Thank you everyone, you've given me hope

Glad you're not giving up! Always loved starting the work day with "hey everyone garbaj here". Keep crushing it fam

do NOT quit

I love the transparency you have about mental health in this video. I always enjoyed your genuineness and well thought out perspectives in your videos, and that's on full display here. Looking forward to seeing more videos from you, regardless of what they're about.

"We suffer more in imagination than in reality" - Seneca

Under your username are these words: "460K subscribers". All of these are people who like your content. A lot of people like your content. Good on you for finding out what *you* want to create. It's always good to see someone creating content they enjoy and or enthusiastic about making. Pewdiepie realized he didn't want to make over the top character videos and instead does what he likes doing. Guess what? People liked that even more, probably because it felt genuine. Here's to the new Garbaj, may the fates be in your favor.

bro hit the "never back town never what?"

Are you kidding? All of the stuff you make is great! Your educational videos, your devlogs, your analysis videos. You're actually great at this stuff!

The fact that you uploaded a video alone made my day. Hope you the best Garbaj!

I'm not even a game dev but I love to watch your videos because you explain things in such a clear way and it's always very interesting. I'm very very glad you're still here. This channel really is great.

Mad respect to you for building up the courage to talk about this. I wish you all the best and good luck with whatever you decide to go with.. I'm looking forward to see it.

Don't quit, you must realize this channel wont go anywhere, take as many breaks as you want to. Ive had my doubts as well feeling worthless but no one hates you, the algorithm will play tricks on your brain but your fans care. Keep making the stuff you want to make on your own time and take many breaks. I love your content btw, I was making my own graphics engine the other day and feeling really down on myself for only making a cube, but then I saw your video and it made me feel a lot better knowing how hard it is. Game dev is hard and so is being a UKpostsr. Keep making fun stuff.

I was really looking forward to your FPS game and got a little disappointed when you said you were dropping the project. But, recently I tried getting into game development and tried making a little game for a project, and now I understand your problems. It's fun to do what you love , but when it feels like a chore at one point, you should ask yourself whether you want to continue or not. And that's a tough decision you have to make, but it's ultimately for the good. Garbaj, do what you like. Create content that you want to create. That'll be more fun for us too. We are with you man.

FYI, the very reason i subbed to ur channel is because u come across genuine, nice to hear u've gotten into a better place, all the best dude.

Cheers to you, for coming to this realization and seeing the light that was always there. You are stronger than you know and in your sharing your struggles you are also helping others that have been consumed by the crippling self doubt. I'm looking forward to all the exciting stuff you want to share with us.

to hell with optimising ur content for the algorithm, i love unique content thats made from passion rather than desire for clout, keep doing u bro, its what were here for

No one is here for one specific type of video , structured in a certain way containing one type of content , we are here for you and whatever videos you want to post .

I have subscribed you for over 2 years and although i missed some of your videos, i still find your videos cool.

Damn man I really enjoy your videos and I try to watch your new stuff as soon as theyre out, hearing that you think people dislike your content kinda broke my heart a little cause I love your vids and a lot of other folks too. I hope for the best to you and that you keep on posting content you enjoy

Girl, each and every one of your videos answers every question I've ever had or will have! They make me think and also help me articulate things I've been thinking of for years! Everything you've created; everything you've done has been amazing and that's because of *you*!! So I WILL be here, expecting what *you* want to do, and what *you* want to share with the world. Thank you

Nice, now I have hope for Booty blasting V2 🎉

When I first discovered your channel I thought 'look at this guy, I think he'll fill a niche in my feed' and I swear I almost never missed one of your videos I'm a sales guy so let me throw some selling points for you 1. You have a very pleasing voice - No homo 2. You are very clear and concise which compared to 45min videos out there that say nothing, this is worth gold 3. You make game dev seem interesting even if it's such a hard topic 4. For some reason I and over 460 thousand people feel you as a genuine guy, working a 9-5 but sharing cool facts, being ambitious and I respect that I could definitely go on but let me just tell you I did look up your channel a couple times when I didn't see you upload any videos. You have a huge base, potential, brand, niche, voice, skill, knowledge, and most of all, swag. Yeah I'm that old, bite me Keep it up Garbaj, rooting the hell out of you here.

