Literally 50% wont see this but God bless you and stay safe. ✨

This song feels like when I’m up at night like 3am in my room. Pure quiet no one screaming at you, no argument, no one saying anything that will make u feel bad. Just pure quite enjoying the night while everyone around u is sleeping. Listening to this is so calming is just brings me pure happiness

To the person reading this who needs comfort: It's been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don't see yourself the way I see you. Sometimes it's the things in life that make us lose ourselves, and the way you did is so painful and unimaginable. I miss your smile, the way your eyes lit up the whole room just by the sound of your laugh. I miss the way you accepted to look at yourself in the mirror without cursing yourself for your ugliness. I miss the way you didn't see yourself as a failure, because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we're not all perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting sadness can be to you, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it eventually disappears, doesn't it? You don't know what impact you have in this world and it's sad to see that your demons are fighting against you and want to get the better of you. Because you change things, it's something so simple and so small that lights up someone's world, it can be a little smile on your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, even if it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and into your own world, you light up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, that you exist, but I don't want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to wake up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something, to feel every damn second of life in this life. It's heartbreaking that you think you're not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you'll let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart was broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, doesn't it deserve love? Because YOU deserve love, please forgive yourself, it's not your fault the demons want to take control of your beautiful heart. You're not a bad person for walking away from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, someone who listens to you. I listen to you, you can tell me what's wrong. That's it, isn't it? There's something pulling your heartstrings to the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it's heartbreaking to know that I'm behind that screen and can't give you a hug, which is why I'm going to give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You're important. You're worthy. You're loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone who listens to you. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be everything you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happen to you and have a fulfilling life. I care about you so much, I'm writing this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you mean so much to me, because I won't let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you don't have to give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to think back to when you were a kid, you didn't give up when you first tried to swim, you didn't give up when you first tried to walk and fell, you never gave up, you always kept going, so why not now? I know it's tiring, I know you're mentally tired, but don't you deserve good things? Look at your eyes that were full of hope, look at your dreams. Don't let yourself down, you deserve better. We'll both fight, I'll fight for you. I won't let these demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won't let you down :). When you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think of you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there's someone looking back at you, maybe we can't see each other but I feel your presence here with me and that's enough for me, because I'm happy that your heart is beating and that you're still fighting. You're much stronger than you think, you haven't left your place on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even if you don't feel like it, when you don't feel like you belong, build your own house here, put all your love and dreams into it. Think of yourself as a star when you're lonely, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you've made, no matter what past you've had, you're one of the stars shining in the universe because your heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars, you see other stars, maybe they've felt the same as you at some point in their lives, but they light up the universe with each other's presence. You're a star to me, maybe you don't see it yourself but I do, you're beautiful inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that, you make other people feel that too. I hope you'll stay for yourself and not let your story be written by others but by yourself, it's your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of "I hope" because I have hope for you even if you don't have any for yourself, I see hope in you even if you want to give up. That's why I hope you don't see the world in darkness and see it colorful again, I hope to give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a little colorful for today. My favorite color is red, and I hope the next time you see the color red, you'll think of my words. If someone has left you, don't blame yourself, don't think you weren't good enough, don't put yourself down for someone who couldn't see the beauty in you. If you've lost someone, I'm really sorry for that loss, they want you to be happy, I hope you don't feel guilty or regretful because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They're in a good, safe place now. If someone broke your heart, I'm sorry they couldn't see that you're so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone lucky enough to be with you doesn't know how lucky they are :). If you're not accepted at home or in general, I'm sorry you have to deal with someone/something you shouldn't be ashamed of, I accept and support you, I accept you as a human being, no matter your race, religion, nationality, skin color or sexuality. You're safe here with me :). You're not useless, you're not a burden to anyone. You're not a problem, you're human and your feelings are valid. Please don't deprive yourself of food, you deserve to eat and drink, I know it's hard. I know it's hard. It hurts to see you in so much pain :( you deserve so many things, don't let your emotions control you.Don't let them get the best of you. I'm sorry no one notices, I wish / hope I could make your pain go away for today or even for a moment while you read this. If no one told you, I'm so proud of you, you're reading this and it's enough for me to be proud of you because you're here and that's all that matters to me. If it's night time for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good night's sleep. If you're having nightmares, please don't let them fight you. If this is the day for you, don't start it with such sad music, I know it's impossible to have a good day with such a state of mind, but take small steps, start by drinking two cups of water every morning, etc. You'll start to develop small, healthy habits. If it's evening for you, you're probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know that it's normal to feel the way you do. You don't need to be afraid, of course you're overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn't be? But it's important to know that when you're feeling like this, you need to take care of yourself, by taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel comfortable and relaxed. And if you find yourself somewhere in between, I hope you know that you're so strong to breathe despite the pain, I know you'll pull through :) I believe in you. All I want is for you to stay here, I really mean every word I say, even though there's a lot I don't want to say and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become genuine and you won't have to fake it anymore, because I can't say it enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking penny in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your eyes out all you want, but don't let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you're still lonely, I dedicate a song to you as a friend. "Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia "I hope you'll think of me and remember my words, I'll certainly think of you. In case nobody told you and you're not sure of yourself, you're a good person and I'm so glad you're here. I hope it's enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new beginning, let yourself go now. Enough blaming yourself for today, okay? Life for those who couldn't, a smile for those who've forgotten what a real smile is, love as if there were no other, a hug as if it were your last. If you've read all this, until tomorrow my friend. have a good day and many happy years :) I love you so much and I'm so proud of you, I hope you'll remember my words.

