent it’s honestly scary. I can do anything and get through anything by myself. Nothing scares me because 2 years ago I almost committed. And now I have fought and fought to get my life back. Telling no one. Expect strangers on the internet. Taking everything I have to just live. Because there’s good days. And I love the good days. I live for myself. Because why not. I have a lot of trauma from my childhood. Being neglected from the early age of 5 can really fuck with you. I have a sense of abandonment in everyone I meet. I became the thing most parents fear there child becoming. But it was what made me feel alive. Anywhere from boys, to getting high. I want help. But I feel like a burden. I am a burden. My parents didn’t want me. Not who I am. They wanted a little girl to tie ribbons in her hair. I was the child who cut off all that hair so my mom would notice me. Thanks for listening to my rant. There’s a lot more but that’s the stuff on my mind right now
@HarlequinS1mp
@HarlequinS1mp 8 місяців тому
I'm so sorry about your friend....I'm so sorry that your cat have cancer....I'm so sorry about what you are going through you don't deserve any of this....@@emilyunknown3651 I hope you'll be able to find the friends that you deserve, I hope you will be able to do your dream job, I hope you won't try to commit again, I hope everything get better cause that's what you deserve, for everything to get better
@itsnahooo7946
@itsnahooo7946 7 місяців тому
​@@emilyunknown3651ur strong and im proud of you for still being here, dont give up, breathe, one step at a time one day u will get there ❤
@XEN0Z.
@XEN0Z. 7 місяців тому
You know. I’ve had years of therapy, some during a bit of the trauma and stuff, but it still seems like I can’t get out of the suffering. I’ve tried everything, more therapy, telling those closest to me, and it still eats at me. It’s hard I’ll admit, harder than anything I’ve gone through now that I’m out of that terrible time in my life. I honestly seemed to do better in the chaos, the evil, the sick things that happened. I can’t emotionally attach myself to anyone, I am bitter at the world but not as much as I think I should be and that’s okay, I feel like the weight of the world threatens to suffocate me at times, I have dreams of my important people dying which isn’t the scary part…it’s the inability to feel hurt, to feel anything at all, and I know for a fact that’s how it would be in the real world too. I know I want to get better with all I have, and I have come so far but it just seems like nothing now makes it better and I take medication because i think they'll heal my pain. but sooner, i realized it only heals symptoms not pain. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, what I’m not doing right, who to ask, where to go, how to respond and it’s killing me. It hurts so bad and I notice I can’t hide it anymore which I hate. I’m zoning out more in conversations, I’ll go blank while just sitting down and feel like I’m slowly sinking into nothing. I WANT to be better. I WANT to be a good son…I just am lost now and can’t see anything that can help. I’ve gone to the gym, hit the books, read, write, hangout, talk with my dogs, I mean I haven’t cried in years going to show I can’t seem to let it out other than writing. I feel like I’m tapped out and I’m not even afraid of dying anymore like I used to be. I have gone to my therapists, psychiatrists, physicians, anything you can think of. I’m so lost and don’t really care if anybody reads this because it’s for me to let it out. I wish with everything fiber of my being to find something to help I really do. I don’t want something to magically fix my problems I want to have something help me find the way, guide me towards what I’m missing, because quite frankly I’m losing gas to keep going. I got to such a good point but for some reason that I can’t find no matter what I try, I stopped getting better. I have stayed in the same place now for so long with no improvement and little to no worsening. I don’t want to become some, thing, that’s just empty because THAT’S what scares me. F*ck this sucks, I hate being like this, I do so much to fix it still. Hell I even started going to church again, I pray, I help out. I need help and there just isn’t a place that has a system put in place strong enough yet TO help. and here i am, sharing my feelings with people on the internet,im not sure if some care or not,which i dont really care if they care,its the fact im sharing the emotions im feeling on the inside with strangers on the internet. Please just, don’t let me become like that. I would rather die than come even remotely close to it.
