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the "trauma olympics" thing is honestly such a complicated issue. like we shouldn't invalidate anyone's struggles but also we shouldn't throw around the word ptsd like it means nothing

You should spend a day with therapists. As a therapist intern, I'd love to see what are common questions that people would ask therapists, and the different perspectives they can bring.

“That happened so long ago, get over it” I was told by my sexual assault therapist that when someone wants you to “get over it” they’re really asking you to “be quiet and be silent” what does getting over it look like to that person? For you to be silent?

The way Shaylena just described seeing the younger her as a different person is what I've been trying to explain to people in my life so that's kinda epic

“it happened so long ago, get over it” that sentence is so damaging, and i can’t tell you how many times i’ve heard it. when something traumatic happens to you as a child it affects your development and changes who you are as a person. the trauma grows with you and if you weren’t allowed to acknowledge or work through it, it will plague you for your life. it doesn’t matter how long ago it was, you can’t just get over it

I want to see “I spent a day with Anthony Padilla” I feel like you have your own story to tell 🥺

I have diagnosed PTSD from mental abuse I went through as a kid. I was emotionally abused by my father for over 8 years and still am whenever I get to see him. For a very very long time I thought that my pain didn't matter because he never touched me. He never layed a finger on me. If anyone is reading this with at least a drop of similarity I want you to know that emotional abuse is abuse. It's traumatic. Your pain and emotions are valid. You deserve to be heard and loved. Take care.

Child-on-child SA needs to be talked about more often. It happened to me, and apparently, to a lot of people.

As someone who struggles with PTSD, this video means everything

My friend has PTSD and once seeked help through our school. She was doubting herself and said ‘I know I sound crazy don’t I’ and our head of year replied ‘yeah you do sound crazy’. She has had panic attacks, has sat crying for hours just to be called crazy by someone who doesn’t understand her or PTSD. People really don’t understand mental health.

You should do a video of children who were exploited. I’m talking about like beauty pageants, family channels, and stuff like that. I was severely exploited via beauty pageants from ages 3-7 and was also forced to do cheerleading and wear small uniforms that barely covered me. Child exploitation is something that shouldn’t be ignored.

when the sad part is its mostly our own family who gaves us ptsd we can go through this guys !

"You're not broken enough", that hit home. I've never had a therapist say this, but UK doctors have. Was turned away from A&E and GP for "not being bad enough for help", and I'm sure many others have too. It's a sad world.

I have C-PTSD and what Shaylena said about how she felt that her younger self was an entirely different person is so real. I can't look at pictures of myself from before my trauma and see that person as myself- as Shaylena said, that person looking back at me is too innocent and pure to be me. I really loved how she worded that part.

As someone who has experienced child on child sexual abuse I realised a lot of people don't take what happened seriously and find excuses. It diminishes our trauma.

I really like how Anthony doesn’t cut them off after the 5 seconds and let’s them finish speaking

When Kenneth said what his father told him, forget and move on. It's a good method to just forget the past and live a new life. But that was cynical enough ... when it's hard to let go of all this bad thing that hurt you. I do not even imagine how difficult it will be to do ((

I struggle with Ptsd after witnessing a machete attack when out with my friends. This has affected me in many ways if someone mentions it I can have a flashback or for instance I was out with friends again and I saw someone get put in a chokehold for trying to steal a phone and as a result I had a very vivid flashback and for the rest of the night I thought everyone who I didn't know was carrying a knife. I wake up from nightmares a lot and I'm trying to get over it through therapy. I respect Anthony a lot for bringing these issues to the surface as its often something that people repress. I was listening to his guests and realising we are in the same Boat regardless of the trauma we have experienced/ witnessed. I advise anyone who is struggling to seek therapy as talking can often be the best kind of help. My love goes out to you all and I hope your having a good day, good night, good afternoon wherever you are - Nath

God, when she talked about how she saw her younger self as someone different, that really hit hard. I have been diagnosed with PSTD so I know exactly what they are talking about.

"Oh you're not broken enough, I don't need to see you" actually happened to me. I wish it wouldn't happen to anyone but sometimes therapists are just horrific. I don't have PTSD, but she made me see a PTSD specialist. That's okay, that was good to know i don't have PTSD. But she told me things like "you're useless to your boyfriend" or "you're never gonna get out of this if you're not making any effort" (it took all my energy to see her lmao). "I can't help you, you don't have anything!" Like b*tch don't say things like that to someone you don't know, and don't do this if you suspect PTSD like wth what's the logic. She made me fear psychiatrists. So yes, it happens, sadly. But if it ever happens to you, know that it's not your fault, you're not useless, you're seeking help, and it's a huge step towards healing. Don't let anybody treat you like that to the point you believe it ; especially somebody who's supposed to help you.