Who’s listening April 2024?

in my 27 years, I've been through terrible things. lost my family, lost my wife, became a refugee, addicted to alcohol and drugs. now I live near the ocean and sometimes I remember this song. Life is cruel and unfathomable, but there are beautiful moments in it. don't give up.

My son is 15 and suffers with horrendous anxiety and depression, I listen to this song every night to relax my mind and to give me hope one day it will all get better for him

It's 12:03, just 9 hours before my maths exam, I am feeling a little bit stressed how my exam will go.. I just enjoyed the whole year with my friends, bunked the classes. Now I feel I was going in the wrong way, to the ones who is reading this, just enjoy your life and take care of yourself. Like always my friend, it will be a good day!

My best friend Jessie passed away a few years ago and this song makes me think of all the fun time we had together, it always makes me cry and miss her, but she's somewhere better now. All of you please stay safe and remember you are loved!❤️ (Thank you to everyone who showed their care and support, reading your comments always made my day! Praying for you all!❤)

I miss my Mom so much. As memories can be still sometimes, this song brings them back in motion. The melody makes me burst into tears and smile at the same time, cause it reminds me that she's still there in everything I touch, listen to, create. She will never leave my heart, no matter what. I dedicate this comment to all the people struggling with grief. Don't compare yourself, don't go too hard on yourself. Be proud of yourself, pushing through life with this huge weight on your shoulders. Life is an everlasting rollercoaster, don't get trapped into thinking nothing's going your way. Light's a heartbeat away. Love to all.

recently i had a break up. And i am broken like i have never been. I can't eat, but i try. I put some of your music on my pc, and even if it takes 30 minutes your songs is here like a safe place and helps me to eat and believe in better days. I wish i could give u a hug, because your songs means so much more than a good melody. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, dreamscape.

I'ts been almost a year and I still listen to this music everyday , anytime I need to focus or take a break from the world. Incredible what sound can do and how they effect our soul

When I have really bad anxiety/ panic attacks or I miss him dearly, I listen to this, and it always helps me calm down or sleep. Thank you for this masterpiece❤

The rain hides your tears, but the snow embraces it.

This song feels like accepting the truth and you have to learn to be okay with it.

i hope everyone who sees this doesn't take their loved ones for granted, even if you are seperated, contact them online. i recently lost my dad due to cancer, and i didn't get to experience enough with him, so i hope this motivates you to be a kinder and nicer person, and experience things when you still have them.