@abigail...strangerthingssh5003
@abigail...strangerthingssh5003 8 місяців тому
Anyone ever feel like they do everything wrong and then everything doesn't turn out how you plan
@familiaarceenfants
@familiaarceenfants 25 днів тому
what we think and say its not like what the others think or say abt us : we dont see you in the night , we see you in the day,we see you happy, we dont wanna see you sad,you think your the worst to the people you dont know ,but you are the best for the people you know,just think in positivity dont bing the negativity,people loves you💞
@SiennaVidal
@SiennaVidal 3 місяці тому
Life is a game, school is a game, sports are a game. Don’t let the opponent win, beat the game
@user-jj2ug4ec5s
@user-jj2ug4ec5s 2 місяці тому
I used to have this best friend, not saying names so lets call her Aroura. She was my everything, she pretended she was things she wasn't. But I didn't care? Anyways. One day me and her were talking. It was a cool chat, but. Here the chaos starts! She loved doing tests on me. So she thought it was cool to do one on me that day. She said she was RTCA, and I just didn't support it because of simple reasons. But being the asshole she is! She called my mixed cousin the N word, she called me slurs and curses, and even got my GIRLFRIEND involved because they were bffs. Still have the screenshots of it and I think about them every day. Miss them so much but now I realize how fake they were. (Aroura was faking Autism, ADHD, anger issues, and pretended her mom abused her just to copy me. And if you were wondering their names start with A and J) XOXO stay safe!! -Mira
@Tearsinrain08
@Tearsinrain08 8 днів тому
"If i die, dont come to my grave, dont sit there crying for hours and saying i love you, because that's what i ever wanted to hear when i was alive."
@emilykoppen3515
@emilykoppen3515 5 місяців тому
I loved him more than anything. i miss him everyday and even though he absolutely shattered my heart into a million pieces i hope that he will come back into my life after he worked on himself. I saw him at his lowest and I want to see him at his highest. He has a good soul. He just went through too much shit to love right now. He saved my life and I just wanted to save his. He gave me a reason to fight everyday. He always listened to me when I had no one but him. No one could make me laugh like he did. Kevin I will always wait for you. ich liebe dich du otto
@Rachel-pn1dd
@Rachel-pn1dd 5 місяців тому
so why did you two break up ? you could've just stick together and help one another find happiness in your lives since both of you still love each other
@sandu-4
@sandu-4 5 місяців тому
@emilykoppen3515 He Will definitely come back ;]
@emilykoppen3515
@emilykoppen3515 5 місяців тому
@@Rachel-pn1dd well tbh he treated me like shit. yes, he made me feel good at some point but in the end all he did was lie. he was always insecure about his height and shit so he searched for validation in other girls. i gave him everything i had but he didnt want it. hes in therapy rn and i just hope hes doing better now. i miss him so much even though he absolutely broke me
@joannaphiri1306
@joannaphiri1306 5 місяців тому
​@emilykoppen3515 I feel you on that. But sometimes it could be that you're not meant to be, you taught each other valuable lessons. Not to be negative- I guess what I'm tryna say is be open open to the possibilities of finding someone who is going love you right, someone who has already done the work and is just whole❤ I hope you get loved right one day❤❤
@ilovemustache7547
@ilovemustache7547 5 місяців тому
I miss the past, it would be better if the future didn't exist. I would've loved to stay a kid.
@cameron5555
@cameron5555 4 місяці тому
I moved away from all my friends and when I talk to them they tell me about the event and thing that are happening and then I realize there making memories and I’m not in them
@Bhatonia_Jaat
@Bhatonia_Jaat Місяць тому
it's OK to spend sometime with ourselves
@luisafuetsch1085
@luisafuetsch1085 4 місяці тому
I love this playlist ❤❤❤
@Dexter_Vu
@Dexter_Vu Місяць тому
Some people say in love, don't be pessimistic about difficult think but use it as motivation so that you can be better than yesterday.
@urnaban9528
@urnaban9528 3 місяці тому
such a good playlist
@Lostgirlinalostworld
@Lostgirlinalostworld 7 місяців тому
Life is so hard
@Gabriel-mg5vd
@Gabriel-mg5vd 5 місяців тому
Great job!
@lizbethalvarado801
@lizbethalvarado801 6 місяців тому
absolute silence leads to saddness its the image to death -unknown
@user-ui8uv5rf7s
@user-ui8uv5rf7s 5 місяців тому
Кто нибудь когда нибудь чувствовал себя так одиноко, что хочется умереть?
