pure o gang. it can be so draining. sucks when you're stressed and it just pops back up

OCD is so much more then organization and constantly washing of hands, people who really went through it, know how dark it gets.

Small suggestion that helped me: call it “the OCD” vs “my OCD” It helped me distance myself from the disorder

The fact that she is talking about a very serious issue that she had to go through in her life and that there are people who are asking her to react to Lisa's dance thing makes me so mad. LIKE SHE WAS BRAVE AND STRONG ENOUGH TO SHARE THIS WITH US AND ALL SOME PEOPLE CAN THINK OF IS LISA'S LILIFILM. Speechless WE LOVE YOU CAMI STAY STRONG AND THINK POSITIVE EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OK LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH

Haven’t watched the video yet, but just wanted to say we appreciate you ❤️

All those asking her to react, please calm down and respect the atmosphere of the video here. Also, shout out to Cami for the wonderful explanation and for staying strong through all of this. More power to you!

Cami I’m 5 mins in and honestly I really appreciate this. I do not have OCD but I have been struggling with mental health issues for so long and particularly this year... it’s good to learn about people’s struggles and it also makes me feel less alone ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for advocating professional diagnosis ❤️ As a psychology student it’s really good for people to know that while the internet is a phenomenal place to do research and find out more about self discovery, it’s imperative to get a professional for a diagnosis. Mental illness can so easily distort your perception of self and might end up giving a false ‘diagnosis’. ❤️ Thank you also for opening up so other can benefit from your experience and be inspired to seek help. 🙂

Thanks for this. I am 27 and have only just realised myself that I have suffered with this for a loooong time. Hope you guys are all doing good. OCD attacks the kindest most empathetic people, that’s why you gets so scared by the thoughts. Remember that your biggest fear is really your biggest strength!

I have had OCD since I was a child, and I only found out last year (same!) Before I really thought I was a crazy person, because my type of OCD is religious, but I was very happy after the diagnosis, and finally understood that I'm not a bad person. Thank you for sharing your story! It helps to know that we are not alone in the world, and that other people also have to deal with the same problems (in different ways).

The driving / hitting a pedestrian thing hit me hard, it's really nice to hear my thoughts validated. I have those thoughts regularly and it's terrifying, thought I know it's so irrational. I've always "known" (don't diagnose yourself) I had OCD but haven't wanted to spend the money for therapy yet. I will soon though! Thank you for making this!

I cried hearing your story of Pure O, because that is exactly how I feel. I know the tools to help me ease my OCD and anxiety but it is very hard to sit with the discomfort especially when it is about harm. The thoughts disgust me and make me cry of fear of ever coming true! I know I have to get help, so it is nice to hear other stories of people thriving and living a better life.

Omg, yes Cami!!! I’ve been missing your mental health videos and mukbangs! So excited to watch 😭☺️

I’m so glad you’re talking about this on UKposts it’s very misunderstood & many people need to learn about it. I was diagnosed at 8 years old but your situation is SO common. Keep learning, getting help, and sharing!

I hear you girl! Thanks for opening up and being vulnerable. It really helps.

Thank you for so much for taking about this! I myself have diagnosed OCD and its so nice to finally hear someone actually talk about it.

SO GLAD TO SEE A VIDEO FROM MY FAVORITE UKpostsR 💕💕💕

this was so so helpful. i've known about mine for years, but still doubt myself constantly. especially with quarantine, like you said, it got so much worse and just out of control. this was the reminder i needed, thank you again. you're so brave for sharing your experience. love you cami!

You are so strong and inspirational Cami!! The pandemic and other stuff hit my mental health pretty strong too, and for the past few months I have been struggling with bad eating patterns (not to a level of a disorder though) and I ended up watching your video about your eating disorder. I really appreciate you being open about all this stuff, your video helped me quite a bit, and to see how you’ve grown and changed is incredibly inspirational!! You seem to have been handed a lot of tough experiences in this life, and how you’ve grown from that is really encouraging, so thank you :)

Cami I just love you! Please know that you are such an inspiration to so many! Thanks for being so honest and for talking about mental health.