Glad you've been nice and clear about your doubts and thoughts. Waiting to see what video will come next!

I literally showed someone your whole channel and binge watched a ton of old videos with them again like 3 hours before you posted this, I'm glad you decided on making what YOU want!!!!

thanks for opening up about this, it's sometimes not easy putting yourself first and those feelings are valid but it seems like you're on the right track. Whatever you decide to do/make, we'll support you.

Remember Garbaj. A creators content truly shines when they are creating what they want to do. I'm here for the content that you want to make.

I never knew how much I missed this channel. I watch a lot of youtube and clicking through to see what there is and a new Garbaj video always made my day. Keep going!

Really happy to (honestly, finally) watch this - much love Garbaj! You worked like 10 horses, high quality content, but I felt it too. I cannot wait to see what you're going to do around the corner!

Keep going G

I'm so glad you decided not to give up. One of my best friends and I used watch your dev logs at work and it'd be a shame to never have that chance again.

You got this

Dude, I just like hearing how you explain stuff, your sincerity and genuineness, whatever you make I'm happy to see! I subbed for YOU, not a specific kind of content (tho I did really love when you made example vids like you did with walk animations and terrain, I also love all the other stuff you do). Also, dark thoughts eating at you? Yeah, dealt with that all my life, as a very high-operating autistic it can get rough, so I'm right there with you! The important choice to make is the one you just made: do what you love, not what you think others will value you for. I recently just made that decision about a year back, and life is way better for me for it. Another friend of mine (also ASD funnily enough) also made that choice in the last month, and already he's seeing an improvement... Do what you love, and good people will love you and what you do for it. The only persons happiness that truly matters here is YOURS, and I'm stoked to support you in whatever that looks like moving forward. Chin up friend! You made the best choice you EVER could this day! 🍻

Jesus christ, this is the first time the algorithm actually gave me what I actually wanted to hear for this weekend. As an aspiring clipper for other streamers, thank you for saying this.

Always enjoyed your game dev videos. Can't wait to see the new stuff you spin up. Hope it falls in line with what make you happy too.

I really like your videos. Even if they aren't useful for me directly as guides or instructions, they often give food for my brain to think about something I haven't thought about previously. Thanks for that and keep doing whatever you think is good.

"I'm going to make videos that -I- want to create" I've been watching and enjoying your videos for a good while, but this right here made me subscribe. It resonates with me so much. I'm excited to see what you make! I'm in the process of writing a novel, and your conviction in doing what -you- want to do in your creative processes put wind in my sails for me to do the same.

Hey Garbaj, don't fall into the trap man. Every video that you made attracts the same type of person/what the person wants to watch. If you make some new content you always have people who are going to be angry/not happy. Just do you, and people will follow (old ones will leave and new ones will come) :) Happy developing!

Dude, the content is truly unique and pure gold

I’m so happy I got to see this. You’ve grown so much from your rut and seeing you climb out of it is so inspiring. You’ve been a teacher in such a huge chunk of my artistic journey and seeing you push through means the world to me and many others 💙✨

glad too see your still making vids, your channel helped keep me motivated in perusing game dev

I found you through this video, and subbed through this video. Theres something super enjoyable about listening to you, and I cant wait to binge this channel whilst you work on awesome new videos!

Do what YOU enjoy! Thats the most important part in being a content creator in my eyes, enjoying and loving what you make, the effort and care shows in the video for sure! Glad to be apart of this awesome channel and community, equally as glad that it’s gonna be around longer 💜

Thank you for not quitting. You are a HUGE reason i ever even got back into game dev. im finally on my way to finishing 2 projects, and I've never been able to finish a game before. Can't wait to see your future content! also if you ever want to make something different, im sure most of us will be here to support ya! ♥

I'm glad you're sticking with it! I've found your content really inspiring! Navigating the social parts of the internet is tricky and frankly a little dangerous. Unfortunately, you will upset people. 100%. As your channel grows you will upset LOTS of people. BUUT - and this is so important - there will always be more people who appreciate you and your creations and your work then people who don't. You are a net gain. You make the world a better place, and many peoples lives are better in small but tangible ways because you create. Of course caring for your own needs should always come first, and if that means walking away from content creation or taking a break that is totally ok. Thanks for creating and thanks for sharing this struggle!