@AllissonRockwood
@AllissonRockwood 5 місяців тому
All the time
@sadisanimsara7454
@sadisanimsara7454 2 місяці тому
Yes but i live for my parents
@bilegtbilegt3859
@bilegtbilegt3859 8 днів тому
net
@user-px1wv8ky7o
@user-px1wv8ky7o Годину тому
My best friend died last week and my dad died and I have to stay with mom that away hits me in the face and gives me a black eye every time I stay there
@broken_dead0
@broken_dead0 5 місяців тому
She just left me after 5 years i always support her because she were lonely and after i become lonely too her new friends didn't like me so she broke up with me and im totally alone nw .. it really hurts my biggest problem that i still love her
@TalalLekhlifi
@TalalLekhlifi 5 місяців тому
No don't care about her anymore Just do the way she did, you will be fine okay don't be sad okay❤️
@JewishDundee
@JewishDundee 6 місяців тому
one of the steps to finding happiness is changing your surroundings. And well if you are surrounded by s****y people who will use and abuse your kindness, you aren't really taking steps forward. "ouch that heart my heart". Take half a step BACKWARDS, do not collect $200 and if you roll doubles again you go straight to jail, oh and now youre stuck thinking about it for a few days.. all because you landed on someone elses space, and rather then being a good host, they are charging you rent, and now youre in love debt. Love for yourself, most specifically. Each time you open up to someone who isn't making the steps to grow as a person that's another dollar in the debt jar because rather then taking out that dollar and putting it towards yourself, you starved while someone else got seconds.
@Matt2Bigg
@Matt2Bigg Місяць тому
cut so deep tears dont come out they just build deep inside
@DRX818
@DRX818 6 місяців тому
Can anyone please help me out? Im a 16 year old, in a thrid world country. Life became too hard on me lately. My father kicked me out of the house because I "talked back" its just a fucking excuse he used to kick me out of the fucking house. Stepmom was properly the reason why he did that. She gaslighted him. He gave me a day to prepare i stole 400 dollars that i found in his safe and took my phone that my mother gave me before she died and a charger and some spare shorts and tshirts and went on my way. I found this small motel, not to big nor small average small room costs 45 dollars a week which is pretty manageable by me. Getting a job interview tomorrow. Kinda nervous not gonna lie i will be lying if i wasnt crying as am typing this monologue of mine. I hope will get the job in this retail store near the motel. From what i saw when i went and asked a few people tgat worked there its a solid 150ish a month which is pretty good to be honest. Its very cold in the motel room and im literally shivering 🤣 But i hope everything will be okay with the help of god. If anybody read till this point i hope you have amazing parents that loves you ❤❤ and can you give me tips? About what i should do? After i secure this job (Hopefully) what should i do after? That was my question love you all and i hope you guys have an amazing night/day ❤❤❤
@Denisa242
@Denisa242 6 місяців тому
Do you have Instagram??
@ii_xCeltix
@ii_xCeltix 5 місяців тому
I really hope you got that job or even a better one & you’re doing okay …
@sofiacreepypastafan
@sofiacreepypastafan 7 місяців тому
Why is it mostly i get negative memories pop up in my head then positive?
@user-mq7qt6kd8e
@user-mq7qt6kd8e 3 місяці тому
Эти песни успокаивают и улаживают спать ❤
@sandu-4
@sandu-4 5 місяців тому
Just thinking about my crush :]
@Skyiper-yv1sl
@Skyiper-yv1sl 8 місяців тому
Thank you
@jonashaaga2231
@jonashaaga2231 8 місяців тому
Ist good for a boy with two years depression 😞 1:32
@Aneanea
@Aneanea 8 місяців тому
You okay ?❤️
@NtahLah-nr7ib
@NtahLah-nr7ib 21 годину тому
_pain comes to teach you, when it dont teaching, it will leave you_ *_People will not have time for you, because wht? Because they have their own problem tht you dont know how suffering they are .... So get up and make a change, believe on yourself_* _God doesnt give you ability to make you dream come true, believe on yourself and let the rest on God_
@reversing_world
@reversing_world 2 дні тому
I am a man can't cry 😊
@itsmerae
@itsmerae 5 місяців тому
Listening to this song with one person in mind. It's you, Cris Justine Morales. You won't see this anyway.