He's gone from jokingly skit interviewing flat-earthers to these serious interviews. I do find myself straying away but I'm proud to see these. He's come so far!

i cant even describe the joy i felt hearing someone else say, out loud, that they were sexually abused by their older sibling. then hearing ANOTHER person say that? sibling abuse isnt something you hear about. its always parents or uncles or cousins. i didnt realize how much i wanted to hear someone talk about that until now and i feel so relieved that i want to cry and sexual trauma too. theres such a sense of shame that comes with feeling repulsed by sex. god its such a relief to hear that its not just me. consciously i know it isnt just me but hearing it makes such a massive difference...

i was diagnosed with CPTSD at 14 years old (around 4 years ago), and im glad CPTSD (reoccurring traumatic event(s) was mentioned and not just PTSD. and also talking about other things, not just sexual assault/abuse which seems to be a common thought that comes up when most people think about PTSD. trauma is trauma. there is no such thing as “small trauma”; minimizing and invalidating trauma because it seems “less than” is not okay. but thank you so so much for this, anthony, autumn, shaylena and kenneth. genuinely. 💕

I have c-ptsd, and i felt it to my core when shaylena talked about seeing her younger self as a completely different person. I remember I mourned for my younger self. It felt like that girl died. I still mourn her.

thank you so much for having me on this episode 🥰

man i can’t reply to all the comments but i’ve been scrolling through reading peoples stories and i just wanna say i’m so proud of you all for sharing your traumas and i want nothing but the best for anyone reading this. and thank you anthony for shedding light on topics that mean so much to so many people that aren’t talked about like they should be! If anyone needs a friend or is going through a hard time please reply i would love to be your friend :)

“…Sometimes existing is exhausting…” The understatement of the decade.

I'm so happy that Kenny is in this because not many men come out to tell their story. My little brother got SA by my cousin and I always felt responsible since I was meant to be watching them but my aunt had me help her sign up her daughter for school. My cousin took my brother to my parents room and kicked out my little sister. I noticed that something felt odd and went into my parents room. It was too late but nothing was ever done towards her even tho it angered my mom when she came home from work. He was around 7 and I was 13 and ik he struggles with it years later.

Thank you for giving me a chance to share my story! I hope that it is able to reach the hearts that need to hear some healing words 💕

From the perspective of a male survivor with CPTSD, I cannot stress enough how important it is to de-stigmatize trauma and sexual abuse. Over 70% of child survivours take thier abuse to thier grave and do not talk to anyone.

Im so glad CPTSD was mentioned, as well as Autumn's series of events being her trauma. As someone with diagnosed CPTSD it was so refreshing to be able to be acknowledged since a lot of PTSD representation is like, superheroes and war veterans or extreme violent acts or only sexual assault. I didnt realize I was holding my breath until it was mentioned, after which I sighed in relief.

It was pretty rough to hear Autumn say “oh a counselor will NEVER say you’re not broken enough for treatment” when that literally happened to me and my husband🙃

As someone who grew up with a loving family, a welcoming church community, and all the social benefits that come from being a tall white dude, I wasn't expecting to experience trauma that would give me PTSD. But when my wife nearly died after delivering our second daughter, I began having regular panic attacks. These would often be triggered by something as simple as a childbirth scene in a movie, or sometimes have no apparent trigger whatsoever. Thankfully, with the help of my doctor, my wife, and the passage of time, I've been able to overcome a lot of the effects of that trauma. This episode is very important, and thank you for interviewing these guests.

it's devastating that 2 of the people in this episode were SA'd by their own siblings

As a person with PTSD, I just want to thank you for being so respectful during your interviews. Last year my ptsd symptoms got so bad my dr was afraid I had early onset dementia (mine manifests in severe memory loss). I've spent the last year implementing new coping mechanisms to move forward. Seeing others describe their stories is so helpful for me, and I'm sure it is for others too. Thank you. 💜

Could you spend a day with FOSTER CHILDREN? And learn about their experiences?? I just got out of foster care and have always felt so alone and embarrassed bc I never knew how much kids are actually in foster care ❤️

i can’t express how less alone i feel hearing two people discuss how they were molested by an older sibling

PTSD is so painful to deal with, I'm glad more people are bringing awareness to it, and I'm glad Anthony is here to talk about it.