I love being alone But I hate being lonely I love making people smile and laugh But I hate being the centre of attention I love night time But I hate the darkness I love to dream big But I hate the thought of failure I love watching the sunrise But I hate waking up I love life. But I hate that it scares the living s**t out of me.

This song brings memories of a distant and nostalgic life I never lived. I feel at peace.

To everyone like me who suffers from bad mental health. I wish you all the love and comfort that this brings myself and you. I can't live without these ambient sounds.

it's okay to cry 👇 the sky does too🌧

Im studying and this music got me an A+ in science THANK YOU SM

Whenever I play this song, I cry over the fact that I try to treat everyone I can as kind as possible and yet... no one still in my life has treated me the same I treated them, still searching for someone I can trust to open up to. Have a good night folks, sweet dreams.

this song gives of a weird feeling it sounds like a song that would play after you have finally gained happiness and successfulness after years of searching for it

Anyone still listening to this in 2024?

I finally found this song today. It takes me back to my childhood, makes me think about when I lost my dad and when my I lost my son to suicide. And how I haven’t lost my sanity it helps ease the pain.

This song makes me think of growing up throughout the years. Time honestly goes by so fast, it’s bittersweet…!

I listened to the whole 1 hour, i wrote a message in a book, drew, and honestly felt better about my night, currently 2 am and I feel nostalgic and calm, don't know what this music did to me, but I feel liberated. I hope you do too. Update: The fact that this was only over one whole year ago is crazy. So much shit has happened, I'm basically a completely different person living a somewhat different life. I've changed so much, and accomplished a few things that i will hopefully remember in the future. It's 2am once again and it's been a wild ride. I've seen and heard so many different things, people, places, emotions, songs, media, games, things that are gonna live rent free in my mind forever. I wish things were different, wish i could just skip the next 4 years and just be done, but wishes are just broken dreams that eventually fade away. Whether it's 10 minutes or 10 years. But there's nothing i can do about that. Nothing I can do about the people who have left me, hurt me, loved me, befriended me, hated me. I can only live with it. Live with the fact that I am human, and that I can do absolutely nothing about it. Please, if you see this, don't give up hope. I've felt helpless too, everyone does, the problem is that you center all of that pressure on yourself. Wake up, go drink a glass of water, coffee, tea, eat a healthy snack, a quick workout session, do something that makes you feel rejuvenated. But most importantly, never forget who you are and where you came from, the people that love you and who came before you. Just know that you are never alone. Never.

The worst feeling is when you have so many friends, family, etc. But you still feel alone.

I don’t know what or who you might’ve lost, but isn’t it wonderful that you could love someone enough to miss them? And to the departed, isn’t that proof they were truly loved? Is there anything more beautiful than that?

this song is so relaxing ! but honestly, bring me some sad memories :/

I am currently in a car, at 10 o'clock at night, listening to this thinking about life. I have never been ao sad, happy, proud, and relaxed at the same time. Whoever is seeing this, I hope your having a wonderful day or night. Edit: wow. I have never been this noticed before. All of you who liked or commented, I really appreciate your support.

I’ve always liked hardcore music. But it’s nice to listen to a calm one time to time. This is that. Just sitting on the bus, looking out of the window. Nobody bothering you, and letting your thoughts run free.

god gives his strongest solders the worst battles 🍂

This is the kind of songs that is very relaxing but you cant sleep because it makes you think of things.

“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending”

Everytime I'm having issues to sleep I come to UKposts and listen to this music with earphones It really helps

GOD BLESS YOU ALL AMEN!

It's hard for me to realise that I survived this year. I did it. I am so grateful to be able to love and be loved, despite the hard times I have endured. To whoever that is reading this, we made it. And we will make it in 2023 too. Cheers. 🍻

This is not a song...This is a FEELING

This song makes you think about your past , present , and future

im 13 years old and i miss my past after a long time , time flies .