@nzrya647
@nzrya647 6 днів тому
love is pain 🙂
@1babysis
@1babysis 2 місяці тому
I wish I could go back in time to before it all went wrong when we were pointlessly flirting and joking around before i fell for you before we broke each other's hearts
@lostdreamsslowed
@lostdreamsslowed 2 місяці тому
You will get over it soon
@gogach3576
@gogach3576 4 місяці тому
shiiiiiiiiii shiiii shiiiii very god best cool voice best of best
@user-ep4sk8vc7u
@user-ep4sk8vc7u 12 днів тому
"Yeah, life is shit. For everything it gives you it takes twice as much back. That's how it is kiddo," said the old storyteller to the crying child, blood seeping through his clothes. "But you know what? Tomorrow is another day! No matter what happens, always remember that there must be another day tomorrow. Make sure never to forget that, especially in your darkest days." He slid down the wall. The pavement was surprisingly comfortable. "What about you grandpa?" asked the boy who would be king, "Where's your tomorrow then?" The old man chuckled, attempting to hide the pain of the wound and succeding: "That's the thing boy: you're my tomorrow."
@user-sn5ty4gg8n
@user-sn5ty4gg8n Місяць тому
still freya
@user-zx4tv7nz8v
@user-zx4tv7nz8v 2 місяці тому
Tbh I'm a bit lost n It helps
@user-mq7qt6kd8e
@user-mq7qt6kd8e 3 місяці тому
Странно, вроде живу уже не в городе, но по ночам всё равно шумно бывает, не где самой погулять 😢
@wtf299
@wtf299 4 місяці тому
4:18
@King_jitjoboryetoffical
@King_jitjoboryetoffical 4 місяці тому
Parents say the internet… FYI SOMEPARTS HAVE CUSSING AND INAPPROPRIATE THINGS But not all internet users are bad Can you make a promise for me please take care of yourself even though I can’t take care of myself Remember kiddos or seniors or adults or teens it’s not your fault it’s the ones that you gave up on you for no reason like mine did to me but don’t hurt yourself because of the past because I care even though I don’t know yall but it might hurt to see people you love hurt you or leave you because of ur mistakes… mistakes are normal human things but nobody is perfect u could say that about me I loved my best friend for so long she was so sweet then some bitches told her rumors and she is really easy to manipulate so those people said “He is just a person that will be overwhelmed by anything and very emotional he won’t last long 😂 like why be with a person like that”so I just walked off so when she found out what she heard and saw me walking away she believed that rumor and here I am listen I’m kinda like what the rumors said but not that much but just stay positive and keep ur head up and don’t hurt yourself pls if I couldn’t save myself when I was 10 just let me help yall I’m currently 14 years old but I have a sister who posts on this account I made a video a while back but the thing is it’s not about if you could change the past (I would have tbh) don’t feel like ur better off dead because listen I have a knife every night at exactly 3:18 a.m on my neck I try to push down or decide to slice until I bleed but I think of my siblings (if u have siblings ) and I don’t want them hurt because of what I did or anything think of the moments u felt good but if that doesn’t work I would give you all big hugs if I seen you just look from how you were then protect ur inner child if u want to stay positive but… if the darkest times for me were when I just felt… I was worth nothing (still do) besides the point self love sucks sometimes because of you lost your emotions because of back then you might not have a lot I don’t anymore but still I just want to say this I WOULD PROTECT YALL AND GIVE YALLS HUG IF I COULD I WONT GIVE A FINE FUCK IF U CRY NO MATTER WITH UR GENDER EVEN AS COUNTRY BOY I BELIVE THERE IS TWO GENDERS BUT… YOUR BELIEF IS UR BELIEF ALSO NO MATTER RELIGION OR AGE IF U NEED A HUG JUST RESPOND CR I NEED A HUG I WILL TRY TO RESPOND (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡ (つ≧▽≦)つ they say that no matter what love yourself more than anything I don’t love myself but I’m trying my best to help people first so peace out My misery is not nothing yall need to worry care about ur self even though I don’t put myself first it’s because I’m trying keep the population growing but when I do die I would be happy I managed it to help people just because if I could I would go back to the time about the rumors and grab her before it was to late