As a survivor it makes me sad that lots of people have been r@ped. What makes me happy is that you are kind to them and don't pressure them to answer questions that make them feel uncomfortable.

i’ve been a SA survivor for almost 8 years, and the ptsd will never leave.

I started therapy this year thinking I had just depression and anxiety and ended up being diagnosed with CPTSD and a mood disorder. Most of my family doesn't believe me, however, because the only person with PTSD they've been around is my grandfather who fought in the Cold War whose symptoms are much more intense than mine. I guess they don't believe that the physical and emotional abuse I went through for 8 years straight and abandonment by my parents warrants a PTSD diagnosis.

I have PTSD from a car accident when I was 12 and I watched the grill of the car come right at me. I was always afraid to call it PTSD because I felt my response wasn't valid because no one died, we weren't trapped for hours, etc. but that doesn't change the fact that I'm now 23, still petrified of even the idea of driving and regularly have full blown panic attacks when in the car. It was my husband that made me feel valid in calling it PTSD. I hope to one day overcome my trauma.

21:20: When she said "You're never gonna walk into a counselor's office and have the counselor tell you 'Oh no, you're not broken enough.' That's never going to happen." Sadly, she is wrong. That absolutely happens and has happened to me multiple times. People with complicated diagnosis' are OFTEN rejected because they are too broken, and other times, even the best therapists will think you improved enough to stop before you are ready, and then you spiral... And even the example she gives of being told you're not broken enough when you walk in... Therapists will ask how they can help. And if you aren't ready to open up and be honest, they can't help. Therapy isn't perfect and we need to stop perpetuating the idea that, once you go to therapy, everything gets better. I struggled for nearly 20 years to find a therapist that worked for me, and even then, most of what has helped me was doing my own reading and research, advocating for what I believe I needed. Empowering yourself to take control of your mental health is the most incredible thing you can do. I have been given 10 different mental health diagnosises in my life, including both CPTSD and PTSD. And most of getting over it included watching videos like this! Therapy is immeasurably helpful, don't get me wrong. But if you're not ready to help yourself, educate yourself, and listen to people who have survived, it will be a difficult road. So congratulations for even being here to listen to this. If you are struggling, you're already taking the first step to understanding you are not alone ❤

About the repressed memories thing, I think it’s common sometimes to remember that it happened but think of it as not a big deal or feel no emotional response from it until you actually try to bypass the barriers and actually process the trauma

I would love to hear more about male survivors! It's so important for men to come forward and tell their stories so other men dont feel so alone and ashamed.

I actually cried at shaylena's story. I now think that I might be a SA victim. I was molested by my male friend since kindergarten, but since we were both kids, I didn't think it counts as SA. He was one year older than me and we would be in the same group in kindergarten. He would make me touch him and said that "all boyfriends and girlfriends do this". He would touch me as well. The abuse ended when I was 11, because I moved out the city and we "broke up". I kinda pushed those memories away, I guess it was my way to cope with it. I also sticked with a though that we are both kids, so he didnt know what he was doing, etc. We would meet from time to time, because our families are good friends. He wouldn't do nor say anything. We would chat as good friends. My breaking point was when, around 15, we were both alone in his room and he started making sexual jokes. That made me highly unconfortable and I told him so, but then he slid his hand under my shirt and started touching my belly. I was horrified, scared, my brain just went numb. Since then I started to think that maybe he knew what he was doing. It also triggered my memories. The situation went on a 2-3 more times until I decided to leave house everytime they visited. The guy also stopped to come. So, I guess, I feel safer now. But I still don't know if it counts as AS. I'm confused and in denial. But this video made me somehow validated and at ease, so I would like to thank Anthony, the crew and guests for it. And if someone is reading this, sorry for making it so long. I just had to get some things off my chest.