Been struggling with OCD too thanks for bringing up awareness on it

Wowow thank you so much for posting this. I've been struggling with OCD for years but this past year it has been almost unbearable and completely taken over my life. When you say you didn't want to be alive anymore to just escape I felt that girl!!! If you haven't read the book Pure by Rose Bretecher, I recommend! Its about the authors experience with Pure O and really helped me feel a bit less alone because, as I'm sure you know, OCD can make you feel so fucking lonely and misunderstood. Stay strong chica

So important and so beautifully made🙏 thank you for lifting this Cami and being so open about it even though it is difficult❤️

Cami I have only watched the first minute of this video but I am already so happy you are talking about this. The exact same thing happened to me. I’ve been dealing with OCD for years and always believed it was just being clean and like you my OCD spiked in 2020 leading me to research and finally be diagnosed (was diagnosed literally 2 days ago). I just wanted to tell you that you’re not alone, and that I and many other people are here to support you! ❤️

thanks for posting this personal stuff Cami, helps a lot of people I think

I’m glad u shared your experience with us, I’m proud of u, u did great and I appreciate your hard work 🥺💗

i remember u struggling so much with driving! and the disassociating that went along with it sometimes. It must feel relieving to understand the root of this anxiety. thanks for always sharing your continued journey with mental health. It really helps me to remember there is no right/wrong in healing

Thank you SO much for being so open and honest

thank you so much for making this video!! I have OCD too and am currently in therapy, but I have difficulty talking with friends and family about it because its hard to explain and the shame obviously comes with it too.. I‘ve been following you on youtube for years and seeing you talking about your experience made me feel so much less alone with it! sending a big hug from switzerland 😘

thank you so much for making this video. hearing other people's experiences with OCD helps you feel less alone. i'm sure this video has, and will continue to help so many people:)

We love you cami 💕 thank you for using your platform for important topics like this 🤗

The little drawing that said “what if I don’t actually love my partner”, I felt that. I have those types of thoughts over and over again until I literally become disgusted of him

Thank you for posting this even thoug it was hard for you!❤

You sound so so so relieved to have put a name on it and i can relate and so wanted to say that i am so happy for you ! Not happy that you've been struggling of course but happy that you're finding help and answers 🤍

thank you so much for informing me and many others, Cami. I had no clue that OCD was this complex!

woah dude! been watching you forever and Ive been struggling with OCD for the past 2 years and went through the same therapy process with NOCD. that little app saved my life and im so grateful that you are brave enough to tell you story and shine a light on OCD. thank you for this

Cami you’re so strong and I just respect your honesty and genuine will to help others. I’m very happy that you found a path to understanding this disorder and regaining control of your life. While I identify with many of the things you described, I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, only depression and anxiety. I also found a great therapist, and have been doing much better, especially since 2021 began. I wish you luck girl, and thank you for staying so humble and true. ❤️✌🏼

I love that you don't just share your experience but you educate us as well. Thank you, love u.

I love you Cami! Thank you for the video, I appreciate you so much and I’ve missed you. I love you so much! 💚

You’re very brave, smart and kind. You cared enough about others to make yourself vulnerable and put yourself out there. That’s hero stuff right there. God bless you. ❤

We really appreciated you and this video girl! You're my bias in all video reactors here :)

thank you for making this!! it really helped me ❤❤❤❤

Okay, but nervous Cami is so cute! 🙈💕 thank you for this honest chat, really inspired me to keep working towards mental wellness!

I came across this video when you posted it at the time but I never fully watched it until now. It was a great video . We love u!!!