Stay strong everyone. Life isnt about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

When it’s past midnight and the world is silent, this is what that peaceful emptiness sounds like.

I used to play this song late night when Im studying. It was during highschool. I do this in front of my father. He always there to accompany me studying during the whole night. Everyday. He wants me to become someone who go to a good school. Now I am in university being a 1st year at one of the best uni ever. But my dad will never see it. He passed away a couple months before I go to uni. But at least he knows that his daughter get into the best uni before he passed away. I love you, dad. May you rest in peace

It makes me feel cold and lonely but also warm and secure

This song makes me feel like I’m far away from Earth, floating in space, calm, optimistic, and forever at peace away from everything that had ever hurt me. I’m happy.

I can't explain it clearly but reading the comments on this video and hearing this music makes me feel like I'm actually a living being. People have problems, fears, worries, hobbies, bad memories, and good memories, and so do I. I hope we can all achieve inner peace in this life journey. Have a nice day!

I miss you grandma.

this song feels like you have something really good in life and you're getting your hopes up but then you watch it all crumble to ash and later realizing how everything is gonna be different but you have to live with it

This song kinda feels like one of those moments where you look back on everything and how far you’ve come.

This song feels like it's the end of a long battle, and it doesn't matter if you won or lost, because you know you did everything you can and you can finally be at peace.

my words can't describe the aura, the vibe this song is making at 2 am while everyone at home is sleeping and im tired but not able to sleep and enjoying the vibrance of night light, the silence, im a extrovert guy but srsly this is a medicine to ur mind. I charged my airpods pro to 100 and it was quick af too then my mobile too. I can't carry my pc or laptop everywhere, someplaces mobiles are necessary tbh. Really felt like 2024 can be something of a year then I thought about 10 years ago what I was doing, this bgm made me remember everything day before mobile phone era, day before u enjoy living with ur friends playing at park, u enjoy playing video games on consoles or pc, life really gave me a big bump in covid. It honestly changed my life as mentally and physically I become fat, chubbier before lockdown I was fit, normal. But srsly im 2006 kid my mom bought me a sony dvd player in 2008 or 09 and so many dvds of hollywood films, cartoons, we had tv connection with most interesting channels to explore like MTV or VHS for music, CartoonNetwork or Nicklodeon or Toonami for cartoons, animal planet or discovery channel, or nat geo for knowledgeable stuff, star movies or sony pix, movies HD, Remedy for English movies and shows. LIFE HAD A MEANING before 2020

There's a girl in school that I just can't seem to get over. Every time I tell myself to forget about her, I just think of her even more. My closest friend knew that I was in love with her,but yesterday I saw the both of them hugging, and arranging plans to get together again in the future. When I got home I told myself not to cry, but the thought of them doing it just make me shed hundreds of tears. If you're reading this I want to let you know that it is OK to be alone. Learn to talk to yourself and never to trust anyone.

“Is It A Bird?” “Is It A Plane?” “No…It’s Life Flying By.”

It is crazy how powerful music can be. It can easily change one's mood.

Picture this: It’s nearly April of 2024 and all your mates have all moved on with there own life and doin there own thing and you catch up from time to time and one night you log on to PlayStation and just sit at the dashboard and this song starts playing. All the memories hit you and you start to think of the first time you and your boys made that wooden house on Minecraft and the first time you guys all got your first supercar on GTA and drive round the map with the radio playing music that we now class as throwbacks, the first victory Royale on Fortnite back in 2017 when everyone as posting them on their story’s and that one time you clutched up in call of duty. You truely never knew you were in the good days till you sit back and reminisce the good times you guys had. I wish I could go back to those party’s that lasts hours and hours with all my mates, nowadays it’s just a party off two and you don’t even play anything, you just talk till one of you guys has to get off to go to bed for work. Time is flying, that all doesn’t seem that long ago but to know it’s been 7 years since I’ve felt that type of way truely puts things into perspective. Hope you are all doin well and wish you all the best.

never knew a grocery store could make someone cry

This song deserves a Nobel peace prize. We are all in the comment section talking about what’s going on in life, and everybody is supporting them as they need. Amazing.