My Grandma is writing a book and she told me how she experienced something absolutely terrible when she was a child. She was at this place where different people lived above her and she was just exploring. She accidentally walked in on a group of people who then proceeded to do very bad things to her. She went into foster homes and when she told her foster parents about her fear of something like that happening again they got scared of her and sent her to a different home. My heart goes out to people in situations like this. ❤️

I love this episode. I was professionally diagnosed with ptsd earlier this year and ppl tend to assume ive been SA'd or abused physically but instead i was just raised by an emotionally manipulative mother and bullied severally growing up. A lot of ppl dont believe when i say i have ptsd bc i look fine but rlly ive been forced to mask my feelings at a young age, things are different behind closed doors and when im alone. Trauma can come from anything, not everyone sees the same thing as traumatic.

Sexual assault is horrendous no matter who it is, sexual assault from a family member a travesty, losing trust all around. Sexual assault from a parent or sibling… wow it can’t get worse than that truly. My heart goes out to all the victims of any sexual crime.

Hearing Kenny talk about how he helps deal with his trauma using comics nearly made me cry. I've been using Batman family comics to help me cope for years, and having people tell me how unnatural and stupid it was. Hearing someone else do the same thing felt so validating

Mannnnn…this just confirmed some stuff for me. I was telling my family that I thought I had ptsd from a bad car wreck that I was in and they shrugged it off. My grandpa was in Vietnam and ofc he had to tell me “you know nothing about ptsd”. Anytime I see break lights in front of me my heart races and I get nauseous. Sometimes an “ahhh” comes out of my mouth. It’s crazy how your body responds to things even though you try to fight it.

I can't tell you how much I jumped when Anthony mentioned the auto-immune disease, Henoch-Schonlein Purpura (HSP) he had when he was young. As a person who suffered the exact disease at age 12, I had no idea there were many others who felt the way I did, being unable to do anything, being in pain for months, feeling like a burden. Thank you Anthony, its good to know I'm not alone.

When I hear Kenny, I can't help to notice the impacts of toxic masculinity and how he started healing after realizing that himself. Kenny, your story is really inspiring. I hope you keep getting ahead on the path of healing.

I don’t have PTSD but when she talked about how routine is so important and how covid has impacted so many people in that way, I felt it. I’m autistic and my routine is so important. Covid threw off everything and it was hard to get a new routine going.

His dad telling him to just forget about is soo shocking! How can they be so unempathic? Reminds me of my parents playing down the abuse they did to me.

I heavily relate to Shaylena, from the trauma, to the reaction to men and being clinging when in relationships. It makes me happy knowing I’m not the only person who gets uneasy around men, it’s been something I’ve held guilt for. And the preserving of your younger self as a whole different person is alarmingly common

A common theme with PTSD is that you had to become your own parent, because of neglect or loneliness, unfortunately it all kick-starts when one traumatic experience happens to the child, and not any amount foundations and charity can help, you can't buy attention

I love how Anthony is just listening and not interrupting the people talking. Tbh he’s the nicest youtuber, he just listens and lets other talk about their problems. In the end he doesn’t compare his troubles or even say “oh same” or “cool” he gives a good response. I bet he’s a good friend. :(

autumn definitely seems like a very educated and intelligent person. it was really brave of them to come on here, trauma is something that is very hard to talk about and i think she handled it especially well

Straight up this is one of my favorite channels on youtube. Brings awareness to subjects that aren't talked about or are taboo. This channel deserves an award.

Somehow I knew Kenneth was a teacher before he even said he was. He just radiates that good teacher energy of being smart, caring, and well-spoken. As an education major in college, that is what I aspire to be!

I’m so happy you got people with CPTSD and talked to people other than just veterans. I was recently diagnosed with CPTSD and it took me so long to realize that what I went through was traumatic bc it didn’t fit the typical mold of what is thought to cause PTSD and I didn’t have the intense visual flashbacks that are usually used to portray as PTSD. I thought I was too sensitive or overreacting for no reason but I was having emotional flashbacks multiple times a day for YEARS. If anyone happens to read this and is struggling, please go to a TRAUMA INFORMED therapist if you have the option. Trauma changes everything when it comes to treatment and having a therapist that understood how to help me changed my life

Thanks for covering this. One of the things that I’ve noticed about my CPTSD is that it’s getting worse as I get older. I have had a hard time finding a therapist I can afford. I go through waves of intensity. At the moment I’ve become agoraphobic. I sit on the floor in my bathroom for hours a day. It takes so much work to be around people and I get incredibly embarrassed when I shake and forget simple words. I’ve been able to hold a job, it’s my social time.