I am here for your content Garbaj, I found you with your development short videos, but I am all up for anything you make. Keep doing it! :)

Keep going! Your videos are part of what made me start making my own game. I am here for whatever comes next!

i'm really happy that you've decided to keep making content! i really liked your videos because they just aren't what you normally see online. i liked how it almost felt like you were inviting the viewer to sit down and think or talk about interesting video game things. i had also liked how approachable you make each subject feel, often focusing down on maybe one or two specific details and how they might effect the game overall. but even if all that goes away, i still want to see what you're doing. you've opened up my eyes to a lot of ideas about video game design, and it seems like if you keep doing what you want to i'll get to learn even more!

Bro, I was always on the lookout for your content! I liked learning about how stuff works in games

I have followed you for more than 3 years, love your content and wish you the best! Whatever video you upload, I will continue to watch you!

I love your content, glad you're sticking around

Dude I love the stuff you make. You could upload a video dissecting literally anything and I'd be there to watch. The way you break things down and just critically think is a nice break, I want you to make whatever you want, I am here for the ride. You gotta enjoy what you do, let your own curiosity carry you to new places and make whatever you find interesting.

If only I knew you were going through this I would reach out %100. I loved your content since the day I first discovered your channel and was kinda concerned if you were quitting when you didn't upload. Glad you're back and hope you feel better

I never once ever was dissapointed in your content bro ❤

hell yeah brother, continue to make game development videos. i love watching them, doesn't matter what it is i binge em!! might need to catch your streams too. continue the awesome work you've been doing!!

Garbaj, I for one, am very happy you made this particular video, for the simple reason that it showed up in my youtube feed today. I haven't seen a video from you in months even though I'm sub'd and have your notifications turned on. So, I can begin browsing your videos that I've been missing for quite some time now!!

Good for you bro. I like your content and your move here shows integrity toward yourself

That was just impostor syndrome. Dont' worry, it will go away

YOU GO GIRL ILY !!!

I'm glad you're sticking around. Really excited to see what you're most passionate about.

I found your content a while back while looking at shorts. I really enjoyed the stuff about game development especially about your own game and your own adventure learning all that crazy stuff. Something I have learned in life is that if I upset someone the fault lies with them. I always like to think that a reasonable adult should never get upset by something like videos about games on the internet. If you do you are a child and need to grow up. Keep up the awesome content and know that your community has missed you. We look forward to the future of your channel. Best of luck to you bud.

I've loved all your videos so far! Do what you love. Prioritize your own passion! I'm excited to see where it goes :)

Great call man, you can't lose if live outside their game. Your videos have always been baller, keen to see more 🔥

I am so proud of you! Perspectives are one of the most important things you can acquire in life. Wonderful thoughts you got, good job Garbaj

the honesty and vulnerability in this was honorable, I'm sure I will continue to watch and enjoy your content no matter what the topic

Thanks for being open about this. I know it's a lot more difficult to talk honestly about these feelings than it is to just disappear from an online space. I look forward to seeing you do what makes you happy.

I’m so happy to hear that you’re moving on to things you hope you’ll truly enjoy doing, and I can’t wait to see it. I for one have been in a depressive episode for a few months. As a full-time student and student teacher, I essentially work two full-time jobs and two part-time jobs all at once. I was exhausted and ready to throw in the towel. I thought maybe the career path wasn’t for me, even though I knew I loved it or something about it deep down. But something last week clicked. Some switch flipped. And all of a sudden, I *feel* way more successful at what I’m doing, and I also feel way more happy. I hope you have a similar experience. Keep it up!