I'm studying Psychology in college and I've been feeling umotivated lately and I even thought about dropping BUT this video really inspire me a lot to keep going and I'll definitely read more about OCD now. So thank you Cami ❤

you're so brave to speak out ! love you

i am feeling proud that u took ur tym n talked abt this i hope ur video helps others too

This has really helped me to understand my mum and bff so much! Thank you, Cami, for making this video ❤

Oooohhhh my word!! Every word, every example…just everything! I’ve had Pure O (I hate that name too! lol) that would come and go throughout my entire life. I finally found a therapist 7 years ago and she explained everything to me! I’m so thankful for people sharing their stories. I hate that other people go through this as well, but it’s also comforting to know that I’m not alone. Thank you girl!! ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you! This was a very clear, intelligent, and courageous presentation of an experience with OCD. For example, I found it very valuable to share your experience about the seasons when OCD doesn't show up and it feels like there was never anything wrong, even though it is an illusion and help is still very much needed. I wish you the best and thank you once again.

thank you thank you thank you. this was the wake up call i needed to help me put the pieces together. i’ve been told for YEARS that i have “depression and anxiety with OCD tendencies” and was mainly treated for depression and anxiety, but this made me realize that my OCD is probably the main cause of most of my mental issues and i just didn’t know how to verbalize what was happening in my brain properly to get the right help. so happy that you made the connection and got help, plus were so kind to share your story with all of us 🤍 p.s. i’ve been watching you for so many years now and seeing you grow and thrive is so heartwarming 🥺

Thank you much much for posting this. Every video like this helps. I am sorry to hear you've got it ... I myself have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, with occasional OCD like symptoms, so, can't say I know what you've been through, but I've had a taste, and it sucks, badly! So, sympathy and empathy and hugs to you, from me :) I think a point you made early in the video is just so, so critical ... that OCD and disorders like it represent a difference in degree, not in kind. There are so many disorders out there that have symptoms that are instantly recognizable and relatable to just about everybody. People don't seem to get that there is a key difference between being sad because something sad happened and being depressed for any or no reason at all; key difference between being sick with anxiety about an upcoming presentation vs the long grinding experience that is being sick with anxiety over anything, everything, and nothing, every day all day. People don't seem to understand that these things are called disorders because they take something that is a normal part of the human condition and magnify it into something that becomes difficult or impossible to live with. So. Very, very glad you got diagnosed, very very glad you are getting the treatment you need, and just extraordinarily grateful for you using your platform to educate and raise awareness.

Cami, you are an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing this (probably) very scary video. We love you!

thank you for posting this Cami. I know you will help a lot of people with this.

i love seeing people open up about their ocd and intrusive thoughts because i've struggled with this since the fourth grade. i've been to a lot of therapy and although i'm a lot better now than i used to be, intrusive thoughts are so hard and confusing and often tell me that i'm a piece of shit. so thank you for sharing this part of your life with us, i appreciate it

So happy you have gotten help and are moving forward! I started struggling with OCD at about 9 years old and now I am 25 and finally doing ERP! Excited to finally break out of this dark cloud that has been hanging over me for 16 years!

thanks so much for posting this video!! struggling tonight with relationship ocd and this helped me feel not so alone!! 🤍🤍

Omg this video was an eye opener for me and my situation, THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Bravo!! for putting yourself out there and telling us about what has been happening. It was a very informative topic that I didn't know much about, and somehow can relate to. Impressed that you identified within yourself that something is wrong and have seeked help for it. Thank you for shining a light on OCD.

This video made me so emotional because it brought back so many memories, but thank you for speaking up

thank you for opening up about your experience and shedding light on OCD in such a real, educational, and research based way. I'm constantly cringing at people saying "oh I'm so OCD!" and throwing it around like it's not an actual disorder that people suffer (often silently) with

I just wanna thank you for opening up to this. Tbh i thought ocd was all about obsessive abt cleanliness all this while and so glad i found this video. Thank u cami and hope u hang in there!