but I can’t we all wish we could have a better life but we go through this together I would say this untill I’m black and blue in my face I care about everyone else before my self because the truth is you still have a chance meanwhile this upcoming summer I’m going to military camp well done my stupid ass mistakes you would rather be a bad person but help people online and irl but not your self I swear i can help people more than myself I ran into the girl that got manipulated into that rumor she gave me a big fat hug she squeezed me I’m not saying what scared me what it was lol 😂😂 boys you might know she is 5 foot 7 and I’m 2 5 foot 5 bro im short so something was near my face she know what she was doing but besides the point she said sorry now here we are back friends and she started crying seeing the small cuts and bruises that I did to myself so yeah she Been upset for what happen so last week she said thank you for everything I managed to get to her house in time and managed to grab the gun so now we are a lot closer than back then so she been trying to help me but the thing is she said I couldn’t help you then because of how easy I was to get manipulative and we just want yall all know sometimes when someone hurts you sometimes it’s because the we’re convinced and lost and they could comeback Helllo it’s me vanill the person who messed up back then I think if you could help yourself and people u could do anything but love people but some people might comeback like I did if it wouldn’t look for him after his great grandfather passed they really had a great bond then he was not the same I might have lost a lot of respect and friends because I became friends with him again but the thing is I learned that I messed up when we were 12 we known each other since I was a baby and same goes for him me and him when we split as friends when I was 12 I realized he just been hurt to much and I saw him all the way to 8th wearing more jackets and sweat pants because he is covering his scars and he wears dark classes and a mask because he was insecure about his own self and then he ain’t lying about what poked him not it’s not a dic yall dirty minded people lol it’s on the chest but besides is idk why he had to say that lol but like he hadn’t played sports since we split as friends when we were 12 but since I can back he shown more and more but he just needed someone to care for him like back then and I felt like a jerk so accept the friends that want to comeback to be back best friends but listen watch them carefully because they could use u but not me I felt bad and I wanted to die but he saved me and I saved him 1 day ago he tried to h@ng him self but I managed to cut the rope we’re not emo so yeah we just been hurt by our parents our past our own selfs so if u need a hug say do what cr if u want a hug by both say can I get a hug crvanill but we understand if u don’t we all know yalls pain just take care of yourself love you all safety is what we carry us but don’t give up on yourselfs (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡ Ps. Cr and vanill Yeah I know that we are trust somehow managed from bestfriends to former to somewhat friends then bestfriends again then somehow somewhat a couple but we are just really close friends idc if I’m a short and she taller she just wants me to be happy after her dumb mistakes she even agreed with that she said everyone should find a friend u believe deserves a chance but keep a eye on them ps vanill and cr have a great day or night or afternoon or midnight 🥺 u matter all of yall
@natztv2719
@natztv2719 7 місяців тому
im sad
@supravietuitoriblog547
@supravietuitoriblog547 Місяць тому
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@ReyZorrRBLX
@ReyZorrRBLX 4 місяці тому
I have my biggest end of year exam and I'm stressing out crying my fudging balls out... Well let's hope I can do it... Pray man GGs Y'all Goodbye
@MapleMissy-wc2ds
@MapleMissy-wc2ds 3 місяці тому
Hehehehe I’m sneaking this into school hehehehe
@fullandfool
@fullandfool 2 місяці тому
does anyone know where I can find the 4:00 version of where’s my love 😭
@Vision-_III
@Vision-_III 2 місяці тому
Loveing in go back is at hotel closed😢
@L0st_Silv3rr
@L0st_Silv3rr 6 місяців тому
Anyone know the name of the first song? ❤
@nxhhaa
@nxhhaa 6 місяців тому
Lovely-billie ellish
@L0st_Silv3rr
@L0st_Silv3rr 6 місяців тому
@@nxhhaa thanks!