"Wanted to feel like loneliness is my choice" "Trying to make myself perfect." "looking at HER pictures" This hits so hard. I did not think I could relate to anything in this video, even though I have been through a lot of trauma as a child and developed many unhealthy coping mechanisms.

*TW* I really love that she hasn’t had an experience where a therapist has turned her down for not being “broken enough” but that has happened to me before. I have been turned down help bc I didn’t hurt myself deep enough. It definitely happens

Well done to Anthony for keeping up with topics people don’t talk enough about. Learning how to understand what someone is going through, that you can’t understand without being educated on is very important.

As someone that is diagnosed with CPTSD I’m so thankful for this video. I feel seen

I'm so proud of Kenneth. My dad had so much trauma and he never worked to be better for his kids, and it messed me up. Kenneth putting in the work to give his daughters a better life is so important.

I literally almost cried at the end when the guy was like his dad said to forget about it and move on. People truly don't get it and when people dissmiss stuff like this it hurts so much, I have to deal with CPTSD myself and traumatic flashbacks to certain events..having to deal with that on a daily - basis and told to move on hurts a lot

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, started therapy in april of 2021 and last thursday, my therapist announced to me that we will probably come to an end in therapy soon. 8 more sessions and we're done.😌

This is so incredibly comforting as someone who was sexually abused by a sibling. I have seriously never heard of anyone else with a similar story til now, and it’s amazing to know (though obviously unfortunate) that i’m not alone in that. So glad this was made.

I love that Anthony is also willing to open up to his guests (and his audience) about similar things he's experienced, without ever making it seem like he's trying to one-up them or making it about him.

I can understand Autumn so well, though our complex trauma is different: I am a survivor of a narcissistic mother and ill family system. But the idea of not feeling yourself, thinking that nobody will help you ever, you don't care, etc... It's super similar.

i find it so so sweet that anthony is doing everything in his power to make these people comfortable while also spreading information about these topics. he makes sure to get everyone on the spectrum,, sibling sexual assault,, sexual assault in men,, family issues,, abandonment issues,, abuse,, etc.. he even made sure to put their pronouns in their little intros. what a good person

Autumn seems so wonderful. When she was listening to Anthony, she was actually listening

I could be wrong here, but it's my experience that most people don't actually know what PTSD is. PTSD is rarely diagnosed if it hasn't negatively affected your life for more than six months. In those cases it is not yet considered a disorder. You have still been traumatised, it is still having an impact on your life, but either it "wasn't that bad" (obviously /all/ trauma is bad) or you are an incredibly resilient person. Also the way it is portrayed through mainstream media is dangerously misleading. You're traumatised? You must get violent when you have a flashback. You have PTSD? So are you going to kys, become an addict, a homeless person....? When my trauma response is triggered my first reaction is to try and escape that situation. Whether I can or I can't, either way I have a panic attack and cry hysterically, sometimes for over an hour. I can't stop it, because I was never allowed to cry during my trauma, or even after it. I'm not allowed to bring it up with family, not allowed to let my abuser know what they did and how it has affected me - this one because, and here I quote, "she didn't mean it". Minimisation, invalidation and gaslighting can be just as traumatising as the original event/s. My trauma started more than 25 years ago, and like many people I was traumatised by many people in many contexts, and I had nobody around me who could recognise what was going on. I've had 6 years of therapy and my PTSD is still at the point where all it takes is a few bad days where I feel completely out of control and helpless for the s/cidal thoughts to come back. I honestly believe that if someone had noticed and if I had been given the right help early enough that I wouldn't have PTSD now. I would still have trauma responses sure, but not full PTSD.

As someone with PTSD the biggest misconception I’m faced with all the time is that when it comes to PTSD from abuse. People usually only think you can get PTSD from physical abuse when really emotional and mental abuse can also give you PTSD. It shocks me now that Im diagnosed just how many people in my life doubted me when I brought up the concerns I had about possibly having PTSD solely because what I went through wasn’t physical.

“You’re not broken enough, I don’t need to see you” literally happened to me, so yes, it unfortunately does happen

I remember the first repressed memory I ever had lol I shot up in bed from my sleeping position and just like gasped like "wait a minute". I had just gotten into bed and just laid down when all of a sudden the memory hit me like a brick wall and I was like "how did I make myself forget about that? I was so upset when it happened and I remember every single tiny detail...why did I not think of this often?" etc etc. It's just like memories your brain pushed to the background so that you don't have to deal with them.