This song... perfectly represents (for me at least) the sadness I feel for the memories of my childhood with my family. When you built your first snowman with your father, Christmas morning with everyone around the tree, the last time your mother read you a bedtime story and kissed your forehead or that time when you messed with your sister's makeup... It is all behind you. Gone. It felt just like a moment and now you are far from where all those beautiful moments were created. The memories of some of these special people might be the only thing that is left of them so this is why you have to treasure them. Time really passes in the blink of an eye. Things that seemed annoying like your mother coming to ask '''How was today at school?'' will make you want to give anything just so you can hear this question one more time. Show love and care back to those special people. One day it will be a memory - treasure it.

This song makes me feel like something big is coming to an end and we should be ready for it

To anyone out there going through it rn just know you are loved and things always end up getting better at some point I have been in low places but if you need somone to vent to you may come to my comment and share :>

This song feels like accepting the trauma and pain inflicted upon you in life. There's a sadness to it, but the slow but powerful notes from the piano show there's a fire, an ember to move past the pain and overcome the pressure ahead and the darkness within.

For whoever watching this , we don't know each other and probably never will but I wish you all the best in life and all the luck in the world and of course get some quality sleep , rest well everyone !!

i’m depressed rn so like i gotta listen to myself, plus my mom died so i got no one😢❤

I’m so depressed and tired because of school and finals, I barely have friends anymore. I just me and my family and my guitar. It’s just so sad when time go by so fast. This really brings me stranger things vibes and nostalgia even though I’m a teenager, whoever reads this I hope yall have an amazing 2024 ❤ love from Saint Louis

This song is so powerful, it feels like you know that you're mentally unstable, but you have to act like you're okay to not worry anyone because you want to keep ppl happy.

To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave ❤

This song makes me appreciate myself for all ive been thru

I was listening to this music when I was reading my Bible and a church book that we had to explain what each paragraph means and this music made me feel that I understood the book more and just by this music and I tell you something God is always with you if you trust . in his word

Since the day I lost my wife, I haven’t been complete and this song reminds me of the moments I held her hand and smiled and laughed with her, cuddled her and watched movies with her. A piece of me has been incomplete since then and it never will be complete.

There’s something incredibly beautiful about being awake when everyone around you is asleep

this song are my chill song

This music is for those who are alone for those who have been broken for those who has been cheated on for those who have been lied to for those who have been hurt for those who have lost and most of all for those who are still standing and smiling and telling people if they’re all right but truly, they’re not. So please if you have a friend or family member that is listening to this music I encourage you to walk up to them and check in on them tell them if there alright give them a hug tell them it will be alright and fine you are wanted and most of all your doing a a good job because I know I never got it so make someone day please

Crazy how music can make you feel so many different emotions all at the same time.

當我在夜間騎著我的摩托車去上班或是開車配點小雨，聽這首總是感到放鬆

I cried a lot while hearing this song 😢 I was feeling so lonely but now I feel relaxed

Lost my mother to cancer five months ago. Listening to this song gives me wonderful flashbacks of the good memories I had with her. I was fortunate to have her as a mother. I am still grieving esp. since she will not see my 30th birthday.

As a college student on the autism spectrum, I reflect on the moments, good and bad, and goals that I have/could have achieved thanks to this song. Life for someone like me is really hard, but I am pushing myself to be the best version that I can possibly be in this day and age.

To whoever is reading this, may your resilience be unwavering, your spirit be indomitable, and your days be filled with triumphs. 💪🏆

This is so relaxing...