@STONED_GAMER
@STONED_GAMER 6 місяців тому
my bf left me and this just hit different
@azmhzd
@azmhzd 6 місяців тому
Its okay, you'll be okay soon
@STONED_GAMER
@STONED_GAMER 6 місяців тому
i thought he was the one @@azmhzd
@Brushyset
@Brushyset 6 місяців тому
Felt
@azmhzd
@azmhzd 5 місяців тому
@@STONED_GAMER im sorry for that☹️
@user-sn5ty4gg8n
@user-sn5ty4gg8n 2 місяці тому
freya
@SmilingMoss-dl6hn
@SmilingMoss-dl6hn 2 дні тому
منتفر استم از دوست داشتن یا اشتباهی عاشق شدیم یا اصلا ای عشق نیست کاش نمیشناختمت
@Klaramari
@Klaramari Місяць тому
Why am I not beautiful like her?
@Emma0v
@Emma0v 3 місяці тому
I don't know 💔
@ikstrim339
@ikstrim339 Місяць тому
attencion what the remix?
@vidagamer4064
@vidagamer4064 26 днів тому
yo
@user-sn5ty4gg8n
@user-sn5ty4gg8n 28 днів тому
still waiting for freya
@SemKuba78cz_
@SemKuba78cz_ 4 місяці тому
can somebody tell me the 1. song ? ( the first clip song )
@internetluver
@internetluver 4 місяці тому
lovely-billie eilish
@Emmi.0902
@Emmi.0902 3 місяці тому
Anyone here who can give me a hint now to throw up more easily?😅 lt hurts.
@BabyWick351
@BabyWick351 6 місяців тому
2 up
@user-bf6qt2nc5y
@user-bf6qt2nc5y 6 місяців тому
Name song 55:00 🙏 please.
@mara4943
@mara4943 6 місяців тому
Attention, Charlie Puth
@brunapereira4244
@brunapereira4244 3 місяці тому
Saiba q Jesus é o único q pode mudar sua situação, ele quer te acolher como um filho, tirar sua depressão, curar suas feridas sentimentais e traumas, te proteger e te dar muita felicidade aqui na terra ainda❤️, ele fez comigo e com milhares de pessoas ele pode fazer com vc! Basta vc dar lugar, ele vai te fazer sentir amado de novo, Deus te ama tanto q deu seu filho pra morrer por vc, Jesus escolheu morrer por vc do q viver sem vc♥️ isso tudo pra q vc possar ter um lugar de descanso lá no céu onde não a dor nem choro só paz, alegria e felicidade e lá vai pra ser pra sempre, aqui é passageiro por isso não desiste de tudo agora.Ele tem o melhor pra vc mas para q ele faça isso vc tem q colocar ele como prioridade em sua vida, então busque mais ele, ele te aceita assim mesmo como vc está, volte para ele enquanto é tempo pq Jesus está voltando, reconheça o seu pecado e não o faça mais,lute para não fazer de novo pq no fundo vc sabe q o pecado faz mal pra vc, ele é fiel em perdoar, Jesus é o escape e a esperança daqueles q querem basta crer, então foco em Deus pq é dele q vai vim as suas forças, Seja grato pelas coisas e pelas pessoas q vc já tem em sua volta, q as outras coisas ele irá acrescentar :) ele entende a sua dor e por mais difícil q esteja saiba q ele está ai com vc e nunca deixou de ouvir suas orações, ore mais, lê a bíblia, procure pregações aq no UKposts, eu te recomendo curtir e seguir páginas cristãs em cada rede social q tiver, e ouvir um louvor agora :)
@carlpts
@carlpts 13 днів тому
is here anyone who i can talk to? I want someone else to tell my storie to, and let me know, if im completely delulu
@Neversimp
@Neversimp 12 днів тому
tell me ....gonna listen to u
@Louise3901
@Louise3901 12 днів тому
@@Neversimp 🥲
@carlpts
@carlpts 11 днів тому
Hi so here it Goes: (beware it’s shortened and therefore maybe incomplete) So a couple weeks ago I Met this wonderful woman, we were on a trip to the USA together, we were a group of 50 ish people. So as time passes and we’ve talked a little bit she asked me to go and get some breakfast (implying like a café „date“) She ends up texting me that she won’t make it because she overslept.. yeah that broke me a little bit I thought to myself „yeah stuff like that happens every now and then“ So we didn’t end up going on that little „date“. She said she was very sorry and we ended up talking even more than we would before because now we had a conversation starter. The next day I ask her to grab dinner together, we end up in a group of 4 but that was alright because we all knew each other pretty well by then. Next day she asked me to walk around the city (San Francisco) with her. So we get to that one viewing point/platform. Initially we wanted to go up there but she ended up telling me that she’s scared of heights, so again we didn’t get to have a bonding moment together. Next thing I remember is that, she asked me to just walk around together because the other guys we usually went with, were kind of bothering us. So we did, we did sooo much together and she sometimes acted so little, like she asked me to help her order at fucking Taco Bell because she needed help… (think of that whatever