My trauma made me hypersexual even before puberty so I never thought I had ptsd, but I also struggled with Eating Disorders and my body being too feminine and feeling horrible about how I look and I realised that it was all connected. It comes out in different ways for different people

i'm so glad to see someone who didnt have a single, clearly defined traumatic EVENT happen to them. just like autumn, my trauma was like a frog sitting in a slowly boiling pot. my mom neglected me, made me feel like a burden, made it clear that i didnt matter to her and she would rather not have to care for me - all while i was under 15 yrs. then as i grew into a young adult she started to resent me even more and became violent and made me feel like i needed to leave or get a job to support her all while not having the support a normal teen should have when entering their first job which should be for FUN/saving toward a car or other personal item. i wasnt taught how to get a job or drive or apply to college or any of the life skills you need when entering adulthood and instead when i turned 18 the cord was cut on me emotionally, physically, and financially as if they threw me into a pool without teaching me how to swim and ON TOP OF THAT my mom my got a shitty bf and brought him, a formerly incarcerated man who we had no idea what he was in prison for, into our home (roach-infested motel room) and he drugged her and started sex trafficking her from our front room. i had to take care of my then 11 yr old brother, feeding him, making sure he had clean clothes for school, while navigating my first year of college virtually ALONE. i'm lucky her shitty bf didnt target me as well. I was staying up until 3am guarding my brother while he slept and my mom was raped in the room next to us on a nightly basis. i would fall asleep with the pillow over my ears to try to drown out the sound of the men's bodies slapping against my mom. then waking up at 6am to take public transit for 2 hrs to get to school. and i think the reason this all affected me so poorly where i didnt feel empowered to get a job or move out. is because I was so sheltered as a child before HS that I didnt understand fully what was happening (i didnt know he was bringing men in to have sex with her. i thought he was just railing her every night) my mom has been depressed for my entire life but she had bouts during my childhood where she was extremely attentive and loving and then BOOM depressive episode where she would ignore me, not get me ready/take me to school. i would just try to survive during those depressive episodes hoping she would snap out of it and act normal again. but i never fully understood what was going on, i just felt desperately reliant on her only for everything to result in her hating and ignoring me for good once i became a teenager. i have diagnosed PTSD but i never hear of people's stories like mine where the trauma was slowly happening over the course of your life then a giant traumatic event happens where you dont feel at all prepared to cope afterward because of neglect and emotional ineptness.

I have ptsd, and many mental illnesses, so knowing people are like me really helps❤️

You should do one on survivors of narcissistic abuse. There are still so many people unaware that they are in narcissistic relationships and it can honestly save lives

i did multiple papers for school on the link between ptsd and chronic pain and it's a lot more connected than people realize. as someone who has ptsd and fibromyalgia it helped me figure out that i need to take care of my brain FOR my body and vice versa

Always loved getting a cold, because I had "an excuse" to rest. Learning to understand my body now, and giving myself permission to rest before I get sick

Hey Anthony! I'm Taylor, 21 from Sydney Australia and have absolutely loved watching your series. I noticed you haven't interviewed people who have Trichotillomania yet, 'trich' is a hair pulling disorder (it falls under the umbrella of body repetitive focused behaviors that are often linked to anxiety or depression) I started pulling my eyelashes out at just 6 years old due to stress and high anxiety, and have struggled through to my adulthood on different areas of my body (including my head and eyebrows) leaving me with patchy bald spots and no facial hair. Trichotillomania is a disorder that is under-represented in the media and people who have it are often deemed "crazy", in fact anyone who I have ever told in my personal life has never heard of it before. I didn't even understand my own disorder from the ages of 6 - 10 until my best friend at the time researched my symptoms online and SHE told me what it was. I was officially diagnosed at 12 years old, have seen many doctors/therapists and even a trich specialist (there is only 1 trich specialist in Sydney to give you an idea lol) and the only real "cure" is habit reversal training and cognitive behavioural therapy. As it is such an unknown disorder I believe bringing awareness to it on your show will help LOTS of people.

I have a terrible story someone with ptsd So they are my History teacher and they have ptsd from a school shorting she was in during highschool. She told us this bc we had a lock down drill and taught us how to use the anchormen ect. The next day, people made paper poppers( they make a loud noise, similar to a gunshot) and kept making them pop in class. I could see they were rlly struggling to stay calm and there was a look of terror in her eyes like they were remembering the trauma. I’ve never felt so bad for someone in my entire life.