“I’m gonna make the videos that I want to make, not what the algorithm wants me to make, not what I think people want me to make.” Subscribed

when this video came up in my recommended I just thought it was some random youtube recommendation. Once you started talking it came back to me right away. I loved watching your videos and i cant wait to see what you do next.

it has to be said that this kind of content is really cool, it’s unique and enjoyable, you won’t find it anywhere else, the algorithm might not like it, but i personally am a fan of your content creation style, keep at it

I'm constantly using your videos as references when I try new stuff. I've learned a lot from you. You give more than what you take. I hope you are happy with what you choose to make in the future

"No one liked the content I was making" 450k subscriber doesnt exist I guess jokes aside, dont quit. You passed the hard part: starting.

Can’t wait to see more of your stuff. I struggle with feeling like that myself and it sucks. We all only have so much time together so I want to make it with less regrets. Your videos helped me understand the logic for making my own games and I hope to be a content creator myself. Excited to hear you keep going.

You're the reason i'm making progress with my rinky dink fighting game albeit i haven't gotten far, nonetheless seeing this video sparked a flame in me to get back at it and i really gotta thank you for what you do. Making games is hard but motivating yourself to make games is a whole other battle but people like you provide great material to learn from or use in their own work. And that will ALWAYS be valuable no matter what. If anything i feel like you making the decision to make what YOU wanna make will only make your videos even more valuable and unique and im so excited for this new wave of garbaj-y goodness. Keep it up man!

Hey Garbaj, long time watcher. Originally had seen some of your bigger viewed videos. Recently I have started learning Godot and as I go through watching every tutorial and reading all the resources, your older videos kept coming up. Always shining light onto what ever concept I was trying to contextualise and grasp. I always thought "Oh yeah. Thank goodness Garbaj also has done something on this... because no one else had!" Your situation is such a mental gymnastic exercise and I think you have realised the only true way forward to be your best self. People will still hang around if it's specific topics you're interested in.

Its true when people say that it's nice to listen to someone talking about what matters to them. Keep up the good work man. Your videos are great to watch because I appreciate hearing someone speak about what they want, in the way they want, as well as learning something along the way a lot of the time! As long as you stick to that, I and many others are going to stick around to support.

thanks for continuing to create content garbaj! glad to have you back

ive loved your videos for a while. i love your mechanic explanations and your devlogging and all your other videos. thank you

BRAVO SIR - The world will reward your sticking to your passion. The biggest strength you have is your individuality and what YOU have to bring to the table, so just do you and trust the process. So glad to have to back Garbaj. And thank you for your vulnerability and role-modelling that speaking about these types of "mental demons" is usually one of the best ways to deal with them. Big love

Love your videos currently. Probably love them more from now on as your passion will show even bigger. Keep it up. Ive made sure i get notifications for your videos so even if the algorithm sucks, ill still get the good content

Your content has always been motivating and enlightening. It's made me think about game dev differently and have more appreicatiation for the games I play. And I am always excited to see when you put out new videos. Your videos are really meaningful. I hope you find stability, health, and happiness in the videos you want to make.

You’re the man for going with what you want to do. Going with what interests you might make you stand out and work better in the long run. We’re with you!

I'm so sorry to hear those things man :( But I understand you since I have had these feelings more than once and it is really ruining the person. I'm glad you found a way out of the bad feelings, and I support that you should be doing what you like, not what you are forced. I love your channel and content, watching your videos is always nice. Take care of yourself, and don't quit! Keep up the good work!

Something I've seen/heard about quite often is a scenario in which a content creator changes their content in order to appease a vocal minority, resulting in them both losing themselves and their audience, and they eventually find out that the very minority that caused them to shift weren't even as invested in their content as their original fans. It's good to see that you're sticking true to yourself, Garbaj, keep up the amazing work!