A smile after cry is like a rainbow after a rain ☔🌧️

This song makes me realize that i don't need to worry about anything that is gonna happen tomorrow because if i get a bad grade or something like this happens its going to be one tiny thing that wont really matter and i shouldn't waste my time here on earth worrying about one tiny thing when i can enjoy these moments here that have been given to me. And if you think about it one small bad thing that happens to you dose not really matter because we are just tiny dust particles compared to our universe and we might not even exist because we don't really know how we have been created and if you think about it before the big bang there was nothing and nothing dose not exist so we are actually nothing and we will never be a thing. So don't care if you have a bad grade or if someone hates you because you should enjoy the time here on earth and never let anyone ruin that time. (if you think this is all nonsense ok just don't waste your time trying to make any sense of this or argue about it just enjoy your life and every little moment of it)

This song makes me smile, not cry, I guess I will never wonder why, If you keep on going very slow, Depression will grow and grow, Now listen here, There is nothing to fear, Someone is with you, you just can't see it, Once you are happy you will realize it.

I don’t usually comment, but this song makes me feel like it’ll play while my life is flashing before my eyes.

My dad passed recently and I feel so lost and alone! this video and song helps me find little bit of peace and helps me sleep..

This song has a very strong feeling inside of me. It takes me to a whole new world back when times were just good compared to today's. I also cry because of how good those old times were. Stay strong everyone, don't give up on life and don't waste it ❤

I come back here every winter because why not, because maybe next year im not gonna be here, remember people. It’s all about Memories. Enjoy life. Peace.

"so sad and tired but still smiling” is what describes this song

Imagine this: You and the boys hop on and game for hours all night, having a blast and making memories. Then you do it the next day, and the next, and the next. And its summer so you can rest well knowing there is no school the next day. But suddenly years go by like nothing. Your friends all go to different colleges to pursue their dreams, and you no longer have time to play with them. But one night, you experience an overwhelming amount of nostalgia, and you remember all the fun times you’ve have playing games with your friends. From getting your first win in fortnite, to building houses with your friends in minecraft, to clutching up a game in Cod. All these memories rush over you and at first you fell sadness, but then suddenly you feel a sense of happiness, knowing that you have made plenty of good memories, and that you have your whole life ahead of you. If you read this far, God bless you, and have a wonderful day.

how did time pass so quickly? Where did all those years go? Where did those who left this life go? I am now 27 years old and I lost my Dad on 1/18/2024 when everything had gone by so quickly from 2019 to this moment. Rest in peace, dear Father ❤️

nearly a year back i got blocked by my bestie, at that time I discovered this masterpiece and used to listen this everytime I have deep depressing thoughts inner me. truly, this tunes remind me every saddest and depressing moments of my life.

Taking a cold shower while listening to this is fantastic...

This would be perfect for a long car ride during a night...

this song make you remember the sad times you made years ago and you get sick of school but when its done your sad cuz you made good friends and you have a crush in school you will miss them so dont makes enemys

This song makes me feel like I'm inside a snowy cabin looking outside the window at 3 am, watching the snow fall. I have anger issues but music like this deeply calms me down, it makes me feel so relaxed, at peace, un-bothered. I wish I wish one day I can experience this and feel as if I've finally completed my life.

This song really hits hard when the most important people to you start acting different all of a sudden, and just lose interest in you, while you're resistant towards the idea of change, accepting reality

Both sad and relaxing at the same time. Like nostalgia of lost times

to all that see this: Know you are loved, loved and appreciated, and even if you think no one does, i do, i truly do. pain is inevitable and everyone goes through it, but going through it with those who support and care for you, will make it feel like no pain at all. make the most out of every day, make those who passed on proud of who you become and who you're going to become keep your head high, your spirits higher, and know that you make people proud in the smallest of ways i love you stranger 💗