Oh gosh I hate when people joke about having PTSD is so uncomfortable and it makes me sad, like they actually think is a joke? And if someone knows about PTSD, is a constant fight or flight mode, so sometimes is hard for me to process the conflicts cause I feel like either everyone is attacking me or I don't see the abuse cause I'm blind with the meaning the relationships have for me. So sad I didn't got choose to do this vid but at the same time happy that is been talked about and that the people you showed have kind of like the same trauma I have, is actually crazy to know there is more people that have been abuse by their sibling, it blow my mind away since I have never met anyone with this type of abuse happening to them. I'm glad they are ok enough to talk about. Thanks for putting this out there for everyone to see and in the most wonderful way as always.

Love how respectful Anthony is

As someone with PTSD this video is very bittersweet I’m glad I’m not alone in having this mental illness but I feel terrible that we’ve suffered awful things! You were all very brave to speak up and I hope everyone heals 🥺💕

I got diagnosed with PTSD due to childhood trauma and some abuse. It sucks so much. It got really bad when I moved in with my boyfriend. My work was stupid stressful and by getting away from my main trigger my work environment got even worse and someone repeatedly triggered my PTSD. I finally wen to therapy and after 6 or so sessions within less than a month I was told I either had to quit the job or admit myself into a hospital. Absolutely sucked because I worked so hard to get were I was but the people were so toxic. I quit and it was the best think I think I’ve ever done. My boyfriend soon to be husband is so understanding and supportive and I never have had that especially since my family is the source of my trauma and they laugh and tell me repeatedly I’m faking. I’ve had to cut family off so I could get myself to a better place.

Hearing other people have the uncontrollable triggers during sexual relations... really.. really helped. I feel so embarrassed thinking about how I'll be completely willing to engage in something with someone, but suddenly just be... sobbing. Panicking. I feel like I completely regress. It's disheartening because I'll feel like I do want that person, love them, but I just can't help but be tormented by the flashbacks and returning feelings.

I'm actually really relieved, to hear someone saying out loud that they're been abused by a family member, and breaking the stigma around it. I was sexually abused by my mother for around 10 years, and I still feel so much shame, and I'm absolutely terrified that others are gonna judge me (or just brush it off in general, which already hapened each time). I also don't know how to feel concerning about her, since I kinda dissociated her as "someone who would scare me" (even if I didn't quite understand why when I was younger), mixed with the image of a caring mom, and I'm absolutely terrified that I won't be believed again if I say what happened, mixed with the fact that.. While I'm literally seeing a therapist, I absolutely can't talk about what hapened because I'm somehow terrified my mom would get arrested or something, despite what happened (I'm 16, and waiting to be 18 yo since at that moment, then the law won't really considere me as "someone in danger") and the fact that no matter what, I just can't seem to forget it (I absolutely can't let anyone touch me (and in general, I either don't really trust others, or become really distant thinking absolutely everyone know, and that everyone hates me no matter the reason (like, someone being kind to me ? Nah, can't be real), my ocd (I've been diagnosed) with hands washing got worse etc., and I constantly feel like I'm back there). That's really ambivalent, which quite adds to the shame. Anyway, I'm sorry I got carried away, but.. I'm really really glad I saw people actually talking about it, it helps a bit hahah

i related to anthony's autoimmune disease story a ton, part of the reason i developed anorexia was to have my mental health acknowledged. if my family saw my physical health deteriorating, then that could potentially mean they'd start paying attention to my mental problems for once. it was a cry for help in a sense. the neuroses manifesting physically almost

My mother was physically abused by her parents, locked up in a small cup board in the attic, you name it, she has cptsd as well. It can happen because of so many reasons, big or small. I'm happy that you're bringing light to the subject.

On minimising/maximising others trauma: Trauma is not about what happened, it's about how your body processed it. Some things may seem bigger or smaller in comparison to your own trauma, but understand the incident itself has nothing to do with it.

This means so much to me. lots of people think of PTSD as something only veterans can have, but that's very untrue and as someone who looks about as far away from a veteran as possible, this video means SO much

I’m so glad you finally made a video on this! It’s amazing to hear other people’s stories and knowing other people know what you’re going through.. amazing.

Shaylena and Kenneth's stories were so important to hear, thank you so much for talking with them. Incest is so often made a joke or not talked about, people don't tend to realize how real and incredibly traumatic it is.