Drive-by GAMMA protip: You can go prone by pressing the walk button while crouched to get through truck windows and other tight spaces. I recommend binding it like this: : crouch, : walk, : sprint. Hope you're having fun and don't get murdered in the red forest too often. :)

You're doing great dude. Really happy you're taking this step. Hit it man and we'll be watching!

your videos were what made me want to start game development in the first place! game dev didn't go anywhere, but now i'm actually confident and i'm looking for other areas in computer science because i realized THAT was what i liked. im glad you're not quitting, and i'd happily watch any upload i see from you no matter what the content is.

I actually really like your development videos. I am not a programmer but I really appreciate the ways of finding solutions for problems and the art of creating a computer game! Also, I might add, that your channel is the only one I know of which covers the secrets of first person shooter game mechanics. That's also one of the main reasons I stuck around with you, not only to see how your game progresses during development, but also how you apply certain techniques to build this functioning architecture that will be a finished product in the end. You're doing great!

I gotta admit,, hearing your laidback, chill and whilesome style of vids and overall personality is a highlight after a long day at work. Keep up the good work homie, nothing but luv

Hey dude, I really enjoyed your daily uploads, they were part of a ritual for me. You always found something interesting to talk about and shared it in a clear and concise way, that's precious. Please keep them coming at the rhythm that works for you! I can hear in your voice in this video the emotion, and congrats on putting it on the internet like that, that is not easy, especially when going through tough times. Keep taking care of yourself and of your passion.

I ADORE your videos. You have changed the way I look at game design, and you give solid opinions related to the same topic. I recently began working on my own game and sculpting concepts better using your tips, and I thank you for that!

"no one liked the content I was making" quite the opposite is true. Anytime I see a new Garbaj video I'm watching immediately. I always enjoy the content. It's informative, relaxing, and stimulating. Always follow your intuition and passion, the rest will fall in place. Cheers!

actually anything you make, I love to watch. Not trying to get parasocial, but your videos feel like hearing a passionate friend chat about cool stuff or interesting stuff. Love that you didn't quit!

Keep YOUR good work up! I may be a long time lurker, but I found your videos when I started learning Godot and programing about 2-3 years ago and I found them to be always interessting... Your content also helped me to get into a programers mindset and how to come up with solutions for different problems :) I hope You get into a better mindset soon and that You will be doing fine soon again :D!

Hello Garbaj! just wanted to say that i have been subscribed to your channel for a long time and always loved watching your videos, the progress you've made on your game and the topics you've brought for discussion. Keep doing what you really want to do! Because that's what gives your videos personality and makes them shine! :)

I'm glad you've made piece with yourself on this, the struggle is real. Best of luck, excited to see what you make =)

I've made the biggest strides in my mental health by realizing that experience+patience is a superpower: Do I feel awful right now, like my life and the whole world are terrible and won't get better? Yup. And it really sucks that I'm feeling that way. But the thing is that I've felt like that before, and then things got better again, so I just hang out, keep showing up to my own life each day in whatever way I can, and it does in fact get better again. Plus, each time things get bad, I recognize it a little sooner, and I may have one or two more tricks up my sleeve for minimizing the suffering. If you can cultivate it, hope is the most OP thing out there. Keep it up, man - love your stuff.

Hey Garbaj, your videos are great and I always respect your fresh takes on game design. You've inspired me to keep going with my game dev journey, and yours is a channel I keep coming back to. Thanks for sticking around!

watching your content made me enjoy your content simply for the fact that it was YOURS. Very excited to see what you upload next

glad youre good! i love your stuff and was bummed out i wasnt seeing it anymore.

Dude I don't know you. We grew up in drastically different environments. It's impossible for me nor any other person in the world to completely understand your struggle. But I promise, i feel you. I feel your pain. I feel your disappointment. I feel your anxiety. I feel your struggle to find your place in the world. And I promise, you are not alone. There are people who went through their own crisies but at least they... We understand pain. And anxiety. And hopelessness. It is very hard to express it. I'm very sorry. But returning, giving it another shot is very brave. We all fall. But not everyone can stand back up again. You did. You deserve to be proud of you. And however it may sound, I'm proud of you.