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I'm dealing with pureo already 2 years now. Gladly, I'm learning how to manage it. Still a long way to go in my recovery journey, but I do feel understood now. I know how to react on thoughts, what's wrong and what's right. You seem such a nice person and I'm so glad that I found this video, we will definitely be okay, just need a little bit of time to understand what our brains want from us.😄 Wishing you all the best!❤️

thank you for having the courage to share this. if it wasn’t for people like you online i wouldn’t have had the ability to seek a diagnosis for my ADHD 💗

Just found this video after dealing with some OCD issues myself. This made me feel so heard and validated 😭. I feel relief knowing I’m not the only one. Thank you for posting.

the thoughts I had with pure o were so traumatizing and upsetting. There is no way to rationalize with them even though I want it to make sense. It gives me a sense of control knowing what happened, even though I find it hard to trust myself. I don’t know what’s real anymore. Now I almost completely dissociate every day to avoid having to remember what happened. It’s like I was a different person then. I didn’t know how to relate to myself because the OCD was telling me such horrible things. Or if I was doing anything right. Now I am afraid to have any thoughts. My brain is silent a lot of the time from how much I detach myself via dissociation. Just terrified to live in my brain. I never knew what it felt like to feel safe mentally with all the illness. Feels like my memory is shot because I know how powerful my brain can be. I don’t want to turn it back on. I have been living like a robot for 4 years. I know I am smart and sensitive but I know how quickly things can go wrong for me. It sucks

This was a really good and informative video. I don’t know that I ever had OCD but I have experienced a lot of intrusive thoughts and still do. Hearing about the specific thoughts you actually dealt with was helpful as most people won’t talk about that. Thanks for being vulnerable and real.

Oh myyyyy!! I’m now thinking I might have Pure-O.. I think I’m going to figure that out now LOL.. but thank you for sharing.. definitely opens up the doors for more discussions.. and very proud of you for opening up 🤍

Such an important topic!!! So happy to see accurate OCD representation. I had a similar experience with not being diagnosed bc of so much misinformation and stigma

We missed you!! 🥺🥺❤️❤️

I was diagnosed at 17 but I know is been there since I can remember...trauma and other things can really mess you up, it’s so incredibly hard to deal with, I have pureO too, besides other types but the disturbing intrusive thoughts never stop to impress me... I hope it gets better I’m 30 now and with time, therapy, meds (if you actually feel comfortable taking them) you can actually live with the disorder and be functional. But it’s important to be prepared for relapses and anxiety crisis. Never lose hope, you are not alone in this and it’s really nice to know that we are not the only ones. You are really brave Cami, thank you for sharing your experience! Much love from Costa Rica. 🐱

This is such an important video! I remember you talking about your driving anxiety. I’m so glad you’ve found help and opened up since it can be so hard to even admit that we sometimes need help 💛

I feel privileged to have heard your story. Thank you.

im talking with my therapist about a possible ocd diagnosis and i really appreciate videos like these right now thank you

Thankyou for sharing your experience! It can help alot of silent sufferers out there!

Dont worry cami, we always be with you❤️ stay strong girl🥰

I really enjoyed watching all your videos💕💕💕 I hope you're healthy, happy and always blessed✨

I was diagnosed with OCD in 2021 at 25 so I’m doing research and listening to others story’s. You made me feel not alone by sharing yours because we had a similar experience. So thank you for this video. I’ll be making my own to spread awareness & share my story as well. 💖

Just happened across your video and honestly love your vibes. 😊 happy tubing Cami!!

I´m very proud of the internet mental community for making such helpful content and of you for adding to it

Im glad you're doing okay! I miss you Cami!❤❤

Thank you for sharing your experiences so bravely with us!