One of our dogs passed away about an hour ago. I am in tears but I am beyond grateful that out of all days, me and my brother decided to visit the rest of our family today. I am grateful because I got to say hello one more time; I got to give her treats one more time; I got to pet her while she would lay next to me on the sofa watching tv one more time; And I got to say goodbye, one more time. She was part of our family, I remember ten years ago when I was 14 and we were staying at our summer cabin with our grandparents, one of our dogs had passed away not long before that trip. Our parents would arrive on the last day of our stay to pick us up and when they pulled over to the parking spot, they let out a small dark brown furred boxer puppy to greet us, and greet us she did. She had so much energy back then and to be honest, she was a bit chaotic too, so our parents had named her Tsunami. Tsunami has given birth to a dozen or so healthy puppies who all got loving homes and have grown up well since. We gave her the best home and care we could, in turn she kept us company and lifted our spirits to the last of her days. Thank you for everything. One day I will get to see you again

This reminds me of when you lose someone or something, a part of yourself. When you're struggling so hard but still trying so hard to push through. It just gets more and more difficult. It's so hard to make it through the day without feeling the sadness and the sense of loss. You don't want the loss to stop your life, you want to keep pushing because you don't want to accept it, but deep down inside you know that you need to stop pushing and just slow down, but that would leave you alone with your thoughts and feelings, without the distraction of life, and you wouldn't want that. This song is like those moments when you just try to hard tp push everything down, to distract yourself. It hurts so bad to just push everything down and hold everything in when you know you're hurting and you just want to scream. This song is like those moments when you just cant push anymore, its as if you just drop to the ground and everything around you becomes distant. You can't push everything away forever, no matter how hard you deny, no matter how hard you push yourself, no matter how hard you try to distract yourself. One day you will fall to the ground, tired of trying. Everything else that you used to distract yourself, everything that you held so close and tried valuing so much just to put your attention on something else, becomes the thing that is now so far away. The normality of life you try so hard to achieve every day will slip from your hands, just out of reach. You can't feel normal if you push it all down. Once you let go for one second, stop trying, stop pushing yourself to your vary limits for just one second, everything comes flooding back, and this is what that song is. Those moments where you just can't hold on, you just cant pretend that your life is normal anymore. You fall to the ground, weak and exhausted, everything rushes back and that normality you tried so hard to salvage is now so incredibly distant. You can't help but cry, you can't help that feeling to just scream, to just scream for help, everybody else continues around you while it feels like you're just stuck, struggling to make progress. The world just feels so distant, as if you must scream, in hope that it will just stop it all, that that scream will catch the attention of the normality you crave so much, as if it will run back to you to offer you another chance, but it doesn't. It's as if you're treading through the ocean, the rasping waves pushing against you, going in an opposite direction, you try to run but you are just barely walking, while the water of life around you is flawlessly and easily flowing by, you are trying to push against it, to go at the same speed and fluency as it, using so much energy to go so little way, but you know that if you stop for one second, life's ocean will carry you away, farther back into the depths of what you tried so hard to forget. I just want to say to anybody who deals with this, that I'm VERY proud of you for pushing. I hear you and I understand that things are difficult. You won't always be alone feeling this way, the world isn't stopped, your life isn't paused. You can keep going, you can do it. I believe in you, I know that you can make it far, I know that you can make it to where you want to be. You won't feel this way forever. I know it hurts I know that its hard to keep pushing, and you WILL have those moments where you just have to let go, embrace them because that's part of making progress. You need to accept and validate your emotions, understand that you're hurting while also understanding that there will always be hope. I'm very proud of you for how far you've come, don't ever feel unseen or invalidate your progress and your feelings. You are valid, your feelings are valid, and you are BEYOND strong for pushing every day, even if you feel like giving up, you are still VERY strong for getting up every single morning and continuing. Thank you for waking up in the morning, thank you for continuing no matter how hard it gets. You are a lot stronger than you may think. I'm very proud of you.

I scrolled thru the comments while I listened to this. the whole thing. the first 30 min was me crying and reading the comments thinking how I was alone and no-one would understand. but the further I scrolled I started to realize im not alone and people do understand because a lot of the comments I read was exactly how I felt and I couldn't do anything but cry. the next 30 min was me on my back poarch at 3am stoned af on a rainy night thinking how beautiful everything is and knowing were here together. Love u all