you want) Then we met the other guys and decided to go and eat as a whole group, so while we waited to get seated (which took about 15 minutes, since we were a pretty large group) She just asked me to dance, like in the restaurant, of course I said yes and explained to her, some basic things and she very much enjoyed that time, I know by how much she laughed and looked at me. She really did well btw (I’m gold Niveau dancer that’s why I could show her some things) Next day we still do stuff together every activity we had to do together as a whole group, we always did together and always sat next to each other. So as we get closer and closer, the other guys start to notice that we ain’t just friends, but we never accepted that in any way and kept denying it. Next day, she wanted to spent with me as well (btw we are in New York now, because we all took a flight from San Francisco to New York) There she wanted to go alone with me on top of the Empire State Building and of course I said yes to that request. So we did end up on top of the Empire State Building, but there were other guys from our group as well, we’ve never talked to them before so it was fine. Since she is scared of heights, she sent me out there to take photos while she waited for me inside. But she wanted to see the outside as well so she grabbed my arm/hand (it was my arm) and we went outside and I hold her very close to me so she hopefully wasn’t scared that much. After that we went to eat with the other guys and she didn’t order anything even though she was hungry, but she thought it was too much for her, so I gave her most of my food. She trusted me enough at that point to walk through the scariest streets imaginable together without anybody else. (And I was scared of some of that streets, haha) Anyways next day we only spent together and got very close, holding hands, me taking photos of her, us talking very much, us getting food again, me calming her down after sth very stupid happened. We generally got closer than ever that day.. And that was, because it was the last day in the states, the next day was just the flight back home. Anyways, the next morning at breakfast she asked me to go to target with her, which I obviously agreed to. It was a 20 minute walk through queens bridge btw (also known as the 2 most dangerous area in nyc) But that seemed to not matter to her by that point. On our flight back, we sat next to eachother, even though the plane was so empty that we could’ve easily had a whole row of seats each.. she specifically asked me to sit next to her because she wanted my company of sorts.. Back at home we had to take different trains, (we live in the same town but she had another train to catch than me) So we say our goodbyes and left the airport. Not even 30 minutes later she called me because she was scared, because she was alone in her train and didn’t want people to take advantage of the fact that no one was there to protect her, so she called ME and I still don’t know why ME but she did. That’s was the last time we talked to each other. And we didn’t text or do anything like that. We do have a meet up planned for the 10th of may but until then we won’t get to see each other. And if your now thinking „ what’s so bad about that story“ I am 16 She is 21 Yeah so that’s pretty fucked and I don’t know how to handle any of that because I don’t know what the things we did actually meant to her. Also I’ve left out most of the unnecessary part where we just met and it was a little awkward and we didn’t really do much together. Yeah, hopefully you can tell me what you think of all of that, if not that’s fine because I can’t either
@victoriacantu7640
@victoriacantu7640 6 днів тому
⁠@@carlptswell if your feeling uncomfortable with her being older then you me personally I don’t think u should she see her ( not to be mean or nun) if u feel that way I mean bc I’m 15 and I would feel a type a way if that happed to me
@victoriacantu7640
@victoriacantu7640 6 днів тому
@@carlptsdid ur mom let u go without her?
@lizeyy4402
@lizeyy4402 6 місяців тому
why did you add ads you kinda ruined it
@Magic-ge3mt
@Magic-ge3mt 8 місяців тому
Хм
@laniappleyard5670
@laniappleyard5670 3 місяці тому
I was listening to always my love and then an add for kfc came on and they played i love it and my vibe was instantly killed
@eeaster316
@eeaster316 6 місяців тому
boys should mess up your lipstick not your mascara
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