Thank you for making this video💜

oh man the ''what if'' type is something i experienced 2 years ago..it was litterally the worst.I fucked up myself basically from being a depressed(diagnosed)person doing drugs carelessly and one day it hit me and it just created those obsessions..''what if i am losing my mind?''and the spiral just kept going ...thankfully i seeked help and i'm much better when it comes to obsessions..Bravo for speaking up,it takes a lot of courage..i can only hope healing for you

thank you oh my God!! i've been struggling with Pure O for a while now and i was so terrified, i thought i was going insane. this makes me feel so much better

Thankyou for making this video i am struggling a lot with my mental health , I recently discovered i have maladaptive daydreaming disorder and watching your video made me feel like i am not alone in my journey towards mental health❤️

You're so beautiful, I've suffered from OCD for a long time, seeing this video I could relate in almost every way, I think although it can feel difficult at times to try compassionate detachment toward my thoughts, to try observe and witness my thoughts with compassion than engaging with them, but I completely sympathize cos OCD can feel very distressing and tormenting, but well done for having the courage to make this video well done xx :)

This video is extremely validating. Thank you for making this! Although I haven't been officially diagnosed, I exhibit many behaviors associated with OCD and it's always comforting to hear others' experiences. I also struggle with driving-related OCD, which doesn't pair well with the driving-related PTSD I've acquired over the past few years from accidents. I frequently picture myself getting into horrible crashes, cars rear-ending me, being pulled over and arrested (I've never been pulled over or arrested) or hitting someone while looking the other way. I also have been a nail/cuticle biter since I was a kid, which is used to cope with a wide variety of obsessive thoughts I have, from potentially cheating on my partner (me: I would never... brain: or would I??) to all the responsibilities I have as a freelancer. I could go on but I'll leave it at that. :p My final thought: Healing is possible!

I'm so so glad you did this video it was very relatable and comforting to watch a good youtuber explaining the same things I experience that is not talked upon enough. I love that you talked about the stereotypes too because I've had it since I was 6 but didn't realize until I was 13 even though I'd watch shows with my parents with ppl acting like they had OCD, but it is such an exaggeration and not an accurate representation. I did realize some of the qualities/concepts were the same though. I've struggled with many different subtypes of OCD and the intrusive thoughts are real! I had nightmares growing up about intruders robbing my house and in 6th grade I was the last 1 to leave and the 1st to come back so I felt a huge responsibility in locking every door so we wouldn't get robbed and I constantly had nightmares about it. I also had horrible thoughts when I was around 9 of me being a pedophile and tricking children(even though I was one) and being like that for my little brother which I hated. Then I would have thoughts of me sawing my family and loved ones in half. It's the worst. No one should want OCD and hearing ppl say they have it and explain why they do a certain quirk when it's clearly not OCD really bums me down

This video really helped me, just got diagnosed with OCD and didn't even know till this video mine was part of Pure O - Thank you for making me feel less alone :)

Aww dear Cami, the whole video I was like " I wanna hug you CAMI ☹️💕" ...

This honestly makes me feel so validated in what my OCD is. I constantly have thoughts of violence towards myself and have NEVER been able to drive, bike or do any transport where I have control. That’s only a minuscule part of it, but I related to that aspect of your video so well. I often convince myself I don’t have ocd because I don’t always have physical compulsions, especially lately. I’m always stuck in my own head, desperately trying not to think of these horrible things, but this has made me realise that mental compulsions can take many forms. I often repeat phrases or things in my head that I thought were obsessions, making me think they were just obsessions and not ocd, but actually just doing that could be the compulsion :0

Thank you for bringing this to light!!!!

I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE GRATEFUL FOR A VIDEO THANK U FOR EXPLAINING IT TO EVERYONE it’s so hard to tell people why i have OCD when they only have this stereotype in their head

O! thank u cami for uploading this video. OCD is actually really misconcepted in the world. Now ppl will know what it actually is thanks to u. That y i love ur videos 💖❤

Aw. brave, hugs... glad to hear , it is getting better for taking action...😍

Great description of this!! Thank you! 🌟

I've been wanting to share my own experiences with OCD and treatment for so long but haven't been able to figure out how. You relating your experiences has really helped to give me some direction - thank you!